Fate - No - Kamisama

Disclaimer: I do not own fate or Shinza Bansho. It belongs to Nasu And Masada Exclusively.

A/N: Or otherwise known as Melancholy for a fleeting dream.

The world is filled with numerous wonders: Magic, The Supernatural, Stars, Science, Space etc. Its beauty is one that remains ever expanding free from the chains of stagnation…Then why do I feel so empty?

'Why can't this dream just end already? Why did I do all of this in the first place? What was even the point? Why can't I remember it?!.'

This feeling is one I can't get rid of. The chains of despair are trying to latch onto me but I can't even feel that too, is this normal? Why did this happen?... Why did I become God?!

The event horizon was once my solace, devoid of the realm of change and ever still not moving…I had a wish not to change… Then what happened? Yes. I remember it all started because of her.

"...Such an idiotic tragedy."

That beauty she held that captivated me like no other, her blazing and wrathful emotions that ignited a sense of bliss into my soul, her perchance for failure captivated my undivided attention that was truly what made me for the first time in my unmoving life want to experience the feeling of… Change.

"What a sorrowful result it made…" From the beginning to the end, from the origin towards the coordinate and from zero into infinity all those events, journeys and actions shouldn't have happened.

I don't know if I'm insane or sane.

I don't know if I made the right decision.

I don't know why I exist anymore.

I don't know why I was blinded by my love.

I don't know if I hated her or loved her.

Because I can't feel anything anymore for I have truly become "Empty". Hence, Sadness, Happiness, Sorrow, Hatred, Infatuation, Pride, Wrath, Envy, Lust, Greed, Gluttony and Sloth can not be felt because I have casted them away.

I miss them soo much.

I'll protect you forever even if I have to suffer for all of eternity I will always love you Mith-

"Y-your red hair looks really beautiful!"

"...I wanted those moments to last forever."

"...I should have wanted to experience every possibility but at the same time taste the unknown…"

The masses came unto me with their sorrows, their prayers and supplication were gathered and conjoined so as to reach the Heavens although their plight were left on deaf ears they still regarded me as the one ultimate being, their figurehead, their creator, their lord.

They called me God, Yahweh, Jehova, Allah and now finally... Akasha.

They saw me as a pillar of miracles but at the same time did not. Select few have made it here and survive, they are the ones who took something from my past; Black, Blue, White and Red.

Many others had, will and would still seek to reach this archive of mine for all want a taste of the great beyond.

With an emotionless tone I shall speak:

"I am the Alpha and the Omega, the First and the Last, the Beginning and the End." The zeroth and the first and the predecessor for the next.

Now I understand, I am not infinite but I want to experience infinity…

"Throughout heaven and earth I alone am the honoured one."

….So can someone please come and kill me.

— Next Chapter: Futile Despair —

A/N: And that's it everyone see you next time.