Warning: This contains a small scene readers will fine uncomfortable. I wish to point out that I do not condone this type of behavior. This was simply for dramatic purposes.

I don't know how much time has passed. I don't know where to begin either.

Maybe I'll start with Sylph's progress in magic. It has improved very exponentially, he managed to figure out how to use silent incantation without my help. It did take a month to get the idea but he did it nonetheless. Also, Sylph was no longer being bullied. When I was training him for that year, the bullies would come and harass him. Each time they have an encounter, Sylph would run away or use magic to slip away easily. I didn't help because this was Sylph's fight to finish. But of course, he never did fight back and those bullies continued to come.

Until one day, I pushed him to do it. I said I will stop teaching him if he wasn't gonna bother using the gifts I've given him and that I wouldn't spend time with someone that doesn't stick up for themselves and instead, waste my time. It sounded very harsh, but I needed him to understand that this can't go on.

This made him panic as he cried and begged me to not leave him. I told him I wouldn't leave if he did what I asked. So the next time we encountered the bullies, he didn't even hesitate as he used a Stone Cannon spell and shot all three at the same time. One stone hit one boy in the leg, causing him to fall back and scream in pain. The other stone hit another boy in the stomach, pushing him back on the ground as he clenched his stomach, gasping for air. The last stone bullet hit the fat kid in the head and knocked him out as he fell back.

I was shocked that Sylph would actually be this aggressive. I did tell him to fight back, but I imagine he would use a water spell and scare them away. Not actually do damage to them.

It was good enough I suppose, but now we have a bunch of injured kids that will cry to their mama's.

So, once I splash a bit of cold water on the chubby kid to wake up, it's where I made my "conditions."

I told them I will heal their injuries if they don't say a word about this incident. If they don't agree, I will bury them six feet under with magic so nobody could find them and if they do agree but say anything, I'll do the same thing. They looked at me with horror and readily agreed to my conditions. So I healed them and they ran off. Me and Sylph never heard from them again.

This wasn't the first time I made threats to people. I wasn't a good egg in my past life, so I dealt with people who couldn't keep their mouths shut.

I honestly wish I didn't have to resort to this.

After they ran off, Sylph looked at me with puppy dog eyes and said that now that he did as he was told I wouldn't leave him. I said I wouldn't, and he hugged me right away.

Great… Now he's even more attached to me.

Next with Paul and Zenith, nothing has changed. I don't bother them, they don't bother me. It's as simple as that, did I try to talk to them myself, yes. But in my attempts, I was… distracted.

Then there was Lilia.

"I'll be back soon, I'll just be going down to the clinic to see if they need help with anything. Watch over the house while I'm gone." Zenith said as walked out of the house. Then Paul came downstairs, equipped with his standard adventuring gear he wears when going out. "I'll be out for a while, behave yourself while I'm gone Rudy." He said while unexpectedly patting my head.

"Yes sir." I said softly.

I could tell he was trying to close the gap between us slowly. We're never on the best of terms, but we're trying, at least he is.

With his gear on and his sword on his side, he left the house.

All who were left in the house were me and Lilia. I was sitting at the dinner table while Lilia was finishing up cleaning the last of the dishes. Once she knew that the close was clear, she approached where I was and stood behind the chair I was sitting in. She placed her hands on my shoulder gently, "Rudy… would you like to come with me to my room for a moment." She said shyly.

A normal child would of course do as he or she is told, but out of fear or just don't know any better. But I'm not exactly a child, I'm not scared nor am I unaware… I know what I'm doing, even though I shouldn't.

"Okay." I said.

I got off the chair and followed her to her room. As we entered, I went to her bed and sat there while she began to undress every article of clothing she had. Once she was bare, she went over to me and kneel in front of me. "Allow me Rudy… I'll take care of that for you." She placed her hands on my dress shirt and began to unbutton my shirt, then removed my bottoms later. Once I was also bare, she gently pushed me down on the bed and got on top of me.

I won't go exactly into too much detail but we basically did… was cuddle of shorts. There was kissing involved, and maybe the swaying of hips.

"Ah… ah… Rudy, does it feel good?" Lilia said, breathing a bit heavy.

"Em… it feels… good." I said, it's a little hard to control my breathing.

Did I lose my first time in this world?

Somehow, I did.

This wasn't the first time I slept with a woman, so I got the idea. But it was complicated with this body. But we managed to pull it off in a way.

According to Lilia, this was practice. If I was to know what I'm doing if I ever grow up and do this to another woman. It was educational, nothing more.

But I know it's what she tells herself, to make it less… unpleasant. Basically, it was to make herself feel better. I still believe that this was nothing more than just relieving stress.

Just impulse.

But it didn't matter to me, I was fine with it.

After an hour of our session, we stopped. We laid there in Lilia's soaked bed, holding each other in our arms, breathing deeply.

"That was… very good Rudy. You're improving a lot faster than… before." Lilia said, catching her breath.

"Thank you… Lilia."

I did in fact learn quite a bit about the woman's body, some little things I didn't know in my past life.

This was certainly educational.

After a few minutes of embracing each other, we let go and got off the bed. Lilia had pulled out from the corner of her a wash bin she had prepared and placed it at the center. I filled it with warm water, then we entered the bath and washed up. She washed as we were discussing things as such. Just your typical conversation about the house, about the outside, and such.

Once we were done, we got out of the wash bin and dried ourselves with towels that were placed on Lilia's desk. Then we got changed, Lilia said she'll finish up cleaning here and I was free to leave. So I left, and as I exited Lilia's room, I felt a sense of drowsiness.

Guess this body is still not used to this type of physical activities.

So I went to my room and practically fell on top of my bed.

