All characters from Vampire Diaries belong to L.J. Smith as well as all characters from Twilight belong to Stephanie Meyer. I own nothing except my version of events.

A/N: Chapter contains lemons again. Enjoy!

Chapter 6 If You'll Let Me

The week flew by pretty fast and today was Friday, halfway through school already. TGIF! Lunch is in 5 min and I am starving.

"You're never this anxious to go to lunch, what's up with you?"

I looked up at Jessica from my doodling, lifting one eyebrow in question. That is until I realized my uninjured leg was bouncing up and down underneath the table.

"I don't know, I guess I just want this day to be over already. It's Friday! After school today we've got the weekend free of homework and I'm excited." I shrugged my shoulders.

"Hot date with Jacob then?"

I laughed. "Nah, I mean not really, we hang out practically every day so we don't really go on official dates anymore." I said, adding air quotation marks with my fingers on the word 'dates.'

"I am so jealous of your relationship Bella, you guys are like a couple and best friends all rolled into one."

I smiled at her, "Yeah it's pretty great... He's pretty great."

Jessica sighed, "Ugh I need to find myself someone like that too." The bell rang at that moment and we gathered our things, leaving the classroom.

I continued the conversation as we walked to the cafeteria, "Don't worry, you'll find someone eventually. You're single though, you can enjoy all the freedom you want."

"Who's enjoying their freedom?" Angela asked as she matched her pace with us.

"Apparently I am," Jessica laughed. "The freedom to go out with any of these dumbasses we go to school with."

Angie laughed, "Yeah it's slim pickins' out here. We grew up with basically everyone in school. It's kind of weird when you think about it."

That's true. I barely moved at the beginning of the year so everyone is still new to me. There's still some people I don't even know. "Didn't think about that... You know I think Quil has a crush on you."

"Really?" Jessica beamed at me. "We hang out all the time and he's never said anything."

"I don't know, but I've seen the looks he's been throwing your way. Especially over the summer, I'm surprised you've never noticed." I replied.

"Really? Hmmm… I wonder why?... Maybe I could bring it up. It's not like I'm scared to make the first move." she said, as she winked at me. We got in line to grab our lunches when Jessica asked. "What should I eat today? Salad or a hamburger?"

Angie and I both shared a look and shook our heads. We will never understand why she asks, she always gets a salad anyways. It's a Jessica thing, always worrying about her weight when she doesn't need to.

Lunch went pretty easily and everyone was gathered around the table. At one point Lauren passed by and scoffed at us but we all ignored her, knowing she was only looking for a fight. Unlike her, none of us were eager to attract everyone's attention. No one has really talked to her since the whole incident when I threw them a party. True to her word, she made our friends choose and if they wouldn't choose her then she wouldn't talk to them again. She now hung out at the football players table, hanging off the arm of anyone who paid her enough attention. Mike was also in the football team, he'd hang out at their table once in a while but preferred to sit with us on most days.

My last two classes went by fast and Ang had already dropped me off at home. It was Friday so my dad probably wouldn't be home till much later. I had no plans today and I hadn't heard from Jacob since his morning text, so I'd probably be going solo tonight. I didn't mind though, I like having time alone. I'll take advantage of it and maybe catch up on my chores and do some reading, have a relaxing night in. I decided to put on a load of laundry and take a nap in the meantime. I set my alarm and lied down on the couch.

My alarm woke me from my nap and I realized it was time to switch my clothes to the dryer and add another load into the washer. I had just finished putting the settings and started the machine when I felt a pair of arms slip around my waist from behind. I immediately recognized the scent, "You do know you're supposed to knock when you come into someone's house, right?" I teased.

He ran his nose along my neck, leaving a gentle kiss behind my ear. "Now why would I do that when this is like my second home?"

I turned around in his arms, "That's true you're here often enough."

