"Colette… are you sure this is even the right way?"

Having never been out of Iselia her entire life, Colette didn't know much about the world or which road led to where – especially to Triet. She sighed within the desert heat. The clothes she wore were different from her usual outfit for school, made of thicker material, with hidden compartments to sheathe away her chakrams. But it was doing her no favors in this sandy place where the sun beat down relentlessly.

"I… I'm not sure. Not anymore, I guess. I'm sorry, Genis."

Genis sighed too, but out of exasperation. "You really don't need to apologize… We probably should have brought a map before we left."

"But, that nice caravan family pointed us to here! I don't think they would lie to us.."

Genis shrugged. "I know. I'm just saying maybe we shouldn't have rushed."

There were a million things Colette could have argued on why they had to rush, but, she kept them to herself. She pulled at her shirt which was getting sticky with sweat, and she checked to see that her chakrams were indeed still on her.

Lloyd had left Iselia the other day. It had been so sudden, before she had time to prepare. Even Raine had not given her any indication that they would leave so soon. Or maybe that was the reason she hadn't said anything…

"But it is weird, isn't it?" Genis said aloud, following Colette still. "Lloyd and sis just leaving in the night like that."

Colette wanted to say what she knew, but Lloyd had kept it a secret for a reason. She didn't feel comfortable revealing it. Not yet at least. "Yeah," she simply agreed. "They must have had to go right away."

"…And Lloyd said you were supposed to go?"

"Uh huh!" She nodded, then giggled. A little difficult with how hot it was, but she managed. "I already told you that, Genis!"

"Yeah… I know." His tone was low, unconvinced, or really, it could have just been the heat. "Well, sis was obviously supposed to bring me along too. Her and Lloyd really don't pay attention to things sometimes."

Colette inwardly sighed, feeling relieved. That was why Genis overlooked her obvious lie – he had one of his own. The people most important to them have left them alone, so there was no choice but to follow. Even if they were probably lost, and very, very dehydrated.

But I have to keep going, she thought to herself. As she plodded through the sands, she felt a familiar weight hitting her chest. She had not taken off the necklace ever since Lloyd first gave it to her a month ago. Then before his birthday had even come, the Church said he had already gone on his journey.

Colette fervently wanted to be with him, and with barely a word to her family, she had gone, leaving them a letter instead. She hoped her father and grandmother could forgive her.

"Oh! Is that it?" Genis was saying, and though still dizzy with heat, Colette was able to understand what he meant. Because just ahead was a walled city, standing so far apart from the sandy dunes. There were the figures of people walking by its entrance, and before she knew it, Colette was hurrying towards it. Any worries about maybe being a mirage from the desert did not cross her mind.

She heard Genis shouting after her, also giving chase, but she had to find Lloyd. Each day before he left, she had thought about telling him so many things. She knew she wouldn't be able to live with herself if he had gone and then finished his journey. Once she entered Triet, the amount of market stalls were new to her! People in turbans shifted past her, not minding this pale girl with the light-colored hair. She started to walk off in a random direction, hoping to ask someone if they had seen… the Chosen around. She would have to call him that if they were-

"Lloyd!" she shouted, finding him at the edge of her vision. She hadn't expected him so soon, seeing the boy to the far side of the plaza, trying to usher in a whining Noishe in one of the stables. He was already looking exhausted doing so. He still had on his new outfit, but now wore belts that held his weapons. She knew of them – it was why she had started using two of her own!

Colette grew excited, waving her arms to him. It took a moment before she saw Lloyd peer through the distance, and then his eyes widened. She started to go to him.

"Lloyd, I-!" And then she had tripped. She tripped so frantically that she had completely turned around, trying her best to avoid surprised passerby. Unfortunately, the only way to avoid them was to go straight into a wall.

She heard Lloyd shout her name back once she finally fell.

"You know… you need to be more careful."

Colette nodded silently as Lloyd pressed a small bandage on her forehead. It was only a minor scrape, that was what she usually got out of her falls. Although the stall she had fallen into had not been so lucky.

Once Colette had gotten out of the rubble, Lloyd had been rushing to her, eyes wide with surprise. The owner of the stall had been furious, seeing a Colette-shaped wall in his property… until Lloyd tried to calm the man down. There had been murmurs and stutters of the boy being the Chosen.

"Uh, yeah? That's me," Lloyd said, still trying to placate the man. "Anyway, she didn't mean it! Colette just-"

"But why would such a hole be important to the Chosen?" the owner had continued. That had given Lloyd pause, slow in understanding, but then recovering quickly enough to avoid any further trouble.

