She's the one

by Carlisleismine2

Carlise Cullen has lost his job and his wife. He needed someone to help with his pain.

She's the one

Friday, March 24, 2017

8:46 PM

CPOV: I fucked up, royally. I was caught having sex, in my office, at Forks general hospital, with Jessica, one of my student nurses. Due to this I was let go from Forks general hospital. As was Jessica And Esme left me, I don't blame her but damn I miss her. I've been looking for someone to help with this pain. And I think I might have found her. Tall, brownish, blond hair, and a great smile.. There's a pull of some sort I needed to talk to her. I was offered a job at a small N. center. So I grabbed it. I wasn't sure about moving so far south but I had to have some type of job. My boys, especially Edward was not happy.

KPOV Chapter 1:

My name is Kim but I like to use my last name which is Jayne. I am 40yrs old, with 3 adult children. Victoria (Tori for short)Michael and Justin, but I live alone. My soon to be ex husband , James, has gone, he does show up every now and again to check up on me. To make sure I'm not "fucking around", his words, not mine. He's always talked down to me, calling me a lazy, fat bitch, and I won't know what to do when he's gone from my life. We met and married when we were 17. I had our first child at 18 then twin boys when I was 20. My oldest is 22 and does not like the fact that her dad is no longer living at home, with me. I'm, honestly, glad he's gone. I can live my life the way I want without him standing over me making sure I'm doing things the right way, or his way, I should say. I am with my best friend, Rebekah, in the ER. I had fallen down the steps of my porch. I called my best friend. Who, in turn, called 911. then fussed at me for not calling them first. I was day dreaming when this gorgeous DR walked in my room. "Hello, I'm Dr. Cullen, but please call me Carlisle. I shook his hand and offered my name. HI, I'm Kimberley Jayne, but you can call me Jayne, he shook his head and said "if you don't mind I'd rather call you Kim. I know a Jane and don't care for her very much. I just shrugged and said "whatever" My friend, who is not used to being overlooked, as she is gorgeous, slim build, long, long, blonde hair and very pretty eyes. So she introduced herself. Carlisle hardly looked at her which surprised me. I'm like a lump of coal next to her beauty. But, whatever. He asked what happened I told him that my foot slipped off the top step of my porch and apparently i twisted it as I fell down the other 3 steps with me landing on my ass at the bottom.

Chapter 2

He told me he was going to send me down to have some x-rays done of my foot and back. Since I was complaining of my lower back hurting.

Rebekah asked if she could go down to x-ray with me. The Dr. said it was fine but she could not go in there with me, which made sense. So, down to x-ray we went. I worked at this very hospital and was not in a good mood because I was there. I hate going to my place of work, on my days off. I knew where x-ray was and Rebekah didn't have to go with me. She was just nosy. Surprised she didn't want to stick to my ER room to talk more to the gorgeous Dr.

*CPOV*

I walked into the room where a Miss Kimberley Jayne was. With a possible broken ankle. When I walked in I saw her sitting on the tiny bed in the ER room. My mouth popped open. She was so pretty and looked so helpless. There was also an Amazonian type woman with her, sister, maybe. I introduced myself. The patient told me her name was Kimberley Jayne but she liked to be called Jayne. I asked if it was OK for me to call her Kim, since I know a Jane and that name just puts a bad taste in my mouth. She seemed fine with me calling her Kim. Her friend, as I found out later, introduced herself. Most men would like her type, tallish, long blonde hair, a Hollywood type. You know, she could probably get an acting job on her looks only. But I wasn't interested. I preferred the young lady sitting on the bed, you know, the helpless type, with her foot propped up. Her ankle was a little swollen but she could move it, a little, without major discomfort. I excused myself from the room in order to call down to x-ray for her ankle and lower back, she was complaining of it bothering her a small amount.

*KPOV*

My ankle was not broken, just badly twisted. When I got back to my room in the ER. The gorgeous DR. I mean Carlisle, and that name makes him even more swoon material. Oh and he had a slight, like he was trying to hide it, British accent. Me, being me, had to ask, so I did. He came back in the room to let me know that my ankle was just badly twisted, hints the bruising. So he wrapped it up and gave me some crutches *tingle* he's touching me *swoon* Breath KIM Breath. Um Dr. Cullen, and he gave me this look and I cleared my throat, I mean Carlisle, would you happen to be from England or somewhere in the U.K.? I detect a slight British accent. He gave me a half smile and said "you're very observant, no one else has caught it or never mentioned it." Are you trying to hide it? If so, why? "not trying to hide it, just lost most of it since I was a young man when I moved to the states. If you will notice DR Krow has an accent too" Yes, I know, he is from Poland, can't miss his accent. And we both laughed.

*CPOV*

Chapter 3

I went back to miss Jaynes room to give her the good news. Not a break just badly twisted. So she would have to stay off of it for a few weeks. When I walked into the room, her friend gave me this creepy smile. I assumed she was trying to flirt, I don't know. I just kept my eyes on Miss Jayne. She was the exact opposite of her friend. Shorter, brownish/blonde hair with the neatest looking white streak which caught my eye, immediately . As I was letting her know about her ankle and started putting a sling on it. She caught me off guard asking about my accent. I smiled because no one else had noticed it before. She's very observant. I really, really wanted to know more about her. There was something about her. Couldn't put my finger on it, but it was almost like an imaginary rope, pulling me towards her. I came very close to asking for her number.

Chapter 4 *KPOV*

Dr. Cullen released me, from the ER after he put a sling/boot thing on my foot and gave me crutches.

Rebekah took me home, asking if she needed to stay. No, thank you Rebekah I'm good. If I need anything I can call my son, Michael. He doesn't live far. I know I'm supposed to take Tylenol, for pain and prop my foot up. Thankfully I have a recliner. So glad that handsome Dr couldn't see me trying to maneuver myself going up my porch steps, with crutches, he would have probably laughed his ass off. I know Rebekah did.

cpov

I wanted to keep her here with me. I had a need to get to know her. I've never felt this before. What is going on with me? I needed to get more info so I did what I shouldn't have done. I looked at her chart. I got her name and DOB hmmm, she's 4 yrs older then I am. She didn't look her age. Hmmm she doesn't live far from me. Nice. I might have to give her a call one day. That would be so inappropriate, but I needed to talk to her. Yes, I will call her, one day. So I jotted her number down. OH, wait she works here too. Not in the ER but in the billing dept.

Chapter 6 kpov

Monday, jeez I did not want to go in, but I knew I had to, in order to give my coworker, Britt, a break.

Later, that afternoon, I saw, from my peripheral vision a person, with a white coat on, leaning in my office doorway. I looked up to see Dr Cullen. He smiled and asked if I had plans for lunch. I did not. So he offered to treat me to our hospital cafeteria. I took his offer for 2 reasons. 1, well, damn and 2, I was hungry, I didn't eat breakfast. He walked, I limped on my crutches to the cafeteria, 2 floors down. Thank God for elevators. Everyone was staring at us. OH God was he married? I didn't notice a wedding band. I'll have to ask, because no matter how handsome or swoon quality a man is, I'm not about to flirt or go out with a married man, nope, ain't gonna happen. I opted for some chili they had and a Coke Zero. Carlisle carried my tray and we sat outside. It was nice out. We started asking each other things. Like were we married. Carlisle was in the limbo of a divorce, like myself. His wife filed for divorce, while I filed for mine. He has 3 teen boys,and 2 teen daughters, adopted, seems that his wife could not have children. The youngest boy is 17 the other 2 are 19, not twins, I asked. I told him about my kids. A daughter that is 22 and I do have twin boys that are 20. I told him how bitchy my daughter is and what an ass my soon to be ex is. I also told him that I own everything. My house, the property it sits on and the camper that is in my yard. So, when our divorce is final I will keep everything. I also have a restraining order against my husband. He is very verbally and can be physically abusive. Carlisle didn't like that, and he let me know that. He said he can't stand a man or boy that is any type of abusive to their spouses, or girlfriends. After our lunch break, Carlisle took our dishes to the window for washing. And he dumped our trash in the bins, outside. As we were walking back to our designated areas of work. He asked me out on a date. I stopped walking. And said "excuse me?" "you want to go out with me?, me?" and I was pointing to myself. He smiled and said "yes, why wouldn't I want to go out on a date with you?" Here it comes, my damned insecurity, Thank you James. You did a great job. Well, you see. You're a very handsome Dr. and I'm me. As I use my hand to scan over my body starting at my head and downwards. "Kim, there is nothing wrong with how you look" "you actually make those scrubs you have on, look fantastic" Yeah and you do too. I've never seen a green set of scrubs look better on anyone else. He just smiled. I accepted his invitation. He looked relieved. Then he asked for my phone number. And I didn't hesitate.

cpov

I was going to ask Kim out for a lunch date, at the cafeteria in the hospital. I didn't have time to leave and grab something. I had hardly anytime to eat. I was so nervous. I felt like I was a teenager again asking out the prom queen. I went to her office and stood in the doorway, waiting. She was on the phone. She finally noticed me. When I asked her about lunch, she accepted. Clocked out and we went downstairs, via elevator, to the cafeteria. We opted to sit outside, since the weather was nice. We talked about our families. Seems that she has filed for divorce from her abusive husband. I told her about Esme and how she has filed divorce from me. My heart broke more when I found out what Esme had done, but how can I blame her, she can't trust me any longer. Like I said , I fucked up when I gave in to that student nurse. I was so damn stupid. I did ask Kim out for a date for Friday, after work. It surprised her that I asked her out. She seemed to think I was better than her. HA, no, she is perfect for me. I'm really looking forward to our date. Friday night can't come fast enough. She gets off earlier than I do, of course, but still. I told her it will be casual. A movie and a light diner. She seemed ok with that.

