damn, just the part before the smut was two times longer than the whole original.
And one last thing, y'all know what Gaara new era haircut looks like? Yeah, fuck that, I ain't writing that, let give him his cute original haircut instead (I swear I fucking hate it with a passion).
The redhead sighed as he took another look at the pile of paperwork that seemed to never go down. He had been at it all afternoon and still wasn't finished. Temari couldn't give him a hand, as she was probably finishing the mission she had been given a couple of days ago. And no need to try and find Kankuro for some help, he supposed that since it was now nearly midnight he was already back home.
He sighed again as he rubbed the back of his neck, not finding anyone else he could trust with this important paperwork. Multiple mission had been finished at the same time, hence all the reports he needed to look over, plus some problems caused in the village, some messages coming from allied villages and other various paperwork. He really had it all in the past two days. But soon he would be finished and back on a rather normal amount of paperwork.
He was taken out of his repetitive task when he heard the sound of the door opening, looking up to see who would come at such an hour of the day. He was a little surprised to see Kankuro standing behind the door, poking his head in to look at him.
"May I come in Lord Kazekage?" he then asked. The politeness and the formality of the request make Gaara uncomfortable, not liking it when his siblings were using such titles for him. It has already been six years since he took on the title, yet they would sometime still try acting all formal when he asked them not to, especially when they are between themselves.
"I already told you to use my name" he sighed softly, putting down his pen, trying to rub some fatigue off of his eyes. "Sorry, Gaara" he then heard coming from in front of him, his brother approaching the desk after closing the door behind him, "You still haven't finished your paperwork?" he asked.
"Unfortunately no" he replied, leaning back in his chair to look up at the man standing next to him, "But I think I will take a little break" he admitted, "My eyes are tired from reading all day". A smirk then drew itself on his brother's lips, making him arch a pale brow slightly. "Maybe I can help you take your mind off of those documents" he suggested.
Before Gaara could even ask what he was thinking about he felt his chair being spun around slightly. Hands quickly grabbed his waist and he was then lifted up on the desk, paper being pushed away haphazardly by accident. He looked at his brother with confusion, not understanding what he wanted to do, nor why his heart was beating this strongly in his chest as the brunet was so close to him. He felt a hand gently cupping his cheek, the thumb slowly rubbing his skin.
"K-Kankuro... what are you doing?" he asked, wondering why he had stuttered in such a way. He had been close to his brother in the past, yet this time there seem to be something... more to it.
"Simply looking at your beauty" he received, the man wearing a soft smile on his face. This made him blush, frowning slightly in confusion and embarrassment. "Why?" he managed to get out, turning his head to the side so he doesn't have to look at him. He really wasn't seeing what exactly was so beautiful about his face.
"Because I want you" he whispered near his ear, gently turning the Kazekage back towards him. Gaara didn't have the time to ask what he meant by it since lips were already capturing his, making sure he wouldn't ask more about it. His first thoughts were to push his brother away, not believing he was actually kissing him. Yet, when his hands reached his shirt, all they did was grab at it tightly. The warmth and the gentleness of the kiss had caught him, unable to really push away.
This kiss had brought back many feelings he had tried as hard as he could to repress in the past three years. This new type of love he had grown for his brother had confused him first, then he felt horribly bad. What was he doing? Falling in love with his brother? Of course, he needed to repress it, there was no way it would be alright and if Kankuro were to learn about it he would hate him and find him disgusting. He had managed for the most part to repress it, sometimes wavering in his try when Kankuro appeared more flirty and affectionate to him. But these were always jokes, right?
This had been something he was ashamed of and had tried to hide somewhere deep inside of himself.
Yet, at this very moment, all he could feel was these feeling coming back up with ten-time the force they did before, latching onto this kiss given by Kankuro to him. When he felt the lips moving away from his, he unconsciously chased after them, yet the hands on his cheeks kept him in place. He shouldn't be wanting this, yet he still wanted more of it.
He couldn't look the brunet in the eyes, looking down at his shirt instead, knowing he must have gone redder than before. He needed to stop this before it would get too far. He couldn't be indulging in such activities. Kankuro must have been messing around with him, that was it.
