Sakura

Lately, at night, I've been lying in bed pondering. Thinking about Naruto. Thinking about Sasuke. Thinking about all of our issues.

It's exhausting.

Just about a week ago, I was able to say with complete confidence that I was more comfortable with Naruto than anyone else. Though that's gone. That trust, that... feeling of absolute peace... that I'd feel around him. Now I'm opening my eyes just a little bit more and noticing something.

Sasuke

Was I so oblivious to him? Don't get me wrong, when things would go south in the past, Naruto was always there for me, but Sasuke—who I didn't even consider too much—has always been there.

He would beat the daylight out of anyone—physically and verbally—who teased Naruto and me as kids. Shit, Sasuke's more forceful than Naruto, when I take the time to go over our pasts.

I always thought that it was just his nature.

Itachi is somewhat the same. He always had our back when we were being chased home by high schoolers in primary school or if someone threatened to hurt Sasuke, but he's not anywhere near Sasuke's level.

No, this is something different and now I don't know what to do about it.

Sasuke's not like this with anyone. Normally he's super kept-to-himself and doesn't spare two seconds to even help up a kid who tripped in the hallway. If he knows that you're right behind him and he's opening a door he'll close it extra fast to ensure that it's slammed in your face before you have a chance to walk through.

But, Sasuke opens my doors. Sasuke helps me up when I fall. Now I know these might be expected from a person someone's known their whole life, but do friends let you bawl your eyes out into their sleeve or get ticked off when other guys wink at you? That is a problem because I do not think so.

I also don't think I mind.

Like I think I might like Sasuke to feel this way about me, to be just a little protective over me.

I want Sasuke to be endlessly willing to be there for me when I need him most, even when I don't know it.

Because

I think I might just have some feelings for Sasuke.

Naruto

I've known Sasuke my entire life.

Now, we weren't the clique best friends whose moms' were like sorority sisters in college or something and got pregnant at the same time so that their kids would be "best buds."

We just were.

There was a public daycare that we both went to when we were four. I hated Sasuke's guts and he did mine but after being paired as partners in activities so much we kind of just became acquainted.

Sasuke hates girls.

I never understood why because girls are the shit. Pretty faces, cool, long hair; cute smiles, etcetera, the point is they're great.

So of course Sasuke, who's been a human magnet to females his whole life, has nothing to do with them. Meanwhile, I struggle to get a girl to smile in my direction.

But Sakura... I couldn't believe what I was seeing when she walked into our classroom that day of primary school. She was perfect then but even now she's somehow exceeded that. Naturally pink hair. It took years for me to be proven so. It curls just at the ends, un-effortlessly cute. Green, wide, gorgeous eyes. On top of that, she's adorably tempered, forgiving, and annoyingly intelligent.

God knows I'm not the only one in love with her.

It was an absolute gift when I was granted the fact that Sakura: the world's most beautiful creation, didn't swoon over Sasuke like every other girl that was in our class. She was just sweet, so I had a chance with her. Unfortunately, she's never admitted to liking me, but I managed to swoop her up into my grasp before any other guys could. I've been trying to get her out of the friend zone with me my whole life but she's never budged.

Thankfully, I also never had to worry about Sasuke trying to steal her either. He's seemingly chill with her as I am but never made any move that would indicate him having an interest in her.

And I was so glad.

Somethings going on though. Because lately, even before all of this mishap, Sasuke's been revealing more than to my liking. He just seems different around her.

What the hell is with him sleeping in her room? I know it's because she needed comfort but Sakura never let me do something like that. And until now I never thought Sasuke would share a vicinity with any girl.

Also, and this has been happening for a couple of months, Sasuke keeps.. staring.. at her. Like anytime she's not paying attention. It's no surprise if I am because I'm head over heels for Sakura.. but Sasuke?

I'm trying desperately to convince myself that there's no way Sasuke has some kind of crush on Sakura. That's crazy. He wouldn't do that to me.

Seriously, he knows how in love with her I am. I know he's mad but he can't feel anything for her, right?

Fuck.

I have a problem now because I'm almost positive that Sasuke has something for Sakura.

Sasuke

Calm down. Please.

It was midnight,

Sakura had finally finished her project and went to take a shower.

20 minutes later I was opening my door to the hallway at the same time Sakura's leaving the bathroom with a towel.

I should be more specific, the only thing covering her was a towel.

It happened so fast, we have small hallways, so the bathroom door and mine are directly in front of each other and close.

So when Sakura and I are both at a quick, unbothered pace...you do the math.

While I was trying to walk out at the same time as her, we smashed together, her head into my chest, I tried to balance myself by reaching for the wall but my body weight which is far more than hers took over and we were brought to the ground with a loud bang.

I still can't forget the embarrassment we both felt as I subconsciously had her pinned to the ground. She and I's faces madly blushing and me awkwardly trying to help her up.

This happened 3 hours ago and now I'm laying in bed at 3:00 still thinking about a post-shower Sakura beneath me.

She looked so embarrassed but it was...

Geez even when she's flustered she's gorgeous.

What am I saying?

You think Sakura's "gorgeous."

I didn't mean to–

–Sasuke, what's that feeling you're getting right now?

Shut the hell up.

What do you think it would feel like to kiss Sakura?

Nothing.

Liar. Imagine her lips...

Oh my gosh, shut the fuck up.

If you say it.

No, Naruto's still my friend.

Say it...

It's Sakura.

Say it.. what about Sakura?

Fuck,

I think you like–

I think I love her.