I stared at myself in the mirror, the dull brown hair gone and now replaced by curls of bright red hair, I grinned at myself,
"I love it" I grinned at the stylist through the mirror, I quickly paid and walked outside, I felt free and calm for once, like I could take on the world, the new hair giving me the boost of confidence I needed, I walked down the street and saw Alice and Bella stood outside a boutique,
"hi guys" I said as I reached them, they turned to look at me,
"Iz, is that you?" Bella asked shocked, I grinned and nodded,
"what do you think?" I asked as I gave a little spin,
"it looks fabulous!" Alice shrieked as she reached to touch it, I grinned once again,
"I think we should head back" Bella said smiling,
"well I was thinking I might actually stay here a bit longer, there is something I need to do" I said being very vague, Alice looked concerned,
"Iza? Are you sure?" Alice asked confused, I wasn't whether it was staying on my own or the choice I had just made,
"of course, I will be fine I'm a big girl" I said smiling,
"but how will you get home?" Bella asked,
"there is such thing as a taxi Bella" I said laughing, after a bit more convincing I was waving as they drove down the road, I quickly got my phone and found what I was looking for, I started walking down the street on the way to my next destination, I knew this was a good idea, I needed a change and the hair was only the start.
I looked at myself smiling at what I saw looking back at me, the reflection showed a brand new women staring back me, the brown hair, now completely red, a nose ring stood pride of place,
"right all done, do you want to see?" The guys voice said, I quickly nodded and he brought a mirror to show me my back, a dandelion stood right on my right shoulder blade with the seeds turning to birds as they flew off,
"I love it" I grinned, I thanked they guy and left glancing to the café next door pulling out my phone as I did, I quickly texted the number,
Hi, could you meet me? I'm downtown at a café called Corner Pin
I quickly sent it and walked inside, ordering a hot chocolate and sitting at a quite table by the back, I hoped the number hadn't changed, I glanced around the café, not many people were here, a few teenagers sat by the window laughing to themselves and a old couple sat sipping there drinks and sharing a muffin over by the door, I glanced at them wondering about their story, I imagined they had been together for at least 40 years and still looked as I love as ever,
"I was surprised you texted" a voice came from the side of me, I turned and looked at the person stood at the side of the table,
"me too, please sit I didn't know if you still had the same number" I said honestly,
"never changed it in case you needed me" the voice said as he sat down,
"I needed you when you left me" I said trying not to show my anger,
"Iza, it wasn't my choice, I was dangerous, you saw what happened at the party" Jasper said in his southern accent, I nodded slowly,
"what I saw was an accident, and then your family over reacting to the situation, leaving Bella devastated" I said as I swirled the cream round in my cup,
"as much as I love your sister, I didn't give her a second thought, I was only worried about you" Jasper said, I nodded,
"I was even worse. I had to spend every waking moment trying to help her and then try and deal with my own emotions alone and scared" I said looking into his golden eyes,
"I know, I was a coward Iza, there is no excuse and I know I can never make it up to you" Jasper said sadly,
"maybe not" I said sadly, Jasper's golden eyes seemed to fade abit, I sighed,
"but your still my best friend and I;m sure your meant to forgive your best friends" I said waiting for his reaction, Jasper looked shocked,
"Iza? Do you mean that darling?" Jasper asked hopeful,
"yes, I mean who else is going to keep me sane from your wife who has turned into a monster planning fairy" I said with a little laugh, Jasper laughed,
"it's good to hear you laugh Iz" Jasper said, I nodded,
"it's good to feel like a can laugh again" I said,
"and I'm loving the new look, although Alice might kill you for the piecing" Jasper said smiling motioning to my new jewellery,
"how about my tattoo?" I asked innocently, Jasper again looked shocked, I laughed and turn to show him lifting my hair up,
"Iza, do I even know you? New hair, piercings and now Tattoos anything else I should know?" Jasper asked teasing me,
"not yet, I'll let you know if I have any more impulsive ideas though, maybe cliff diving next" I said laughing,
"I think we will give that one a miss" Jasper laughed,
"how's Emmett?" I finally asked the question I had been dying to ask since he walked in, Jasper frowned,
"Emmett? He's. . . good" Jasper finally said glancing away, I noticed he had stopped breathing, not that he needed it,
"Jas? Do you know why he did it? Leaving without a word I mean" I asked quietly, Jasper sighed,
"honestly? No although I can sort of understand now" Jasper said, I looked at him quizzically,
"after the. . . night I don't think he could see your heart break in front of him, we all thought he told us, when he returned to the house he was destroyed, the sadness and guilt I felt was overwhelming, he actually left us" Jasper explained I must have looked shocked,
"he only came back once Alice tracked him down and told him you were missing" Jasper said with a disappointed look, I shrunk in my seat a bit,
"Emmett finally tracked you down and followed you all the way to Jacksonville before returning to Forks, he wouldn't talk about you, no one in the family was able to say your name in the house, then when Alice saw the vision about you returning he was thrilled, I think he saw it as a way to redeem himself, the plane tickets? He got them, your bedroom? I know Bella said Alice did it, but truthfully he wouldn't let anyone near it, he insisted he did it and for you to think Alice had" Jasper admitted, he head was spinning from all this information, he followed by to Jacksonville? It was him who had decorated the room? He got the plane ticket, suddenly I felt really sick.
