School started to feel more exciting again, besides the fact that Eddie and I had to fake a disinterest in each other. Besides the fact that I still had to hang out with Dustin and Steve and pretend everything was the same... besides many facts, I was feeling happy again.
There's no way I could tell Steve or Dustin, one tiny slip up and my parents would fry me. I knew that Steve also had a thing for me and a hatred for Eddie, he'd be the first one to let the cat out of the bag so we had to be super sneaky.
Do you know how painful it is to see Eddie in the halls, in class.. anywhere and try not to smile at him.. talk to him? It was like dangling sunshine in your face then ripping it away and swapping it out with pitch black darkness.
"The library? Really?" I ask, judging Eddie's choice of hiding spot of the day. "I don't think Harrington or Dustin are going to come in here," he whispers, pulling me to the back of the library and hiding behind multiple shelves of books. No one was searching the archives, hopefully.
His lips locking with mine as he cups my face, my arms wrapping around him. I miss him all the time, even when I see him I can't really see him. It's unfair.
"So I have an idea," He starts off in an excited whisper, eyes lighting up as he moves my cinnamon brown hair behind my ear "Mmm," I press my lips against his again "What might that be?"
My eyes flutter open with a childlike smile on my face.
Eddie slips his hand into the breast pocket on his jean jacket, pulling out two tickets as he waves them in my face "You said your parents have given more leeway.. right?" He grins,
I have to stop myself from yelling in excitement "No way," my eyes widen, seeing tickets to the drive in, showing 'About last night' a movie I had only been going on about wanting to see for a month now.
It was a town over from Hawkins so running into anyone we knew was extremely slim, what I was going to tell my parents to convince them... that I wasn't sure of yet.
"What do you say baby?" Eddie lowers the tickets, eyes crinkling from his smile as I nod excitedly "Yes! Of course!" I try not to yell, throwing my arms around him.
"Who knew there was more to you then your looks and sex," I joke as he shakes his head "Hey now," Eddie cocks his head to the side playfully "Well.. I am pretty good at it aren't i," he raves to himself, giving himself a mental pat on the back.
I roll my eyes, "Don't let it go to your head," I giggle. Wrapping my arms around him once again as Eddie wraps his arms around me, wanting to stay in his embrace forever.
I guess this was our first real date, it had felt like we'd been on so many, like we've spent life times together.
Everything just clicked so easily, so smoothly. As cliche as it sounds, it did feel like we were put on this earth for each other. It just sucks it took until eighteen to meet Eddie.
All that time of not feeling like I belong, not feeling connected to anyone let alone the world.. that all faded away with Eddie because I always felt like I belonged, connected to him on a deeper level I could never fully explain.
I don't know if it was pure luck or more parents trusting in me more which I guess was stupid on their behalf since I was going out to do the exact thing I had been in trouble for, for months.
They thought I was going to the arcade with some make believe friends (with make believe names to match, of course) and for once.. they didn't question it. Maybe sneaking around would be easier than I thought.
I grab my skateboard, placing it down on the road as I hop on and head for the convenience store - the predetermined meeting spot for Eddie and I.
Seeing his van already parked in the lot as he leans against the back door, puffing away at a cigarette. Watching him drop it to the ground and put it out with his shoe as I ride up to him,
"hope I didn't keep you waiting," I say as I hop off my board, hitting the kick tail with my foot so it springs up to my hand. "I'd wait forever," he grins, hand on my cheek as he places a soft but quick kiss on my lips.
"Okay let's go before you get grounded again," he laughs as I jump in through the back doors then climb to the passenger seat.
"I can't wait until we can go out wherever," Eddie stares ahead at the road as he drives, his hand on my thigh and my hand on his "Hmm?" I say, momentarily zoned into the music playing over the radio
"In the future, you know.. once we graduate." He looks over at me then back to the road "Oh right, yeah." I laugh cluing in.
I still haven't gave the future much thought. Will it wind up with Eddie and I going separate ways, living separate lives? It's not like we've really had time to talk about it, what we want for ourselves in the future.. where we want to be.
It would really suck if all this build up ended with us parting ways merely due to graduating. Life doesn't end shitty endings like that, I hope.
"What do you want after graduation? I pose the question thoughtfully, my hand tracing different patterns over the back of Eddie's hands. "I don't know," he gives a small shrug, "Getting out of Hawkins Is number one for me,"
I nod in agreement "Me too," I give him a warm smile, well if that was the only thing on the to do list, besides being together.. obviously then it looked like we were headed in the same direction.
My hand creeps over to Eddie's lap, trailing my fingers back and forth as his hips arch in his seat "Jesus," he mutters, looking down to my hand then back at the road
"Sorry," I shoot him an innocent glare as I move my hand away "You say my driving's bad now, that'd get us killed." Eddie laughs "I can't help it, I love getting a rise out of you.. in both ways." I smirk, satisfied with myself.
We pulled into a Burger King in the next town over where the drive in is. Picking up some dinner for the movie instead of spending money on the outrageous prices at the actual drive in, I hope out as Eddie goes to open the back door.. looking for his wallet.
Seemingly struggling a lot with getting the door open "So weak," I shake my head in disappointment, tone full of sarcasm as he looks back at me "What was that?" Eddie let's go of the door handle,
"Weak," I repeat, batting my eyelashes. "Oh really now?" He inches closer to me as I stand my ground, nodding "Uh huh."