"I... I have paperwork to finish" he said in an attempt to stop them from falling down this dangerous ravine and run away from this scary situation. He got off the desk, his brother not stopping him, but not stepping very far away either.
"I will help you then," said Kankuro as he smoothly went to sit on the chair, arms open and inviting. Gaara didn't move from where he was at the desk, only to try and slide away. This was obviously not what the puppeteer wanted, so he instead grabbed him by the hips and pulled him onto his laps.
Gaara couldn't even try and get up, as an arm was now locking him in place. He had thought maybe his brother would keep on messing around with him, but when he never felt or heard anything coming he finally managed to calm down a little, the unease slightly going away. He worked the best he could this way, soon to occupied in reading to really care, still a little bit scared that someone might find them like this.
It was only late in the night that they were completely finished with the paperwork, Kankuro fully letting go of his waist he had been circling on and off all this time, depending on whether he needed both hands or not. It wasn't long before the redhead was standing, quickly putting away all the documents, thanking his brother for his help and then going out. He had nearly been running throughout all of this wanting to get back to his room as quickly as possible.
That kiss from earlier had come back to his mind and was still troubling him, emotions all messed up inside him. Months and months of work all thrown out the window by one incident. He truly didn't know what to do with himself, neither what to do with Kankuro. Why had he done that in the first place? If it was some kind of joke, he didn't found it really funny.
Once Gaara had calmed himself down a bit, he reached inside his pocket to look for his keys, only to realise they weren't there. He then frowned slightly, trying to think what he might have done with them. Had he left them had the office? Would he need to go back all the way back there? It wasn't really far, but he really didn't want to have to go back to the office.
"Is this what you are looking for?" said a voice coming from behind him, startling him out of his thoughts. He quickly turned around, only to see Kankuro holding what he had been looking for just in front of him. "Yes," he quickly replied, trying to snatch away the keys, only to miss them when he quickly pulled his hand away. If he kept on messing around Gaara was feeling like he would need to use his sand.
He then saw him put the keys in his pocket, a teasing smirk plastered on his face. "If you want them back, you will have to get them yourself" he suddenly suggested, "no cheating obviously" he added as his eyes strayed down to his legs where sand was accumulating itself. The Kazekage was ready to take on the challenge, quickly replying back he didn't need to "cheat" to get his keys back.
If anyone had been passing by, they would probably have thought they were both looking like children. They supposed it wasn't so bad that it was so late at night then. This sort of playing around did make Gaara forget yet again what had happened, feeling somewhere amused and annoyed at his brother teasing. He simply wanted to get back to his room to sulk over how bad of a brother he was and try again to repress even more his feeling.
After some time Kankuro seemed to decide he had enough of this harmless playing around, Gaara finding himself pinned against the wall next to his door. He was going to call out to his brother, only to feel yet again lips blocking his words, making him open slightly his mouths in surprise, letting Kankuro explore a little farther. Under the panic he tried using sand to push the man away, only to feel a hand gently grabbing his, the other on his cheek, a thumb slightly rubbing soothingly against it.
All this show of affection and reassurance made his resolve to reject him fully waver, starting to realise that this was no joking around. Kankuro was seriously kissing him. It's only dawned on him now that all the ambiguous teasing he had dismissed as clearly not flirting but rather joking around might have been exactly that. Kankuro had not somehow caught onto his deep secret and tried to see the truth for himself.
Kankuro was kissing him with passion and he was shamefully enjoying it.
He had been losing himself in the kiss when he was suddenly pulled back to reality by the sound of footsteps coming from farther in the hall. Only then did the brunet let go of him, having heard it too and not ready for this situation to be seen by anyone else.
They had just managed to give some space between them that they saw Temari rounding the corner, seemingly having just finished her mission, tired and ready to go take a shower. She then saw both of her brothers standing in front of Gaara's room, making her arch a brow with a small smile. "What are you two doing here so late at night?" she asked curiously.
"I just finished working on all the paperwork I had to do" he replied, hoping his blushing had all gone away by now. "Thanks to my help" added Kankuro with a smirk, "Otherwise you would still be there working on them".
