JPOV
I smiled as I looked at the photo again.
I remembered the first time I had seen Bella on the first day of our post grad. She was a very plain looking girl, but she was really smart, that's why she got my attention. We had become really good friends, because I really liked smart girls. But I wished I could understand her feelings for me earlier.
"It's too late now."
That was the text she had sent me.
Damn! Why did I have to make this so complex? Why did I hurt her so much?
But I knew she was saying this because she was afraid of hurting Edward's feelings. I knew she still loved me. I mean, she had always loved me. I hoped Edward could understand our situation and make it easier for us.
He always cared for her, right? I was sure he'd be able to understand it.
"You hit her... You smashed her head into the wall. How dare you?" Edward was fuming. I had known him since we were three and this was the first time I had seen him in such an anger.
He was surreal. Instead of trying to understand what had happened, he was here to fight with me.
"You don't know anything." I said.
"And I don't want to. You had no right to hit her like that." he was shouting.
"You know I'm not in the right state of mind nowadays, but she was fine. And yet, she slept with me. How could she betray her late sister like this?"
She was disgusting. I was ashamed of myself, but I was disgusted by her.
"My question still remains the same. How can you hit her like that?" he repeated.
I didn't want to hit her, but I couldn't help myself.
"Why do you care so much? Why are you meddling in our matter? Who is she to you?" I asked.
"She's... She's my friend." he said.
"Well, if you're so concerned about her, just go and fuck her to make her feel better. I'm sure she'll be glad to do it. She's a slut."
"You're disgusting." he said and punched me on my face.
"Oh, so the advocate of anti-physical violence just punched me." I laughed.
I wasn't in the right state of my mind when I had said those things, but I couldn't believe they had actually got married just six months after that!
To be honest, I was really shocked when that happened. I mean, how could they do it? I wasn't sure, because it was really difficult to gauge what's going on in Edward's mind, but there was a possibility that he might always have a soft corner for her.
But their marriage had triggered something in me. It took me another three months after their marriage to figure out my feelings, but finally I realized that I also loved her.
I was afraid I was too late, until I started to figure out something from what I saw in the few social events that we had attended. They didn't seem to be a normal couple to me. It's like they had some kind arrangement.
So now there were two options. First, Bella and Edward stayed married. Everyone would be miserable this way. Nobody would get the love they deserved.
Second, they get divorced, and Bella and I get another chance. Everyone would be perfectly happy in this case. I mean, Edward also deserved someone who truly loved him, right?
I could see which option would be better for everyone. I hoped they could also see it.