Last Name on His Lips

by Sunshine And Chocolates

Jason was crushed under those rocks but did not die right away. So what or more importantly, who was he thinking about in the last minutes of his life? Although Britt was by his side, it was Sam and all the mistakes as well as the things he should have done plus all of his regrets he made by not putting Sam, Danny, and Scout first because delisted how it looked, they were the most

The Last Name On His Lips…

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Author's Note: I wish I could say only Jason's death was BS but the entirety of GH 2021 was BS and with the continuation of Santa, it still is BS. Not to mention that it's less General Hospital and more the Carly Benson/Corinthos show. Unpopular opinion but Carly didn't deserve Sonny back after marrying his best friend less than a year after she thought Sonny dead not to mention she's been acting like his actual widow

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Quite frankly, Jason felt the vibrations and heard the sound before rocks even began to fall. He'd probably shot the fire that made the tunnel collapse and had trapped him under the boulders.

Jason could feel the weight of each one crushing his vital organs but he could also hear the screams of the others. They were all calling his name trying to get a response. However, his breathing capacity would only allow him a few ragged yet precocious breaths but not something like a yell in return to let the know he had survived… at least for now.

Ironically, as close to death as many times as Jason had, a part of him had always told him that would not live. It was like tiny voice in his head that made his will to survive intensify.

It was Sam's voice.

That beautiful and to him, angelic voice with just a hint of the devil in it. That lilt let him know that no matter what crazy, illegal, or dangerous plan he concocted that she would be right by his side.

However, during his five years being held against his will, had taught him nothing about what was really important. It taught him not one goddamn thing about what or more importantly who should be his number one priority.

Sam and his family. It had mattered little to him that Scout wasn't his biologically since neither was Michael or Baby Hope but he had loved both the same.

Jason heard that a person's life flashes before their eyes before they die.

Sonny lending him money for a cab, The night Carly showed up at his apartment to tell him about her pregnancy and ask if he would say the baby was his, ultimately, altering the very course of his life.

The night he met Robing, the way he had fallen head over heels in love with her. She was his first real love, at least that he could remember, and the heartbreaking way it felt when she'd betrayed him,

There was Elizabeth. The saddest thing about Elizabeth, for him, was that in the beginning he really thought it could lead someplace special. However, a part of him always held back from her, an instinct telling him not to jump into deep with her; it had been right.

The way she had berated he and Courtney but her, in particular, really opened his eyes to how delusional Elizabeth could be plus the entirely factious serious relationship she'd invented in her mind.

Jason had never been serious about her.

However, he had been in love with Courtney and who knows what they would have been had their little baby lived,

Although, Jason had never believed in things happening for a reason but when Sam came into his life and they had fallen in love converted him.

Sam.

He wasn't a man that pretended he knew everything about how the universe worked or if their were a higher power but Jason knew he had been made for Sam McCall and she for him. Even before falling for her, he'd felt something he couldn't identify for her; the way he felt protective of her and wnould've done anything to keep her safe and happy was unlike anything he'd felt for anyone else.

Not Sonny, Carly, Robin, Elizabeth, or even his own wife, Courtney.

In the early days, when she had run off, Jason had taken off at her out of nothing but instinct. There was a need in him to find her that he couldn't explain at the time yet looking back, he had already begun falling for her.

Sam's pregnancy had been one of the very best times of his entire life and it still would be even if he had all of his memories. When she lost Baby Lila, it was a guttural pain unlike anything he'd ever felt including the baby Courtney had lost. Probably because she only told him afterward so it's hard to mourn and grieve something you never knew you had on the way,

Losing Baby Lila was different and what was also different was the loss of their child had driven he and Courtney. Jason had sworn he was done with romance until Sam McCall.

She changed everything. She changed his.

God, he should have taken her after that first proposal and made her his wife then and there,

There were so many things he should have done different. So many times when he should have proven to her that, despite appearances, Sam truly was the most important person to him.

Jason should not have returned to being Sonny and Carly's lackey. They had seemed to managed fine without him.

And just what the fuck was he thinking after Sonny's "death," not to forget what he'd been doing with Britt. Sure, he liked her well enough and was certainly attracted to her but when they had been on the run together, she took it as far more significant than himself.

Sam had showed up and all he wanted was to steal her away, run together like they always had, the Bonnie to his Clyde. All he had been thinking was that he wanted her to run with him.

He wanted run with her for life but at that time, she'd been spending tons of time with Dante while he's been spending his time with Britt. Truthfully, and even though he did not even want to admit this to himself, he'd let his friendship with her grow into more because he was heartbroken and jealous like never before.

Jason was pulled from his thoughts, memories, because the voices getting louder which meant they were getting closer. His crushed lungs would still not let him respond.

"Jason! We're coming!" Drew yelled.

Drew, the brother he didn't know he had, that had thought he was himself even marrying his wife and fathering the baby girl. A daughter that was supposed to be was not which broke his heart in ways words could not express.

Jason could feel the biggest boulders being lifted off of him and finally, he could see faces.

He felt someone take his and brush his hair.

However, the face Jason saw was the love of his life, Sam McCall.

"I—" He started but was cut off with her fingers on his lips in an intimate gesture that Jason felt

"No, don't speak. Save your strength. "Britt said, "You can tell me when you're better"

"No. It's you. I need you to tell Sam something." He saw a bitterness enter Britt's face but he didn't care, "That I've always been in love with her. I love her more than anything. She's my reason for everything. I'm sorry I didn't leave Carly after Sonny's death; not to get out of the business and put our family first and most of all," Jason was losing the ability to breath, "

I'm sorry I didn't marry her again the day after we got back together or long before we actually did in 2012. I'm sorry for her it all and any hurt I've caused her is the biggest regret of my life. Tell her that I was meant for her and I know she was meant for me. She's the love of my life. I'll always love her, my Phoenix and tell my boys & Scout that I love them,"

Jason could see Britt was crying but because he was lively not going to make it out a live or because she had just been told by a man she cared for did not reciprocate her feelings.

Perhaps a mix of both.

Jason felt a sense of calm come over him and without thinking, the words slipped passed his lips.

"Sam. You, she has to know, I love her. I've always loved her. You have to tell her...my Phoenix. My Sam..."

And with that final breath and the last name to ever pass his lips of the woman he loved with everything in him….

Jason Morgan passed away.

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The End