This seemed to please the kunoichi, seeing her brother going along so well. "I'm happy to see my little brothers are helping each other so much" she commented with a tired smile. "Still, you should go to sleep now, we have a meeting with the clan council later today" she pointed out. With this, she wished them a good night of sleep before passing by them to go to her own room farther down the hall.
Now that Temari was gone, Gaara left a sigh of relief escaped him, relaxing a little more now that he knew she had noticed nothing of what they had been doing earlier. He then turned towards his brother, wondering what would happen now that she was gone. He could see the dilated pupil and the burning desires in his eyes, yet the man didn't make another move on him. A soft smile was hanging on his lips, unmoving as if waiting for the Kazekage to make a choice.
Gaara would normally have asked him to go back to his own room. But he wanted another taste of what he had been aching for in the past three years. He always had been terrified of doing something wrong and raise suspicion in his brother mind. He had been paralysed by the thought of Kankuro hating him for these feeling, pushing him out of his life with disgust.
But now? Now he could see it was most likely the same thing for the brunet and he too was ready to go further if the redhead was giving him the signal.
Gaara unlocked his door when he was finally given back his keys, this time without even asking, shaky hands opening it. He had a slight moment of hesitation, if he wanted to back out of this and be as though nothing had ever happened, it was now, although he doubted his brother would force him to do anything if he were to change his mind. He closed his eyes to try and calm his nerve, finally settling on what he wanted to do.
He knew all his hard work of the past three years were gone when he invited him into his room. The smile on his brother lips and the more ardent fire in his eyes was enough to make it impossible for him to doubt his choice though.
He followed quickly after, locking the door behind them. His hand hesitated on the light switch only to go back to his side without flicking it on. He was anxious about all this and the darkness of the night was making it a bit less on his nerve. The faint light of the moon passing through the slightly parted curtain was enough to move around without too much problem.
He put away his Kazekage robes and his shoes, leaving him in the shirt and pants he usually wore under it. He made his way to the bed, trying to look around for Kankuro. He found him when gentle hands grabbed his hips to pull him closer, lip crashing in with passion on his. In the dark of the night, he was able to summon more confidence, also grabbing at him so they could be even closer. This is something he had been looking for in these past years and he was overjoyed to finally have it.
They had to break off their making out session when his shirt got in the way as Kankuro was trying to take it off of him. He was gently pushed backwards, until his knee hit the side of the bed, making him fall on it. Out of surprise, he grabbed his brother for support, only to make him fall over with him.
Kankuro was trying to not squish him in the mattress, laughing in the crook of his neck at the situation. "Don't laugh" Gaara whispered despite the fact he was also restraining his laughter. His laughter stopped when he felt lips kiss his neck, making him blush at the strange feeling it was giving him. He really liked them.
They quickly moved on the bed to be a bit more comfortable, the brunet tossing haphazardly his shirt to the ground, going back to leaning over his Kazekage. More kissing passionately came after, this time hands going over skin, exploring the unfamiliar territory. One pair was rather clumsy and inexperience, while the other knew more what to do to make the other excited.
Gaara felt at a lost, unsure what to do. He was trying to follow what felt nice on him, feeling more confident every time he would bring out any sound from his brother. He tried gently playing with a nipple, a bit surprised by the reaction he managed to get, only to play a bit more with it, feeling against his tight that it was a good thing.
Soon they were both hard, grinding against each other through layers of clothes that were starting to be uncomfortable, moan and groan swallowed in by each other's lips. Kankuro slowly made his way lower on his body, leaving a trail of kisses on his way, the redhead trying to see what the brunet was doing. His pants and underwear were painfully slowly being taken off, soon letting his erection free.
Gaara's breath hitch when he felt lips against it, trying to keep in the moans that were coming to him when Kankuro decided to tease him a bit more with his tongue and mouth. The puppeteer would only tease, bringing him to the edge but always stepping back before he could actually reach any form of release.
The Kazekage then tensed a bit when he felt something trying to tease lower, gently circle the ring of muscle. Kankuro finally climbed back up, kissing near his ear "Do you have something I could use?".
At first, he didn't receive an answer, starting to wonder if he should stop to find something, after all, he wasn't going to hurt him just because he was getting too excited. Then he heard his brother mumble something, yet after asking for him the repeat he didn't say anything. The brunet got a bit anxious from the lack of answer, unsure if it was getting too much for the younger man. He then stretched a bit to light the bed lamp, turning back to see Gaara hiding under his forearm, a blush spreading to his neck.