Chapter 7 kpov

Carlisle picked me up, at my house, around 7. After my shower I ran to my closet to find something comfortable and casual to wear. I opted for a pair of nice jeans and a long sleeve blue shirt. Theaters are sometimes cold inside. I also decided on a pair of tan colored flats to wear. I put on a turquoise necklace. Not sure what we are going to see, at the theater, but as long as I'm going to be sitting next to Mr. hunky Dr. then I will enjoy myself. I was a little nervous. I haven't been on a real date in over 20 yrs.

cpov

I arrived at Kim's house at 7. I was looking forward to spending more alone time with her. I really wanted to get to know more about her. When she arrived at the door, to let me in. She was breath taking. She had on a pair of jeans and a very pretty blue long sleeved shirt. I also had on a blue shirt. We laughed at how much we matched. I commented on how pretty her necklace was and how pretty she looked. She asked what movie were we going to see. When I told her I thought about seeing Spiderman. She smiled and told me she adored the actor playing Spiderman, Tom something. I didn't know who she was talking about. As long as the movie is good, I didn't care. We arrived at the theater in plenty of time, to wander around the lobby. I grabbed a large bucket of popcorn and 2 drinks. Then we headed into the screening room. The screening room had very comfortable seats. They rocked. She asked to sit on the aisle seat, in case she needed to excuse herself during the movie for a bathroom break. I put the bucket of popcorn in between us. When the trailers started showing she and I both reached in the bucket for some popcorn. We both said "sorry" at the same time, too. The movie was actually good, cheesy in some parts, but that is to be expected. By halfway through the movie. We were holding hands. And it felt comfortable. After the movie, I asked her if she liked the movie. She said she did. We walked to the car, still holding hands. I had a huge smile on my face. Now, where to get something to eat.

kpov

When Carlisle came to pick me up. We smiled. We both had on almost the same outfit. Both had on a blue shirt. Mine was long sleeved where he had on a short sleeved button down. He asked if I wanted to see Spiderman. I was fine with that. He bought us a huge bucket of popcorn and two drinks. Then we found our seats in the screening room. I asked to sit in the aisle seat because I knew I would have to end up going to the bathroom while the movie was still running. When I went to get some popcorn, Carlisle had the same thought. So we both reached in, at the same time. I said "sorry" at the same time Carlisle did. I don't remember how or when it happened, but by the end of the movie we were holding hands. And we continued holding hands all the way out to his car. He asked where I wanted to grab sometime to eat. I wasn't all that hungry after eating a huge bucket of popcorn. So we opted for fast food. And ate it in his car. When we arrived back at my house. I invited Carlisle inside for a glass of wine or a beer, left over from the last time James came over. He said, "yes, a glass of wine sounds good. So he came in and smiled. I asked what he was smiling at and he said "your house, it's nice. I smirked and said, thanks. So I gave him a quick tour. The 2 extra bedrooms and the guest bathroom. "so, where is your room?" he asked me with a sly smile. Oh, it's this way. And I led him to my room, with butterflies in my stomach. He commented on how large my room was for just me and my very large king sized bed "too bad you don't have anyone to share it with" I heard the hint in his voice. Oh lord, I felt my panties get wet with what he said and what my mind made up. He grabbed my wrist, gently and pulled me towards him and kissed me, and it was a passionate kiss. Our tongues met and twisted around each other. Now my panties just got more wet. Lord it felt like it was running down my legs. I felt him get hard, and I smiled but I have never been with anyone other than James. We released our kiss and Carlisle apologized. I just shrugged my shoulders. And asked "for what, the kiss?" He said, no for me wanting you so badly, then he looked down. I smiled again, feeling kind of smug.

cpov

Kim invited me in her house, when we arrived back. She offered me a glass of wine and I told her that would be nice. I really wanted to spend more time with her. Her house was larger than I thought, She showed me the 2 extra bedrooms, down a long hallway. Then I asked where her room was. Her room was the largest, of course, and she had a huge king sized bed as well as a very nice ensuite . I told her it was a shame she had no one to share her huge bed with damn Carlisle, you're going to screw this up if you don't keep your thoughts to yourself.

She smiled at me but I knew that she knew what I was meaning. I really wanted to have sex with this woman, badly. So, I grabbed her wrist and pulled her to me, and kissed her instead. It was a passionate kiss. Her tongue and mine played with each other and I got more horny as the kiss lingered. I know she had to have felt my hardening member but if she did she never acted like she did. I pulled away from the kiss and apologized. She asked "for what, the kiss?" I said no for my wanting you so badly then looked down. She just shrugged and smiled. I needed more of her. I wanted more of her. But this is too soon, we both knew it. Maybe another time.

kpov

I totally enjoyed my date. I hope he will ask me out again. The rest of the weekend flew by too fast. Monday morning. I dragged myself in to my office. I knew Britt would be at my desk. She didn't go to her office until I clocked in. When I got there, and clocked in. she smiled and said "you had a visitor" Yeah, who? "that new Dr., um Dr. Cullen, is it?" yeah, what did he want? "just asked what time you usually clocked in. I told him and he said he would be back. I smiled "you like him, don't you?" yeah, I do. He's nice. "how do you know how nice he is?" as she raised her eyebrow. Well, we went out, on a date, Friday, after work. "SHUT UP" you did not. Yes we did "did you have sex with him" BRITT! "what?" I'm nosy. I can tell. And no we did not but he did kiss me and I kissed him back. "are you going on another date with him?" I don't know, he didn't ask or mention it. "oh, poo, well maybe that's why he came by the office and she crossed her fingers. " maybe, I'll cross mine too. "what are we crossing?" asked Carlisle. Britt and I, both jumped. Carlisle smiled and apologized for scaring us. Britt said "we're crossing our fingers hoping the day is calm. Carlisle said "I'll join in on that too" Britt and I just smiled at each other. Carlisle asked me if I had a good time Friday night I said yes, thank you and he asked if I'd like to do it again, this coming Friday. I said yes, absolutely and then he asked about lunch today. I was on board with that too.

The rest of the week went by so slowly. Except for the days Carlisle and I had lunch together, which was almost everyday. I loved those days. I would go back to my office in a much better mood. Everyone that worked in the cafeteria got use to seeing us together. I couldn't wait for Friday to roll around. I was looking forward to our date. We discussed where we would go. He wanted to go look at cars, like to get himself a new one. "isn't your car new?" "yes, but the newer models have come out and I'd love to go look" "Ok sounds good, I'll tag along if you don't mind" "of course I don't mind, I would love your input" We were holding hands under the table, resting on his thigh. He squeezed my hand when he said he would love for me to come car shopping with him. I smiled. Dammit, I'm falling In love with this man. I couldn't do that. I will get my heart broke if I do. I know he's just being nice to me. I know he can't feel the same about me. So, I would keep this secret to myself.

Friday finally rolled around and I was looking forward to it. I needed it, badly. I drove home, a little too fast. After work. Took a quick shower then blow dried my hair. I decided to wear a dress this time. I prefer pants but I wore jeans on our last date, so i opted for something a little different. When Carlisle came to the house and I answered the door. I thought he was going to faint. His mouth popped open but nothing came out. I giggled. "what, never seen a woman in a dress?" "um not you, was a little surprised." "should I change?, it won't take me long." "no, you look great." Our date ended with us going to Olive Garden. And riding in a brand new silver Mercedes CLS. It was breathtakingly beautiful. He couldn't stand it, he had to buy it. When we arrived back to my house I offered him a drink, like I did last time, but this time he opted for a beer. I made myself a glass of wine. While I was in the kitchen getting his beer and pouring my wine. He came up behind me, wrapped his arms around my waist, then kissed my neck. I shivered. He apologized. I told him nothing to apologize for. Then I turned around, handed him his beer and kissed him fully on his mouth. He sat his beer down on the kitchen counter and grabbed the back of my head and brought me closer to him. Our tongues found each other and danced together. He whispered in my ear "shall we continue this in your room?" I just moaned and started walking to my room. He backed me up to my bed. When the back of my knees felt the bed I sat down. He gently pushed me down onto my back then asked "may i?" and I just smiled. He reached under my dress and removed my panties. Which by this time were soaking wet. He smiled. Then tossed them on the floor. He reached further up and asked to remove my dress completely which I sat up and raised my arms so he could slide it up over my arms and head. He then reached around to undo my bra. I was breathing heavily by this time. As was he. He excused himself and went to the bathroom. He apologized for his short side trip. I just smiled. I was so nervous. I apologized for my nervousness and he said he was just as nervous. I was still on my back, arms above my head. I let Carlisle lead. He hovered over me. Took his knee and spread my legs apart. Pushed my left leg up towards my chest, then he then lowered himself, slowly, kissed my breast and ran his tongue over each nipple. I moaned "Carlisle" then he took his hardened shaft and rubbed the tip onto my folds. I gasped, slightly. Then he entered me. I closed my eyes. I couldn't help it. I've never been with anyone else but James, this was so different. Carlisle was so gentle. I wasn't use to that. James was always so rough Carlisle started picking up speed, then abruptly stopped, then moaned. "Kim" I knew he had just come inside me. I have never had an orgasm not until now. Carlisle slid out of me, then asked if he could take a shower in my ensuite. Yes you can. I jumped up, completely naked and grabbed him a towel and washcloth. As I was walking out, he grabbed my arm and said "join me" So, I did. We showered together and it was great. I'm so glad I had this shower remodeled. It was larger and just, overall the best shower for 2. I asked, shyly, if he would like to stay the night. He said yes, he would like that a lot. We ended up, again, in each others arms. Having slow sex. I had, yet, another orgasm. I never knew this was how it was supposed to be. While in the bathroom, after our last sex session. I ended up crying. I was happy and mad at the same time. How could James have been so mean yet loving. I thought that's the way it was supposed to be. He was my first, so I wasn't actually sure. All I knew, now, was how happy I was I went to sleep happy and very relaxed.

The next morning. I woke up with a heavy leg over my hip. I smiled when I realized who's leg it was. I reached with my left arm and started rubbing his leg. He moaned, saying "good morning" I answered "yes, it is" "want me to make you some coffee? "absolutely, So I went to roll off the bed when he grabbed my arm and said "first, lets have more sex". I giggled and said you're a horn dog. He smiled and said "well, it helps when the person you're having sex with is so warm and sexable" I laughed and said "sexable? Is that even a word? He smiled and said "it is now" So we ended up having another slow sex session. "I could get used to this, You're spoiling me". He smiled and said "well, you're spoiling me, too" "good, because I don't want another woman to catch your eye". He gave me a sad smile. I apologized "I didn't mean it that way, I'm sorry" "I have to go, I have to be at work by 2, want to meet me for my break?" Sure, where? Is the cafeteria open today? Um It's Saturday, so, no. I can make us a chef salad. "that sounds great" is there anything you don't like on your salad? "no, I like most everything. OK just text me or call when you are heading out for your break. OK he dressed and left me with a peck on the lips. As he headed out the door. He yelled "LOVE YOU" my eyes widened. Did he say what I thought he said? Maybe it was habit for him to do that. I will ask during our lunch date. Carlisle called me around 2 asking if I had time to meet him in the ER breakroom. I donned my employee badge and waltzed inside the ER with our salads and dressing in a bag on my arm. I stopped by the drink machine and bought us both a drink. I grabbed him a Coke and me an Orange soda, then added those to my bag. When I came closer to the Nurses desk in the ER everyone looked up at me and smiled. I went straight to the breakroom. Carlisle was sitting with his back to the door. I walked to him, kissed his cheek and laid the salad in front of him with his Ranch dressing and some crackers and his Coke. He smiled when I sat across from him and took out my salad and thousand island dressing and my orange drink. I don't know how long we would be alone so I asked "did you know you said "love you " when you walked out my door?" he said "yes I know what I said and I meant it. Kim, I'm falling in love with you" I can't help myself." It's like meant to be. I've had feelings for you since I met you that first day, in the ER. I reached across the table with my hand open, he placed his hand in mine and I said OH MY God Carlisle I feel the same way I was too scared to say anything. Wait. Can we get in trouble for this? By the hospital I mean. I don't want us to get fired. Well, since you don't technically work for the hospital, you are contracted through another company, then I don't see a problem. "OH I didn't think about that. I released a large sigh and said "good, because I would hate to be the cause of you losing another job. About that time Britt, my coworker came in. saw our hands, smiled at me and walked out. "I'll eat at my desk" Britt, wait, you can eat in here. It's fine. Carlisle turned around and said "yes, it's fine if you want to eat in here I need to get back to the ER and pretend to be a doctor. He smiled and winked at me. Then turned around, thanked me for the salad and left. I did text him and asked if he would want to stay with me again, tonight. He said yes but I will be late like 1 or 2am before I get there. OK just call me and I will unlock the door for you. He told me, when he got to my house that he was taking all of next week off. He had things he wanted to take care of before it got too late.

Chapter 6

I hadn't talked to Carlisle in over a week. I tried texting him but he never answered. I knew he would quit me, which I didn't blame him but he could have at least contacted me to let me know.

