Choi Jiah

Chapter 12

She believed him. Believed what he said was true. That he would do anything in his power to protect her. Ji Su realized that she was holding herself back from asking for any help in fear what may happen to those that helped her. He was watching her waiting on a response. Before she could a flash of lighting and the lights went out as the thunder rumbled.

Ji Su froze. She felt Jungkook back away from her, and she reached out to grab him. He let out a chuckle. "I am going to find some flash lights and candles. Just stay there I will be back." She felt a kiss on her forehead before disappearing. She stayed there hearing him move around the kitchen opening cabinets. She felt him by her to place what she believed would be candles. With a flick of a lighter, Jungkook lite up a candle.

"Have you always carried a lighter?" the question she asked complete opposite of the serious conversation they paused.

"When I lived in the states some things were not going as planned so I picked up the habit of smoking. 6 months before I was to return, I quit. I have been smoke free for a year now. I just carry the lighter with me as remembrance of the time in my life." He shared with her while he lite the four candles that he found.

"Have you had an urge to smoke again?" She asked.

"The day I found out about your past and Jae." He glanced up at her, the flames shadow dancing on her face. Ji Su looked away. "If we are going to play the truth game, then answer my question. Why did you stay with him for so long?"

She looked back at him with wide eyes. No one, not even Mi Sun had the nerve to ask her this.

"I really don't know." That was the truth right there. She had no idea why she stay with him for long. "I think I stayed with him for the safety that seemed to radiate off him. Jae was never violated until this year. I really do not know what would make him turn out this way. He was a sweet caring guy that I saw my future with. Though that started to crack back in March with him nearly trying to kill me." She was shaking remembering that day. "That night I found out that I was pregnant. I was cooking his favorite meal and planned to tell him the happy news. However, I had my back towards him when he come home the last thing I remember before blacking out with him throwing the pregnancy tests at me and then pushing me up against the stove burning me. I blacked out when he lifted me and throw me into the coffee table." Ji Su did not notice the Jungkook was in front of her that same way before the lights when out. She was shaking that Jungkook took her hands and placed them inside his. "I have scars from that night. I just hide them with makeup." She confessed holding her gaze on their hands intwined.

Silence took over for a moment as both were processing on what was said. Ji Su was amazed that she was able to share about that night, with what little she remembered of it. She was still looking down at their hands when she felt Jungkook place his head on hers. She watched his hands leave hers and wrapped his arms around her, pulling her close to him. Something wet fell on his shirt. It took Ji Su some time to realize that she was crying.

She started to pull away from embarrassment of ruining his shirt even though he had multiple of the same color and shirt. "I am not letting you go. Just cry and let it out. I will hold you until you are done." She buried herself with in his chest and cried. Jungkook held on to her tighter.

An hour went by and Jungkook carried her to the couch still holding on to her while she let out endless tears. When she stopped, she laid next him, feeling embarrassed.

"Sorry for ruining your shirt." She sat up rubbing her eyes, the were puffy and swollen from the hour of crying. "I am a mess. She whispered to herself.

She felt him sit up next to her, "You may look like a mess but it's a beautiful mess." He kissed her cheek. "As for my shirt I have another one just like it. So, no worries about it." The storm seemed to drift away, but the lights in the cabin were still off. "Looks like we'll be sleeping in the dark." Jungkook stood up to stretched, exposing his v the was peeking out on his waist line.

Ji Su stood up giving the excused that was going to change into pajamas. He just shrugged and sat back down. She disappeared in the room that she was using. With the door closed something in her told her that wanted what he was willing to give her. Taking a deep breath, Ji Su changing into one of his damn oversize t-shirts. She went into her bathroom to make sure she was not a complete mess that would ruin this urge inside. With everything all good, she took a step and then another as she made her way out to him.

He found more candles and lite up the fire place. Pillows and blankets spread out on the floor. It seemed very romantic. Jungkook must have sensed her behind him. He turned to face her and that damn smirk of his was displayed on his face.

"Baby girl you're going to kill me every time I see you in one of my shirts." He spoke to her in a whisper.

"This is a nice set up you got here." She stated ignoring what he said as she walked by him brushing a hand across his chest.

"All for my girl." Man, he was a sweet talker and she liked that about him, maybe even loved that about him. "Figured we could chill out in front of the fire until the lights come back on. Though I doubt it because another storm in on the way." Ji Su nodded sitting down in front of the fire.

Jungkook sat down and embraced her from behind. This is what she wanted. Him holding her in front of the fire while a storm rages on in the distance. This was real.

"I want this," she used her hand to wave around in a circle. "To be real. You and me doing this right. No more urges to satisfy. We have dove to deep to swim back to the surface." There she confessed.

"Are you saying that we can dive deeper into the abyss as long as make it real?" he asked.

Ji Su turned around to face him sitting on her knees. "I want you. I am willing to give you all of me. Would you be willing to the same?" she asked him to look down at her hands.