"Can you repeat please?" he asked again softly, lowering himself to be closer to him. "The bottom drawer" he heard mumbled again, the blush getting redder. He didn't exactly understand what was making him this embarrassed, not pushing further as he doubted he would get anything. He moved to go and open the bottom drawer, ending up surprised by what he found. Lube and condom were hidden at the back of it, everything they needed.
He took them, coming back atop his brother who was still hiding from him, hands slightly shaking. He could understand where the embarrassment was coming from, he hadn't expected his brother to have both these items. It's made him wonder if he was more experienced than what he believed him to be.
"Gaara" he gently cooed at him, trying to move the arms away without forcing him, "I didn't know you were experienced" he added. He would like to be bothered by this fact if it was true, but it would be hypocritical for him to be, as he did have is fair share of experiences.
The redhead finally lowered his arm, yet not looking at him, still deeply red in the face. It took some hesitation before he finally explains why he had these items, "Naruto... gave me these as a joke one time to see how I would react". Talking about sex wasn't exactly something that would get him all flustered, but he wasn't one to bring it up either. Naruto apparently had caught on him being in love, despite his best attempt at hiding everything, and simply wanted to tease him a bit. It had ended up in him awkwardly explaining he could never be with the other person after lying about why.
Kankuro seemed a bit amused at the thought, then looked back at the lube bottle. "I see, I thought you would have thrown it away, not keeping it and even use it" he admitted. The bottle had clearly been used, some of it content missing, even the box of condom seemed to have been used. This was only adding to his thought that maybe Gaara wasn't as innocent as he thought he was.
"I didn't really... used them" he heard mumbled, "Not the way you think" he heard clarified when he looked back at him confused. "I-I tried... experimenting on myself" he finally received, the redhead still not looking at him.
The Kazekage wasn't sure if this idea would be a turnoff, seeing that he had absolutely no experience despite his age. He never really had the time nor the want to try with anyone before, so it was probably not much of a surprise for him to still be a virgin. He was obviously anxious about doing it for the first time, but he was also anxious that Kankuro would somehow be disappointed about this fact. It was probably more enjoyable having sex with someone who had some kind of experience.
Clearly sensing his anxiety, the brunet gently cupped his cheek to make him look at him, going to give him a more gentle and reassuring kiss this time. "I see, thank you for telling me," he said softly, "Then I will be more careful not to hurt you".
Hearing and seeing him not mind it reassured the young man, making him a bit less tense about all of this. To the puppeteer, it was good to know, as he didn't want to hurt him. He had already planned on being careful, but knowing it was his first time, he didn't want to scare him by not preparing him enough. "Just relax and follow what I say, it will be alright" he whispered near his ear, trailing back down again with the lube this time.
As he applied lube on his fingers, Kankuro looked back up at his brother who was looking down at him, probing himself up on his elbow. "Did you ever experience down here?" he asked with a small smile, his slicked finger going back to tease him. This made the younger man blush again, giving him his first answer, "How did it feel?".
Gaara seemed to think about it, tensing a bit when the finger actually entered him, giving him a familiar feeling to what he had done himself. "A bit weird and uncomfortable" he admitted. The redhead had search a bit and relationship between man, as he had realised he might not lean the same way many did. Yet he still didn't understand what exactly was enjoyable by fingering yourself or even having someone entering you.
He heard his brother humming as he moved his finger around, always scanning his expression to make sure he wouldn't hurt him, reminding him to stay relax. At least as best as he could. His other hand would either stay on his hips, soothingly rubbing circles on his skin or gently stroke his erection to distract from the discomfort. "Maybe you simply didn't found the part that makes it feel good" he pointed out.
The Kazekage looked a bit confused at that, unsure what he was talking about. Suna could be a bit close-minded on this matter, so looking for information wasn't easy, even less when he had to make sure no one knew the leader of the village was looking for such information. He had read about the basics but was most likely missing important parts.