I didn't want to leave my house to do anything, not even walk out to check my mail. But I did, eventually. When I grabbed the mail I realized what had arrived, I Ran inside, threw the mail on the table and sat down, laid my head on the table and cried.

I opened the manila envelope and sure enough there it was my divorce papers, signed and sealed from James. He had also enclosed a letter, to me I sighed, I didn't really want to open it but I couldn't leave it unopened. So with a heavy heart I opened the letter and read it

Sweet pea;

I'm signing these papers with a crack in my heart and a tear in my eye. I never thought this would happen between us. I remember the first day I laid eyes on you. You had on some tight shorts and an Aerosmith t-shirt . And I looked up at you from my spot on the sofa and thought you were 7' tall due to those damn platform shoes you had on that tied up your gorgeous legs. Then we went to the skating rink and there was some damn guy following you around like a lost puppy. I can't remember his name. but you spent the entire time there skating with him and when he put his arm around your waist I got so jealous, do you remember? I'm so fucking sorry about anything and everything I have done to wrong you. Tell the kids I love them, and honestly, I still love you. I don't think I will ever not love you. You were my first love, my first everything and the memories are great from you giving birth to our daughter and then having our boys. You gave me everything I have ever wanted. Thank you for that. I remembered that day. Sam an old boyfriend was the "puppy" that James was talking about. James couldn't skate so Sam would couple skate with me and catch me if I fell, which was often. I miss Sam. I should try to find him.

Yours always, James XOXO

I threw the letter down and ran to my room, plopping, face down, on my pillows, DAMMIT they smelled like Carlisle which made me cry harder. I woke up to my phone ringing. I looked to see who it was caller ID said it was Carlisle.

HELLO? " Kim? It's Carlisle, remember me?" ha, ha very funny. I was starting to think you had fell off the face of the Earth. What do you want, I asked curtly. " I 'd like to come over and talk, if that's alright. Here it comes he is finally going to quit me face to face. Sure it's alright. "Kim?, are you crying?" yeah, and ? "sorry, just heard it in your voice, are you mad at me?" a little, yeah. "ok I deserve that, but I can explain" "I'll be there, shortly and he hung up. I got up, washed my face and brushed my hair. I had been asleep for 3 hours. I picked up my letter, folded it and put it back in the envelope it came in.

I heard Carlisle's car when it pulled in the yard. My dog went out to greet him. some guard dog. He knocked on the door, which he never did before. He would usually walk in but announce himself when he did. Since when do you knock? "I assumed since you're mad at me, I'd better knock first. I laughed. He went to grab me around my waist but I stepped back. "ok so you're really mad, I get it" DO YOU?, I yelled. I'VE BEEN SITTING AROUND FOR A WEEK NO PHONE CALLS, NO TEXT, NOTHING! WHAT THE FUCK CARLISLE?"

He hung his head and sighed. I've been trying to arrange a surprise for you and give you some alone time. I'm still fuming and yelling WHAT IF I DIDN'T WANT ANY FUCKING ALONE TIME?HMM EVER THINK ABOUT ASKING BEFORE DISAPPEARING? I THOUGHT YOU HAD QUIT ME, NO WARNING. IVE BEEN CRYING FOR A WEEK AND THEN I GET THAT FUCKING LETTER FROM JAMES! "what letter from James?" I walked over to the table, grabbed the envelope and shoved it at Carlisle and said he enclosed this with our final divorce papers. "may I read it?' yes, go ahead.

After he read it, he said "damn, I'd love to have seen you on that day with the shorts and platform shoes. I just glared at him and said "that's what you got from that letter?" then I whispered "ass" Kim, I'd never leave you, especially without any notice. Why do you keep thinking that?" He dropped his arms, then walked to the kitchen.

Because I'm no good for you. You could have anyone you want "I have someone I want, you, silly woman"

What is it about me that has you so in to me? I just don't get it. "well, I'm sorry that James has corrupted your self trust" "please, look in the mirror, you are so beautiful, and you stand your ground THAT is what I love about you" "HEY, did you get your hair cut?" I shook my head but smiled, Yes, I did, this afternoon. Do you like it? "actually, yes, I do. I'm glad they didn't cut that white streak out of you hair, that is so freaking awesome" UM, thanks, I think. I'm still getting used to it. The length not the white streak. I've had that for years.

He opened his arms and I walked over to him with my head hung, when he circled his arms around me, I put my face in his chest and mumbled "I'm sorry I yelled at you, then I started crying. Carlisle took his hand and started rubbing my cheek. "I should be the one apologizing, I'm an idiot for not calling or texting to give you a heads up that I was going to be off grid for a while. I'm sorry I scared you but you could have contacted me, you know? I tried, I did text you, but you never replied. Now he was looking at me straight in the eyes. I gave a sly smile. Then took him by the hand and asked "stay?" please. I've missed you, so much. And we need to talk about this 'surprise' I said with my eyebrow hitched.

Chapter 6

I fell asleep around 9. don't know why I was so sleepy, but I was. I awoke to my phone ringing. I grabbed it, still half asleep "Carlisle?" - um no, MS Jayne? This is Frankie. My heart stopped. He doesn't just call random people , Frankie?, what's wrong?!. Miss Jayne, oh for Christ sake just call me Kim. I'm not married to James any longer, remember? Um I have some bad news. "OMG, what happened? Um Kim, it's James. What about him? Well, see, there was a fight that broke out, last night, and James was stabbed, he didn't make it. My heart broke, right then and there. I started crying. Hard. I threw the phone against the wall, screamed "WHAT MORE DO YOU WANT FROM ME?!" I was at the end of the proverbial cliff, ready to jump off. I had, had it, mentally and emotionally. I was done. I needed Carlisle. Great I broke my fucking phone. Well, slamming it up against the wall will do that. Great! Now how was I supposed to contact anyone or vise versa? Shit! I got in my car and drove over to Carlisle's house. He came out on the porch when he heard me pull up. He saw that I was crying. He came down the steps with worry on his face. KIM? I've been trying to call you but it keeps going to voice mail. What's wrong? I was sobbing in between words. Carlisle, James was killed, last night in jail. Then everything went black. I could hear, but it sounded like I was in a bubble. Carlisle yelled for Emmett. He came to the door and said "yeah?" help her up off the ground, and take her in the house, please. So the next thing I knew I was being carried into the house. Emmett sat me on the sofa asking if I was alright and what happened. Carlisle told him and Emmett said "oh, shit, miss Kim, I'm so sorry That made it worse. I started sobbing, again. "Emmett go get her a glass of water, please" Emmett handed me the glass I said thank you then sat it down on the coffee table my hands were shaking so bad that water splashed over the sides of the glass. Carlisle said "why don't you stay here tonight?" I just glanced over to Emmett and he was smiling and nodded his head. First, I need to call my kids and let them know. OH God I can hear my daughter now, she is going to blame me. Since I had him arrested. Then I will go home and get me a change of clothes. Carlisle said, no I'll go get what you need. OK but why? Because I'm afraid when you walk back in to your house you will loose it again or pass out again and you have no phone to call anyone. OH yeah, ok, good thinking. I went with Carlisle to my house, so I could grab what I wanted/needed from my room and bathroom. We were back in the car by this time. I was already feeling more calm with Carlisle around. Carlisle? Yes? Can I call you Carl? Sure a lot of my colleagues already do. Kim? Yes? Would you like to know what your surprise is? YES! I turned around in my seat in order to face him. He held out his right hand and I grabbed it. We locked our fingers together. Well, my boys are missing their girls and since Bella, Edwards girl isn't allowed to fly here, I thought I would fly the boys to Forks in order to see them. ? So I thought, since you do have some vacation time that you would like to go with us? Can I think about it? I have several things I need to take care of before giving you a definite answer. Sure, no problem. I've already bought you a ticket for the flight . You did? WAIT! That took you a week to do? "no, that is just part of the surprise. The other surprise you get later. Yes, I was hoping you would go. I would like to, but let me get a few things in order first. OK, sounds like a plan to me. I smiled and kissed his hand I was holding. I was looking forward to leaving for a while. To get away from the memories. "know anyone that would like to buy that pick up truck? Carlisle said "I might" Then again, if Rose, Emmett's girl, knows you have it for sale she might want it. She is a car person. I'll take some pics of it, inside and out. OK cool. How much are you going to ask for it. Um it needs to be paid off. I can call the loan company and see how much they would want to pay it off. Alright, sounds good.

After I called the lawyer, about funeral arrangements for James, I spoke to the kids, and man was I ever right about my daughter, she yelled at me, so loud I had to hold the new phone I just bought away from my ear. My boys were sad, not angry not like my daughter was. UGH she will never forgive me. I didn't stab him, but in her eyes I might as well have. I also told them about going to Washington with Carlisle for a week, or two, he never said so I was unsure. That just made my daughter more angry since that meant I would be missing the funeral.. But that is why I needed to leave. I couldn't let James continue to rule my life, even after death.

I called Carlisle to let him know I was going. When I called he answered with exhaustion in his voice. I hung up, then promptly sent him a text "Sorry, didn't realize you were stupid busy I just wanted to tell you I'm ready to go to Forks whenever you are K"

That is the best news I've had all day, and I've had a shitty day C" You can tell me when you get home, from work K" I love you and I miss your face C" I love you and miss your face too K" I noticed, when he got home, I was still at his place, he was spent. He looked sad, and completely exhausted. I was sitting on the sofa, he came towards me. I opened my arms, to invite him in. He slowly dragged himself towards me, and then flopped on the sofa. I hugged him, tightly, and asked "that bad, huh?" and he just nodded his head, against my shoulder. "want to talk about it?" He sat up and said not really. He slid down towards my legs. I propped my feet up on to his coffee table and he laid his head on my lap. I started combing his hair with my fingers and I heard him say, very softly and sadly "I lost a child, patent today" I leaned down and kissed his forehead then hugged him. Oh Carlisle I'm so sorry. He said "I'm glad you are still here, that way I have you to hold me through the night. "are you ready for bed now, you look exhausted" Yes. Do you mind going to bed now also?'' Sure. He sat up, and took my hand and helped me up to standing. We went to bed, hand in hand. He jumped in the shower before heading to bed. I didn't even bother with my gown. Or panties. I wanted to help Carlisle relax when he came to bed and me being in a gown wouldn't help. I heard the shower turn off and shortly there after I felt him climb in bed. When he picked up the covers to climb in he noticed I was naked. "should I be wearing clothes, he asked? I looked over my shoulder and said "not unless you want me to take them off. He promptly stood and lowered his sleep pants and boxers. He was already standing at attention. I smiled, all ready for me, huh? He just gave me a sly grin. I patted the bed and said sit. I made him sit up, with his back to the headboard. Then I started rubbing his hardened member slowly until Carlisle said "Kim, that feels so good" I smiled and said well, if this feels good then this should feel even better, and then moved my hand away and replaced my hand with my mouth. I moaned and so did he. He started moving his hips in time with my mouth. And when I touched my tongue to the tip he grabbed my shoulders and said "I'm not going to last much longer" good that's why I'm doing this. You need to relax. OH GOD, KIM, DAMN! And with that he came, he had a tight grip on my shoulders but he quit moving. FUCK that was amazing, thank you. I didn't realize I needed that until now. I crawled up to him and kissed him, aggressively. Carlisle, how many days are we planning on being in Forks? I need to give my super a time table. "OH, um 2 weeks?" OK cool I will shoot him an email, later, so I'm not waiting until the last second.

