It was the Saturday night after they had found out that they had all gotten the rolls in the musical that they had wanted and they were getting ready to head out to the clubs to celebrate with a night of drinking and dancing.

They got ready at Hermione's apartment that she shared with some of the other girls from school. They had some cheap wine and shots of tequila to get them going.

The girls and Draco were all squished into the tiny bathroom fighting over the mirror to put on makeup. Draco decided that he was going for his signature Emo look. He had his blonde hair swept to the side, fringe almost covering one of his eyes, pale skin, dark eye make up and a dark purple, almost black lipstick. He was also wearing dark skinny jeans with rips and a plain black T-shirt. He felt sexy.

"Shots shots shots" shouted Ron, pouring out tequila shots for everyone

They all lined up and did a shot, then another and another.

Draco was getting that happy little buzz which meant it was going to be a good night.

"Hey did anyone else want to do a little bit of this?" Asked Dudley, pulling some cocaine out of his pocket

Draco jumped on the opportunity! He wouldn't say he was addicted to it but he did enjoy it when given the opportunity.

They quickly did some lines just before they were about to go, immediately feeling that rush that he loved that just made him forget about all the bad memories going through his head.

They headed out to their usual club Ink Bar! It had an amazing vibe and played good dance music. Hopefully there was some good looking men out tonight.

They arrived, acting sober and quickly got in the door without having to wait to long. They made there way to the bar and ordered drinks.

They gathered around a table talking, well yelling, at each other over the music. Talking about the musical, school, boys, girls, well pretty much anything really.

Couple more drinks in and Draco was just in a happy buzz, feeling relaxed and just slightly high form the atmosphere. He had snuck off with Dudley to do another line of coke as well so that was helping as well.

They all decided then it was time to dance. Out on the dance floor he started prowling looking some men to dance with. He was a pretty little thing with his skinny jeans, so it didn't take him long before he was in between two guys on the dance floor, swaying and rubbing up against each other.

He was in his element, moving to the music, grinding up against these guys. The world around him was spinning slightly and the lights were now just that little bit to bright, but that was a side effect of the drugs and alcohol he had consumed. Maybe it was time to stop drinking for a little bit he thought to himself but didn't get a chance to act on it when all of a sudden Ron was there and putting another drink in his hand. He quickly slammed that back without thinking stumbling off with Ron back to the table.

That's when he saw him. Harry was there at the club. Off with his own group of friends at a nearby table. God he hoped he hadn't seen him. But all hope of that went away when Harry looked at him and smiled!

Hermione saw Draco staring at someone and quickly popped up behind him and went "ooooo his cute! Who is he? You should go and say hi!"

"Nah" slurred Draco without thinking, we fucked on Tuesday, you know me I don't do the same guy twice"

"But he's cute you should break your rules just this once!" She said seeing Harry staring back and quickly gesturing him to come over.

Harry didn't miss a heart beat and quickly started making his way over to them.

"Hermione what have you done" Draco stated "i can't do this, I can't"

Hermione look concerned, she didn't know anything about his past, he didn't talk about it to anyone. But then it was to late Harry was there. He would have to remind himself to put Hermione's mind at ease. That is if he remembered.

"Hi Draco" Harry said

After a long pause Draco said "hi"

"Can we talk?" Said Harry

"Umm I might not be in the right frame of mind right now to talk" said Draco "but let's dance"

Honestly Draco didn't really know why he asked him to dance but it seemed like a good idea in his drunken drug induced haze.

He pulled Harry out into the dance floor who seemed a little bit reluctant after seeing how intoxicated Draco actually was. Harry definitely wasn't sober but he was not as drunk as Draco was.

Draco quickly pulled Harry up against him swaying there hips together lazily to the music. Running his hands up and Harry's chest and down his back taking in all he could in his drunken state. Harry wrapped his arms around Draco taking in all of his amazing body. He started nuzzling at Draco's neck causing Draco to moan. At this point Draco's fear of getting close to someone was taken over by pure lust for Harry.

Draco pulled Harry off the dance floor taking him towards to bathrooms. He new that there was a corridor just passed the toilets that was for staff only but wasn't used at night as it was for deliveries.

"Where are you taking me" said Harry

"Shhh I know a spot" Draco whispered

Once they were securely in that spot he pulled Harry up against him whispering "no one will find us here"

Harry responded by forcing Draco up against the wall, and starting to kiss and nibble down in jawline to his neck then kissing back up to his ear. He ran his fingers up Draco's shirt, feeling his abs and up to his nipple. He started playing with it causing Draco to hiss in pleasure.

Draco ran his hands down Harry rubbing the front of his jeans, Harry bucking his hard cock into his hand and groaning loudly. Harry immediately took control picking Draco up quickly forcing his back against the wall. Both there dicks were painfully hard and the change in position didn't help the situation, pushing there hard lengths together. Draco wrapped his legs around Harry's waists forcing there bodies as close together as they could be.

Draco looked down at Harry, the world starting to spin a bit. He looked into Harry's eyes looking up at him. Fuck he had just broken a rule, eye contact, what's one more rule broken..

In his drunken haze he didn't even realize that he was doing it.

He leant down and starting kissing Harry. As there lips touched Draco felt his heart skip a beat. Harry tasted amazing, it had been awhile since he had kissed anyone. Their lips moulded together. Draco moaned opening his mouth slightly, allowing access to his mouth, Harry immediately pushed his tongue against Draco's. Draco moaned loudly into Harry's mouth, their movements were desperate, both of them just wanted each other in that moment.

