One day while Red was out of the country, Lizzie decided to take a day off of work to do some cleaning in their house. Agnes was starting to sleep better at night since she hit a certain age. Lizzie decided to clean off the bookshelves in the living room. She saw his journals on the book shelf and she picked up a random one. She sat down on the couch with the journal in one hand and the baby monitor in the other knowing that Red will probably be gone for a while. She opened the journal and read the first entry that was written.

June 15th, 1985

Denny's Mad Cow Disease has gotten worse, he doesn't have long to live. The firm is going downhill, I need to do something other than watch my spouse go downhill. I'll make a plan. I have decided to start this journaling so that I can take my mind off of shit. ~ Alan Shore

Lizzie read the entry and looked at it weirdly before dropping the book in surprise "Oh my God I know my husband's identity now… Who the hell was Alan Shore before he became Raymond?" she asked herself in disbelief as her eyes widened before she continued

June 21st, 1985

I stayed up last night, couldn't sleep so I decided to watch Denny make pig sounds again. I decided to call my childhood friend Raymond and decided today was the day that I would talk to him. I have made a difficult decision on my own that after Denny would pass away, I would fake my own death and take Raymond's identity. ~ Alan Shore

After Elizabeth read the entry, she went to the fridge to grab some food because she was hungry. She decided that she would eat, read another entry and then clean. She knows that she has time to read some if not all. Elizabeth grabbed her Chinese takeout leftovers, heating them up in the microwave without waking her daughter up in the process. She looked at the monitor and saw that she was still asleep "Agnes you will always know your father as Raymond and not Alan. It was his choice and we will not ruin that for him." She said at the monitor watching her sleep before she continued reading.

June 30th, 1985

Denny passed on the days ago in his sleep…. I decided that the plan must go on even if I want to back out of it. I went over to Raymond's place, finding Katarina and him fighting. The next thing I noticed was some guy running away from the scene as the fire started, I'm not sure who it was but I knew something serious must've taken place. The next thing I noticed was Elizabeth holding one of Raymond's firearms towards Raymond himself, firing the weapon killing him. Katarina fled the house as I took Elizabeth out of the house, and took her to where Kate Kaplan was. ~ Alan Shore

Elizabeth took a deep breath as she felt bad for Raym... Alan losing Denny like that and then witnessing the fire and saving her. She decided to continue to the next entry.

July 2nd 1985,

We had Denny's funeral this morning, as I saw his ashes being put into the ground, a part of me wanted to be with him but another part of me knew what I needed to do here on earth. I can't leave Elizabeth with Kate but I can't take care of her either. Yesterday I called one of Kate's and also Raymond's mutual friends Sam Milhoan. He agreed to take Elizabeth, and we will give her to him in 72 hours. ~ Alan Shore

"So that's how Sam adopted me, interesting." She said curiously

July 5th, 1985

Kate and I dropped off Elizabeth with Sam in Nebraska. I told her that I would only watch her from a distance knowing that I had to have the reconstructive facial and jaw surgery to resemble Raymond. We agreed that she would not know the man that saved her life that night to save her the pain of knowing the truth about her mother. I have an appointment with Dr. Koehler to discuss the surgery. ~ Alan Shore

August 7th, 1985

Dr. Koehler has done the surgery, my face is different and my voice is deeper than before. Of course I informed Shirley about this major life decision before doing so before Denny died. She thought it was absolutely dangerous and that I was stupid for doing so, so soon after our beloved Denny passed on. She can think whatever she wants because it's my choice. I have an appointment with the man who took my place at the office in a few days. Maybe I'll persuade him to be my lawyer since Raymond Reddington needs one. To the world Alan Shore has died so it would only be right if Raymond gets a new lawyer. ~ Al…. Raymond Reddington

"Who the hell is Shirley? Obviously she knew Denny along with Red or Alan or whatever his name is. Oh shit that's how he met Marvin, this is all making sense now. Damn it Red your life is complicated as fuck." She said before she read on the next entry

August 10th 1985,

I met up with the new lawyer today, he's an underground criminal just like Raymond. I had to do a bunch of research on him before I went to visit him. He seems pretty chill and maybe he could help me adjust to this new way of living. We will see in a few years from now, if there's no more journal entries past that point it means that I died before I could fill in the next entry. ~ Raymond Reddington

Lizzie shook her head at the last sentence of the journal knowing that he had more to tell. "What am I going to do with you, Red?" She asked herself "I know your real name but I'm just so used to calling you Red. So that's just going to stick, I can keep your cover up Alan." She said to herself as she closed the journal before reaching for another one.

May 5th 1993,

I have been so busy with building the empire that I couldn't find the time to keep up with the entries. I have kept an eye on Elizabeth like I promised Sam all those years ago. My God she's grown up so much in the past few years, I don't think I can stay away from her forever. I leave today for a few days to go to Kenya for business. I will leave the journal here till after I get back for a few reasons." ~ Raymond Reddington

After she got done reading the entry, she heard the car pull in the driveway. She knew it was her husband referring back home. Elizabeth put the journal away and grabbed the rag to begin dusting the furniture off so that he would think she was working the entire day.

Red came inside and saw her working. He looked at her oddly because they had people that he hired personally that he knew to do cleaning. "Hey honey, I got the shipment done early. We have people who clean, why are you doing it on your day off?" He asked not sure why she was doing what she was doing.

She got up and set the rag down. She went over to him "I got bored honey, after I put Agnes down I needed to do something; and I didn't want to nap. Besides I missed you" She wrapped her arms around his neck and leaned into kiss him softly

Red pulled her closer to him by her hips and kissed her back softly "I missed you too. You must be exhausted, how about we get ready for bed?" He asked her

"I would like that Red. Let me put a few things away and make sure Agnes is fine before we go to bed."

"Oh no you don't, you've been with her all day, let me give her a bottle and change her. You go up and relax after you finish cleaning up." He gave her a light kiss on the head before he let her go.

She smiled at him 'You're so damn cute sometimes I can't with you, babe.' She thought to herself "Alright sounds good, handsome." She said before she left the room to do a few minor things while he took care of the baby for her.

About a half hour later, they met up in their bedroom after a very long day. Red covered his wife with the blanket and kissed her cheek before spooning her close to him.

Lizzie laid her head down on his chest and sighed happily. 'I need to tell him that I know who he is but I can't tonight but soon.' She thought to herself before she looked up at him "Good night, I love you." She smiled at him softly before she snuggled back into his chest.

He smiled at her softly "Good night and I love you too my love." He kissed her head lightly before he closed his eyes.

Soon both of their breathing had even out to where they were asleep. After a long day for both of them, they were in much need of sleep.