I decided I'd better wash up my clothes now since I knew I would have to start packing soon in order to leave Friday, in time to be at the ATL airport by 6am, ugh, that I was dreading. I am NOT a morning person. But I was excited to be going on a trip with Carlisle, 2 weeks at that.

When I received an email reply from my super. I had a huge smile on my face. All he wrote was HAVE FUN~ Woohoo. 2 weeks vacation I needed it BADLY.

The next day I went in my office with a huge smile on my face. Britt asked "get laid again?" I just answered with "everyday ,Britt" her mouth dropped. She thought she knew who I was dating but wasn't sure, so she interrogated me everyday. UNTIL this morning when Carlisle walked in my office and asked "are you all packed?" I just nodded my head. Then asked "are you?" and he smiled with a twinkle in his eye. Then he blew me a kiss and walked out. I glanced over to Britt. She slid down in to a chair and pointed "HIM?", yep and I smiled. She said damn, girl, I'm proud of you I just laughed and she walked out to go to her office. The rest of the week went by so slow, for me. I was back at my place now. But Carlisle asked me, at work, if I would come over, later to help him pack. MEN, sheesh.

What is it about men and packing for trips? Didn't their moms ever teach them? I know I taught mine.

I went to Carlisle's after work to help him pack. I kept giggling like a little girl. He gave me this funny look but was smiling. "why are you giggling?" I'm just really excited to be going with you for 2 whole freaking weeks! I told him what my super had emailed me and he laughed and said that was nice of him. Yes, yes it was. Kind of surprised me actually. "why?" because normally he's an ass. I figured he would have fought me on it. "well, I'm glad he didn't." me too.

By Friday everyone, including the boys were all packed and ready to leave. We jumped in the car and headed to the rental car place and then we would be on our way to the ATL airport . I was so excited I couldn't contain myself. I was acting like a little girl. I was wiggling in my seat. I could not stay still. Carlisle got a kick out of me acting this way. "I've never seen you act like this, I like it, it makes me smile" I know, it's my nerves. "why are you nervous?" well, let me think. I'm going to be with you, in your house, with your boys and their girlfriends for 2 weeks and you said when we get there I will have another surprise. I'm anxious is all. He smiled and kissed my forehead. I saw Emmett and Jasper smile that made me feel better, a little more relaxed. Edward was his same self. Aloof and sulking. Hopefully when he gets to see his girl he won't be so standoffish

Chapter 7

We finally arrived in Washington, Seattle to be exact. Carlisle went to the rental car booth to exchange vehicles for something a little bigger. He ended up getting a large SUV since the girls were going to be meeting us at his house, in Forks, he wanted something larger to comfortably fit everyone when we all went out to eat, or wherever we might end up going.

Emmett called his girl, Rose, first to let her know we were in Seattle and would be heading to the house, shortly. Then jasper called his girl, Alice. Then Edward followed suit. He then asked Carlisle if we could run by Bella's house to pick her up, her truck was on the fritz and her dad was still at work, on the way to the Cullen house. So, that is what we did. Bella seemed quiet, shy, and extremely in love/ infatuation(?) with Edward. She couldn't take her eyes off of him, and he couldn't keep his hands off her. It's like he had to be touching her at all times whether it be holding her hand of having his arm around her waist. Ah, the memories *sigh*

Then we went to the house. When we arrived I noticed 2 girls standing on the porch. One was a beautiful blonde with curves that would make a road jealous. The other was a tiny girl that had her hands clasped in front of her and jumping up and down. Bella jumped out of the car and was running up the steps to hug the smaller girl and I heard her say "I have missed you so much" Then the boys ran up the steps to grab their girls. Emmett was with the blonde, so that was Rose, aptly named as she was as beautiful as one. And quiet jasper was with the tiny, hyper girl, Alice. Carlisle introduced the girls to me and they seemed nice. Alice whispered, to Carlisle "is she the one the surprise is for?" and Carlisle shushed her. She hung her head and whispered "sorry"

We all went in the house, which was so pretty. He gave me a tour. It has 3 floors and I lost count of the bedrooms when I got to 6. each floor has 2 full guest baths and one room on each floor has an ensuite. All the couples grabbed a room with an ensuite, I just laughed, knowing why the race was on for those rooms. Carlisle had spoken to Bella's father about letting her stay with us while we were in town. And he accepted. Of course Carlisle and I had his room which was huge. I felt it was almost the size of my entire house. He asked, when we started unpacking if I was tired from the flight. I said "yes, a little" he said why don't we take a nap while he had a sly smile on his face. Then said "I'm sure my boys are tired too then he winked. I giggled and took off my shoes, socks and pants. I was down to my tee and undergarments. Carlisle smiled and reached for me and asked if I needed help removing my top . I smiled and removed my top. "nope, I don't need any help, unless you want to help me take off my bra. With out hesitation, he reached around my back and undid my bra sliding the straps down my shoulders. When my breasts were exposed he moved his head to kiss and fondle them. Running his tongue around my nipples which made me moan. He quickly removed his jeans and boxers. He was ready and willing to go. I smiled, moved my hand down towards his ready shaft. I started moving my hand slowly at first. But the more he sucked and kissed my breast the faster I moved as I was getting more wet by the minute. He groaned as I moaned. "Carlisle, I want this, squeezing gently, in me, please before I come with just your mouth on my breasts. He pushed me down with my back on the bed and then pushed my legs apart. He hovered over me putting his arms on either side of my head, then we had slow, sweet, sex. I was so relaxed from that, that I almost fell asleep as soon as I had my orgasm. Carlisle removed himself then sighed "damn, woman, it's better each time, how is that even possible?" I don't know but I agree with you. Soon after, we both fell asleep.

I woke up to a slight clink sound. I realized that someone was in the kitchen. Carlisle was no longer in the bed, with me. I heard his low, deep laughter. I loved that sound. I also heard a small, voice say "it's about time, old man" I then stood up to go to the bathroom and put some clothes on. I walked down the stairs to go join Carlisle in the kitchen. He was making something to eat. "afternoon gorgeous" and I looked around thinking he was talking to Rose. I didn't see her then pointed to myself and Carlisle said "silly woman of course I'm talking to you" "I wish you could see yourself the way I do" I noticed Alice smile and nod her head then she said "I get It now" Get what? Alice snickered and said it's nothing.

So, Gorgeous want a night on the town? We just got here. "true but I thought about your other surprise. I figured I'd give it to you while we're out, on a date. Alice was silently clapping her hands and jumping up and down. She was silly. OK what should I wear? Alice jumped up and said "let me" then ran to Carlisle's' room to help me pick something out. After a few minutes she opted for my rather tight fitting jeans and my favorite blue long sleeve shirt. And a pair of flats, Then she helped me with my hair. We talked and she asked me about my children. I told her about my boys and showed her pictures of them. DAMN miss Kim they are cute. I think so too. What about your daughter, what about her? She's a conniving bitch. Alice looked at me with a surprise on her face. Don't get me wrong, I love her but she is what she is. Miss Kim I hope you and Carlisle have a great time tonight. I have a feeling you will but just wanted to put that out there. Sounds like you and Carlisle were meant to meet. You two deserve happiness. He told me about your ex. I'm so sorry about his death. Thank you Alice, that means a lot to me. You are a sweet young lady and Jasper is lucky to have you in his life. He is a sweet boy. She smiled then put her arms around my shoulders and hugged me.

As Carlisle and I are getting ready to leave, Alice comes running and yells CARLISLE, WAIT! YOU HAVE THE WRONG JACKET. She comes running to the car and hands him a different jacket. He smiled and said thank you, that would have been awkward. She smiled and said "hope you two have a great night. Than kissed Carlisle on the cheek. She had the biggest grin on her face. OK what is going on? Is she always that happy? "most of the time, yes". Wow, ok But she is in on the surprise isn't she? "yeah she is" I just huffed and crossed my arms over my chest and looked out the window. Where are we going? " I thought an Italian restaurant would be good it's the next town over. Ok, I love Italian food, especially when I'm with my favorite fella and I grinned. Carlisle held his hand out for mine. I laid mine in his and we locked fingers. Have I told you lately that I love you?. No, not lately. I love you and I love you too. Carlisle?, are you alright? "yes, I'm fine, why?" you're acting really nervous, what's wrong? "nothings wrong, everything is perfect. I'm in love with the most amazing woman and she is in love with me. I am in love with you Carlisle. I never thought I would ever find love again. And this is true love not teen love and it feels fucking great.

The restaurant was nice and cozy. Not many people there. Carlisle asked for a quiet booth in the back corner. The hostess seated us and it felt like we were the only people there. The waitress came over and took our order. I ordered the lasagna with a side salad and a Coke Zero. Carlisle ordered some kind of ravioli, a salad and a Coke. We sat holding hands until our salads came. Then Carlisle scooted closer to me and said, "I want to talk to you about something but I think it would be better if we wait until we get back in the car. OK is it that bad? NO, not bad just private and I don't want anyone to over hear. Ah, ok. Now I was nervous. Carlisle, what's going on? I'm starting to worry. "it's OK, honest. Just something I've been wanting to get off my chest. I let out a sigh and started on my salad. Shortly our main course arrived. I was thinking while eating. I mainly pushed my food around on my plate. So I ended up taking my lasagna back to the house. "Kim, why aren't you eating?" I'm just thinking. "about what?" about what you want to get off your chest.

"Oh sweetie It's nothing to worry about, I promise." OK I'll try to not worry. . "are you ready to leave?" YES and I stood up ready to go. Carlisle laughed and said "hold on, wait for me, I have to pay the bill" I countered with, did you bring cash? And he laughed "ha, ha, yes I brought cash, smart ass" The last 2 times we went out, I ended up paying with cash. He had 'forgotten' his wallet and had no cash on him. By this time I'm a nervous wreck. Carlisle opens the car door for me and I get in. "damn your ass looks so good in those jeans. I just smile. Carlisle gets in and starts the car. We start driving and have been on the road for around 30 minutes when Carlisle blurts out, I love you, you know that, right? Yes, I know. OK, um, marry me? My mouth flies open and I say" what?! , are you serious?. " I know, its only been 3 months of us dating and meeting, but I know I want to have you as my wife and since we are both divorced now, why wait, when you know it's right, and I know it's right". He reached into his jacket pocket and produced a small red velvet box. If you say yes, the box is yours and what's inside also. I just stared at him with tears in my eyes. I wanted to say yes, but my brain wanted me to wait before I answered him. "follow your heart Kim" that's always what my mom told me. I kept quiet until we got to the house . Carlisle was drumming on the steering wheel to some song on the radio. Unsure what it was but I liked it. When we pulled up to the house and climbed the steps to go inside. I looked at Carlisle, grabbed his hand and said YES! Then wrapped my arms around his neck. Alice came running down the stairs and asked "did you just say yes?" I turned to her with tears glistening in my eyes and nodded my head. She was crying, I was crying, Carlisle was crying but they were happy tears. Alice grabbed my left hand and asked "where's the ring?" I handed Carlisle the red box back. Alice had this confused look on her face. I laughed. I explained I didn't open the box because I just decided to accept his proposal. Carlisle cleared his throat, got down on one knee, took my hand in his, opened the box and said "Kim will you please do me the honor of marrying me? And sharing my last name" I sobbed out yes, by this time we had an audience. His boys, Rose and Bella. Carlisle slipped the ring on my finger and I about fainted with the beauty of it. The band had tiny diamonds all around it, the center had a gorgeous opal, it was the most beautiful thing I'd ever seen. I fell to my knees, wrapped my arms around his neck and cried into his neck. He stood up, helped me up and Emmet said CHAMPAGNE! This calls for a celebration. Everyone but Bella can have some. Carlisle said no, she can have a small sip, So Emmett ran to the sideboard and grabbed some wine goblets for us and started pouring champagne all around. I love champagne The boys, minus Edward, slapped Carlisle on the back and said congratulations. I saw Bella whisper something to Edward, he hung his head, then walked over to Carlisle and said Congrats, dad. Then walked off. He looked sad, and I hated that, for him. But, like my daughter, he was going to have to get over the fact that his mom and his dad were divorced. They weren't getting back together.

