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Long chapter...
LADY MIDDLETON'S SOCIETY PAPERS, 2 JUNE 1815
The Pendragons are truly a unique family. Surely there cannot be anyone in London who does not know that they all almost look remarkably alike, or that they are also named, almost in alphabetical order...
It does make one wonder however, what the late viscount and still very-much alive dowager viscountess would have named their next child or children, had they continued producing offspring.
Perhaps it is best they stopped at eight.
Arthur Pendragon was the second of eight children, but sometimes it felt more like a hundred.
This ball his mother had insisted upon hosting was supposed to be a masquerade, and he had dutifully donned a black demi-mask. But everyone knew who he was.
Or rather, they all almost knew.
"A Pendragon!" they would exclaim, clapping their hands together with glee.
Or...
"You must be a Pendragon!"
Or...
"A Pendragon! I can spot a Pendragon anywhere."
Yes, Arthur was indeed a Pendragon, and while there was no family to which he'd rather belong, he sometimes wished he was considered a little less a Pendragon...and a little more himself.
Just then, a woman of somewhat indeterminate age, dressed as a shepherdess, sauntered over.
"A Pendragon!" she trilled. "I'd recognize that blonde hair anywhere. Which are you? No, don't say. Let me guess. You're not the viscount, because I just saw him. You must be Number Two or Number Three."
Arthur eyed her coolly.
"Which one? Number Two or Number Three?" she asked.
"Two," he bit off.
She clapped her hands together.
"That's what I thought! Oh, I must find Eliza. I told her you were Number Two..."
Arthur nearly growled.
"...but she said, no, he's the younger one. But I..." the woman prattled on.
Arthur suddenly had to get away. It was either that or kill the twittering ninnyhammer. And with so many witnesses, he didn't think he could get away with it.
"If you'll excuse me," he said smoothly. "I see someone with whom I must speak."
It was a lie, but he didn't care.
With a curt nod towards the overage shepherdess, he made a beeline towards the ballroom's side door, eager to escape the throng and any would-be prattlers.
As quiet as he could, Arthur snuck into his brother's study, where he might find some blessed peace and quiet and perhaps a glass of fine brandy.
"Arthur!"
Damn! He'd nearly made a clean escape.
He looked up to see his mother hurrying towards him. She was dressed in some sort of Elizabethan costume.
He supposed she was meant to be a character in one of Shakespeare's plays, but for the life of him, he had no idea which.
"What can I do for you, Mother?" he asked. "And don't say dance with Henrietta Hart-Davies. Last time I did that I nearly lost three toes in the process."
"I wasn't going to ask anything of the sort," Igraine Pendragon replied. "I was going to ask you to dance with Portia Hanbury."
"Have mercy, Mother," he moaned. "She's even worse."
"I'm not asking you to marry the girl," she said. "Just dance with her."
Arthur fought a groan.
Portia Hanbury, while essentially a nice person, had a brain the size of a pea and a laugh so grating, he'd seen grown men flee with their hands over their ears.
"I'll tell you what," he wheedled. "I'll dance with Phoebe Hanbury if you keep Portia at bay."
"That'll do," his mother said with a satisfied nod, leaving him with the sinking sensation that she'd wanted him to dance with Phoebe all along.
"She's over there by the lemonade table," she said. "Dressed as a leprechaun, poor thing. The colour is good for her, but someone really must take her mother in hand next time they venture out to the dressmaker. A more unfortunate costume, I can't imagine."
"You obviously haven't seen the mermaid," Arthur murmured. And his mother swatted him lightly on the arm.
"No poking fun at the guests."
"But they make it so easy."
She shot him a look of warning before saying,
"I'm off to find your sister."
"Which one?"
"One of the ones who isn't married," his mother replied pertly. "Viscount James might be interested in that Scottish girl, but they aren't betrothed yet!"
Arthur silently wished Viscount James luck. The poor bloke was going to need it.
"And thank you for dancing with Phoebe," his mother said pointedly.
He gave her a rather ironic half smile. But they both knew that her words were meant as a reminder, and not as thanks.