"Thanks for making me sound so welcomed." He leaned down and playfully bit my lip. I giggled and shoved his shoulder lightly. "You know you're welcome here anytime, Jacob. I just didn't think I'd see you today."

"Yeah, I was supposed to hang out with Quil and Embry tonight, that's why I didn't make any plans with you… but I couldn't stop thinking about you."

Hearing that brought a smile to my face, I hummed in response as I pulled his head down and kissed him fiercely. He pushed me up against the washer but our height difference made things a bit difficult, so he lifted me up and placed me on top of it. Oh wow… now I understand why people are into having sex on top of washing machines. The humming and vibrations hitting me on my bottom was doing things to me. He released my lips and said, "So I've been having these explicit dreams about you and I really want to try something... If you'd let me."

I giggled, "What's in these explicit dreams?"

He leaned forward and whispered in my ear. "I'd rather show you" He teased, as he leaned back to make eye contact with me. "Do you trust me?"

Without a doubt I replied "Yes."

He picked me up again and I wrapped my legs around his waist, he climbed up the stairs then placed me on my bed.

"Close your eyes Bella." Shit… whatever this is, I'm already turned on. I closed my eyes and I felt him lift my arms to remove my shirt, my bra following soon after. He gently pushed me backwards and slid his hands down my breasts, caressing my stomach as I felt his hand unbutton my jeans. He slowly slid my pants down my legs, gliding his hands down the length of my legs in the process making my skin instantly erupt in goosebumps. He then slid his hands back up the length of my legs until he reached my panties, gently sliding those off of me as well.

It was so sensual that I was already arching my back away from the bed, "Jake…"

"Patience baby, keep your eyes closed." He cooed.

I felt and heard his next movement, realizing he had kneeled on the floor, placing himself in between my legs.

"These dreams I've been having, they all involve a scene much like this…" he quietly said, as he spread my legs further apart. "I want to taste you Bella," I could feel his warm breath on me as he spoke. He placed a kiss at the top of my left thigh. "Will you let me?"

I felt his gaze land on my face and suddenly I couldn't speak, so instead of trying to formulate words I simply nodded.

"I'll make you feel good, I promise." and with those words he spread my lips open and licked from the bottom all the way to my clit and sucked.

"Ahhh..." I arched my back off the bed, this is too good to be true I thought, as I felt his tongue penetrating my insides and then slowly slipping out to swirl around my tight bundle of nerves. I couldn't stop the moan that fell from my lips. He sucked my clit into his mouth, adding pressure slowly. Releasing me only to take a breath, I could feel the heat of his exhaled breath. Licking me so deliciously.

"Shit Jake, don't stop." I moaned, as my words filtered into his ears I felt the vibrations of his moan shoot directly into my most sensitive area. I don't even know how it's possible but I was even wetter than before. Then I felt his finger, tracing along my inner lips. Carresing me slowly, going up into my clit, swirling it a few times then gliding back down. He slowly slid one finger in my entrance, pumping a few times and then followed it with a second finger. I arched my back off the bed and moaned. He continued to push his fingers in and out of me and I was starting to completely lose it. The combination of his tongue and his fingers were taking me to a wonderful place. I was breathing hard, I could feel I was close to reaching my orgasm. "Jake… Jake…Jake!" I yelled as I suddenly felt it. My orgasm washed over me like a tidal wave, consuming every part of my being. I rode it out until the very end as Jacob continued to pump his fingers in and out of me until he felt my body relax again. Sliding his fingers out of me.

Once I got a hold of my body again I opened my eyes and sat up enough on the bed to lift myself up and lean back on my elbows. Jacob was staring at me the whole time, smiling at me as if he'd won the Olympics. I laughed, "You're looking smug. How the hell are you so good at that?"

"I have no idea but I'm more than happy you enjoyed it." He then shrugged his shoulders and said, "Natural talent I guess." Stupid boys with really good tongues.