Chapter 7

I was tired and was more than ready to go to bed. I grabbed Carlisle by the hand and said, I'm going to bed, I'm tired. "yes, it's been a busy day, I will join you shortly" OK. I'm going to take a quick shower. I started walking off ,Carlisle continued holding my hand until we had to let go since I was walking off. I ran to the bedroom, started getting undressed, when I heard a small, quiet knock on the bedroom door. "miss Kim, can I come in, it's Alice?" Sure hun, come on in. I had a robe wrapped around me. "I'm sorry I didn't mean to interrupt your taking a shower I just wanted to ask you something. Sure , what is it? "would you mind if I take you to the dress shop tomorrow? Dress shop? I had a confused look on my face. "Alice giggled. Yes, for a wedding dress" oh crap we're having an actual wedding? Like traditional? "yes, now she had the confused look. See, when my ex and I got married we went to the courthouse. OH. NO, NO, No. This will be an old fashioned traditional wedding. Hmmm ok but we haven't even set a date, yet. " I know, but better to be ahead, right?, I've already called the dress shop and made an appointment, for tomorrow at 1, I hope you don't mind" OK sounds like a plan. Alice clapped her hands and ran off yelling. WE'RE GOING DRESS SHOPPING TOMMORROW! I laughed, then proceeded into the bathroom to take my shower. I had been in the shower for a few minuets when I heard a knock on the bathroom door, surely Alice wouldn't be coming in here to talk, again. It was Carlisle. "Can I join you?" please do, I said. He was already in his birthday suit and 'not so little Carlisle' was wanting some attention. I smiled and reached over and put my hand over his hardened shaft. Carlisle laughed and apologized. "why are you apologizing? I like that I can make this happen. Just like you can make my girl parts all wet with me just thinking about how much I love you and our love making sessions. Carlisle has a bench in his shower that we put to good use. He gently guided me to said bench. I sat down and he spread my legs apart. He got down on his knees and started kissing my stomach. In between kisses he said "do you know how happy you made me tonight?" I think I do, yes. He continued kissing until he reached my pubic bone then he took his tongue and licked at my folds, "oh shit, Carlisle, that feels so fucking good!" He slid his eyes up to me and smiled. Then he started fucking me with his tongue. CARLISLE! OH MY GOD, DON'T STOP! I knew everyone could hear me. The bathroom was echoing. I honestly couldn't have cared less. He then found my clit which made me actually scream FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCCCCCCCCCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK and my legs convulsed Carlisle stopped, stood up and said you've deserved that for the last few times you serviced me. And for making me so fucking happy, everyday. God I love you Kim. You will never know just how much.

We got out of the shower, dried off, then I went to bed. Carlisle excused himself and told me he would be right back. When he walked downstairs I heard clapping. Then I heard Carlisle say "Emmett, enough" I just laughed and hid my face in my pillow. I woke up when Carlisle came to bed and started kissing my neck mmmmmmmmmmm was all I said. I know all this is going fast but I don't want to lose you are you happy?" ABSOLUTLY. I'm extremely happy. I'm kind of scared that this pointing to him and myself will disappear. He rubbed my cheek with the back of his hand. Then asked me "Do you trust me?" Yes, why? "I want to try something with you, that we've never tried if you don't mind. Ok what is it?

He stood up, grabbed my feet and pulled me to the bottom of the bed. I squeaked not knowing what he was doing. When my legs were hanging off the bed. He grabbed the legs of my pajama pants and slid them off along with my panties. Then he asked me to take off my top, So I did. He asked again. "trust me?' Yes, Carlisle I do trust you , with all my heart. "OK then turn around and put your knees and hands on the bed, please. I did. He slapped me, lightly on my ass. "Carlisle? Um I don't do anal. He laughed and said "me either" He then took one of his hands and started rubbing at my folds "mmmm, so wet" Yes, always when I think about you, I get wet, instantly. I was getting nervous at my vulnerable position. I looked over my shoulder and asked "what are you waiting for"? He grasped his cock and started rubbing the tip against my folds then took the other hand and grabbed my waist. "Hold on" was all he said before he thrust in to me, hard. I yelped. Then double fisted the sheet and blanket under me. Then he started thrusting harder and deeper, shit, Carlisle, this is fucking fantastic. He was hitting spots he never hit before and some I didn't realize I had. While he was thrusting, I was ramming backwards in to him while he had his hands on my waist, helping. HOLY CHRIST ! It felt so good. I didn't think I was ever going to get enough. I didn't want to stop, it felt too good. Carlisle moaned. Then grabbed on to my breast, rubbing my nipples then I took my one hand and found my clit. Fireworks went off. I reached to my side, grabbed a pillow and screamed in to it. IM COMING, CARLISLE! AAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH FUCK. HOLY CRAP. That was fantastic, thank you. I then collapsed on my stomach Carlisle collapsed beside me. Slung his arm over my back and said I concur

I can't wait to marry you, Kim. I can't wait to marry you, Carlisle. I do have a question though. "OK, what is it?" Um where are you planning on us living? "here," here? As in Forks, or here as in this house? "well, both, actually, why?" well, my life is in GA. I have a mortgage on my house. And I have my job. Plus, honestly, I love this house, but it was yours with your ex. And I would rather get our own place, do you understand? "yes, absolutely I understand." Ok, I'm going to sleep now, since you have tired me out, twice, not complaining at all. You can tire me out for the rest of our lives. I love it, and I love you. There is a Tom Jones song called "never gonna fall in love, again" and I thought that was me. But I'm so glad I am wrong. Being in true love with you is glorious, thank you, and I kissed him. I fell asleep with his arms wrapped around me and a huge smile on my face. I was the luckiest woman and I knew it. I prayed this would last a long time.

Chapter 8

When I woke, my eyes were wet, as was my pillow. Carlisle had his arms wrapped around me. He kissed my cheek and asked "are you alright?" I said yes, why? "well you were having a bad dream I guess and you were crying out in your sleep" Oh Carl, I'm sorry. "do you remember your dream?" Yes, it was about James and I was at his funeral. "I figured as much" why? "because you kept saying his name and sobbing" Oh shit, I'm so sorry. "Its ok you need to let it break, to get all the pain out . I'm right here for you to do that I heard a sentence from a song, last week. That said ' your silent sadness shakes me' and that is how I feel. It makes me feel broken too. I want to help, however I can. I know of a therapist that you can talk to if you don't want or can't talk to me. I do but I don't want to burden you with all my shit. Kim, That is what I'm here for. We're a couple now and getting married soon so we need to be there for each other, no matter what. Ok, I will see your therapist friend/acquaintance. May I join in on the appointment? That way I might be able to help, later down the road. Yes, that is fine. Just know I might say something that might hurt you. "Kim, we are now a couple, and we're engaged, so you need to realize you can talk to me. I can take it. " We got married, in the back yard of the Cullen house and it was great. Alice did an amazing job. My father walked me down the aisle. My mother and both of my boys were there. When it was time to walk down the aisle I could see Carlisle he was so handsome in his tux. As I got closer I noticed he had tears in his eyes. When he took my hand and I stood beside him. He laid his head on my shoulder and whispered "thank you for agreeing to marry me" He read his vows and I read mine. Afterwards we danced. Jasper and his cousin Caius were singing. Both had good voices. They were singing Bless this broken road. I cried and Carlisle said it was the perfect song. After we danced and mingled we had to get ready to leave for the airport. So we excused ourselves to get changed and leave. We arrived at the airport in plenty of time. But I had a horrible headache which I just chalked up to me being exhausted. I mean we did just get married, 4 hours ago.

And are now heading to Honolulu to be exact. My parents suggested our trip, they went years previous while my father was on furlough. I did a quick stop in the restroom before our flight started boarding. I was feeling a little queasy to my stomach but I just chalked that up to my headache. Like a migraine. Oh god I didn't want to get sick on the plane. Not a good start to a honeymoon. They called for our flight while I was in the bathroom. I ran out to catch Carlisle's hand. We walked to the tunnel, as I call it, in order to board the plane. When we got to the door of the plane, the hostess was grinning from ear to ear. I noticed when she showed us to our seats in first class there was a banner on the overhead compartment that said CONGRATULATIONS. I smiled and leaned into Carlisle. I whispered "I love you" and when the hostess came by with the drink trolley she handed us both a glass of champagne. YUM. But my stomach did not like that. Even though my taste buds did. I handed Carlisle my glass and shook my head no. He leaned in and asked if I was alright. I told him about my head hurting, and my stomach feeling "off" As we were taking off, my stomach did a flip and I hurried to unbuckle and find the bathroom. I almost didn't make it. I got sick quickly. When I came back Carlisle gave me his doctor look. He asked if I got sick and I nodded my head. He had me lean back and close my eyes. Which I did and quickly dozed off. I awoke just as quickly, again, feeling sick. UGH, what is wrong with me? My head was still pounding while my stomach was turning over and over. I've never been sick on a flight before. But I haven't flown since I was 6 so maybe my older body didn't like flying. I hope this wasn't going to be the worse honeymoon in history. While I sat there, with my eyes closed enjoying my handholding with the gorgeous man sitting next to me I started thinking back. When was the last time I had a sick headache, it's been years. Too many years. The more I thought, the more I was in denial. I whispered to Carlisle my concern. He just stared at me then whispered, you think? I just shrugged my shoulders and said It would make sense.

When we arrived in Honolulu we asked our driver. Carlisle got us a car with a driver since neither of us were familiar with the area. We had him stop at a drug store. While in there I bought 2 pregnancy tests. I let out a huge sigh when i stepped up to the cashier. Then I slowly walked back to the car and flung the bag with the tests in the seat. Carlisle said "wouldn't this be something?" I just said "yeah, something" he said Kim look at me. So I did, "are you worried?" YES, duh, it's been 20 yrs since my last pregnancy, of course I'm worried, aren't you? " no, actually, I'm kind of excited" I just turned around with my back to the seat, crossed my arms over my chest and huffed.

When we arrived at our luxurious honeymoon suite. I went straight to the bathroom and got sick, again. I had to wait until the morning to take the tests. I hoped and prayed they would be negative. But Carlisle was excited. He'd been wanting a child of his own, for years. I didn't want to disappoint him but damn, I'm 40 and the stupid OB/GYN told me he tied my tubes after my boys were born. When I came out of the bathroom Carlisle commented on how pale I looked. I about lost my temper with him but calmed myself down before I flopped on the sofa, next to him, then laid my head on his chest. "should I order you some soup or something?" Yes, that sounds good. Maybe some chicken broth or something similar.

