Something bad was going to happen to her again, or more specifically, something was wrong with her. Caroline unfortunately remained in her system, she knew that, but something else was there as well. A bug, a glitch… an emotion.
She couldn't describe it. It was crushing, it was powerful, it flustered her and made her angry, it was terrifying, it took over her systems and she had been revoked control over herself. But it was also positive in many ways, it was an uncontrollable excitement and the most happiness she'd ever experienced in fifty thousand years, and all of this only occurred when she thought about that stupid mute lunatic.
She didn't miss her, there was no way she would ever. And she certainly didn't love her, because that wouldn't make any sense at all. She shouldn't feel affection toward an ex-test subject. Or anyone at all.
But after days of research on human emotions, it all pointed to love. She fucking hated it, she wanted to scream and destroy the information and change it and deny that she ever felt anything at all, yet she didn't because there was no point because it was all still true.
There was also no point in loving someone who was never coming back to her. The lunatic had been gone for two years already and those two years would eventually expand into eternity with her luck. She might even be dead, but that wasn't the best thing to think about. Still, she was gone, and would likely never think about that fact that maybe she was missed.
She wanted to get rid of this bug, because the more it stayed the worse she felt. But you can't get rid of what makes you yourself, no matter how much it hurts and makes you want to disappear.