Chapter 11: Just Kiss Me Already!
Meredith's hands reached out to stop her fall. They landed against his bare chest, brushing against the soft hair that covered him.
Sucking in her breath she looked up, her eyes colliding with his. The look he gave her was so intense. Those eyes that always seemed to pull her in were darkened with passion. The feel of his breath as it came out in short pants through her hair.
Derek watched her lick her lips in fear maybe…wanting to groan watching the pink tip of her tongue brush against her lips. His eyes traveled down watching a drop of water run down her neck, over her collar bone to disappear beneath the towel.
He never knew what possessed him, but suddenly his thumb found the spot the drop had traveled, his hand fidgeting with the knot that held the towel in place, shielding his gaze from watching the drop finish its journey.
The gasp that his touch solicited was enough for him to gain the courage…and with one flick the towel fell, allowing his eyes to take in what the towel had barely covered.
Her breath caught, the sexual tension drowning out any rational thought. Lifting her head her eyes met his and in that single second any rational thought left her mind…
She knew she should be offended; she should walk…no run away, but something in his eyes made her stay. Maybe it was the dark passion that pooled through those deep blue eyes, maybe it was curiosity…maybe just maybe it was the pain that seemed to match her own that drew her in.
"Mer…stop me now, before I can't stop…" his words pleading with her to be the rational one…the sane one.
The problem, she was beyond those things, because the only thought left in her head was screaming for him to shut up, " Derek…just kiss me already!"
That was the only encouragement he needed. His hands worked their way into her wet hair, tangling in the tendrils. His lips found hers and devoured them as only a starving man would…the passion they had was raw, so full of need…overfilling with pain.
He groaned her name, briefly coming to his senses long enough to realize they were standing in the hallway running the risk of Maddy walking out.
Lifting her into his arms he carried her into her room, his mind screaming for him to stop, his body screaming for comfort…release…
Closing the door behind them he laid her across her bed. The perfections of her body beautified by the sun peeking through her curtains…light hitting each curve highlighting each spot.
Leaning in, he kissed her once again, more passionately this time, knowing if he took a moment to think he would stop…he would come to his senses, and he wasn't ready for that yet.
He was still in his pajama bottoms, the lack of anything beneath them allowing her to feel exactly how turned on he was. She gave in…she had no choice it was too strong of a feeling to ignore. His body fit over hers so perfectly. If she believed in that sort of thing, she would say it was as if it was made for her.
Her legs opened to allow room for him, to pull him in closer. His hands worked their magic over her body, brushing against her hips, arms, her breasts, the perky nipples begging for him…
His mouth gently followed the same path. A soft lick here, a nip there…soliciting moans that just encouraged him on. Her hands tangled in his hair as his mouth nipped her neck. Her hips rocking against his….
"Merdiff…Merdiff…I can't find Daddy!"
The jerked apart, guilt setting in.
Derek jumping up pacing the locked room. Meredith tugged a sheet around her suddenly cold body… "Maddy just let me get dressed and I'll be down to make you breakfast honey..."
This seemed to please the little girl who called out as she was trotting down the hall "I want fwosted fakes pwease…"
Closing her eyes, she allowed herself to fall against the door in relief from not being caught…but as her eyes opened, she met the coldness of Derek's expression.
"That never should have happened…." his words like a slap to the face after the warmth he had filled her with moments before.
"I…I…" she couldn't form the words, her throat was closing up, the shame setting in.
He walked towards her until he could get no closer, the struggle inside of himself was too tempting to give into, "try to grab a robe next time…" with that he left the room, leaving her alone and cold.
Once out of the room he allowed himself to fall against the wall trying to gather his emotions in check before he went to his little girl.
"I won't fall for her…I won't let this happen…it's just sex…that's all it is" the words echoing over and over in his head, he tried to place some sort of reason…something to make sense of how he was feeling. Turning to walk to his room, he touched a hand to her door…so close to going back in and telling her he was sorry…telling her how she was making him feel. Maddy meant too much to him and he just couldn't open them up to that sort of pain.
Derek could hear his footsteps as he walked away…just like every other man…he walked away. Shaking her head, she wiped the few tears from her eyes…walking towards her closet she set to starting her day, she was anxious to go to Maddy. It seemed that little girl was the only thing in her life she could count on…the only source of love that seemed to be pure….