A playful smile dances across his face, "I'm stronger than you anyways," I turn up my nose, did I believe that? No. Did I love bugging Eddie? Yes.
In one swift motion Eddie had hold of me and pushed me into the van door, tilting his head to the side even further with raised brows "Slightly turned on," I admit, trying not to laugh.
I try to break free but his hold gets tighter and I can't wiggle loose "Ahh," I groan "Ok, Ok. I give." I huff in defeat as an amused look washes over his face "You're stronger, ya ya." I roll my eyes, his lips press against the tip of my nose
"That's what I thought," he chuckles, letting go and heading for the door of the Burger king with his hand out for me. I chase after him and intertwine my fingers with his,
"Still turned on though." I say quietly as he laughs "You're going to run me dry," Eddie chuckles.
We hand our tickets in to the drive through attendant and park near the back, Eddie opened the back of his van and laid out a black and red checkered blanket, I bring over the food and drinks, sitting on the edge of the vans bed.. feet dangling over the edge.
I place the food down between us as the radio in his van blares the commercials before the movie. Digging into our food and drinks, enjoying the moment knowing it would be gone much too soon.
It really showed how much Eddie cares and listens to me too, this isn't his type of movie whatsoever and just to spend time together, he puts up with it. I'm forever grateful.
Eddie bunches up another blanket and lays it against the center console, sitting up against it with his legs out straight in front of him. "Come here," he motions his head, his wavy reddish brown hair bouncing with.
I lay my back against his chest, being in between his legs. Eddies mouth lazily gliding over my hair as the movie plays in front of us, I bring my knees up.. swaying them back and forth.
One of his hands wraps around my stomach as the other plays with my own hand. I absentmindedly twist the many rings on his hand, trailing my finger tips over them here and there.
Eddie brings our hands up to his lips as he turns them over, placing a small kiss on the palm of my hand. I cuddle into him, tilting my head up to look into those beautiful amber eyes that take my breath away every time.
I guess I was too comfy as I fell asleep in his arms, being awoken to Eddie's fingers running softly against my cheek.
"Hmm?" My eyes flutter open to see him looking down at me in awe, it's darker now.. quieter. "You fell asleep," he murmurs, taking in all the features of my face. "I'm so sorry," I apologize wholeheartedly.
Eddie places his hand under my chin, tilting my head so he can reach my lips "Don't be," he whispers. "Can we just stay like this forever?" I pout, "I wish," he smiles.
"We still have a half hour until we have to head back," he looks down at his watch as I move from between his legs, my body sore from being in the same position for so long.
I stretch my arms out and then my back as Eddie does the same, afterwards I jump out of the back of Eddie's van.. my legs feeling like they were still asleep.
Eddie follows after me, "you snore, by the way." A teasing smile curves up on his face as I scoff "Do not!" I refuse to believe it "It's okay, it's cute." He rubs my shoulders, as if that made me feel any better.
He grabs his smoke pack out of the van, along with his lighter as we both lean against the bumper. "Your birthday is coming up," I slide the statement into the conversation innocently,
A cigarette hangs out of the side of Eddie's mouth as he hands me one "Oh no," he shakes his head sternly "Don't want to think about it."
"And why would that be?" I await an answer as he lights his smoke then passes the zippo to me "I'm going to be a twenty year old still in high school.. not really something to celebrate," Eddie blows out the cloud of smoke slowly.
"On the verge of graduating," I remind him, "you don't want to do anything then?" I ask, though I'd likely get him something anyways.
He shakes his head, his hands pushing his long hair behind his shoulders as a devilish grin takes his face "No.. well, I do uh, want to do one thing," he raises his dark brows up and down "You," he snickers, thinking he's the biggest genius in the world.
I pinch the bridge of my nose, a soft laugh escaping my lips "I knew where that was going," I lick my lips, "So smooth babe," I pat his cheek, flicking my smoke across the now empty field.
Eddie flicks his own cigarette then curves his finger around my belt loop to pull me back towards him, "I miss you," he whispers, "I'm right here," I say confused.
"I miss waking up to you, sleeping next to you.. being able to see you in Hawkins with out you know," he sighs, yeah.. my parents flipping their lid. "Soon, my love." I press my lips against his.
The hardest part of the day was always night time, my house would get eerily quiet and I'd be left to my own devices. I spent a lot of time writing, mostly letters to my future self.. to Eddie (ones that he has never seen).
It was just such an empty, isolating feeling being with out him. Like I was literally missing the most important piece of me.
Soon, I remind myself.. just as I did Eddie.
Eddie pulls into the stores parking lot, everything now closed and completely empty. I reach across the seat, my lips tangling with his as neither of us want to part.
If only we could slow time down, but sadly we couldn't and if I was any later, my parents would begin to wonder. "I love you," I breathe out as we rest our foreheads against each other's "I love you, Ali." Eddie rubs his nose against mine as we give each other one last kiss.
I reach for my skateboard in the back, getting out of the van as I give Eddie a small wave. Placing my deck down, hopping on and zig zagging home.
My parents were clueless, to be honest I was having a mini freak out on the way home, thinking they had to know and my bags were probably already packed to ship me off to boarding school but they had no idea.
Ugh, if only Eddie and I could have a normal relationship.