BPOV
I was feeling numb ever since Edward had said he wanted a divorce.
When we had decided to get married, I had a feeling that there was a very high possibility that he'd get fed up of me some day, but I thought things were changing between us. Were they not? Was I living in a delusion? Had I not tried enough?
Was he saying this just because Jasper had told him something? I should try to clarify. But it seemed he didn't want to hear anything. It's like he decided that he didn't want this anymore.
"How does this dress look for Sunday?" I received a text from Rosalie, Edward's younger sister. We became pretty good friends in a short duration.
Suddenly I began feeling worse. Ending this marriage meant that I was going to lose not only Edward, but also his family. I had just begun to know them, and I already loved them!
"Or this?" Rosalie sent another photo.
No, I shouldn't give up so easily.
"So I mean, what are the next steps? How do you want to proceed with the divorce?" I went to Edward' room and asked him. He said that he wanted a divorce, but that's it. What were the next steps in his mind? I had to know this. I wanted to save this marriage, but was he willing to try?
"I... I need to think about it." he said.
Okay, so he said he wanted to get a divorce, but he didn't have any plan regarding it! Did he come up with that just impulsively?
"Ummm okay... We'll figure that out I guess," I said.
"Yeah... Yeah... I guess so," he said.
"It's your parents' anniversary party this Sunday, remember?" I asked.
"Oh, I totally forgot about that!" he said.
"Maybe we should tell everyone after that. I mean, we shouldn't spoil fun for everyone." I said.
He thought for a few seconds before he said, "Okay."
"Sounds good then," I said.
"Ummm Bella... Can I say something?" he said.
"Hmm..." I nodded my head. Okay, please say that you didn't mean it when you said you want a divorce.
"Thank you for thinking about my parents, but you should stop thinking about everyone else all the time." he said, "It's okay to be selfish sometimes."
I wanted to laugh. I was being nothing but selfish here. I wanted to buy more time to figure out everything and somehow save our marriage.
"Okay, I'll think about it," I said.
"Thanks again for thinking about my parents," he smiled.
"Sure." I smiled back.