Arthur's arms crossed in a somewhat forbidding stance. He watched his mother depart before drawing a long breath and turning to make his way to the lemonade table.
He adored his mother to distraction, but she did tend to err on the side of meddlesome when it came to the social lives of her children.
And if there was one thing that bothered her even more than his unmarried state, it was the sight of a young girl's glum face when no one asked her to dance.
As a result, he spent a lot of time on the ballroom floor, sometimes with girls she wanted him to marry, but more often with the overlooked wallflowers.
Of the two, he rather thought he preferred the wallflowers, because the popular girls tended to be shallow...and to be frank...just a little bit dull.
But his mother had always had a particular soft spot for Phoebe Hanbury, who was on her...
Arthur frowned.
On her third season?
It must be her third. And with no marriage prospects in sight.
Ah, well. He might as well do his duty. Phoebe was a nice enough girl, with a decent wit and personality.
Someday she'd find herself a husband. It wouldn't be him, of course, and in all honesty, it probably wouldn't be anyone he even knew.
But surely she'd find someone...
With a sigh, Arthur started to make his way towards the lemonade table. He could practically taste that brandy, smooth and mellow in his mouth.
But he supposed that a glass of lemonade would tide him over for a few minutes.
"Miss Hanbury!" he called out, trying not to shudder when three Miss Hanbury's turned around.
With what he knew could not possibly be anything but the weakest of smiles, he added,
"Er, Phoebe, that is."
From about ten feet away, the girl beamed at him, and he was reminded that he actually liked her.
Truly, she wouldn't be considered so antidotal if she weren't always lumped together with her unfortunate sisters, who could easily make a grown man wish himself aboard a ship to Australia.
He'd nearly closed the gap between them when he heard a low rumble of whispers rippling across the ballroom behind him.
He knew he ought to keep going and get this duty-dance over with, but God help him, his curiosity got the best of him so he turned around.
And found himself facing what had to be the most breathtaking woman he'd ever seen.
He couldn't even tell if she was beautiful, really. And with her mask tied securely around her head he couldn't even see half of her face.
He could see light brown skin. And he could see beautiful, dark hair...
But there was something else about her that mesmerized him.
It was her smile, the shape of her eyes and the way she held herself as she looked about the ballroom...
As if she'd never seen a more glorious sight than the silly members of the ton all dressed up in ridiculous costumes.
Her beauty came from within.
She shimmered.
She glowed.
She was utterly radiant.
And Arthur suddenly realized that it was because she looked so damned happy...
Happy to be where she was. And happy to be who she was.
Happy in a way he could barely remember.
His was a good life, it was true, maybe even a great life. He had seven wonderful siblings, a loving mother and scores of friends.
But this woman...
This woman knew joy.
And he had to know her.
Phoebe forgotten, he pushed his way through the crowd until he was but a few steps from her side.
Three other gentlemen had beaten him to his destination and were presently showering her with flattery and praise.
And Arthur watched her with interest. But she did not react as any woman of his acquaintance might.
She did not act coy.
Nor did she act as if she expected their compliments as her due.
Nor was she shy, or tittering, or arch, or ironic, or any of those things one might expect from a woman.
She just smiled.
Beamed, actually.
He supposed that compliments were meant to bring a measure of happiness to the receiver, but never had he seen a woman react with such pure, unadulterated joy.
He stepped forward. He wanted that joy for himself.
"Excuse me, gentlemen, but the lady has already promised this dance to me," he lied.
Her mask's eye-holes were cut a bit large, and he could see that her eyes widened considerably, then crinkled with amusement.
He held out his hand to her, silently daring her to call his bluff.
But she just smiled at him, a wide, radiant grin that pierced his skin and traveled straight to his soul.
She put her hand in his, and it was only then that Arthur realized he'd been holding his breath.
"Have you permission to dance the waltz?" he murmured once they reached the dance floor.
She shook her head.
"I do not dance."
"You jest."
"I'm afraid I do not. The truth is..." She leaned forward and with a glimmer of a smile said, "I don't know how."