Jungkook cupped her face lifting her head to make her look at him. "I am willing to do the same." He leaned in and kissed her. A sweet innocent kiss. Something about that kiss told her that this relationship was new, fresh. As if she was that teenager falling in love for the first time.

Ji Su sat up on her knees to move closer to him. Wrapping her arms around his neck as he pulled her closer against him. She broke that kiss and hugged him. Held him tight with a small thought that he would disappear.

"I'm not going any where Ji Su." He breathed hugging her back. She squeezed him tighter and then let him go. "What are you thinking about?" he asked her, brushing her hair out of her face.

"Well, if we plan to be honest, I am thinking about you undressing me and I displayed before as the flames shadows dance across my bare skin." After she said that she felt embarrassed right away.

"My baby girl is turning into a bad girl with those thoughts." He commented. "I am thinking about doing some naughty things do you right here on the floor. Must be the lack of physical touch on both ends."

Ji Su took a deep breath. "I know this may be overrated, but I…I…love you Jungkook. I think I have been in love with you since that night." There she said it. Told him how see felt and she knew he felt the same way, but she hoped he would say it aloud for her.

"Well, my love, I love you too. I knew that i would that night you walked in the bar." He let go of her and started to dig into his left jean pocket. "The day of movie night, I went to the store to grab things and I happened to walk by the jewelry counter. I saw this," he pulls out a necklace, "and thought of you. It is a dream catcher for all the dreams you want to achieve in this life time."

She lifted a hand to touch it in a delicate manner, in fear it may break. There was small dream catcher with nothing else with it. It was simple and glamorous at the same time.

"I love it." She breathed. Jungkook motion for her the turn around that way he could put it on her. His fingers were warm to the touch, but the necklace was cool. Once the necklace was clasped into place, he kissed her neck. She felt his lips trace from the column of her neck up to her ear and then back down to her shoulder. She turned back around to face him. She made the move to straddle him, and he welcome it. The over large shirt she was wearing hiked up exposing her thighs. His hands seem to find a home there with his thumbs lazily rubbing up and down. Her hands were around his neck and her fingers were playing within his hair. She watched as his eyes went from a sold brown to melted chocolate.

"You keep doing that sweet girl I will combust before I have a chance to plug into you." He growled at her in a deep voice.

Ji Su smirked, "So I should keep doing this then." Her fingers went from his hair down to his neck. She felt him shuddered under her touch.

His thumbs traveled up the hem of the shirt, traveling up, up, and up exposing her lacey underwear, in his favorite color: black. "I am doing my best to hold onto myself control to not lay you on the floor and have my way with you."

"Well, let go of that control and take me, it's been three four weeks since we did anything physical." She counted with him. Feeling those hands of his tug on her waist band. "Or did you forget how to do things? If so I, could you know help." She started to tease him as her hands ran down the front of his shirt and stopping at his hem.

He lean forward a kissed each side of her cheeks, travel along her jawline, nibbling on each earlobe, and doing this once more before stopping at an ear to whisper, "Tell me what you want Ji Su."

"You, all of you." She whispered back.

In one swift motion her shirt was off exposing that bareness of her chest as her nipples peeked when the cool air brushed against them. She did not give him much time to ogle her as she ripped his shirt off. Throwing his shirt somewhere like he did with hers. Her hands landed on his chest as she traced every line and muscle that was displayed. She knew he was watching her, and he was enjoying. Jungkook had this obsession when it came to her touching him. However, he did not want to watch her. He lifted her up and laid her on the floor.

He hovered over her kissing her lips, down her neck, to her collarbone, between her breast, and moving further south. Every kiss he placed on her felt like a brand on her skin. He seemed to know what he was doing because she felt him smirk. Ji Su felt his fingers at the hem of her underwear slowly come off. Soon his lips marked both of her hips and then moved to her inner thighs. While he did this, he brushed his tongue across her core. A moan escape her and with that seemed to be his undoing. He sat up to undo his pants and slide them off, exposing his length. Every time Ji Su saw his length the power of it inside her sparked.

"Baby girl I want to make this memorable and go slow, but I don't know if I can." He admitted lowing himself.

"I don't want you to." As if she gave him permission, he settled his length against her opening. Ji Su wrapped her legs around him right when he plunged into her.

One hard thrust and then another and the another. Teasing her with each thrust. Each hard, powerful, slow. He was doing this to bring her the to edge and then stopping before her release. She wanted more, more, more, and he was being wicked on watching her unravel before him.

"More." She breathed.

"More of me inside or more this torment?" he asked as dipped head to bring his lips to her breast. His teeth gazed her nipple making her catch her breath. He was enjoying this way too much, it excited him.

"You, I want more of you." She pleaded with him.

