Sofia woke up panting for air, she looked around her room everything was dark everything was normal or so she thought, she got up wore her slippers and went to her personal desk, she opened one of the drawers and tried her best to find one specific item, she took the small bottle and hid one pill in her hand, she took her night gown and slowly left her room. S
he started walking down the corridors quietly so that no one would wake up, she went down the staircase until she finally reached the kitchen, there she grabbed a glass of water and drank the pill she carried with her, When she finished she put the empty glass of water in the sink then she left the kitchen, she decided to go to the garden for some fresh hair, she did her best to avoid the patrolling guards luckily no one noticed her.
She entered the garden area, the place was so quiet and empty, there she sat on the cold grass, she looked at the stars and began crying silently, she had her palms cover her face, she didn't know what to do.
It has been weeks since the nightmares started, weeks since her anxiety worsen, she would always think of the bad things, no one was there to help her. She would always dream about the people who hated her, they would come back and do something worst, her dreams where her family and friends hated her, she was all alone
She stayed in the garden for about an hour, she cried and cried until she felt exhausted, she heard one of the guards spoke from a far, she needed to leave she thought, she used the amulets powers and transformed into a bird so she can fly away without being caught, she flew to her rooms window and entered without a problem
She approached the giant mirror that was in her room, she saw herself I'm a mess, she murmured to herself she rubbed her necklace it had a small crack on the gemstone, she blamed herself for it, she doesn't want to lose one of the most precious thing she has, she doesn't know why it cracked but one day she felt a pain in her chest, her eyes turning pink then all of a sudden the necklace cracked, she was mortified when she saw this, she didn't know where to get help even cedric doesn't know what to do
She went to her personal desk, she grabbed her book and began writing on her diary she didn't bother opening the light
Dear diary,
It happened again, I'm so tired of everything, I don't know what to do, I can't tell anyone but I want to but what if they truly hate me? What am I supposed to do? I don't want to be alone, I'm so scared the nightmares keeps coming back over and over again, I want to get help, but to who? I'm alone, I'm always alone the pills are the only thing keeping me calm, no one knows about my situation and I won't bother telling anyone this will be in me forever.
She set aside the pen and book, she grabbed one of the sharp small knives she found hidden in the kitchen, she began cutting the side of her arm it felt so good to feel the pain she cried and laugh at the same time, she looked at her arm, some of the scars were from her first this felt like comfort for her
Drip, drip, drip
The blood fell on the table, she wiped it all away with a cloth she found and hid it on her drawer, no one knew about her situation
All these responsibilities? And for what? She asked herself while looking at her arm. When she finished she got back to her bed, she cried herself to sleep, she wished she had her animal friends with her, they were the only beings that understood how she felt but no they weren't here, they left for a month with some of their friends, she missed them so much
She hugged her pillow and began sobbing, she felt so fragile and weak What's happening to me? She asked while looking at her hands
I was never like this before,
I was different, i.. Was different
I had a bright life, why did I took a turn?
I don't want this, I want this all to end
But how? How?
I'm so tired…
She closed her eyes and continued weeping at her pillow without noticing the amulet flashing a green light instead of pink, she cried for hours until eventually she fell asleep