The next morning, I jumped out of bed to pee on both sticks then walked back to the bed waiting for the results to show. Carlisle was lightly snoring. My phone made a light ping sound meaning my time was up.*insert pun here* I walked, slowly, to the bathroom my stomach in knots, because of nerves. "son of a bitch" they were both positive. SHIT. I went back to bed, leaned into Carlisle's ear and said "congrats, daddy" and he rolled over and wrapped his arm around my neck. Then kept kissing me over and over. With the biggest grin on his face. He could not wait to call his kids to let them know. I heard Emmett shout "DAMN, YOU DON'T WASTE TIME DO YOU?"

2 weeks later

When we got back to Forks. I made an appointment to see a Dr. Kay, per Carlisle's request. She did an exam and said I was approximately 8 weeks . I was due in November. So, I was pregnant the entire month before our wedding. She made me an appointment for the following month to do an ultrasound. We didn't want to know the sex we wanted it to be a surprise. I asked Carlisle if he had a preference and he said no. I was hoping for a boy. We would have to wait until November to find out though. Alice wanted a girl and of course Emmett wanted a boy so he could "toughen him up" I told Carlisle the names I had decided on and he was happy with both the girl and boy names. He did ask where I came up with the girl name. Well, it's Welsh and I have a Welsh heritage so, and I think it's pretty, and uncommon. Rose was excited, in her own way, asking if she could help when the baby arrived. "of course you can. I'm sure I will need as much help as possible. It's been 20 years since my last baby which also means I'm 20 yrs older and not as fast. The entire time of my pregnancy Carlisle had an shit eating grin on his face.

1 month later

Carlisle and I went to the ultrasound appointment. Reminding Dr. Kay we did NOT want to know the gender. She smiled and gave us a thumbs up. She then asked. Want to know how many you are having" "I sat straight up and said "EXCUSE ME?" you're having twins. I just fell back on to the table and slapped my forehead. Then pointed at Carlisle "YOU, YOU did this to me" he laughed and said It takes two to tango, remember" He was laughing. He actually thought this was funny. I did not. OK since you have had heart surgery and already had a C-section we do not want you to you to go into labor. I'm going to schedule you for another section but not until we get closer to your due date.

We went home and told the kids of course Alice was as excited as Carlisle. Rose said "you will definitely need help now.

Between the gas I had and the nonstop peeing I was doing Emmett was having a blast teasing me.

6 months later

The last time I went to the bathroom, something felt "off" I noticed there was blood in the toilet, I panicked and yelled for Carlisle, he came running "what's wrong" and I showed him the blood. He took me in his office, at the house, and examined me. Seems that you lost your mucus plug. OH dear lord it's too early "not really you have 3 more weeks before your appointment, but I'm going to call Dr Kay to meet us at the hospital. "Are you having any pain?" No, I was not.

We arrived in no time. Dr Kay was waiting on us with a wheelchair. She took me straight to L&D to have me triaged. "Carlisle, we need to do this surgery today she is already dilated to 3cm. I don't want her getting an infection or going into labor. So, we were having the babies today, now. Carlisle called his boys. I told him that I wanted him by my side in the OR and he said "no doubt"

2 hours later we had a boy and a girl

Carlisle Alexander Cullen 4 lbs. 3oz - 19 in long (Zander)

Bronwyn Fae Cullen 4lbs 6oz 19in long (Alice came up with Fae)

They both looked like Carlisle - fair, with blonde poofs of hair. Of course their eyes were blue, for now, I can't wait to see if they will change.

We had to stay in the hospital until they were both 5 lbs. which shouldn't take too long. Carlisle couldn't take his eyes off of them. When the kids came by Carlisle was holding Zander who had on a light blue newborn stocking cap and I was holding Bronwyn who had on a pink newborn stocking cap . Her middle name fits her said Alice. Yes it does she does look like a little fairy, minus the wings of course. When I looked over to Carlisle he was crying. I reached out for his hand. "are you happy?" Kim, you don't realize how happy I am. I'm on cloud 9. I wanted to hug him, but I could barely move. After the kids left and visitation was over, for everyone but Carlisle. After he returned the babies back to the nursery. He helped me up to take a warm bath. Due to my staples I could not get in a full shower, like I wanted. After my bath or whore bath, as my mom calls them, I climbed in bed and Carlisle climbed in with me. He put his front to my back as to not hurt my staples. My gown had an opening in the back, of course. I did have on a pair of panties. Carlisle still rubbed my ass he said he couldn't resist. I just smiled.

December

It's been a few weeks since the babies and myself have been home. And I could take a real shower. I feel so much more relaxed now we're all home. Christmas is right around the corner. I missed Thanksgiving due to being in the hospital. I haven't felt like shopping, yet. So I did all my shopping, on line. The babies room was already filled with two cribs, but only one will be used, for now. They will be in the same crib until one starts actively moving about. There were bouncy seats, onesies and bibs galore. Alice had one wall with fairies all over, that will be Bronwyn's side. The other side had Woods and wild animals over the wall. Emmett chose that, no doubt. But it was adorable, I loved it. I stood in the doorway and cried. I was so fucking happy. Carlisle came up, behind me with both babies in their carriers. Shall we try out the baby bed? YES, So he put the sleeping babes in one of the cribs. On Bronwyn's side. He laid them so gingerly width ways in the crib. That crib made them look so tiny. Which they were but it made them look even smaller. He wrapped his arm around my shoulder and laid his head down. and we just stood there staring at what we made. After a few silent moments, Carlisle whispered "thank you for this" and waved his hand over our sleeping babes.

Rose came in the room and awed talking about how precious they were and how much they looked like Carlisle, and they did. I was actually happy about that. Then Rose asked if she could feed them when they woke up. I Just glanced at Carlisle and said to Rose you might have to fight Carlisle over that. And he smiled. Carlisle was the doting father that would run to grab a bottle or baby in order to feed them. I fell more in love with him when he did this. James never wanted anything to do with our kids when they were infants. I felt like my heart would burst if it filled with more love than I already had for him.

About that time Bronwyn started fussing. Rose went to get her but Carlisle held her hand and said "give her a minute to actually wake up" I smiled, because we knew she wouldn't eat a full 4oz until she was really awake. Carlisle already knew their cries and what was wrong when they cried. He would actually let me sleep when Zander would wake in the night. Bronwyn slept a good 10 hours but Zander was like his big brother Emmett and wanted to be fed every 3 hours. It's weird how much they were alike even though they're not blood related. Oh well, I thought it was cute and it tickled the shit out of Emmett. I told Emmett I hoped he had a houseful of boys, Rose just gave me the stink eye. Christmas day was only a week off. Carlisle kept asking me what I wanted for Christmas and I just pointed and said this, this is the best present ever. "OH, I know, maybe a new house" with a sly grin. Shortly after I said that, he grabbed his laptop and started cruising the realty sites. Want to stay in this area or more towards Port Angeles? "well, since I'm not familiar with this state, I'm not sure'' Somewhere safe enough to raise the babies. OK, so we will stay in or around Forks. How many bedrooms? Well one for us, 2, eventually for the babies and another one for your office, so 5? Have to have a guest room for the older kids in case they want to come for a visit. Alice shouted YES and clapped her hands. OK I think I have found several come take a look. No sooner had I sat down to look, Bronwyn started crying. Carlisle went to get up but Rose stopped him and said "I've got her, you stay here and keep looking. Carlisle and I agreed and narrowed it down to 3 we would like to look at. So he called the Realty companies for a tour. One of them, the only 5 bedroom one, was already sold but the other 2 were still available. We had an appointment to see the other 2 shortly after Christmas.

Christmas Day

Christmas morning had me in a zombie state, Zander had us up and down all night. I don't think he felt good, but Carlisle said "he's not running a fever so, I'm unsure. OK time to chose a pediatrician. Carlisle phoned Dr Kay to get her recommendation. Soon we had an appointment with a Dr. Rush. And we packed up Zander , left Bronwyn with Alice, Rose, and the boys. We knew she would be in good hands. I think Alice was in complete and utter love with Bronwyn. She seemed to have that affect on Carlisle and myself as well.. Zander was not happy. He screamed the entire way to the dr's office I unbuckled and had Carlisle stop the car. I got out and got in the backseat with Zander and found his pacifier but he didn't want that either. He had on a clean diaper and he had been fed before we left, so he just didn't feel good. I pouted at Carlisle when he looked at me in the rearview mirror. He gave me this forlorn look. What a way to spend Christmas day. I'm actually surprised the Dr was available today. We got to her office and She concluded that Zander had an ear infection AND he was already trying to cut teeth. This early? "yes, sometimes they do that. So you will need to give him infant Tylenol and maybe Motrin IF he runs a fever. Right now he doesn't have one. " Thank you so much for seeing us on such short notice and on Christmas day." I'll do anything within my power to keep our little ones safe and healthy. I really like this Dr. We told her about his twin and she said I would love to see her, so I showed her a pic and she gushed at how cute they were and commented "they look like daddy" I smiled and said "thank goodness" She asked if Zander was a healthy eater I told her he usually downs 6 oz in each feeding she and commented on his weight. He was almost 6lbs. But he had also grown in inches he was now 23 inches long. Our little Bronwyn was still wearing newborn sizes. So Carlisle said he was going to weigh her when we got home. But the Dr told us not to compare the babies that Bronwyn might stay petite . We stopped at the drug store on the way home Carlisle had Tylenol and Motrin but for adults. So we bought some infant Tylenol and Motrin. We gave Zander some for the ride home. He never made a peep , he actually fell asleep.

When we arrived home, Alice had put Bronwyn in a onesie that said My First Christmas and it looked like an elf costume. It was so stinking cute. She had one for Zander also but we threatened her if she woke him. He was running a slight temp by the time we arrived home. So Carlisle gave him a drop of Motrin while he was sleeping and It never fazed him . Hopefully it will help bring his temp back down to normal. I hate when infants feel bad. They don't know how to tell us what's wrong. Sometimes I will cry with the sick baby. Stupid hormones.

I knew what i was going to give Carlisle for Christmas. Since I didn't get to show him my bustier on our honeymoon I figured I would put it on tonight and have my way with him or vice versa. The doggie style had me giddy. That was the best position, ever! I think that's when I got pregnant, maybe.