"Because… it's an important Church.. landmark?" Lloyd had winced at his own explanation, but no one seemed to notice besides Colette. "Yeah! To mark my pilgrimage… and junk. I, uh, I bless this thing!" He patted against the mark perfectly shaped like Colette's falling body – the imprint of her arms raised high to try and avoid the inevitable. "It's really important! It was made by my companion on the journey! So don't be mad at her or… risk the wrath of Martel! Wait, is that right…?"

Yet even with Lloyd's shaky explanations, that had been enough to send the crowd surrounding them into gasps of wonder. Soon people were touching the hole in the wall, now blessed by the Chosen, and that was when Lloyd took Colette's hand and got them out of there fast.

She had seen Genis with a frowning Raine earlier, and wondered dimly if she had only gotten both herself and her friend in trouble. "I'm sorry," she said, still seated on the chair.

"What? No, it's fine! Someone would have tripped there sooner or later!" Lloyd had taken her into his room at the inn, worried about any injuries she may have had. "It's not too bad. Just I guess the Professor should see later and then we can get someone to take you home-"

She knew he had been about to suggest that, and took his hands, gripping them tight. "I'm staying with you, Lloyd."

She had expected a lot of reactions from Lloyd. Surprised at her determination, confused at why she would do so, and maybe even happy that she would go to him. But she didn't expect the silence that followed suddenly. He didn't grip her hands back.

Colette floundered for a moment, then instinctively reached for the necklace he gave her. It was hidden underneath her shirt, but she pulled it out, both to be reassured as well as to show him. "I want to help protect my friend on his journey… I've wanted to for a long time! My friend who makes wonderful things like this, and who's always been kind to me. If I can just repay it back-"

"Colette, I didn't ask you to come with me."

She stopped, surprised by the sharpness in his voice. Lloyd blinked, then looked to the side.

"Lloyd, um…"

"I would have told you if I wanted-" He bit his lip, then sighed. "This journey is supposed to be dangerous."

Colette also looked away. "I know. That's why I had to come." A pause. "You're mad at me."

Lloyd dug a hand through his hair. "I'm… Just a little." He sighed. "I didn't want you to go through this too."

Colette tried to search for a correct response. The best she could come up with, "Now you don't have to be alone with it."

"I have the Professor with me! Why do you-"

She gripped his hands tight, tight enough for the both of them. "I want to stay by your side, Lloyd! As.. my friend. And… I can help you. I won't be a burden, I promise."

"I didn't… I didn't say you would be." She felt him finally hold her hands, at least slightly. "But it would be dangerous, I told you. You don't even have an Exsphere or anything like it to-"

"I do!" Colette said suddenly. She calmed after. "I mean, I do. Look, it's…" She rolled up the sleeve covering her right arm and some of her hand, showing a small key crest just above her wrist. It glinted blue, inlaid with polished metal. "I've been using this so I can fight off the monsters better."

Lloyd looked at her Exsphere with complete surprise. "When did you get that?" Exspheres were not common to come by – it was mainly used by Desians or mercenaries.

"I… Dirk made me one. I saw him a while back and asked him if he could make me something. I told him I wanted to help you and he seemed really happy to do it."

"…So.. he just had Exspheres lying around? He never told me!"

Colette blinked. "Oh. He said he'd been carrying one around for a long time.. It was the only one he had. I didn't… ask him for an Exsphere exactly. Just if he had something that could help me."

Lloyd continued to look surprised, confused, and a little betrayed. "But where would he just find one?" he asked, mainly to himself.

Colette wasn't thinking about that now. She rolled down her sleeve, looking to Lloyd sternly. "I want to stay. And I know I can help you. So… please don't turn me away."

She saw him continue to struggle with his decision. His hands still held hers, a thumb rubbing across her palm. That somber look that she had seen Lloyd have lately – it was there again. There was once a time she didn't know what would cause such a look in him.

He sighed again, but then small laughter left his throat. "Geez, Colette, you're more stubborn than me." He raised his head to her with a smile, even though it looked a bit sad still. She held his hands tighter in comfort.

"So, does that mean I can stay?"

"You'd just come back, I bet. You and Genis. I definitely didn't expect him though!" He grinned wide then. "Missed his bestest friend, huh?"

Colette giggled, loving that grin of his. It was so rare now. "Well, he did say he missed Professor Sage…"

"Hey! What about me though?"

"It's okay! I'll miss you enough for the both of us!"

She wondered then, if that was a poor choice of words but Lloyd was still smiling. He even laughed.

"Heh, actually, um… does that mean Genis will be cooking for us now? The Professor keeps… wanting to do that lately." Lloyd shuddered. "I could barely get through the first week."

Oh no. Colette remembered the times their teacher had made the school lunch a few times. She giggled at Lloyd's look. "I'm so sorry, Lloyd. I really am!" But she couldn't stop laughing.