"So I think it's my turn now." I said, sitting up and leaning forward to give him a kiss on the lips. When he slipped his tongue into my mouth I could taste myself, it was weird at first but not unpleasant. He released my lips and placed his forehead against mine.

"You don't have to do that Bella. Just because I wanted to give you something it doesn't mean you have to reciprocate. I'm always thankful for what you decide to give me."

"Oh I know I don't have to. Lucky for you, I really want to…" I said, smirking at him. "Now shut up and sit on the bed." I commanded.

"Yes ma'am." he said as we switched our positions. I could tell he was eager but pretending not to be. It was the cutest thing. I smiled as I reached forward and took his shirt off. Man those abs are to die for, I don't even know how he has them. I've never seen him workout once.

"Lay back" instead of completely laying down on the bed he supported his weight back onto his elbows. He wanted to watch me... I guess I'd have to give him a good show then.

I decided to try to seduce him much like he did with me. From recent experience, I learned that anticipation is such sweet torture. I leaned forward and began placing kisses down his chest. Taking a slow detour around his nipples, earning a moan in response. I licked him and nibbled on his chest until I reached all the way down to his abs following the V-shape on his hips. I bit him a little roughly there, I swear that V alone could make my panties soaked in an instant, he jerked in response releasing a puff of air from his mouth. I started unbuttoning his jeans and he helped me slide his jeans and his boxers down his legs. His dick springing back up onto his stomach, it was a lot larger than I expected.

Once those were off I looked up at him and the smoldering look he gave me melted me from the inside. I smirked at him though and then gently stuck my tongue out to lick the pre-cum off the tip. I grabbed his shaft and gave him a small peck at the end. Slowly adding more of him into my mouth. He moaned and I could feel him trying to push himself more into my mouth reflexively. Looking up at him I took pity on him as I saw his pained expression. I opened my mouth, taking him in as far as I could. I heard him moan and I looked up to him just in time to see him throw his head back. I continued to move my mouth up and down his shaft, sucking it into my mouth, hollowing my cheeks in the process. He was breathing heavily but I was really craving more moans out of him. So I remembered what Jessica told me once about pleasuring a man's sack, making it more enjoyable. Don't even ask me how that conversation came up but it did on one of our sleepovers over the summer. Jessica was very detailed in her description, detailed enough to make me cringe but now I was supremely thankful.

My left hand was squeezing his thigh at this point so I slowly slid it further up until I reached his sack. I lightly put pressure on them and I heard him moan deeply in his throat, putting his hand on the back of my head and intertwining his fingers into my hair. "Fuck Bella, don't stop… So good." Huh, guess this does work. I continued to pump his dick while sucking and caressing his balls and I quickly found the perfect rhythm. He was moaning non-stop now, his chest rising and falling rapidly with his harsh breathing and I felt his thighs tighten up against my forearms.

"Shit baby, I'm so close. Don't stop." The hand that was holding the back of my head tightened its grip a little more and he was pushing my head back and forth trying to find his release. "Fuck Bella, I'm coming. You have to release me now or else…" but he didn't finish and I understood exactly what he meant. Since this was my first time doing this I wanted to experience the whole thing completely and when he released into my mouth I swallowed it all. It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. A little salty but not awful.

I continued to move my mouth up and down his shaft until I felt him soften and his body relax. I let his dick fall out of my mouth after that with a pop and climbed onto his thighs kissing him for all I was worth. He kissed me back and when his tongue tasted himself in my mouth he let out another little moan.

"That was so hot. Tasting myself on you." He gently commented. We both laid back onto the bed, completely naked but content and relaxed. I don't know how much time passed by but my cheek was pressed into his chest and he was lightly running circles on my arm. It was peaceful and quiet.

"I love you Bella"

Jacob said what? I tensed, leaning up onto his chest, looking down into his face. I opened my mouth to say something but he covered my mouth with his hand before I could even utter a word.