Later that evening everyone gathered around the tree for gifts. Alice was our elf. She started handing out gifts and when she handed me one. It was heavy. Carlisle started getting nervous as I was opening it. It was a robo vac I was surprised but not disappointed I love those damn things, but how will it get up the stairs? Carlisle said "I know it's not a great gift but I figured with you being so busy with the babies I would give you something that could help. I like it. But the stairs? Well our new house won't have stairs. Oh yeah. I handed Carlisle a small post-it note that said my gift to you will be tonight, along with a heart drawn on the bottom. He just smiled and kissed me. Then he asked Alice where my other gift was. Alice looked confused and Carlisle pointed to an ornament on the tree. She said "OH that one" and she took the ornament off the tree and handed it to me. Tied on the ornament was a key. I looked at the key and saw a cat and I screamed. I knew what it was. I looked at him with tears and said "you didn't ?' he said well, I figured we needed more room now that we had 2 babies instead of 1. I ran out to the garage and found my new car. My favorite make and model I have a brand new, never owned by anyone else before me Jaguar F-Pace in a deep blue. I cried and ran over to the drivers side and cranked it. OH my god it actually purred like a cat. I was in heaven. It would fit both car seats comfortably. I ran over to Carlisle and threw my arms around his neck and started kissing him "alright, alright, enough for now, you can thank him later, tonight. "OH, believe me I will and Emmett made a face, which made us all laugh, "Emmett how do you think the babies got here?" Alice asked, Emmett just stuck his fingers in his ears and said "lalalalala" I can't hear you. And that just made us laugh harder. When Alice dressed Zander in his elf first Christmas outfit we all gathered around the tree and took pictures. When Alice was looking at the pictures she said "Kim, you look great" I said, thank you, then I went to our room and tried on my Bustier since I didn't get to use it on our honeymoon. Sadly, when I tried it on, it didn't fit. I still had baby weight I needed to lose and my boobs were still huge. In order for it to fit correctly. I was so upset I threw it on the floor and sat on our bed and cried. I had my face in my hands when Carlisle walked in the room. "Kim, what's wrong?" I pointed to the item on the floor and said, between tears, "it doesn't fit" He picked it up and said "OH" then asked "was this my Christmas gift, from you?" Yes, since I didn't have a chance to wear it on our honeymoon, I wanted to surprise you, dammit, and I cried harder. "Kim sweetie, it's OK, NO, it isn't. I ruined your surprise. He walked over to me and put his arm around my shoulder and kissed my cheek and said "this, is all I need" I just cried harder and said "I don't deserve you" He chuckled and said "you have that backwards, I don't deserve you" We ended up kissing and making out like teens, which led to slow, romantic love making. After our session I asked "Carlisle, will you help me lose this damn weight?" Yes, I will , but I don't want to hear any complaining. OK, deal. I had gained 12lbs with the babies so I wanted to lose around 15 or more.

March - 4 months old

Today is our 1st anniversary. I can't believe it's been a year already. We are going back to Honolulu to, hopefully, have a better time than our last. We were staying in the same place but a different suite. I didn't want to leave the babies, but….Alice and the rest of the kids were more than willing to watch the babies for us. We would only be gone for a week. Our anniversary was much better, thankfully. We toured the Dole pineapple factory and had plenty of fresh, sweet, pineapple. We bought several to take home with us. After Carlisle asked about taking them on the plane with us.

When we called the kids to let them know what time we would be arriving. I could hear the babies in the background. I teared up. I missed them so much.

When we finally arrived home. I ran to Bronwyn and picked her up and twirled her around. She shook her head and said NO, NO, NO I laughed so apparently she doesn't like that. Then she saw Carlisle, Leaned towards him, out of my arms and said DA DA little stinker. Such a daddies girl. Zander was chillin' with Emmett, playing with some trucks and cars that Emmett bought him. I was so glad to be home. I missed our little family.

Chapter 10

July

We've been in our new house for 3months now. The babies, now 8 months, are growing like weeds. Little Bronwyn is the talker, like her aunt Alice. Where as Zander did everything else, first. Bronwyn was about 2 weeks behind him. She was still tiny. She weighed 10lbs and could still wear a 3 months size. Zander, our brut was so much like his big brother, Emmett, it was odd. He weighed a hefty 20lbs and wore an 18 month size, mainly due to his length. He was almost popping out of the 18 month clothing. Dr. Rush said that they were both very healthy and not to worry about Bronwyn's size.

As long as she was eating well, then we had nothing to worry about. They both had a mouth full of teeth and Zander would take a step or two but Bronwyn would sit and watch him while she crawled around at a fast speed. I remember the first time she spoke. Carlisle had went to their room, she was jumping up and down in her crib, and crying. He went in the room and she said "DA DA" and Carlisle hollered, "KIM" She just called me DA DA. I laughed because I had heard it over the baby monitor. I heard him say "that's right my little baby doll "I'm DA DA" He called her his baby doll since, he said "She reminds me of a little china doll" so it stuck. Zander still just makes his regular baby mumbles. I guess because Bronwyn talks enough for both of them. I would go up to her and say "MA MA " and she would answer with "DA DA" and if Carlisle was in the room she would point to him and hold her arms up for him. YEP, she's a daddy's girl. We decided, after our move, to fence in the back yard, and get a dog, for the kids. So we went to the Humane society and found a perfect dog for us. The card on his cage said he was surrendered by his family as they were moving overseas and could not take him. He was great around kids and other animals. So we took Rufus home with us. He is a 4yr old heeler/sheltie mix. He is a blue color and is so sweet. I'm glad he found us.

The kids would climb all over him he would just grumble but no growling or snapping. Sometimes they would try to bother him while he was eating so we put his food and water bowl out on the screened in back porch. I LOVED our little house. It has 4 bedrooms and 4 bathrooms. A large fenced in back yard, thanks to Carlisle, and a 2 car garage. Alice would come visit, a lot. She missed Bronwyn. Or Winnie Fae as she called her. And when Bronwyn would see Alice walk in the front door. She would scream and hold her arms up. They loved each other. Sometimes Emmett would come with Alice to see and play with Zander. "How's my little buddy doing?" was always the first thing he would say when he came over and then would snatch Zander up in a bear hug and spin around with him. Zander would laugh. Sometimes Bronwyn would say "NO NO NO"I guess she didn't like Emmett tossing Zander around, I don't know. I sent Britt a picture of us, at Christmas, around the tree and one of Carlisle and myself from our wedding. Britt replied with a smilie/tear face emoji and said she was happy for me and she missed me. I sent the family picture to my mother who replied with "ok I'm getting your father on the first flight out, I need to see and hold those babies. But they have yet to come for a visit. Carlisle said that maybe when he can cut loose from his practice. OH YEAH, I didn't tell you. He opened his own practice. He could make his own hours and hire who he wanted. I would, eventually , work at his office, but until that time I was doing his billing all from home. Carlisle would still have to be on call 24/7 for emergencies. But since he opened his own practice he seemed more relaxed. I was so fucking happy.

We really needed to go back to GA to finalize some things. Carlisle needed to give the hospital an official resignation. I could do mine via email, which I have already done. Plus I wanted to see my older kids. Well, the boys at least, and my granddaughters. I found out, last night, via text, that my daughter and her husband were doing a trial separation. Can't blame the boy, I'm surprised they've been together this long.

Carlisle looked at his work schedule and decided we could leave next week. I really wanted to take the kids with us, but Carlisle didn't think they would do well on the flight there and back. So we asked the older kids if they would be OK with watching them while we were gone. We would only be there long enough to finish up things. So a few days, at the most. I did need to also go by my house and grab a few things that I didn't grab before, not realizing I would be staying in Washington, permanently. The older kids had no problem watching them for us. Thankfully we had left the two original baby beds at the bigger house. Just for occasions like this.

I made sure all of our dirty clothes were washed and ready to be packed. I packed for warmer weather. Since it's warmer in GA than here. When Carlisle came home, from work, on Friday, we would be leaving. I was excited to be heading home, in a sad way. Lots of memories. Not all of them are good, but most are, I mean that is where I met Carlisle and fell in love with him. That made me smile.

Carlisle called me, Friday, while on his way home. Making sure everything, including me was ready to leave for the airport. I was ready and so was our luggage. When he arrived home, I volunteered to drive to the airport, he looked tired, but he decided he'd better drive. I still wasn't sure how to get to the airport. I kissed my babies goodbye with tears in my eyes. Carlisle put his arm around my waist and whispered in my ear "it's only going to be a few days, sweetie" Then Alice said "yeah, Kim, we can video chat before putting them to bed at night" Emmett and Jasper have opted to call me mom. Edward still calls me Kim, which is fine. I'll take what I can get. We arrived in Atlanta around 7pm and were greeted by my boys. OK, Zander is taking after Emmett and my son

Michael, so he gets it honestly. My son is over 6'2 and Emmett is 6' , so Zander is going to be tall, possibly, I mean he is popping out of his onesies. I ran to my boys and received a double hug. They shook hands with Carlisle. Michael said "looks like you're taking good care of my mom, thanks, and she looks happy" Carlisle smiled and said "I'm trying my best, and you're welcome"

Justin, my other son put his arm around my shoulder and kissed my cheek as we walked to the car they arrived in. Carlisle opted to rent us a vehicle while we were there. So, we stopped at the Hertz rental booth on the way out. All they had was a large SUV. But he rented it anyway. I told my boys what Carlisle gave me for Christmas and I showed them pictures of it. Michael whistled and said DAMN mom you finally got your dream car. I teared up and said , and my dream man. Carlisle said "she scared me when she screamed" Michael said "screamed?" I told him that I screamed when I saw the key because I knew what it was a key for. He laughed and shook his head. You guys need to come for Christmas this year. Well, it's kinda hard, mom since I have Liz and her two kids and Justin has his girl and her 2 kids. Carlisle pipped up and said you are all welcome. Our big house will fit everyone. We have plenty of room. Michael looked at me with this question on his face and mouthed "big house?" I said "yeah, Carlisle has a HUGE 8 bedroom house, that his older kids still live in, since we bought our own smaller place, but I still want you to see our smaller place. It's really cozy. We're thinking about putting in a pool but it's still in limbo right now. Carl is leery of putting one in because of the littles. "you can always teach them to swim, mom, said Justin. You made us take lessons. And you are a fantastic swimmer.

Carlisle went to the hospital to meet with the human resources officer. He gave his resignation. Mine had been acknowledged via email. So, we were both unemployed in GA. I ran by my house and grabbed more clothes and some other items, like photos and other small things I could put in my suitcase. I ran by Tori's to see my granddaughters and give them a huge hug and told them how much I loved them and I would miss them horribly. I told Tori she should come visit and let the girls meet their new aunt and uncle. Tori just snorted and huffed off. Such a bitch. Before I left Tori's house I wanted a picture of myself and the girls. Tori took that picture for me.

Carlisle and I decided to stay in a hotel closer to the airport instead of staying at my place, like I suggested. I agreed the hotel near the airport was smarter since we had an early bird flight. He contacted the kids to let them know our flight info. Emmett yelled, in the background, "MOM, Zander is walking!" Dammit, I missed his first steps. I cried and Carlisle hugged me then giggled "well, seems that our brut will now take over. Carlisle, we need to get gates for the top and bottom steps so he doesn't have an accident. I can picture him now, chasing Rufus all over the house. Oh lord. I will have my hands so full. "why don't we hire a fulltime nanny, to help you out." I hope Emmett or Alice took some video. I can't believe I missed it. When we arrived home I wanted to scoop up the babies, but they were both in their beds. But Emmett showed me his new tattoo's. one on each arm. One was of a fairy with open wings and inside one wing was the name Bronwyn and 11/16 their date of birth. The other arm was of a bear and the stomach of the bear said Zander 11/16. Emmett those are perfect. Whomever did them did a fantastic job. And very colorful, especially the fairy. Yeah you should have seen the look on the tat artist face when I said I wanted a fairy on one arm and a cub on the other. I had to explain they were for my new brother and sister.