Ugh… I forgot how exhausting this was. It's more so in this type of body. I guess some of Paul's stamina training did help for a while, but I've been slacking off a lot. I need to get into shape, Lilia said I'm improving but I need more training if I want to continue this.

I thought for a moment.

Do I even want to continue? This type of relationship is so wrong on many levels and yet we've been doing it for months.

I can feel the sleepiness overtake me.

I figured it out tomorrow, I just need some rest.

"How could you do this to me? To us?"

I stared at the young woman in front of me.

"You have me? Am I not enough?"

"It shouldn't matter to you." I said.

She stared back angrily at me, "why shouldn't it, Shi?"

"Because… you're not here… you're gone…"

"I'm always here, Shi. No matter what, I'm here."

"Not any more."

She continues to stare intensely at me, "because of her now… in that body?"

I looked at myself, I was the kid self in the other world.

"You're sick… making her do those things with a child. This some type of fetish?"

I stayed silent.

"It won't be enough for her… sooner or later, she'll find the next best thing to satisfy her… it's in her nature."

Her eyes look more dead.

"It's only a matter of time."

"Re-chan!"

I sat straight up from bed, calling to someone who was never there.

I looked around, everything was dark.

It's night time already… must be some sleep huh?

Instead of another memory, a nightmare took its place.

Must be feeling guilty…

I knew that if I continue this way, it'll only get worse. I had to end it some way, part of me doesn't want to.

For now… I need to shake these thoughts away. I'll think of what I need to do… moving forward.

As I wiped the sweat off my brows, I could hear moaning from the other room.

Guess another night of fun time again.

I then thought of something else, I remembered what the dream told.

It couldn't be… right?

Could my dream be telling me the future in a way, that was my first thought.

It doesn't matter… Lilia isn't exactly mine. We never made any promises except that idea I said to her. If she wants Paul… so be it. I could stop this relationship anytime I want now.

It's what I say now, but I feel this sense of anxiety in my heart. My hearing must be bad as I can't tell who's moaning.

I need to see for myself.

I hopped out of bed and quietly went to my door. I opened the door slowly and took a peek outside. I could tell that the direction of the sound was coming from Paul and Zenith's room.

That should be the end of it, so I wasn't satisfied. What if Zenith was still out this late, and Paul had someone over in their room. Or what if it was Zenith that brought someone over and Paul was still out. Unlikely because of Zenith's upbringing, but there are so many possibilities.

I shut my door slowly, and proceeded to move towards the stairs. I went down to Lilia's room and opened it slowly. I peeked inside to see if she was in bed. It was dark, but I could see a figure sitting up on the bed.

"Rudy? Is that you?" Lilia whispered.

This spooked me a bit as I was caught right away.

"Uh… yes, it's me."

I walked in and closed the door behind me. "I couldn't sleep… you?" I asked.

"No, it's a little difficult to sleep with this… disturbance."

"I know what you mean"

We share a small laugh.

Then Lilia looked at me with concern.

"Are you alright Rudy?"

I don't know how she could tell what I look like in the dark. She must have a six senses.

"I didn't exactly have a good dream."

"I see." Lilia patted her lap, "come here Rudy, please."

I did just that, I went over and hopped on her lap. She then wrapped her arms around me.

"This is the first I'm hearing you having a nightmare. You never talk about your worries ever. Is there something you wish to talk about?"

I thought for a moment, I didn't want to talk about that nightmare.

"Thinking about the future I suppose, thinking about expectations and such. Still wondering what kind of person I'll turn out to be. A lot of stuff basically."

She placed a kiss on my head and began to gently stroke my head. "You are too young to be thinking such worries. You'll face many hardships, none will ever get easy. But overtime, you can overcome it. But right now, it's too soon for you to have such thoughts."

In a way, my mind was calming down. I really needed something like this.

"Would you like to sleep with me tonight?" She asked.

I couldn't help but giggled a bit, "won't Paul be upset if I continue sleeping in here since I should've grown out of it?"

Lilia rested her chin on my head, "we could say it couldn't be helped, you had a nightmare and the Lady and Master were unavailable to console you."

"You are right."

I went into bed with Lilia, laying side by side with our eyes staring at each other. "You have pretty eyes as always." I said. She smiled warmly at me, "thank you Rudy." She leaned in for a kiss. I went in as well. This kiss felt like an eternity, time just stopped for a moment.

I feel like this was one of the moments I would treasure for the first time.

I hope this will last.

Time had passed, it was snowing heavily. A blizzard appeared, causing everyone to stay indoors including the Greyrat Household.

Zenith had announced she was pregnant. The household was overjoyed, well… Paul especially. I wasn't too keen on another sibling. But it was gonna happen sooner or later, with their nightly activities and all.

They have been trying for a while, but they were worried that Zenith couldn't since nothing happened all this time. So this was a huge thing for them.

Later, we had dinner as always when Lilia got up and ran over to a nearby bucket and proceeded to throw up in there. Once she was finished and wiped her vomit from her mouth with a rag, she came to the dinner table.

Tears were beginning to form in her eyes. She then bowed her head, "forgive me… I don't know how to tell you this… but I'm pregnant."

Everyone went silent… everyone.

Nobody knew what to say or do.

I knew it wasn't mine because I am unable to have kids yet. My body was not ready at this age. So I immediately threw that thought out the window.

So I turned to Paul, and so did Zenith.

"I'm sorry! The child… is probably mine." He bowed his head as well.

Then a memory came to me.

"She'll find the next best thing to satisfy her… it's in her nature."

"It's only a matter of time."

I clenched my fist under the table.

You were right, Re-chan.

I angrily thought.

What did I expect?