"You don't have to say it back Bella. You know I would never make you do or say anything you don't mean... I just want to let you know how I feel." he said as he took his hand away from my mouth, softly sliding his finger down the side of my face. I closed my eyes and smiled, it was a relief to know he didn't expect me to say it back.. I placed my head against his chest again and relaxed.

Leave it to Jacob to admit his love for me and not expect me to say it back. He was so selfless and giving, never asking for anything in return, so different from my past experience and I was so thankful in that moment to have him in my life.

I woke up the next morning sweating, why am I sweating? I suddenly realized there was a giant arm around my waist and my head resting on a bare chest moving up and down. I blearily looked up into Jacob's face. He was still sleeping but he felt really hot, and I don't mean in the attraction kind of way. I lifted my hand and placed the back of it on his forehead realizing he was literally burning up.

"Jake" I nudged his shoulder, but he wasn't responding. I continued to try to gently wake him up but it clearly wasn't working, I guess I'll have to be a bit more aggressive. I placed both of my hands on his shoulders and shook him.

"Jake!" his eyes finally slid open but they looked tired and worn out still. "Are you feeling ok? You're burning up… I think you have a fever."

He groggily lifted his arm and rubbed his face against it. "I don't know, I just feel tired like I didn't even sleep."

"That can't be good, maybe you're catching a cold. I'll make you some breakfast, come downstairs whenever you're ready. Maybe you'll feel better after you eat something."

"Yeah, ok, I'll catch up in a bit."

I swiftly kissed him on his cheek and got up to make us both something to eat. I fried up some eggs, toasted some bread and cut up some fruit to add some nutritional value. I soon heard him climb down the stairs, entering the kitchen slowly and sitting on the chair in the kitchen table placing his head on his hands. I put his breakfast in front of him and a glass of juice. "Sorry I didn't help you make breakfast this morning."

"Don't worry about it. I'm more worried about you. You look like shit."

"Thanks babe, where would I be if I didn't have you to bring me back to reality. Here I was hoping to win the Sexiest Man of the Year." He said as he looked up to me and rolled his eyes.

"Guess you don't feel that bad if you're still hitting me with your witty remarks."

"Yeah I'm just feeling exhausted and a little hot. I don't think I'm gonna make it to the bonfire tonight." he said, as he started poking at his food with his fork.

"You should definitely go home and sleep. Maybe take some meds to start fighting off that flu you're already starting to develop." I looked at him and frowned. "Start eating mister, you haven't even touched your food."

"Right, sorry." He speared some egg on his fork and started eating, very slowly might I add. Which was weird to begin with, he's always hungry and devours his food within seconds. He must really feel like shit. I was sitting next to him slowly rubbing circles on his back as I ate. Every once in a while he'd glance up at me from his food to give me a small smile.

He finished his breakfast and hugged me. "I should go, I need a nap. Sorry I can't spend the day with you and our friends like we planned." I hugged him back and kissed his cheek.

"Don't worry Jake…" I looked at him and noticed he looked ready to fall over "maybe I should drive you home. We can just stay at your place and watch a movie or something."

He pulled away from me to shake his head in disagreement, "No, no. Go have fun, I'll be fine. I don't want you to be stuck taking care of me."

I got up and put the dishes in the sink, I can always clean them later. "But I want to be stuck with you… what if you get worse? I'd go down as the worst girlfriend in the world." I pouted.

He stood up as well and kissed me on my forehead, "No you definitely would not, you'd go down as the best girlfriend in the world in my book. Look babe, I'll probably end up falling asleep as soon as I get home and you'd be sitting there staring at me as I sleep and that's really creepy if you ask me." I laughed, if only he knew that's what Edward used to do to me. At the time I thought it was romantic as hell but now I really see how disturbing that was. Especially in the beginning when I didn't even know he was there, why he thought that was inconsequential information and a normal thing to bring up in a conversation I will never understand. "Go out with your friends and have some fun for the both of us. Tell everyone I said 'Hi.'"

