Now we reached the end
I ran a marathon
The road had many bends
But we knew that all along
I think it made me stronger
But I would rather not
Betray myself, just to keep your love at any cost
He was waiting for 30 minutes now and he sighed.
He knew that Sasuke was very busy, but he foolishly thought that maybe for their five-year anniversary, Sasuke would have made the effort to finish work a bit early to be with him a little longer, have dinner with him, stay the night with him or whatever.
Naruto bit his tongue. He felt dumb, in his black suit in a hotel that felt way too big. He had bought it and wore it especially because he knew it would please Sasuke, as the brunet always had something to say about his clothes and he wanted to look nice for his boyfriend. A boyfriend that most likely forgot it was their anniversary.
He sighed again. Boyfriend. He didn't feel like a boyfriend for a very long time now. He wondered if Sasuke ever said something about dating. Maybe they were just sex friends after all. Exclusive sex friends that were in love with each other.
And it's most tempting to give in
When you hear the firin' shots
When you are steps from winning back
All the happiness you lost, lost
Lost, lost
He wasn't even sure that Sasuke loved him. He sure had to have some feelings for him, five years of fucking the same person isn't nothing, but Sasuke in love with him? He didn't feel it. At first yes.
Everything felt good at first. He couldn't believe that Sasuke didn't reject him when he finally had the courage to confess, on their last day of high school.
Sasuke didn't say "I love you too!" but he had kissed Naruto so hard, so passionately, Naruto didn't have to hear it.
But now, he wanted too.
After years of being the secret lover, he wanted to hear that he was loved. He couldn't have the dates, he couldn't have the domesticity, only have some meetings in different hotels, he could at least at the words.
He could even go with empty ones at this point.
He chewed his lips.
He didn't want to cry.
The seeds we planted grew
But not like roses do
We had the thorns and leaves
But the buds, they never bloomed
And now my future gleams
With colors bold and bright
In a home that's filled with love and hope
And a life that just feels right
He heard the hotel room's door open and he hated himself to feel that relieved. He was so weak and it was even worse when he saw Sasuke's tired face. He couldn't stay mad at the brunet for too long.
He loved him too much for that. Especially when he saw the huge, beautiful bouquet of roses and the small gift package that Sasuke's had on each hand.
Naruto felt his heart racing. Sasuke hadn't forgot after all.
"Sorry, I'm late. Work had been crazy today," Sasuke explained, loosening his tie, "you didn't wait for too long?"
"No, don't worry, I was late too," he lied. He didn't want to fight tonight and he was too happy to see Sasuke to say anything else.
"I bought this for you," Sasuke said, handing Naruto the flowers and the gift.
"Thank you, Sasuke!" Naruto smiled, "I also have something for you," Naruto added, taking the bag that was next to the bed, "happy anniversary, Sasuke."
The brunet gave him a small smile, but said nothing. He gently took the gift and began to unwrap it, "what are you waiting for? Open your gift," Sasuke's face seemed a bit flushed and Naruto smiled even wider.
"Yes, yes, I'm opening it!" He laughed at Sasuke's impatience, "oh! That's the watch I saw the other day!" Naruto exclaimed.
On a rare day that they met outside, they had passed a very luxurious jewelry store and Naruto had vaguely said something about one of the watches in the front display. He never really liked watches, too flashy, showing too much that people had money, but this one was pretty, with his black dial and orange pointers. He also knew Sasuke liked this type of accessories and he wanted to feel a little bit closer to him.
"Thank you, Sasuke," he said lowly, kissing the brunet cheek, "open mine, now!"
Slowly, Sasuke tore the wrapping paper. The pleased look he had when he saw what it was made Naruto proud, "Naruto, it's… It's beautiful…"
Sasuke loved tea, green tea more than the others, and even more tea services, Japanese ones. So, Naruto had looked for months to have the best and most beautiful one and when he finally found it, he didn't hesitate. It was terra cotta with two matching cups made by a famous Japanese craftsman.
"You shouldn't have. This kind of things are expensive and you still struggle with your job."
Naruto frowned, "I don't. I had a lot of contracts this year and I wanted to give you something nice. I don't care about money."
"Naruto…"
"Don't. If you don't want it, I'll take it," Naruto was hurt, too much for a stupid tea service.
"You hate tea."
"Maybe I will learn to love it," Naruto pouted, trying to take his gift back, but Sasuke didn't allow him too.
"You won't do it correctly, so I will keep it."