He was going to ask when suddenly Kankuro seemed to hit something that sent a spark in him. He saw the puppeteer grin at his sudden surprised expression and moan, playing a bit more with this area. Gaara used his hand to block his mouth, embarrassed by the sound he was making. So this is what he should have tried to massage when he first tried fingering himself? This is how good it could feel? Now he understood a bit more the appeal.
Kankuro kept on preparing him like this, adding a finger in when he seemed ready to take more, always careful not to hurt him when doing so. It was really satisfying to see his brother try to keep his moans in, bucking his hips a bit when he was only teasing around and not on the bundle of nerves that could give him more pleasure. It could nearly make him forget how painfully hard he was in his pants, which Gaara ended up noticing.
The brunet was surprised when he felt a hand catching his wrist, stopping as he thought he might have hurt him, looking up from where he was kissing him on his chest. "I don't want to be the only one feeling good" Gaara managed to get out, looking him in the eyes this time. It would be unfair being the only one feeling good like this.
Kankuro wanted to mention he really didn't mind, that he could do with this until he was ready enough. Yet, the determination to make him feel good too that he could see in his eyes made him stop. If this is what he desired to do, then he would indulge him. He took his hands away from him, quickly taking off the remaining of his clothes to make it easier.
They also change position, Kankuro now sitting crossed-leg on the bed, Gaara straddling him. "You can do whatever you want now" he whispered into his ear, going back to kissing his neck and preparing him for later. The redhead tried something he knew a bit more, tentatively stroking his brother's dick. It was something he had done to himself and knew he could make him feel good. The groan and moan he could get out of his brother, who wasn't even trying to keep them in, was enough to give him more confidence in his movements. It was still a bit clumsy, but he would get better eventually.
After some time it was starting to be too much for Gaara, moving his hips to follows his fingers. "Kankuro, I want... more," he said, a bit embarrassed a the idea of saying out loud like this. "What do you want?" he then heard, the finger stopping in their movement, "I won't know if you don't tell me" the brunet teased. He really likes seeing his brother like this, wanting more yet being embarrassed to ask him directly, clearly wanting to feel more pleasure with him.
"I want you inside me" he mumbled, only for Kankuro to arch a brow as if he hadn't heard, "I want you inside me" he then said louder, surprising the both of them by how loud it was. The brunet softly chuckled, kissing him as he lowered him back on the bed, reaching for a condom to put it on, making sure to add lube.
He was soon between the redhead's legs, spreading them apart a bit more, feeling them shaking slightly in his grip. He then leaned over Gaara, leaving a quick kiss on his lips. "If you are scared we can stop" he warned, his thumb gently rubbing circles on his tight. The Kazekage shook his head, wrapping his arms around his shoulder, hands also shaking a bit because of the nervousness.
"No, I want to" he quickly replied, "It's just... making me nervous" he admitted, which was understandable. Who wouldn't be a bit nervous when it was their first time? Kankuro remembered that he had been too, although he planned on making this experience a bit less painful than his. "I'll be careful, but if you want to stop you have to tell me".
With this out of the way, he lined himself up, starting to put the tip of his erection inside of him. He could feel his tense around him, making him unable to go farther. He gently caressed him, kissing him everywhere while whispering instruction and encouraging words, going slowly further in when he could feel him relax. It took a little while before he was fully inside of his brother, Gaara breathing heavily under him, grabbing tightly at his arms.
"You are doing good" Kankuro whispered against his lips, "Tell me when you are ready for me to move". Gaara was tempted to let him go now so the puppeteer didn't have to wait any longer, but he felt like it wouldn't do good. Plus Kankuro would probably not like the idea of gaining pleasure when he was hurting. So he simply laid there, nodding as he tried to relax himself a bit more, getting used to feeling this full.
It was nowhere near what the fingers had felt earlier. Sure, they had prepared him as best as he could, but a dick would still stay bigger than fingers. Still, after some time he felt like he would be alright with him move, tentatively moving his hips against the brunet. He barely whispered it, still embarrassed to give an indication like this, but this time Kankuro didn't tease him, starting to move his own hips slowly.
The brunet was stroking the redhead erection, distracting him from the uncomfortable and slight pain he could still feel. It was feeling incredible to finally be inside of his brother, but he couldn't get to the rhythm he wanted. Not quite yet.
