My Heart Bleeds For You PT.5
(AU Kataang FanFic)
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It had been a week since the Fortune teller incident, Aang still doesn't know why we left so early and in such a haste.
We decided to make camp, in a valley between two hills near a crossroads. Aang had gone off by himself looking for some fruits to bring back to eat.
Leaving Sokka and I alone, but I had no interest in talking to him. So I stayed isolated in my own head.
Since that day in Aunt Wu's village, me and Sokka have never been more distant. I don't want to talk to him.
I always just called us family, but now… I'm starting to understand the people who call us monsters.
Because we are monsters, it's heartbreaking that it took Sokka killing an entire village for me to see it.
It hurts me to say it, but I can't be around him any more. Some how some way, we need to split up. I don't know how to convince Aang, but it has to happen.
We can't keep Sokka around. I need to say something, but how… how would that conversation even unfold?
That question would be answered within a matter of around ten minutes.
Because Sokka had noticed my far off thoughts, and the conversation that followed. Is still etched into my brain.
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"What's wrong sis?" Sokka asks
"What do you mean Sokka?" I ask trying to be convincing.
Although I could see he wasn't convinced.
"Ever since that fortune teller village, you've seemed…. Distant" he says.
So he had noticed, I knew this was going to come up, but I don't think I am ready to confront him yet.
"Ahh I know what bugging you" he says with a knowing smirk.
What?… Does he know? this could lead to a big fight if he takes it the wrong way… but what other way could he really take it?
"You are just mad at me for yelling at Aang." He says with a chuckle.
At that I feel my anger rising. I could agree with his statement and this would be over. But I can't, he is acting if those people don't exist.
"No, that's not it… you idiot" I say with a pissed off glance.
He was angry about that.
"What did you say?" He replied with a hiss.
I can't let the sin from a week ago go unsaid…. Not anymore.
"I said NO!" I yelled
His look of anger turned back to confusion.
"Then why? Why have you acted like you hated me?" He asked with anger returning.
"Because maybe I do……. You killed everyone, and act like they don't exist. You are a MONSTER!" I scream.
He doesn't look angry, more like he's thinking.
"And you aren't? You think you're some saint?" He asks with a smile that screams bitter.
Those words hurt, that insecurity starts to come back. I want him to stop talking but he keeps going.
"You think anyone in our family isn't a monster?" He continued.
"Aang. Aang isn't a monster" I respond as if it's obvious.
His fury only increased at the mention of Aang.
"Who cares about Aang?"
And that question causes my fury to increase.
"I do! And he cares about me" I say without even thinking.
He looks at me with even more rage building, I could see he thought Aang was the source of all his problems.
"Would he care about you if he knew how much of a monster you actually were." He asked smirking.
Again the insecurities came to the forefront of my mind. Would he? I hope he would. Isn't that what love is? Caring about someone even when they have faults?
Or are my faults to much to bare?
My silence spoke volumes to Sokka, and he responded with a jab I knew was coming since the beginning of this argument.
"Would he still care about you…. If he knew what you did to Jet?" He asked with a smirk.
The insecurities only amplified with that. Jet suffered that night, he suffered at my hands… I regret it. But would that matter to Aang?
"He doesn't know about that" I say trying more to assure my self.
"Well then maybe I should tell him" he says with a smile that told me he enjoyed the pain he was causing me.
I couldn't let that happen. He would make Aang leave me. And with Aang gone…. My hunger would undoubtedly return. I can't allow that.
"You won't" I say simply.
"And what makes you so sure" he asks confidently.
It feels like the weight of every life we are responsible for ending, is upon my shoulders, and that weight pushes out the next words.
"I'm so sure because you're leaving" I say with hate in my voice.
He looks shocked, like he didn't comprehend the words I just spoke.
"What is that supposed to mean" he asks with confusion.
I start to remember people. Haru, Aunt Wu and the countless people in her village, as well as the many 'disappearances' from back home. All egging on my next two words.
"Get Out!" I say firmly.
He stands there silently, as if taking in those words. It takes him a while to respond.
"So this is it huh? More then a decade of us, and you are willing to throw it away because of some… stupid kid?" He asked.
I look for a way to confirm his question, as a little anger for how he refers to Aang. Things like 'he isn't a stupid kid' or 'yes, because I love him' but my mind settles on one for me.
"Do you remember back in the South Pole when you asked if I 'would really choose him over my family' and Zuko showed up before I could respond?"
He nods.
"Well I have my answer….. Yes, yes I would" I say with a firm glance. I was sure.
He looks at me as if he is on the verge of tears, but I see his face mold into one of acceptance and more then a little anger. He gets up and starts to walk into the woods. But stops and turns to speak.
"This won't be the last time we see each other sis. You know that" he says with anger.
"I know, and you know what will happen when we do see each other again" I respond with contentment.
"Yes I do, and I don't relish in it." He says with a angry sigh.
We look at each other for a minute, and it almost seems like we might not go through with the separation, but we both know that won't happen. We are both very aware of the fact, that when we see each other again…. It will be far worse then any 100 years war… it'll be our own…. Blood Wars.
He utters one final thing before he turns into the woods.
"I hope Aang keeps one eye open when he sleeps…. For your sake".
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That was when he walked into the woods, that was when he stopped being my brother… stopped being my family.
I didn't know how to tell Aang, but a figure emerging from the woods with a confused look told me I wouldn't have to explain his absence.
But his question, told me I'd have to explain something far worse.
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"Katara, what happened to Jet?"
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