TRIBULATION

chapter three thoughts

The sunlight is so bright as a way to bring peace to whoever on this planet has struggled and needs some form of a light to guide them, that things will get better. But things for Caroline seem to get anything but better. She doesn't understand why she is stuck in this place of her not healing.

She was sitting on a concrete bench as her hands were on top table, as she observed the small town square that seemed to slowly suffocate her. Her eyes stop at Elena and Damon who seem to be chatting. Anger rushes towards her seeing them together. But what if Elena doesn't know Damon for who he actually is?

She knows Damon and he is anything then he displays himself to be. He has the same face but to her he looks like a completely different person. Anytime they are in the same room she gets so nervous. Her mind wanders, did he do it to other innocent girls?

Or was it just her?

He preyed on her innocence and vulnerability, he played with her emotions knowing she was not strong as she liked to be. She sighs as right now there are more important things than her thinking about her emotions. So much has changed in the last eight months, she is a vampire and forever stuck at seventeen.

She felt a shadow fall upon her as she looked up to see Elijah. A man that claims to help Elena from his brother killing her but she doesn't know if he is actually a man of his word. She gives a gentle smile as they really have not formally met, "I'm Caroline. Elijah right?"

Elijah nodded as he gave out a small smile as he moved across guestering if he could sit. Caroline nodded as he sat staring at her, which made Caroline a bit nervous. She is still wary of all men. Is if he could see her as he gave a gentle smile, "I mean no harm, Miss Forbes. Just wanted to introduce myself."

Caroline felt guilty as she really did not mean to make him uncomfortable, "Sorry."

Elijah shook his head, "Is alright. You were just watching out for yourself."

She gave a slight nod because she has to look after herself because no one else is. Silence fell upon the two. Caroline observed him as wondering why he would introduce himself to her? She was not even part of the plans even if she wanted to, no one seemed to include her.

She sighs as she looks at his eyes, "Can I ask you a question?"

Elijah nodded as curiosity fell upon him. Caroline fiddled with her fingers, "You have been around a long time, so I was wondering if you know how to make life easier?"

Not many things get Elijah surprised but he will admit that question caught him off guard. He assumed that he would ask for more information about him or his family.

He cleared his throat, "Pardon me, Miss Forbes that question caught me off guard. What exactly do you mean?"

Caroline shut her eyes as she opened them avoiding his gaze, "Like when you are in pain or feel lost, how do you deal with it?"

Elijah nodded wondering why she was asking that question. He knows she is a baby vampire but to question that feeling so earlier on, he won't admit it but was concerning if she felt like asking him who is a stranger to her.

He stares into her eyes, "Truth is, I am not sure. I find myself doing things that I enjoy."

Caroline nodded as she heard that advice before but it really does not seem to be working. She gave him a delicate smile, "Thank you Elijah and please call me Caroline."

Elijah stood up as he gave her a stifle nod, "You're welcome Caroline. Have a good day."

Before Caroline could reply he walked away as she mumbled out, "You too."

She sighs, getting up and heading home. Not much progress has happened; her mother deals with her but ignores that she exists at all, Bonnie talks to her but Caroline could see the hint of shame in her eyes. Entering home she finds herself alone and goes straight to her bedroom throwing herself on to the bed.

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Caroline screams in agony as a bullet impales her ribcage, tearing against her skin. Tears flowed out of her ocean orbs as she wanted to go to her room. She stared at Tyler in hatred as he refused to help her. She thought they were friends but she guessed wrong. She closed her eyes as everything blurred out.

She woke up in her room with a note that caught her attention, Care everything will be handled, just rest. - Stefan

She scoffs as none of this would happen if they just tell her what is going on but no one ever tells her anything. She saw the blood bag on the side table but decided that she was not hungry even with her gums burning in hunger but she ignored it. She refused to eat.

She changed out of bloody clothes stepping into her bathtub as deja vu washed over her. The icey pummel water hit her flesh like a bolt of energy as she washed all things that happened to her down the shower drain.

She could not help but think that she wishes she could forget easily instead of ignoring everything. Because how does anyone confront this? How do you tell someone you were raped with making sure they belived you?

Shaking her thoughts away, she stepped out of the shower drying her body. She put on her bra and underwear as she stared at her body. She hated what she saw, she was still too skinny but that is due to her lack of drinking blood. She sighs as she changes to her pjs and decides to drink the blood bag.

She threw her head on a pillow sobbing to it as she hated life and everything. She saw her guitar and instantly felt better. She shut her eyes as darkness consumed her thinking she needed more distractions to deal with life and its pain.

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Elena and the rest of her friends were mad at her because she refused to do anything. After her toture session in the woods, she only went to school and home. In between that Klaus had come to town as he broke his curse.

