I zipped up my suitcase and placed it by the entrance to my room, I turned and glanced around the room, the pale purple walls seemed bare now, I sighed before slowly walking over to the desk by the window, I glanced out to where mom and Phil were sat laughing by the BBQ that Phil had insisted on for 'my last night' as he had called it, i had phoned dad a while ago and he seemed excited about me returning tomorrow, said he and Bella he redecorated my old room and even said he was going to cook as a special treat tomorrow night, i smiled at the thought of Bella having to save the day to stop dad burning the house down, i would be lying if i said i wasn't looking forward to seeing dad again, Bella and me were polar opposites when we were younger, Bella was all for the warm sun and living in Jacksonville, where as me i loved the rain, and the forrest and counted down the summers till i got to spend time with dad.

I knew mom didn't mean any harm by the forced move back to Forks, she knew the only way to get me to go was use dad against me, i felt so bad after i left i didn't leave my room for three weeks, it was the guilt of just leaving, i knew neither mom or dad could never understand what drove me to leave, they would probably have my tested for insanity if i told them the fact my boyfriend and his family who were vegetarian vampires had left without a word, my sister had gone almost into a comatose state because of the vampires, and then to top it off, my best friend turned out to be a giant shape shifting wolf, i laughed to myself, thinking how crazy it all sounded.

I knew since i had given up fighting the idea of returning to Forks, Alice would have probably seen and told everyone, i couldn't lie to myself i had missed Alice, Esme and Jasper the most out of the Cullens, Esme was like the mother i never had, growing up Bella was always attached to mom at the hip having the most in common, while i was the carbon copy of my dad, Esme was always there for me when i needed to talk and even to help me cook,

Alice, she was my tinkerbelle sized fairy, she hated the nickname which made me love it even more, she always said she knew we were going to be friends before i had even spoke to her, i loved that i enjoyed shopping and decorating rather than Bella who was obsessed with Edward and wouldn't leave his side,

Jasper, the one Cullen who got me, he understood the shyness I felt and that I could spend hours with him learning chess, listening to his stories or just having staring competitions; which I always lost. Everyone used to joke that me and Jasper were more like twins than me and Bella, it was Jasper that convinced me to try out for the dance team, Jasper that convinced me to rebuild my relationship with my own mom, and Jasper that convinced me to give Emmett a chance; which was the one thing that he did get wrong. Jasper leaving was the one Cullen leaving that hurt the most behind Emmett, he said i could never get rid of him, but that didn't last more than a year, i knew he would blame himself again trying to attack Bella at the birthday party, but i didn't think that they would just up and leave.

Life was almost unbearable after they left, i had to put my feeling on the shelf though, first to help find Bella, then to try and bring her back to her old self, even though i knew we would both never be the same, she couldn't just turn off from everything in life, i hated life, started to resent everything, once again life had to evolve around Bella, i loved my twin with everything i had but for once i wanted someone to see me first but the only two people who truly put me first had up and left.

Bella became increasingly reckless from riding motorbikes to cliff diving, hiking alone in the woods, each time i was there to watch over and protect if needed, even once again nearly getting killed by Laurant, thank god for the wolves, who saved us for certain death.

Finding the wolves gave me a bit of myself back, Paul was sarcastic and arrogant and everything that i needed to slowly rebuild myself, Bella again crushed the happiness when she found out about Jake, Jake being the love sick puppy caused a fight between him and paul which i just happened to be standing next to, resulting in one scar from my thigh down my leg, i ended up being in hospital for a week, Paul was so disgusted in himself that he wouldn't see me and shut himself off, Bella for once was my rock and finally saw the pain i was in, that was until Alice turned up and dragged Bella off to Italy without a second thought from Bella.

The pain I felt at the time was all consuming, from Paul shutting me out, Bella abandoning me, the Cullen's turning up when Bella was dead, but when I nearly died? no second thought, i couldn't breathe, i couldn't and wouldn't face them and act as if i was fine, like i was broken into a million pieces inside, so i did the only logical thing i knew how to do; run.

I discharged myself, Jake was great, he understood the feeling of being left, he helped me pack and leave, i was all caught up in my emotions i didn't even think until i was halfway to Jacksonville, i finally spoke to my dad who was on the verge of filling a missing persons report, i explained i couldn't stay, i was trapped and wouldn't stay for another second, mom embraced me with open arms and saw i was broken, i kept in contact with the pack, with even Paul now starting to talk to me again,

i was doing really well until Bella and Edward announced they were coming to Jacksonville for a visit, i knew something was happening, Edward was once again keeping Bella in the dark, i spoke to Paul who confirmed that while they were in Jacksonville, the wolves had a run in with the cullens over victoria, Edward was insufrible the two days they were here, suddenly i spent my whole day out in the sun avoiding both Edward and Bella, they left with our relationships more strained than before.

"Iz? Are you ready for food?" Phil's voice echoed through my door, i quickly shook my head to get me out of my memories and joined him in the hall,

"only if you have made me a good burger" i said jokily,

"Always kiddo," Phil said, putting his arm around me. I smiled, missing how simple life was here and how much everything was going to change.