All right people. For those of you who haven't read the updated notices at the top of my profile, here's the deal.
I'm in poor health a lot of the time. I've been sickly ever since I was born. Well, I've been coughing for months now, running fevers and experiencing severe chest pains and so on and so on. I recently went in to the E.R. and Urgent Care for a few different reasons. I have hernias in my groin/abdominal area, and a Hiatal hernia in my chest. Okay, that explains a number of things and presents a possible solution to the problem: surgery.
Well, the surgeon is one of those assholes that really doesn't give a shit about any of his patients. Despite being diagnosed with a number of different things, in this case the hernias, this guy said he didn't see anything that the E.R. and Urgent Care doctors found. He had all the evidence in the form of medical documentation, images from x-rays and ultrasounds and the like…and he just brushed it all off. So, just to humor me and to determine if anything really is wrong with me, I now have to have a CT scan done. That's coming up on the 31st of this month. So soonish.
Anyways, I did recover from pneumonia, but I just keep coughing. I've been in severe pain and it's been hard to breathe/catch my breath for some time now. Trying to climb up and down stairs has become more and more difficult. Trying to stand up from a chair or get out of a car or anything is hard as hell these days.
I have been tested for Covid and am currently awaiting results. However, the chest x-rays I had done just two days ago came back…and it confirmed the Hiatal hernia, but it also found something else. I have an enlarged heart. There's a number of potential causes for such things, and this is indicative of a few problems that I REALLY hope isn't the problem.
I'm trying not to panic, and I'm trying to keep my mind occupied so I don't think too much about it. I don't want to start thinking the worst when it might just be something small, something not to worry about. I don't know what this means for now. I'm waiting to get in touch with my doctor to see what might be happening. However, I will admit that I'm scared right now about what could be happening. I don't know.
Anyways, I've been under all kinds of stress lately and I just can't seem to sit down and work on new chapters for any of my stories. I've been trying to take it easy and just relax, but it's hard. Then there's the fact that I keep falling asleep at random way too damn often. I'll be going in for a sleep study on Sep. 19th to try and determine what is causing my sleep problem. I'm at high risk for narcolepsy, though the doctors believe it is probably sleep apnea. We'll see.
For now, I just ask that you be patient with me. I'll continue writing when I can. But for now, I just need a break. I really do. Please try to understand.