EPOV

"That's how it started last time I guess."

Why did I tell her that?

Why did I hurt her, especially by mentioning something that she had regretted so much?

If she was happy with Jasper, who was I to stop her?

Didn't I also try to interfere last time, and she had hated me for that?

But wasn't it a completely different situation now? Wasn't I her fucking husband now?

I had to laugh. The on-paper husband. Did that even mean anything?

"How could you go to Jasper and punch him?" She was shouting, "Now he thinks that I had sent you to him which is not true. He thinks I've shared our intimate details with you which is not true..."

I was shocked. What kind of brainwashing was he doing? And what was wrong with her to believe everything he said?

"I slept with him... I slept with my dead sister's boyfriend. I should have stopped, but I couldn't."

Yes, however badly it was hurting me, I could still live with it, but not with the fact that he had harmed her.

"Why are you trying to interfere in Jasper and my matter?"

"He hit you, Bella. Do you even realize what it means?"

"Because I deserve it," she said.

What was wrong with her? How could someone so smart be so stupid?

"No, you don't." I snapped, "Nobody deserves this. Do you even see your face in the mirror? Do you see what he has done to you?"

"You don't know anything," she said, "He has every right to be mad at me. And, I honestly want to know why are you interfering so much?"

Because I love you, damn it! And I can't see you like this, I wanted to shout.

"You're my friend, Bella, and you're hurt," was all I said.

"And is he not your friend?" she snapped back, "Do you know the state of his mind right now? He's feeling horrible for betraying Alice. It's killing him! I should have stopped, but I couldn't." Tears started rolling down her cheeks, "He's completely right. I'm a characterless woman who doesn't care about betraying her dead sister. What's wrong if he had hit me? I deserve it!"

"Bella..." was all I could say. I was speechless. I couldn't see her like this.

"Can you do me a favor?" she asked, "Stay away from Jasper and my private matter. Stop meddling! It's none of your business!"

"You need to wake up. You need to understand that this is not okay," I said as I looked at her face again. It was killing me!

"I think Jasper is right," she said, "I think you're doing this because you want to sleep with me by gaining my trust. And just because I slept with Jasper, you also think I'm a slut!"

I was too shocked to say anything.

"But let me be clear about this," she said, "That's never going to happen."

Wasn't she always clear that Jasper was the one who mattered to her the most no matter what he did? And now, finally he loved her, too. Why did I have to hurt her by mentioning whatever the hell had happened in the past?

It's time for me to understand that nothing I tried was ever going to be enough. I'd never be enough.

This marriage was a huge mistake. It's better to end it as soon as possible, because I was afraid that what I said today was just the beginning. I was afraid that I'd tell her more hurtful things in future. I always thought that I could never hurt her, but I didn't believe in myself after what I said today.

And she didn't deserve any of that.

She deserved to be happy. If it meant that I had to let her go, then well, I'd let her go.