Suddenly we were be hide the café and I was throwing up on the sidewalk, Jasper rubbed my back, I wasn't sure if it was all the new information or the shock from the vampire speed again,
"Iza? Are you okay?" Jasper asked concerned as he rubbed my back, I nodded,
"sorry Jaz, it's just a lot to take it, did you run here?" I asked holding onto the wall for support,
"Alice made me bring the car, come on let's go sit in there" Jasper said softly helping me stand, I nodded and let him guide me to the brand new Volvo that was parked not too far away, I sat in the car taking some deep breathes,
"maybe I shouldn't have told you all that so soon" Jasper said, I shook my head,
"no thank you Jasper, I needed answers and I knew you're the only one that would tell me" I whispered knowing he could hear me perfectly,
"are you mad with me?" I whispered glancing at him, Jasper was suddenly confused,
"for what Iza?" he asked putting the heaters on in the car,
"for that night you all left? What we did" I whispered, for some reason Jaspers opinions meant the most to me,
"Izadora, I could never be mad, was I upset? Yes, we spoke about everything and I thought you wanted to wait till marriage? I think that's why I lost it with Emmett" Jasper said, I nodded,
"it was my idea, if anything I pushed him into it, I thought I would marry him that's why I wanted it, I couldn't imagine my life without him at that time" I answered, Jasper nodded,
"I think that's why I struggled so much after you left, I didn't know my own life anymore, my life was all about him and suddenly I was alone, I tried to put on a front which everyone believed apart from Paul, but then he left me and I couldn't cope anymore" I said playing with my hands,
"so you ran" Jasper summarised, I nodded,
"I didn't see any other way, when Bella went to Italy to save Edward I knew he would return and suddenly my mind was in a dark, dark place, why wasn't I good enough for you all to return but she was? I had been in pain for a long time but no one cared" I said trying not to cry,
"Iza" Jasper tried to say,
"no Jas, I need to say this, you know when I was in hospital after the incident with Paul, I was actually glad it had happened because I thought that when I woke Emmett and you would be right there, because I could have died, but then you wasn't, I wasn't good enough, I know now that wasn't the case but in my head it was, I honestly thought what was the point in living in a world when the two people I wanted wasn't there for me, and normally Paul would stick me back together but he couldn't anymore and that's when I knew I was drowning in my memories and had to leave" I explained, I took a deep breathe and was glad Jasper let me get it all out,
"what changed?" Jasper asked,
"Bella's wedding, to be honest if Bella wasn't getting married I honestly don't think I would have ever come back" I asked shocking even myself,
"so after the wedding?" Jasper asked staring at me,
"you honestly believe anyone would let me leave now" I answered smiling,
"too right darling, your not going anywhere again" Jasper answered, I smiled,
"I know I said to Alice I was ready to face the others, but I think I need a bit more time, can you just drive me home? I'm really tired and my leg is starting to kill" I asked carefully, Jasper nodded and started the car, I watched as Jasper pulled out of the parking lot, glancing through the wing mirror I thought I saw Emmett again, but another glance and he was gone, I sighed and watched as the town turned to trees, and suddenly my eyes were closing and I gave into sleep.
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