I shook my head but acquiesced, "Fine but you better call me if you get worse. I'll ditch everyone and run to your aid. Oh and text me when you get home."

He smiled and reassured me, "Sure, sure. I love you Bella" he leaned down and kissed me on the tip of my nose. He grabbed his keys and waved bye as he walked out the door and to his car. I sighed, it sucks he woke up sick today. It's the first weekend since school started, I needed to let loose already and mentally prepare for the chaos that will be my senior year.

It was still morning so I decided to do some cleaning before heading to the bonfire tonight. I had forgotten about the clothes in the washer last night so I turned it back on to wash again. I also wanted to wash my bed covers and check if Charlie's bed covers needed a wash too. I've repeatedly offered to wash his clothes for him but he always refuses. Saying that I do too much already by cooking and cleaning the house, plus it would be weird to wash his underoos. How Charlie knows the word 'underoos' I will never know, but apparently he does. His bed covers, however, were a different story. He always forgets to do them so I secretly do them so he won't have to, I'm sure he's noticed but he's never said anything. My phone pinged with a message from Jacob, letting me know he was home, I'm glad he made it there safely. I took the opportunity to turn on my Bluetooth speaker and connected it to my phone. I already have my favorites playlist set up and the first song that came up was 'At the Wheel' by Colorblind, it's definitely one of my favorites. I've always listened to rock music but as I've gotten older I've started to listen to harder music, a lot of screaming and head banging with singing mixed in. Not everyone's type of music but I love it, much better than listening to someone sing about their WAP though.

Time flew by and it was already 8 p.m. and I was running a little late, I still had to take a shower and get ready, with my leg still in a boot it took me a lot longer than normal. I was hoping I'd get it off in the next couple of weeks, I was so tired of it already.

Once I was ready, I texted Charlie before leaving, just to let him know I'd be late. Now that Charlie and I had a solid relationship he didn't care where I went or at what time I'd get home, well on non-school days that is. I've matured some and he has seen a big change in me, trusting that I won't make the same mistakes. He texted back telling me to be safe, I grabbed a thicker coat since I wouldn't be having Jake to cover me from the breeze anymore.

I planned on stopping by Jake's place to check on him quickly before hitting the beach. I was holding my phone in my hand as I jumped into my truck when I felt it vibrate.

Jacob: Hey babe I'm turning in early so don't bother stopping by. Still feel like shit but I'm on meds. I'll talk to you tomorrow.

I didn't say I was stopping by, I typed. I don't remember telling him I was going to.

Jacob: You didn't have to. I know you too well. Go have fun. Love you.

He was right, he did know me. Too well it seems since he assumed I'd be stopping by his house to make sure he was ok. Silly boy, he was always trying to do everything in his power to make me happy and not worry about him. I still wanted to make sure he was ok but I knew he wouldn't be happy with me if I did. So I shook my head and blasted my music on my drive to the beach trying to push my worrying thoughts of Jacob out of my head.

I'm so glad it wasn't my turn to bring anything to the beach this time, we all took turns bringing snacks and drinks but each person was in charge of bringing their own blankets or whatever else they needed for themselves. I parked the car on my spot I had claimed since the beginning of summer and opened the door. Shit, how am I supposed to get down? The parking at the beach was anything but smooth, it was uneven and I was worried I would fall. I almost never drive with my leg still injured and I always have Jake or one of the guys lift me out of my truck. I was preparing to jump off and hope to land on my good leg when I heard someone shout. "Woah woah woah! What do you think you're doing missy?!"

I looked up to see Embry running towards me with wide eyes. He scooped me out of my truck and placed me on the ground. "Missy?" I questioned, laughing at the name. "Thanks Call."

"You're welcome Swan, you alone? Where's Jacob?" he asked, looking around me for any sign of his friend.

"He couldn't come, he got sick."