Arthur looked at her with surprise. This woman moved with an inborn grace, and furthermore, what gently bred lady could reach her age without learning how to dance?
"There is only one thing to do, then," he murmured. "I shall teach you."
Her eyes widened, then her lips parted, and a surprised laugh burst forth.
"What..." he asked, trying to sound serious, "...is so funny?"
She grinned at him...the sort of grin one expects from an old school chum, not a debutante at a ball.
Still smiling, she said,
"Even I know that one does not conduct dancing lessons at a ball."
"What does that mean, I wonder," he murmured. "Even you?"
She said nothing.
"I shall have to take the upper hand, then," he said. "And force you to do my bidding."
"Force me?"
But she was smiling as she said it, so he knew she took no offense. And he said,
"It would be ungentlemanly of me to allow this sorrowful state of affairs to continue."
"Sorrowful, you say?"
He shrugged.
"A beautiful lady who cannot dance. It seems a crime against nature."
"If I allow you to teach me..."
"When you allow me to teach you."
"If I allow you to teach me, where shall you conduct the lesson?"
Arthur lifted his chin and scanned the room. It wasn't difficult to see over the heads of most of the partygoers.
At an inch above six feet, he was one of the tallest men in the room.
"We shall have to retire to the terrace," he said finally.
"The terrace?" she echoed. "Won't it be terribly crowded? It's a warm night, after all."
He leaned forward.
"Not the private terrace."
"The private terrace, you say?" she asked, amusement in her voice. "And how, pray tell, would you know of a private terrace?"
Arthur stared at her in shock.
Could she possibly not know who he was?
It wasn't that he held such a high opinion of himself that he expected all of London to be aware of his identity. It was just that he was a Pendragon, and if a person met one, that generally meant they could recognize another.
And as there was no one in London who had not crossed paths with one Pendragon or another, he was generally recognized everywhere.
Even when that recognition was simply as Number Two, he thought ruefully.
"You did not answer my question," his mystery lady reminded him.
"About the private terrace?" He raised her hand to his lips and kissed the fine silk of her glove. "Let us just say that I have my ways."
She appeared undecided. And so, he tugged at her fingers, pulling her closer...only by an inch, but somehow, it seemed she was only a kiss away.
"Come," he said. "Dance with me."
She took a step forward, and he knew his life had been changed forever.
Gwen hadn't seen him when she'd first walked into the room, but she'd felt magic in the air. And when he'd appeared before her, like some charming prince from a children's tale, she somehow knew that he was the reason she'd stolen into the ball.
He was tall, and what she could see of his face, he was very handsome, with lips that hinted of irony and smiles, and skin that was just barely touched by the beginnings of a beard.
His hair was blonde, and the flickering candlelight lent it a brownish cast.
People seemed to know who he was, as well. She noticed that when he moved, the other partygoers stepped out of his path.
And when he'd lied so brazenly and claimed her for a dance, the other men had deferred and stepped away.
He was handsome and he was strong, and for this one night...he was hers.
When the clock struck midnight, she'd be back to her life of drudgery, of mending and washing, and attending to the countess Calliope's every wish.
Was she so wrong to want this one heady night of magic and love?
She felt like a princess...a reckless princess.
And so, when he asked her to dance, she put her hand in his. And even though she knew that this entire evening was a lie, that she was a nobleman's bastard and a countess' maid, that her dress was borrowed and her shoes practically stolen...none of that seemed to matter as their fingers twined.
For a few hours, at least, she could pretend that this gentleman could be her gentleman, and that from this moment on, her life would be changed forever.
It was nothing but a dream, but to be honest, it had been terribly long since she'd let herself dream.
Banishing all caution, Gwen allowed her prince for the night to lead her out of the ballroom.
He walked quickly, even as he wove through the pulsing crowd, and she found herself laughing as she tripped along after him.
"Why is it..." he started, halting for a moment when they'd reached the hall outside the ballroom, "...that you always seem to be laughing at me?"
She laughed again; she couldn't help it.
"I'm happy," she said with a helpless shrug. "I'm just so happy to be here."
"And why is that? A ball such as this must be routine for one such as yourself."