He smiled at that, even as he mocked sighed. "Are you making fun of me? Imagine the Chosen failing the journey because of indigestion. That's embarrassing!"

It only made her giggle more, and soon Lloyd was laughing with her again.

Colette hoped she could keep him laughing throughout this journey.

Before Colette had left Iselia, she had decided to not mention what she knew to Lloyd. Even as she went over the knowledge in her head, searching for other ways, she knew it was not her place to say. But she could never fight off the feeling of wanting to be with him still. Once they had fought the guardian in the Fire Seal, she believed she could be useful while also being selfish.

A Chosen needed protectors, and she could even feel Raine's gratefulness in having an extra pair of hands helping keep Lloyd from danger. He did run into monsters an awful lot…

Then Lloyd had nearly collapsed on the sands. She had never seen him so pale.

"Lloyd!" She caught him around the shoulders, and then he had just… kept slipping through her arms, making her hold on tighter. "Lloyd! Lloyd, wake up!"

"Wh…what?" He blinked dazedly at worried faces, leaning into Colette's hold. "I was just… taking a nap."

Genis' expression went from worried to annoyed. "Are you serious?"

"Lloyd, how long have you been feeling faint?" Raine walked up to him, gripping her staff tight. "We may need to take you to a doctor."

"I.. I'm fine! It's fine!" Lloyd stood up again, gently moving away from Colette's arms. "It's just…the trial… I guess?"

Colette noted how quiet his voice had gotten then.

Raine was considering. "If that's so… then we should at least make camp and let you rest. There's an oasis not too far ahead. Genis, get started on dinner when we get there. Colette, please keep an eye on him."

Lloyd stared at his Professor with some irritation. "I told you I'm fine. I'm not gonna run off!" Still, his voice was low.

But Colette knew there was something wrong.

After settling for the night, Lloyd had wanted to walk, and Colette hoped her presence wasn't annoying him. But he seemed happy to have her near. They sat on the cool sands, the stars as outstretched as ever in the desert. Maybe they could find the same constellations here, too?

"Hey! Wanna see them again?" he asked her with a grin.

Colette's smile must have been obvious, because Lloyd already summoned his wings. Great things that unfurled from his back in a great shift of azure light. Just like they had back in the Fire Seal. They framed him in a beautiful way that she wished she could say aloud without making it sound weird.

"That's so cool!" she said, clasping her hands.

"Heh, yeah. Although…it's kinda hard to get used to these."

Colette tilted her head at him. "Your wings?"

He shrugged. "Yeah. I mean, they really do look cool! But… they're kinda big, aren't they?"

The night made his wings appear that much brighter. They were so much like a bird's wings, nearly as large as Lloyd was tall. Colette was seated on his right side, and his right wing was curled around them both. She had been tempted to reach out to them, wondering if that glow would make sensations across her skin.

He shrugged. "I guess this is just what it means to be an angel or something."

Colette pressed her lips together, not saying anything at first. She still remembered when Lloyd had paled, falling to his knees, and not responding to her at all…

"Well, you're still you, Lloyd. Just with wings!" Maybe there were better ways to say it, but she had never been as good with talking as he was. "And…" She risked something here, but she continued. "Even if you're an angel, you don't have to like your wings."

Lloyd turned to her more fully. She could even feel the wind shift behind her, his wings flinching from his motion. "What?"

"I mean…" She tried again. "You don't have to like them. Because… it doesn't seem like you do." Nervously, she reached up to her necklace, its weight comforting. "I think it's okay to feel that. Or if you find them scary. I think I would, too." Especially after a fall like that.

Lloyd kept staring at her. Soon, his wings dissipated into nothing, leaving only floating feathers of azure that also evaporated into the air.

His gaze shifted back to the sands. "It probably seems dumb… I'm a Chosen and I can't stand the sight of my wings, heh." His voice was hollow.

She dared once more. "Then… why did you want to show them to me?"

Lloyd took a moment. "Because I have to get used to it. Also… it's easier with you, you know?"

She let go of her necklace to take his hand. Though she couldn't see the Cruxis Crystal he wore, hidden away by the high collar of his jacket, she could feel it there. Maybe Lloyd had wanted to hide it from himself too.

"It's okay, Lloyd."

"Hm.." he said, unable to say anything more. But she felt him grip her hand back.

Sometimes silence was all that was needed. They stayed that way for a while before going back to camp.

Colette was not always so clever, or smart, or so self-assured. She second guessed herself on so many things, that even when she met a young Lloyd back then, it was his bright smile that got her to talk to him. She hadn't even noticed at first that few others had talked to him either, that she had been one of the first friends he ever had.

But she never doubted she was Lloyd's friend. And she never doubted that he meant so, so much to her.