All his self-control seem to escape his grasp as his hips thrusted into her harder and faster. Her hands wrapped around his neck dragging her nails along his back. She could feel that she was close, she could feel it as her core wrapped around his length. He grunted as if he knew she would come at any moment with each thrust he plunged into her. He slowed his thrusting and he shifted positions. He on his back and Ji Su riding him. Now she was in control. She rode him slow at first to get familiar with this new position. Once she was comfortable, she bounce up and down with the wet sounds on him inside her echo with in the room. Something about that sound aroused her and Jungkook. It was not long before he stopped her and rolled both to the side as he wasted no time to plug deep within her. He quickened his speed and grunted and moaned. He was going to come and instead of him pulling out she wanted him inside her.

"Come in me." Was all she said when he thrust in her one last time inside her, making her come along with him.

The fire was diming down where the room was almost swallowed within the darkness shadow. Ji Su and Jungkook laid there drawing lazy circles on each other. Down her spine and around his chest. Ji Su found it entertaining for herself when she trace around his chest tattoo down to his impressive six pack.

Ji Su sat up and glanced at the fire dying down. "I guess we could put more wood into the fire since its dying." She whispered.

She felt him move as the blanket that was covering both fall to her waist. His lips met her shoulder. "There is no need. Sunrise is maybe an hour away maybe more." He traveled with his lips up from her shoulder to the base of her neck and then spoke. "If you are cold, I am sure I could find ways to warm you up."

Ji Su turned to face him seeing the gleam in his eye in hopes she would take his offer. She said nothing but kissed him on his lips. A sweet deep kiss that left them breathless when they pulled away.

"I want to go and watch the sunrise. I have wanting to do that the past few days, but I am always late on getting up to go see." She blushed from her confession of being lazy.

"There is nothing wrong with wanting to sleep in. We could go and stay out there if you like. However, when we get back, I have many plans for you that you will be begging me for sleep."

She kissed him and again and stood up. "I will take that challenge. Who is to say you will be the one begging me?" She started to her room before he had the chance to chase after her.

Jungkook leaned back rubbing at his face. He felt like the luckiest guy in the world right now. He finally got the girl of his dreams. She was not perfect nor was she innocent. She had her flaws, talents, and dreams. That is what made Ji Su unique to him and she was him. The only struggle that she had was sharing all the things she would bottle inside, but that has never stopped him from loving her.

While he waited, Jungkook stood up and went treasure hunting for his clothes. Once his pants were on and he found his shirt, Ji Su walked out in black leggings, a crop top tank, and his plaid long sleeve that he brought with him yesterday. Her hair was up in a high ponytail showing off all those calming marks of his on her skin. She wore no makeup and that is what he like most of all. She was beautiful standing there.

"I think that is my shirt." He started putting his on and smirked. The shirt he grab was his, but it was the one that she wore. It smelt like her.

"I'm sure you could spare it for a few minutes." She met him half way, wrapping her arms around him.

"I guess but I may have to start charging you for all the shirts that you have captured for your own." He teased her.

She struggled her shoulders. "I could just make duplicates and clam them as yours and you would know it." She stood on her tip toes and kissed him. Her intention was a swift sweet kiss, but he deepen the kiss making her moan in his mouth. She pulled away, breathless, "We will miss the sunrise if we continue to kiss like that. Hell, I do not think we will make out of this cabin before its time to leave." She commented with a small giggle.

"I guess we should go and not keep the sun waiting." He took her hand and led the way to the beach.

The darkness in the sky started to recede when the sun was just peeking from the horizon. They sat down with her in his lap and him wrapped around her keeping her warm. Though he was the one cold which made her laugh. She did not know how she would be able to go back to her life in Seoul when where she was at right now was where she wanted to be. Ji Su realized this was home. He was her home that she could go to no matter where the two of them were at on this Earth.

She snuggled in closer to him as the sun was slowly working its way up to make an appearance. He nestled his nose at the base of her shoulder and neck. Placing gentle kisses there.

"A penny for your thoughts?" he asked.

"Home, you are my home." She confessed.

"I'm glad we both think the same." He stated holding her tighter. "I wanted to ask you this. So, do not answer if you do not want to. When you found out you were pregnant what were your thoughts?"

Ji Su sat there compiling her thoughts. What did see feel when she saw the positive signs on all three sticks. Was it joy? Sadness? Anger? Or fear? She was not quite sure how to answer him.

"You do not have to share. I was just being curious." He told her.

"No, I want to share but in truth I do not know how I truly felt or really thought. I know for one thing was that if he chose to not support me and the child then I would have left then to raise the child. Mi Sun told me after the whole ordeal that if I were still with child then she would have helped me raise the child. We would do it together." She took a deep breath and then said. "That night has not stopped me from wanting children in the future. When that day comes, I will accept it. And love that child unconditionally."

"I hope I will be the father of these future children."

"You are but right now I just want you and you only. I do not want to share you with anybody right now." She turned her head to face him as she spoke. He smirked and leaned down to kiss her right when the sun rose from the horizon.

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