When Gaara started moving a bit more with his hips, chasing the quick sensation that would come when he was brushing his prostate, he started moving faster. He was on the right path has Gaara was yet again biting back his moans, kissing him to render then unspoken. He kept on going faster and harder, trying to find the best angle so he could hit the bundle of nerves that was giving him pleasure earlier.
He heard the man moaning a bit louder this time, making him smile in the kiss, trying to hit the same place again. He did that over and over again, enjoying how his brother was bucking his hips with him, barely able to contain his moan now. It was such a delightful view than to see him drowning in pleasure. He never thought he'd be able to see this.
He could feel himself on the edge, yet he didn't want to finish before Gaara, going faster and harder, his hands matching his movement. This was starting to be too much for the younger one, trying to warn him about it through his moans and gasps.
Then he felt the wall around his dick tighten as the body under him tremble in his release, nail digging slightly in his flesh. He was still moving his hips, the tighter sensation starting to be too much and then he came too, his hips coming to a stop deep inside him.
He then left himself fall next to his brother, pulling him closer as they were recovering from the afterglow, their erratic breathing slowly becoming more even. He went and gently kissed the side of his head, Gaara turning towards him with satisfied and tired eyes. They kiss again, this time more gentle and soft. "Was it good?" he asked, wanting to make sure his brother also liked it. He received a nod, "better than I thought it would be" whispered the redhead.
Then the fatigue of the day and their previous activity started to be a bit too much for the Kazekage, soon falling asleep after murmuring an "I love you". This made the puppeteer chuckle a bit, kissing his forehead as he slowly stood up to put away the used condom. He quickly washed them up, sleepiness weighing over him too, quickly joining his brother under the cover when he was done, hugging him close to him. "I love you too" he whispered, promising himself to tell him when he would wake up the next morning.
The next day, Gaara was woken up by the ray of sunlight hitting his face, making him close his eyes quickly when he first tried opening them. He looked around, trying to understand why his body was aching like this and why he was fully naked. Then the event of the night before came back to his mind, making him blush deeply.
He sat up, his lower back seemingly not enjoying the idea, looking around for Kankuro, a bit scared that he might have run away once he woke up. Yet, he could hear the soft sound of water running inside his bathroom, making him relax. He sighed in relief, looking down at his body, only to find trails of red kiss mark on his pale skin, making him blush a bit. He was pretty positive his neck might have gone through the same treatment with how often Kankuro had been there too.
He then noticed how rather clean he was, realising his brother had most likely washed him before going to sleep. This thought made him feel warm, happy to see how he was being taken care of by him.
He took a quick look at the time, seeing that they had only an hour before they needed to go to the clan meeting. This made him sigh again, thinking about how he would need to hide his neck as best as possible and act normally. Only now did reality decided to hit again: he just had sex with his brother and wasn't feeling any guilt about it and was on the contrary happy about it.
He knew no one could learn about it, not even Temari. In the "best" case scenario they would be banned from Suna and asked never to come back. He didn't even want to think about the worst outcomes. This really had to stay between them, no one would be ready to accept such love between blood brothers.
His rising anxiety was cut off when he felt a gentle hand brush against his cheek, making him look up at Kankuro. This immediately calmed him down, a smile drawing itself on his face at how happy the man seemed to be.
They could do it, it shouldn't be too hard.
He then gratefully accepted the morning kiss he was given.
virgin 2012-13: 1k, bad writing (especially in French), no detail, no pacing, weird change of subject.
Chad 2021: 5.5k, well written (I hope), more detail with situations explained, better pacing, smut
I hope the smut was okay, I haven't written any in literal years (the last times were for rp with a friend of mine). Although there may be too much emotion in it and not enough smut, but that what an ace would make I guess.
Also, for anyone confused (?) with the layout: At the time I had in mind that the Kazekage had his apartments in the same building as the Kazekage main office but on a higher level (or maybe a connected building). Pretty much the same for close family he might allow in. Can't figure out if it canon or not, am too tired at the moment to go check what it is exactly (or if they even show it at all).
Am seriously thinking of making multiple "little" addition to this story with maybe three different types of endings (just because angst is fun you know).