When he fell earlier today, the doubt about telling him what she knew was beginning to fade away.

"Lloyd? Why are you up?"

He was looking up at the sky, standing on a small rise. He always liked connecting the stars – and showing her how to do it as well. There was only him and her awake now, while Raine and Genis rested by the campfire. Even Noishe was sleeping peacefully, with barely a whine leaving his throat.

He turned as she went to him. "Oh, it's my turn to watch for the night, remember?" He smiled. "You should be sleeping though! It's pretty late."

The journey had been long and difficult, but it was what the Chosen had to endure – at least what Colette knew about it. Lloyd rarely talked about such things at all. Sometimes… the only way one could even tell he was a Chosen was at the seals, waiting for the angels to bless him. It was only then when he would look so different, but also so sad.

And each time, she could tell it was hard for Lloyd to hide that sadness.

"Lloyd… you collapsed today. Again. The Professor said you didn't need to do that now. I was supposed to take over…"

He blinked, then turned away. "It's okay. I feel a lot better now."

She hesitated. Sometimes he did this, trying to shut himself away. Sometimes, she would let him, but not tonight. She couldn't. "Lloyd, your hand. Is it feeling better?"

"Huh? Yeah.. yeah, it's fine!"

She reached for it before she could think to ask him. Because she had a feeling he would say no.

After the Wind Seal, Lloyd had been fainting faster, too. Enough that she couldn't catch him this time.

The scrape was deep in his palm, still bleeding a little. Looking at it made her own hand ache. "You didn't get this checked by the Professor."

He took his hand away from her quickly. "It's fine."

She shook her head. "It's… it's not, Lloyd. And you know that, don't you?"

He didn't say anything.

Colette reached for her necklace, the gift he had given her just a few weeks before he left. Its weight was a comfort that she held onto at night, and even during their fights against monsters, bandits and Desians, it had stayed strong. It was made by Lloyd who was strong himself, she knew. But even a strong person couldn't be…

"You're not eating much… and you haven't been sleeping either." Colette would sometimes wake and still find him staring up at the stars, all by himself. "Things aren't okay."

She felt cruel saying these things, but Lloyd could never lie so easy, not as well as he thought he could. And right now, no good lies were coming to him. He only looked away, eyes dark and his expression somber.

"Why are you…?" he started, but couldn't finish. Still, Colette needed to tell him more.

"Lloyd, I… know about what happens.. on the journey."

He turned back to her then. For a moment, she couldn't read his eyes at all. She had to fill the silence.

"This necklace you gave me. It's more than just a present… it was supposed to be a memento, wasn't it? But, I don't want it to be that. I really don't."

"You're… not supposed to-" Lloyd stopped, realizing his mistake. "I mean, that's not what…"

She moved closer to him, reaching for his hands again. She tried not to squeeze it tightly, even though she knew now he would not be able to feel a thing. "I… my grandmother knows a lot about the Church of Martel. She used to be a priestess actually. She never told me exactly, but her stories about other Chosen.. and the way you've been acting lately.."

Lloyd still wasn't looking at her. Afraid she was just making things worse, she started to release him again. "I want to be by your side. I don't want you to go away. I don't know how to stop that but... I had to at least be here."

Just as she let go, Lloyd went to embrace her. Like he had on the day he gave her the necklace, except so suddenly.

"Colette, I'm… I'm not doing okay. I'm not… They didn't tell me this would happen." He held her tighter. "Dad didn't tell me anything at all."

She held him back. "I'm sorry."

He shook. When he spoke, his voice was a little harsh, but she knew it wasn't aimed at her. "Why are you apologizing? It's not… it's never been your fault! I just can't.. handle this. I can't handle anything."

Colette pulled away so she could see him. With the way he spoke, she expected tears. But none fell from his eyes. So he couldn't… "I'll help you find another way. There has to be one. Because I don't want you to go." It sounded so childish, the way she said it. Still. "I don't want you to go."

Lloyd looked so sad and lost that she wished she could comfort him better. Lloyd pulled her back in his arms, pressing his forehead to hers. "I don't want to also. I just want to stay."

Maybe it was the sadness there that made her want to kiss him. She wished she'd have done it sooner. She had been tempted to on the day he gave her the necklace, but held herself back. She was afraid doing it now would be cruel if he couldn't feel it. But once her lips pressed against his, he kissed her back, fingers digging into her shoulders, desperation in his grip.

It had been fierce and deep. Lloyd pulled back with a little nervousness. "Um… I meant…"

Colette leaned in to take his lips again. Softer this time, finding ways to make him feel, at least perhaps a little. And maybe he could, in some way. Because he still held her so tightly, still tried to press against her mouth as much as he could.

I just want to stay, he had told her. Colette would find a way to make that happen.