My Punishment
They say that things happen for a reason, maybe they were right. I feel that every day that I am still here is my own punishment for what I have done. Because of me, many people suffered, and even now after so many years, people still suffer because of my actions.
I am not proud of what I did, but I don't regret it either. If I went back in time and did it all again, I wouldn't change a thing. I wouldn't change myself for anything, the only thing I wish would be able to see those who meant the most to me one last time. But that will never happen, it has been too many years since I have seen them, and they probably wouldn't even remember me if they were still around. They probably would still hate me.
Maybe I can speak out this time, maybe the next person to be chosen will hear me. Maybe I can change the fate of the person to come next. Maybe I can save him from a fate like mine. Maybe I will be able to meet him.
Maybe I can finally rest.
This was only part of my story, I know how my story ends and I know that even when you are not looking for forgiveness, it can still be found. It took me a long time to accept their forgiveness, but now, I am at peace. Some things happen for a reason, but other things happen because we make them happen. If it wasn't for that day, I wouldn't be sitting here, watching the future generation sleep soundly in their beds. My past is just as important as my present and future. The only way to learn how I got here is to look back on everything, will you join me on this journey?
What kind of question is that? We have been through so much already. Of course, I will be by your side for this journey as well.
Now that everything is finally in order, shall we begin?