Naruto just shrugged and turned away from Sasuke. He felt so sad and hurt, some tears threatened to drop on his face.
Sasuke took him in his arms from behind, "don't pout."
"I'm not."
"You are."
"I said that I'm not."
He heard Sasuke chuckled, "good," Sasuke said, making Naruto face him before grabbing Naruto's suit jacket, kissing him longingly.
And it's most tempting to give in
When you're almost at the top
When you are steps from winning back
All the happiness you lost, lost
Lost, lost
Before he could really understand what was truly happening, Sasuke had pushed him on the bed, eagerly undressing him.
It was the only moments he felt that he was truly desired.
Wanted.
He moaned when Sasuke bit his neck hungrily, making the button of Naruto's suit fly all over the bed. He had hoped for some romantic love making for tonight, but it felt so good to finally be this close to Sasuke, to feel his skin against his, to feel Sasuke's mouth on his body.
Sasuke had put him on his back and opened his legs once he had undressed Naruto completely and Naruto shuddered when he felt the cold lube running down his ass and hole. He swallowed hard in anticipation and closed his eyes. Sasuke seemed to be quite rough tonight and he knew this was going to be uncomfortable, even hurt.
He flinched when the first finger entered him, preparing him quickly, soon a second joined it and he winced as his hole was stretched too quickly, but Sasuke didn't seem to care, as he scissored his fingers inside Naruto.
"Sasuke, gentler, please."
He heard Sasuke groaned in frustration, but the brunet stroked his inside a bit more gently, even brushing his prostate which made Naruto moaned lowly.
"Fuck, Naruto…" Sasuke growled in his ear, "Naruto…"
The fingers were quickly gone and he felt Sasuke pushing his cock against his hole, eager to thrust in, to fuck him hard.
It burned when Sasuke's cock finally came inside in one, hard movement. Naruto scratched the brunet back, wincing in pain, tears at the corner of his eyes. Sasuke stayed still, kissing his temple, "I'm sorry… I just wanted to be inside you so bad. You feel so good, Naruto…"
"It hurts, you asshole," Naruto breathed, "you're not small enough to do it like this."
"I know…" Sasuke repeated, kissing him on the lips, starting to move slowly, gently, even… Lovingly.
The pace didn't stay calm for too long, Sasuke pushing inside of him deeper and deeper, until he was in balls deep. Naruto felt himself clenching around Sasuke. Now, pleasure was finally rushing inside his body, a tingling sensation in his stomach.
He shivered when Sasuke's hand settled on his thighs, opening his legs a bit wider.
Sasuke looked at him like a predator, licking his lips, seeming happy with how Naruto was melting under him, under his hard thrusts, hitting his prostate every fucking time.
Naruto took his cock in his hand, feeling his orgasm so, so close.
Sasuke leaned to Naruto, kissing him hard, as hard as he was fucking him and Naruto came in his hands, crying out inside Sasuke's mouth.
Sasuke's pace sped up, going as far as he could inside Naruto, before he finally came with a husky cry, spilling himself far inside Naruto.
He was panting hard, his body hurting him a little bit, when Sasuke turned Naruto over on his stomach and slammed back inside him.
"You feel so good… So fucking soft…"
It was going to be a long night, Naruto thought as he cried out in pleasure, letting Sasuke do what he wanted with him.
And there's no heartbreak left to feel
It happened years ago
After you made your choices I melted away like snow
'Cause you like lying to yourself and now I'll never know
What parts of your love were for real
And what parts were for show
He didn't even notice that he had fallen asleep until he heard Sasuke speaking on his phone, quietly.
Ha had passed out after their round in the shower. He was too tired and his body was aching all over, but a good pain. He still had the sensation that Sasuke was inside of him and he loved it. It had been a long time since he had felt so much desire from Sasuke.
He opened his eyes lazily and searched for Sasuke who was on the other side of the bed. He crawled to him to take Sasuke in his arms, purring in happiness and relieved he was still here after he woke up. Sasuke was already all clothed up though, a shame.
Sasuke put a hand in Naruto's hair, stroking it gently.
"Yes, Dad, I was thinking about it. Yes."
Naruto wondered what they were talking about, but he was too tired to care. He just wanted Sasuke to hung up so they could eat something or go for a walk if Sasuke was okay with it.
"Yes, I will meet with her in two days. Yes," Sasuke was very serious, frowning his eyebrows.