Caroline could not but feel a bit glad that Elena and him both got what they wanted, he broke his curses and she is alive. Is a win-win. She only felt glad for him because she thought back how she was locked in her mind; he must have felt a similar experience with his werewolf side locked up.

But her friends were mad because she was not there for them but when were they there for her? She was tortured three weeks ago. Do they expect her to be over it already?

How is she suppose to heal completely when she refuses to be in the same room as Damon, and ignores whatever happened to her. Because if she convinces herself nothing happened then nothing happened. But instead here she is on her deathbed on her birthday.

She is eighteen but not much excitement coursed through her body as all she cares about is that maybe her dying is the way it was supposed to be. She sighs as her mother came to bid her goodbyes and left because she could not bear to see her die, as she failed her role as a mother.

Caroline narrowed her eyes as she heard light footsteps coming to her? Was it Tyler to apologize for killing her because she may have forgiven him last time but not for this. The worst part is that she is dying without confronting Damon at all, which makes her mad but she does not have the guts to see him.

She sighs as she sees who Klaus is all in his glory. His dark blonde curls caught her attention. She tilts her head as she thought, why are all the bad guys good looking?

She stares at him in confusion but a tiredness fills her up, "Are you going to kill me?"

She saw his eyes widen as he stopped at the question,"On your birthday, do you really think that low of me?"

Caroline's face remains emotionless as she answers in a broken, tone. She did not know what to think but she knew better than to show weakness in front of him, "Yes."

Klaus steps closer slowly and reaches out to her cover which he lifts slowly to see the large bite of her neck and shoulder as it looks terrible, "Ahhh, that looks bad. My apologies, you are known as collateral damage, it's nothing personal."

Caroline stares at him as she slowly admires his look but still confused as to why he was here. She notices him reaching out again with his finger and lightly flicks a charm on her silver bracelet and smiles. "I love birthdays."

"Yeah, aren't you like a billion or something?" she says in a small sarcastic tone which she regrets but she saw him grin at her.

"You have to change your perception of time when you become a vampire Caroline. Celebrate the fact that you are no longer bound by trivial human conventions, you're free."

Her eyes welled up with tears at his words, and she looked away, only to return and lock her dazzling blue sapphires on his, "No," she murmurs as she holds eye contact. "I'm dying."

Klaus tilts his head and slowly sits down on her bed and begins whispering slowly as she looks at him in doubt. "And I could let you die, if that's what you want. If you really believe your existence has no meaning. I've thought about it myself, once or twice over the centuries, truth be told."

His face dims somewhat, but he keeps his cool as he moves in closer to her, his voice regaining power and his eyes filling with brightness, "But I'll let you in on a little secret, there's a whole world out there waiting for you. Great cities, art, and music. "

His voice dips into a low whisper as his eyes remain locked onto her glistening ocean orbs, "Genuine beauty. And you could have all of it. You could have a thousand more birthdays, all you have to do is ask."

Caroline froze wondering why he thought so highly of her? She really could not see herself living for so long. She closes her eyes as her responds surprises him, "I don't know if I want to live."

Klaus narrows his eyes at her not knowing what to do. He might have not known her but her brightness and light is so captivating and he wants to see more of it. The whole world needs to see her light and warmth she radiates off.

So, he pulls back his sleeve and wraps his other hand around her back, bringing her up close to his chest and holding her tightly. "Well I think the world deserves to have you so here you go sweetheart."

He brings his wrist closer to her face and she hesitates for a second before letting her fangs pierce into his skin. "Have at it. Happy birthday Caroline."

He gives her a delicate smile as he places a tender kiss into Caroline's hair, before he could flash away she stops him, "Thank you."

He nodded at her words as he saw her eyes slowly close as her body sunk in the bed. He observed her room noticing a sketch book on her desk, he went to it and gently opened it, seeing a bunch of beautiful clothing designs. His lips quirk up as he admired her designs, he shifted to see a lilac guitar.

His lips curl up as a smile fell upon him. He wanted to know what she enjoyed to do. He wanted to know everything about her. His eyes fell upon her knowing that this world will see her light.

Caroline woke up the next morning with a beautiful bracelet and a drawing of her, all from Klaus. She stared at the bracelet debating whether to wear it or not. She moves to her closet as she thrifted and sewed a skirt together with different fabrics.

She put on a denim blue skirt with a tight white t-shirt with a gray oversized sweater. She grabbed her backpack but stopped as she put the bracelet on, feeling joy for a while.

But when does happiness ever last long for her?

notes!

THOUGHTS?!?!?!

I hope I am doing okay on grasping her thoughts an emotions well.

so up to here is like the show and i will do the mikaelson ball but after that will be the only thing related to the shows as the rest will be off canon!

So, I rewatching tvd and a lot of characters really did not give consent in many situations that pisses me off because what is that teaching the audience?

also i think caroline will get a puppy (:

I hope you all have a good day.