"Really? Oh… well that sucks, I guess Quil wasn't lying to me then."

I looked up at him and frowned, "What do you mean?"

He let out a breath, looking into my eyes. "I haven't seen Quil since Wednesday, he texted me telling me he caught a cold and I haven't heard from him since. I was hoping to see Jacob tonight and ask him if he's heard from him."

He grabbed my bag and then kneeled in front of me to give me a piggyback ride. I smiled, all the guys have been doing this all summer, so much so that it's become a normal thing. They stopped asking if I needed help after the second time… I always need help. I climbed on his back and he stood up.

I began to speak again, "That's weird, maybe it's not a regular type of cold then because Jacob caught it. He also hasn't mentioned Quil going MIA."

He chuckled, "Not to be rude Bella but he probably hasn't even noticed. He spends all of his free time with you."

I frowned upon hearing that. That's not right, Jacob shouldn't be spending all of his free time with me... I hadn't realized I was monopolizing all of his time until now. "I'm so sorry Embry, I didn't mean to steal your friend away." I said, regretfully.

"Don't be sorry, if I had a girlfriend as hot as you I'd sell my friends to buy her presents." We both laughed at that, still I think it was a discussion I needed to have with Jacob, I put aside my friends for Edward once and look how that turned out. I don't want him to do the same for me, it's not healthy.

"Dork. Well either way, he shouldn't be neglecting you guys for me. Friends before hoes and all that."

We had just arrived at the bonfire and he sat me down on a log.

"Who's a hoe?" asked Mike.

"Lauren!" snickered Jessica. We all laughed at that, she really was getting around, seriously not trying to judge her but she made it hard. I believe a woman has the right to have sex with anyone she wants without judgement, a woman's sexual activities are her own business but I do also think she should have a higher criteria or something. Some of the guys I've seen her with are complete pigs, known for sleeping around with almost anything with legs, STD's are a real thing and so are underage pregnancies.

"Well as long as she's practicing safe sex, who cares." I shrugged my shoulders. Jessica rolled her eyes.

"So where's Jacob and Quil?" asked Angie, changing the conversation.

"They're both sick, Jacob must've gotten it from Quil."

Angie gave me a sympathetic look. "Well hopefully you don't get sick too. It's barely the beginning of school, you can't miss already. It'll take you forever to catch up when you come back."

"Shit, I didn't even think about that." I frowned, "I'll get some vitamins and immunity boosters tomorrow."

I turned to look at Embry and noticed he still looked upset. He shouldn't be though, I was sure Quil would call him as soon as he recovered. I was also planning on having a serious conversation with Jacob after he recovered and reminding him to not neglect his friends. Especially not for me.

"Don't worry Emb, as soon as Quil is feeling better I'm sure you'll be the first one he hits up." He gave me a worried look so I continued, "Besides, if you get bored you can come hang out with me. You do know you're my friend too, right? I'm here for you always, with or without Jacob."

He smiled at me, "Thanks Bella, you're the best." I returned the sentiment with a shoulder bump and a smile.

The rest of the night went great, we all had some fun, drank a little, ate a little, some even did a little skinny dipping… I am being completely serious with that last part. Mike, Tyler and Embry decided to bet who could last the longest in the water, took their clothes off and ran faster than I could warn them not to. Seriously, if there's a flu going around these idiots were making it pretty easy for it to get to 'em. It was hitting 2 a.m. by the time we all split up, well most of us. When Angie found out that I had driven myself here with no company, she gave me a lecture about how dangerous it was and that I should always call her so she could give me a ride. She said something along the line of 'I'd rather make a detour to your house to pick you up than to have to make a detour to your funeral.' That girl was getting spunkier by the day, she gave me a run for my money. Finally she let up when I reminded her of the time, giving me permission to head home as long as I texted her as soon as I got there. I resisted the eye roll that tried to surface, she was sucha mother hen, but I complied anyway as soon as I made it through my bedroom door.