"Who do you have to meet?" Naruto asked, curious.
Sasuke put a finger on his mouth, to shut him up, "No, Dad, I'm not with anyone. I'm just watching TV."
And it was enough to make Naruto speechless.
He knew it was like this. He had accepted it, he couldn't do anything about it.
But he didn't even exist.
He was just some TV in the background.
With every careless action you let me slip away
If you just bought me flowers, maybe I would've stayed
You didn't think I was serious, I guess you felt so safe
If you just bought me flowers, maybe I would've stayed
He didn't even notice when Sasuke wasn't on the phone anymore, he just felt empty. He felt like he was truly nothing, just a hole convenient to fuck.
"Naruto?" Sasuke asked, still stroking his hair, "are you with me?"
"You could have said that you were with a friend."
Sasuke sighed, annoyed and it made Naruto want to cry, "we already talked about this."
"Your parents think you're straight, they won't have any suspicion if you tell them that you are at your friend's flat."
"It's not that simple, you know it."
"You can lie about everything else, why can't you lie about that?"
"I don't want to talk about it when you're like this."
"So when can we talk?!"
"Naruto."
"I just wanted to be with you tonight. Have dinner, go for a walk and have sex. I only had one of the three."
"Naruto, it's not my fault if work got in the way."
"Work always got in the way with you."
"Naruto, stop," Sasuke's voice was cold and Naruto didn't have the strength to say something back, so he stayed quiet, "good. Do you want to have some room service before I go home?"
Before going home. It broke something in him. As it always did. He always hoped and it was always crushed and it always hurt so fucking bad.
"I'm not hungry."
Sasuke looked at him coldly, "as you wish," he said, "thank you for the gift," Sasuke added as he took the gift.
The sound of the door closing on Sasuke made him finally cry.
He didn't want the night to end like this, but it always ended like this.
And he didn't know if he was still strong enough for this relationship.
Maybe I would've stayed
Maybe I would've stayed
I wouldn't have walked away
I wouldn't have walked away
He opened his eyes and the bed was empty. He stretched his body, yawning and rubbed his eyes. It was a warm, sunny morning and he felt good.
He quickly put some clothes on and followed the good smell that was coming from the kitchen. There, he found Gaara making some crepes, again as it was Naruto's favorite, and with a happy laugh, he hugged Gaara from behind, "what's the occasion?"
"I wanted to please you."
"You already did last night," Naruto whispered lewdly and he chuckled as Gaara rolled his eyes.
"If you keep being like this, I will eat the crepes all by myself."
"You wouldn't dare!"
"Try me."
"Okay, Sensei, I will go sit and wait for the yummy food," he said, kissing Gaara's cheek before sitting down on the couch.
There was something on the table that wasn't here last night. It looked like a gift and Naruto blushed, "Gaara, why is there a gift on the table?"
"Because it's for you."
"But, today is nothing special!"
"Every day is special with you."
"Okay, look at me when you say that."
"No."
"You have to, I wanna know if you can keep a straight face while you say it."
Gaara turned his head, which was very red from embarrassment, "you know I can't."
Naruto smile widely. Gaara was the cutest person in the world. "Can I open it?"
"No, it's here just to be pretty."
"Don't be that mean, Sensei. If I love it, I will suck your cock as a thank you."
"You're insatiable."
"Always with you," Naruto winked.
He took the gift in his hands. It was big, but light and somehow squishy. Without ceremony, he tore off the wrapping paper to find out what was inside.
Before him was the cutest fox plushy toy he ever saw. It was a bright orange, with brown eyes. It was in a sitting position and it was just calling for so many hugs. He remembered that he had told Gaara a few days prior that he had lost his favorite plush years ago and he missed it a lot. Sasuke had told him it was childish and useless, that he was a grown man and grown men didn't have stuffed toys, so he didn't buy another one.
Gaara wasn't a plushy guy. There was none in his flat and Naruto thought that maybe, Gaara too, thought it was dumb for a grown man who was almost thirty to love this kind of things. He couldn't be happier to see that he was wrong and that Gaara would never say or treat him like this.
The redhead accepted him as he was, no more, no less.
He hugged the stuffed toy tightly against his chest, getting up and once again, he took Gaara in his arms, "I love you," he whispered softly.
Gaara kissed his cheek and Naruto could feel his smile.
He felt so loved, accepted and happy.
"I love you too," Gaara answered, kissing softly on the lips, "you deserve the cutest fox stuffed toy."