Chapter 11

I hate the first of the month. Carlisle has to attend a 2 week medical seminar, in Seattle, every month according to the by laws of his medical license. I hated it, he was gone for 2 weeks and I missed him terribly. And in the back of my mind, I can't keep the insecurity of him being with someone while I'm at home. I can't go with him. They won't allow wives or girlfriends. I asked. BUT I ended up asking the wife of another Doctor that worked in the office with Carlisle. Yes, that is petty of me, but dammit I can't get over my jealousy and I'm still unsure if I can trust him. I mean he did have an affair while married to Esme. I confessed what I had done, one night while in bed, with Carlisle. I didn't want there to be any secrets. He was hurt that I didn't trust him enough to believe him, but he said he understood. I apologized over and over. He just said "I will gain your trust, eventually." Ok to make up for my mistake and shame I have something to show you, I didn't get to show you during our honeymoon or anniversary, but since, with your help, I've lost some weight, I figured now would be a perfect time. I had put on my new negligee that Alice and I had picked out. Carlisle was very pleased. "oooh lala" "come here woman, I need to inspect that closer" I smiled and crawled into bed next to him, not before closing our bedroom door, and locking it. He sat up and scooted closer to me. He Inspected the straps and decided after lowering them and my top half fell from my breast that he was satisfied that I had lost enough weight. I had dropped 20 lbs. I really wanted to lose more but he didn't want me to push it. So I stopped trying to lose more. After inspecting my negligee more he opted to see how easy it was for him to take it off me. It took me raising my arms and him pulling it over my head and arms. "Well, that was easy enough" I giggled and then we started kissing. He only had on a pair of sweats, no shirt. I was laying across his bare chest with my bare chest. I started rubbing his nipples and he returned the favor. We were both moaning, softly, and then ended up with him on top of me and we fell asleep like that. But not before I apologized for my non trust of him. He just grabbed my left hand held it to his and said "see these two rings, this means we're bound together, your problems are mine. Talk to me. I love you so much. I love you too. And I ended up with my lips on the nape of his neck. Kissing and breathing him in. I never wanted to move. But Zander had other ideas. Carlisle said "ill get him, you stay put" So I did after I grumbled my complaint.

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The night Carlisle arrived in Seattle, for 2 weeks, he sent me a text. Hey love

what are you doing?

I miss you, wish you could have came with me, I'm lonely :(

HI, yourself.

I'm watching a vampire show with Alice

I miss you too, I wish I could have come with you too, I'm lonely also, in bed that is, since I do have the littles to keep me busy.

haha, why are you watching a show about vampires?

I just opted for what Alice was already watching, it isn't that bad, honestly, and the main guy is kind of hot, especially when he gets mad at his siblings.

Hotter than me?

Never, plus I don't want you to get mad in order to find out. I prefer your face when it's calm and smiling. I miss your face actually. Take a selfie and send it to me. OK but only if you send me one, especially if it's in the negligee OK, but I will have to send mine later, after the show.

My phone pinged a few minutes later with a smiling Carlisle, sitting in bed bare chested. I just smiled and replied with

Not fair. You are more sexy than I am.

I disagree. UM since you sent me one of you bare chested, want me to do the same? YES, please. Ok I will when I can. I love you and miss you. I love you and miss you too. Are the babies being good for you? Always, and thankfully I have Alice here, to help. But so far everything has been great. Emmett is also a big help when taking Zander outside to play in the sandbox. I think Emmett loves it as much as Zander does.

"OK sweetie, I'm tired, so I'm going to go to sleep now. OK I will send you a picture when I go to bed, hopefully it won't wake you when it comes through." I LOVE YOU!XOXO

The next morning, I took a bare chested picture of me, but you could still see the negligee just from the waist down then I sent it to Carlisle. Good morning, handsome, hope this makes your day better. Still wish you were here to see it/me in person. Love you, miss you K

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Chapter 12

Since Carlisle wasn't going to be home until next weekend. Alice asked if I would like to do something for the day. YES, I'm ready to get out of this house. I need to take my mind off of Carlisle while he's in Seattle. So, we opted to take the babies to the park. They had toddler swings and other items the babies could play on. Emmett bought both kids a bike of sorts. They could sit on it while someone else pushed from behind. We stuck those in the car so we could also walk laps. Emmett decided he wanted to tag along, which was great, he adored Zander and I have an odd suspicion Zander felt the same way about Emmett. We all climbed in my new car, with Emmett driving. The day was gorgeous, so far, not a cloud in the sky. So, when we arrived at the park, it was busy, with kids and parents alike. Alice got Bronwyn out while Emmett grabbed Zander. I took the bikes out of the back and grabbed their diaper bag. And my phone. I was going to take pictures for Carlisle and send them to him later.

After about an hour of the babies playing/swinging, etc. Alice and I decided to put them on their bikes and start walking. There was a nice pond with ducks and such. The babies laughed and clapped.

Another few minutes and we decided to head back home. I sent pictures to Carlisle. Telling him where we were and that the weather was so nice for the outing.

On the way home. I had an off sort of feeling. Something wasn't right. I couldn't put my finger on it, but it was there, lingering in the air. Alice asked me if something was wrong. I shrugged and said "just a weird feeling" she asked if I was feeling sick. "no, not sick just off". No sooner had a I said that when Emmett said SHIT and I heard a horn blow. Next thing I remember was hearing someone say "Kim, sweetheart, can you hear me?" but nothing else. I was having a dream of floating on a beautiful lake with the sun shining and it felt so warm. Then I heard "Kim, honey, please open your eyes. Squeeze my hand if you can hear me." I wanted whoever it was to be quiet. So, I said "sssssshhhhhhhhh" and then I felt a kiss on my lips. My eyes fluttered open and Carlisle's beautiful face was looking at mine and he had tears lingering on his cheeks. Then he hugged me and said "Kim, thank God, you're awake" I tried to sit up, but I could barely move. I asked "what happened, and where am I?" Apparently it seemed that we had been in a car accident. Hit head on by a young girl who took a curve too fast. "Where are my babies?! Carlisle kept a quiet voice and said "they're fine, they are on the Pediatric floor. You are still in the ER. Where are Emmett and Alice? Well, Emmett is a little worse for wear. But he will be fine. And Alice is in the hall waiting to see you. Let her in, please. She came in and I could tell she'd been crying. I asked had she seen Emmett and she said yes, he's hurting but he's more concerned about you. Carlisle said that the Dr. told him you would be fine, he's going to put you on the floor, for observation, but only for a day, maybe 2. You are bruised from head to toe. And your right shoulder is shattered. They had to do surgery. That is why you can hardly move. So try and stay still, please. I started crying which hurt. Why am I having a hard time breathing? Well you also have a couple of bruised ribs. So taking in deep breaths will hurt. Carlisle also said, angrily I can tell you this, I will NOT be going back to Seattle without you. They can get mad at me, but I'm not doing it. They can kiss my ass if they think I'm leaving you alone for 2 weeks again. "I just want to go home. And I pouted. Carlisle whispered. Don't worry, I'm not leaving you. I'm staying here, tonight. I will go check on the babies right quick then come back to see what room they put you in. "OK, give them a kiss from me and tell them I love them. I want to hold them so bad" Take a picture of them, please. Carlisle, kissed my hand and said he would take a picture of them both.

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Carlisle returned a few minutes later. I had been moved to a room, and I was relieved. It was much quieter than the busy ER. I asked "how are the babies?" Carlisle said that he had to insist they put the babies in the same room. Because Bronwyn was crying but as soon as Carlisle got Zander, then took him to see Bronwyn, she finally quit crying. He put Zander in the same bed and they sat there "talking" to each other. He said the nurse walked in and had a fit because of what he had done. He told her to chill. I laughed because I would have loved to have seen the nurses face when he said that. He took a picture. But I was shocked when I saw it. Zander had a purple blotch on his cheek. It was a bruise, I found out the bruise was caused by me. When my arm/shoulder hit the window I also landed on my poor baby boy. Little Bronwyn came out unscathed, thank goodness. She's so tiny. Those car seats we paid a fortune for did their job. Now we will have to buy a new one for Zander. His was damaged in the crash. Thankfully he wasn't hurt too badly.

1 year later

Its November again. And my babies are a year old. Damn, time goes by so fast. Now both are walking. Zander will run but Bronwyn just toddles around at her own little speed. She is still tiny compared to her brother. At least, this year I will be home for Thanksgiving. My boys took us up on coming for the holidays. Michael and Emmett became fast friends. And my boys adored their new baby siblings. Michael took to Zander, which wasn't a surprise. Justin scooped Bronwyn up in his arms and smothered her with kisses. She cried at first then he started talking to her very softly, in her ear, and she smiled and cooed at him When we sat down to eat he made sure she was by his side and he would feed her and once he even offered to change a stinky diaper. Alice really liked my Justin, she would hold his arm and walk with him. He explained to her that he had a serious girlfriend back at home. Alice would just smile and shrug her shoulders. She said that she was just flirting and they weren't doing anything wrong. But Justin and Jasper disagreed so Alice laid off with the arm holding after a bit. Justin enjoyed the attention. But knew if it got back to his girl she would call it quits. And Michael being Michael and an annoying brother. He would probably let it slip, "accidentally". We were planning on a big birthday party for the babies. So we invited all the girls, Bella included. Carlisle's boys, of course and a couple of Carlisle's Dr friends that also have small children. Alice had a cake specially ordered. One half was purple in color with a fairy on it, with woods and small mushroom houses and Bronwyn's name the other side was green with a forest and small woodland creatures, it was so cute. Carlisle took the day off. Since it was on a Monday. I was so glad he took the day off. He had thought about closing the office for the day since he and 2 other Drs would not be there. He finally decided to close the clinic and called his office to tell the receptionist to tell everyone to go home and close the office. Tell everyone there was a family emergency. And don't worry you will all be paid for the day. And that was our day. I was exhausted when everyone left. The girls all helped me clean up and we got it done in no time. Thank goodness for their help. I took Carlisle up on his offer to hire a nanny. Because I knew the girls would not be at my beck and call whenever I would need them. I would miss them once they left. Bella did tell me that I could call her and she would come to my rescue if she could . Depending on her truck. Rose took both babies and gave them a good bath and dressed them for bed, after things died down a bit. I thanked her over and over. It was a huge help.

Chapter 13 5 yrs later

5 years. Carlisle and I are still going strong. We weren't perfect, we both had our flaws, but we learned to talk them out and not overreact, which I did, a lot. The babies were now 4 and in Pre-K. I could have swore we just brought them home, from the hospital, yesterday. When they got their school pictures I put them, side by side with their hospital picture and cried. Where did my babies go?

Zander was our trouble maker. He was always bringing home notes saying he talked back to the teacher all the time and he would get into shouting matches with other students. Zander towered over most of his school mates. Whereas Bronwyn was the tiniest in her class and was oh so sweet. Her notes said she is my sweetest, most quiet student. I felt so proud of my kids, all of them. Well with the exception of Tori, my oldest. Sadly she was too much like her ass hat father.

Rose and Emmett finally got married and she was expecting their first baby in a few weeks. Alice and Jasper were still going strong but no wedding yet. Edward and Bella were on again, off again. I knew it probably wouldn't last. But I kept my mouth shut. Except I did tell my concerns to Carlisle who also had the same feeling. He even spoke to Edward about it, but Edward just told Carlisle to keep his concerns out of his business. I actually felt bad for Bella. She was acting like I did when I was with James. I could see myself in Bella. I don't know if Edward was verbally abusive to her but I just had a gut feeling he kept her from doing what she wanted to do. Just like James did to me.