BPOV

'Heartbreak' wasn't anything new to me, but I wasn't sure why exactly I was feeling like I was going through one right now. The initial shock or whatever the heck that was, was all gone now. I was feeling some kind of emptiness right now.

It was slowly hitting me that what would this 'divorce' actually mean. I'd lose all new important members of my life - his family. I'd lose a good friend and a partner- Edward.

But it didn't seem to be a big deal to him, and it was breaking my heart unlike anything.

It's like he had decided I wasn't worth fighting for.

It's like he didn't care about losing me.

And he didn't like losing anything!

"Edward is the most arrogant and competitive guy I've ever met in my whole life," Jasper said.

"Shut up." Edward muttered. Jasper and Edward were childhood friends, and they were happy to be back in the same class together for the post graduation. They went to different grad schools and also got experiences in different states after completing their graduation, but now they were back to the same school, and they were my new batchmates.

I didn't know much about Edward, but I had an embarrassingly huge crush on Jasper. I was losing it! I was twenty three, but I was feeling like I was thirteen. But I couldn't help it! It's been hardly a few days since our post Grad has started, and I was totally enamored by him. Jasper Hale was the hottest guy I had ever seen!

I had joined the coding club and Edward was part of it, and I knew he was the smartest student of the batch, but that's about it. I didn't know anything else about him.

"Come on... I think Bella can beat you," Jasper said, "I've seen her coding skills. I think she can give you a tough competition."

I blushed at hearing the compliment from him. What was fucking wrong with me!

"Yes, it'd be really fun to see you guys compete." Angela chimed in.

Edward shook his head and continued typing something in his laptop.

"C'mon... It'd be fun," Jasper said, "You're in, right Bella?"

"Umm... Yeah, sure," I said, but I wasn't feeling confident. What if Edward actually beat me at the coding competition? It'd be embarrassing to lose in front of Jasper.

But what if I won? He'd be really impressed with me!

"Okay, I'm in, too." Edward shrugged his shoulders.

We decided to take an hour-long contest, and well... I actually won!

"I can't believe you actually beat Edward. Damn, you're smart! I'm impressed," Jasper said, and I blushed, again!

Edward was still staring at his laptop in disbelief. Then he adjusted his glasses, looked at me, looked at his laptop again, adjusted his glasses again, looked at me and said, "Nice one! But I've to admit you really got lucky there."

"Lucky?" I raised my eyebrow. I'd love to know how exactly I got lucky in the fucking coding contest where everything was about using your fucking brain and using your logical skills.

"Edward, come on now..." Jasper laughed out loud. Damn, he looked even hotter when he laughed! "Just accept it. Bella beat you there fair and square."

"I'm not kidding," he said as he looked at his laptop again, "Something is wrong with my keyboard. Certain keys are not working properly. I think I might need to change my laptop soon."

I stared at him with disbelief. He was kidding, right? This was the most absurd sore loser argument I had ever heard.

"But still, I'll give you the credit for beating me," he said, but it was written on the face that it was killing him!

I chuckled as I remembered that. His reaction from that day had never failed to make me laugh. He was such a sore loser! Till this day, he's adamant that something was wrong with the keyboard of his laptop! But sadly, that was the last time I had ever beaten him at any contest at the university. Jasper was right - He was way too competitive!

He could still be competitive at times. I remembered the look on his face when Rosalie beat him at the board game last month.

Why was he giving up so easily on our marriage then?

I knew I was making an absurd comparison, but didn't he care about losing me?

Did he really not want me?

Did he think that we had got married in haste and it was a mistake?

Did he want to get rid of me?

Didn't he care about me at all?

Wasn't I worth fighting for?