Gwen grinned.
If he thought she was a member of the ton, an alumna of dozens of balls and parties, then she must be playing her role to perfection.
He touched the comer of her mouth.
"You keep smiling," he murmured.
"I like to smile."
His hand found her waist and he pulled her towards him. The distance between their bodies remained respectable, but the increasing nearness robbed her of breath.
"I like to watch you smile," he said.
His words were low and seductive, but there was something oddly hoarse about his voice. And Gwen could almost let herself believe that he really meant it, that she wasn't merely that evening's conquest.
But before she could respond, an accusing voice from down the hall suddenly called out,
"There you are!"
Gwen's stomach lurched well into her throat.
She'd been found out.
She'd be thrown into the street, and tomorrow probably into jail for stealing the countess' shoes, and...
And the man who'd called out had reached her side and was saying to her mysterious gentleman,
"Mother has been looking all over for you. You weaseled out of your dance with Phoebe, and I had to take your place."
"So sorry," her gentleman murmured.
That didn't seem to be enough of an apology for the newcomer, because he scowled mightily as he said,
"If you flee the party and leave me to that pack of she-devil debutantes, I swear I shall exact revenge to my dying day."
"A chance I'm willing to take," her gentleman said.
"Well, I covered up for you with Phoebe," the other man grumbled. "You're just lucky that I happened to be standing by. The poor girl's heart looked broken when you turned away."
Gwen's gentleman had the grace to blush.
"Some things are unavoidable, I'm afraid."
She looked from one man to the other. And even under their demi-masks, it was more than obvious that they were brothers.
Then she realized in a blinding flash that they must be the Pendragon brothers, and this must be their house, and...
Oh, good Lord, had she made a total and utter fool of herself by asking him how he knew of a private terrace?
But which brother was he?
Arthur?
He had to be Arthur.
She sent a silent thank-you to Lady Middleton, who'd once written a column completely devoted to the task of telling the Pendragon siblings apart.
Arthur, she recalled, had been singled out as the tallest.
And the man who'd made her heart flip in triple time, stood a good inch above his brother...who, she suddenly realized was looking at her quite intently.
"I see why you departed," the man who must be Hugh said.
He certainly wasn't Harold, who was only fourteen. And Bradford was married, so he wouldn't care if Arthur had fled the party and left him to fend off the debutantes by himself.
The man looked at Arthur with a sly expression.
"Might I request an introduction?"
Arthur raised a brow.
"You can try your best, but I doubt you'll meet with success. I haven't learned her name yet myself."
"You haven't asked," Gwen couldn't help but point out.
"And would you tell me if I did?"
"I'd tell you something," she returned.
"But not the truth."
She shook her head.
"This isn't a night for truth."
"My favorite kind of night," Hugh said in a jaunty voice.
"Don't you have somewhere to be?" Arthur asked. And his brother shook his head.
"I'm sure Mother would prefer that I be in the ballroom, but it's not exactly a requirement."
"Require it," Arthur returned. Gwen felt a giggle bubbling in her throat.
"Very well," Hugh sighed. "I shall take myself off."
"Excellent," Arthur said.
"All alone, to face the ravenous wolves..."
"Wolves?" Gwen queried.
"Eligible young ladies," Hugh clarified. "A pack of ravenous wolves, the lot of them. Present company excluded, of course."
At that, Gwen thought it best not to point out that she was not an eligible young lady at all.
"My mother..." Hugh began.
And Arthur groaned.
"...would like nothing better than to see my dear elder brother married off." He paused and pondered his words. "Except, perhaps, to see me married off."
"If only to get you out of the house," Arthur said dryly.
This time Gwen did giggle.
"But then again, he's considerably more ancient," Hugh continued. "So perhaps we should send him to the gallows...er, altar first."
"Do you have a point?' Arthur growled.
"None whatsoever," his brother admitted. "But then again, I rarely do."
Arthur turned to Gwen.
"He speaks the truth."
"So then," Hugh said to Gwen with a grand flourish of his arm. "Will you take pity on my poor, long-suffering mother and chase my dear brother up the aisle?"