As amazing as the kiss felt to the boys in their drunken state, it was still extremely sloppy. Both knew it shouldn't of been happening but they were just to drunk to care.

Their hard lengths were rubbing together as they kissed causing friction. Their moans getting louder and louder. Draco broke the kiss and whispered "I need you inside me"

Harry was more than happy to oblige. Draco pulled it a small tube of lube that he carried with him and gave it to Harry. He quickly slicked up his fingers and then pulled Draco's pants and jocks down slightly to allow him access to that perfect ass. Reaching behind Draco he quickly pushed in one finger then another, scissoring Draco. Draco groaned loudly, pushing down onto Harry's fingers hard. He wasn't going to last long, especially not in his current intoxicated state.

"Fuck Harry, do it now I'm not going to last much longer" stated Draco

Harry briefly put Draco down off the wall allowing him to pull out his hard cock and quickly coating it in lube. Both of them completely forgetting about a condom.

Once done Harry picked Draco back up against the wall guiding him down onto his hard cock slowly. Draco felt the tip of Harry's cock enter him and let out a loud moan. Draco not wanting to wait for himself to adjust pushed down with his hips, forcing Harry's cock all the way inside his hole. "Fuck" Harry moaned as he felt all of himself inside Draco's tight hole.

He then pulled out and started thrusting up as Draco as pushing down on his cock. There as no rhythm just desperate movements to be as close as possible and as deep as possible.

Harry looked up at Draco, who's eyes were closed and mouth slightly open moaning loudly. He pulled Draco's head down and with the sudden movement Draco open his eyes staring straight into Harry's. Harry quickly closed the distance kissing him again. The slight change in angle also meant that Harry cock was rubbing straight up against Draco's prostate.

That was enough to send Draco over the edge then and there. He himself cumming with a scream as he broke the kiss head falling back up against the wall. Harry came not long after with a loud groan.

Harry pulled out of Draco quickly putting him down. They both quickly cleaned up in silence.

All of a sudden it dawned on Draco what he had done. He had broken almost all of his rules. The rules that were designed to keep him safe. He had made eye contact, kissed, not used a condom and fucked the same guy! Fuck what had he done.

He couldn't control himself anymore, tears started to roll down his face and he let out a loud sob.

This got Harry's attention immediately.

"Hey are you ok Draco?" Asked Harry

Draco stared at him through wet eyes for a moment before bolting out the door and through the club. He just needed to get out of there. Harry quickly followed him out onto the street who was also quickly joined by Ron and Hermione who had seen Draco running out the door.

"Draco wait, please tell me what's wrong?" Said Harry

A switch flicked in Draco's head, due to a combination of the drugs and alcohol. Tears were still running down his face.

He turned to look Harry in the eyes and screamed

"I THOUGHT WE HAD AN AGREEMENT! WE TALKED ABOUT THIS. YOU AGREED TO THE RULES. I CANT HANDLE THIS RIGHT NOW. I CAN'T DO THIS! NOT AGAIN. I CAN'T GO THROUGH THE PAIN AGAIN! PLEASE LEAVE ME ALONE, PLEASE"

Draco took a deep shaking breath looking around realizing that everyone in the street was now staring at him making a scene.

"I'm sorry Harry but I don't want to see you again" said Draco.

And with that he turned and quickly ran down the end of the street.

Harry stood there shocked for a second. He couldn't leave Draco in that state it just wasn't safe. He went to follow only time feel a hand on his shoulder. It was Hermione.

"I'll go, I think it's best that you leave him alone right now. Ron can you give him my number." Said Hermione "text me, I will make sure he gets home safely"

She quickly ran off down the street following Draco.

As she rounded the corner that Draco had gone down she quickly found him. He hadn't gotten far. He was sitting on the cold ground trembling and sobbing.

Hermione quickly went up to him sitting next to him, wrapping her arms around him pulling him in close.

"Shhhhh it's ok Draco, calm down, breath" she soothed seeing how stresses he was.

They sat there cuddled together for about 20 minutes, Hermione soothing him while he cried.

Finally Hermione broke the silence "Draco, you need to talk to me, tell me what's wrong. I'm your friend I'm not going to judge you. I will just be here for you to support you."

That's when Draco, still in his intoxicated state started babbling to Hermione, telling her about his childhood, telling her about Blaise, telling her about all the emotional and physical abuse he had endured for most of his life.

He then talked about Harry and how he hadn't wanted to see him again because he was scared of it all happening again. He could never trust again and that's why he had those rules set up. To save himself from being hurt both physically and emotionally again by another person.

When Draco finally stopped talking Hermione herself was crying silently. She had no idea that any of this had happened to him.

She then grabbed Draco's arm pulling his sleeve up revealing many scars.

"And this is one of your ways of coping?" She asked

Draco nodded in silence, slightly embarrassed that she had noticed.

"When did you realize?" He asked

"On Wednesday when I saw the bandage covering your arm" stated Hermione

Draco looked down at the ground

"You don't need to be embarrassed Draco, I love you no matter what! And this will only make me love you more. I care about you so much. Thank you for telling me about everything" she stated "now let's get you back to my place, I don't think you should be alone tonight"

"Ok" Draco agreed, still feeling the affects of the alcohol and cocaine in his system.

They got up off the ground, and started waking back to her place.