"Well, he hasn't asked," she said, trying to join the humour of the moment.
"How much have you had to drink?" Arthur grumbled.
"Me?" Gwen queried.
"Him."
"Nothing at all," Hugh said jovially. "But I'm thinking quite seriously of remedying that. In fact, it might be the only thing that will make this eve bearable."
"If the procurement of drink removes you from my presence," Arthur began. "Then it will certainly be the only thing that will make my night bearable as well."
Hugh grinned, gave a jaunty salute, and was gone.
"It's nice to see two siblings who love each other so well," Gwen murmured.
Arthur, who had been staring somewhat menacingly at the doorway through which his brother had just disappeared, snapped his attention back to her.
"You call that love?"
Right away she thought of Victoria and Penelope, who were forever sniping at each other, and not in jest.
"I do," she said firmly. "It's obvious you would lay your life down for him. And vice versa."
"I suppose you're right." He let out a beleaguered sigh, then ruined the effect by smiling. "Much as it pains me to admit it." He leaned against the wall, crossing his arms and looking terribly sophisticated and urbane. "So tell me," he said. "Have you any siblings?"
Gwen pondered that question for a moment, then gave a decisive,
"No."
One of his brows rose into a curiously arrogant arch. He cocked his head very slightly to the side as he said,
"I find myself rather curious as to why it took you so long to determine the answer to that question. One would think the answer would be an easy one to reach."
Gwen looked away for a moment, not wanting him to see the pain that she knew must show in her eyes.
She had always wanted a family. In fact, there was nothing in life she had ever wanted more.
Her father had never recognized her as his daughter, even in private, and her mother had died at her birth.
The countess treated her like the plague, and Victoria and Penelope had certainly never been sisters to her.
Penelope had occasionally been a friend, but even she spent most of the day asking her to mend her dress, or style her hair, or polish her shoes...
And in all truth, even though Penelope asked rather than ordered, as her sister and mother did, Gwen didn't exactly have the option of saying no.
"I am an only child," she finally said.
"And that is all you're going to say on the subject," Arthur murmured.
"And that is all I'm going to say on the subject," she agreed.
"Very well." He smiled, a lazy masculine sort of smile. "What, then, am I permitted to ask you?"
"Nothing, really."
"Nothing at all?"
"I suppose, I might be induced to tell you that my favorite colour is green, but beyond that, I shall leave you with no clues as to my identity."
"Why so many secrets?"
"If I answered that," she said with an enigmatic smile, truly waning to her role as a mysterious stranger. "Then that would be the end of my secrets, wouldn't it?"
Arthur leaned forward ever so slightly.
"You could always develop new secrets."
Gwen backed up a step. Arthur's gaze had grown hot, and she had heard enough talk in the servants' quarters to know what that meant.
Thrilling as that was, she was not quite as daring as she pretended to be.
"This entire night," she said. "Is secret enough."
"Then ask me a question," he said. "I have no secrets."
Her eyes widened.
"None? Truly? Doesn't everyone have secrets?"
"Not I. My life is hopelessly banal."
"That's difficult to believe."
"It's true," he said with a shrug. "I've never seduced an innocent, or even a married lady. I have no gambling debts and my parents were completely faithful to one another."
Meaning he wasn't a bastard.
Somehow, that thought brought an ache to Gwen's heart. Not, of course, because he was legitimate, but rather because she knew he would never pursue her...at least not in an honorable fashion...if he knew that she wasn't.
"You haven't asked me a question," Arthur reminded her.
She blinked in surprise.
She hadn't thought he'd been serious.
"A-all right," she half stammered, caught off guard. "What, then, is your favourite colour?"
He grinned.
"You're going to waste your question on that?"
"I only get one question?"
"It's more than fair, considering you're granting me none." He leaned forward, his blue eyes glinting. "And the answer is blue."
"Why?"
"Why?" he echoed.
"Yes, why? Is it because of the ocean? Or the sky? Your eyes? Or perhaps, just because you like it?"
Arthur eyed her curiously. It seemed such an odd question.
Everyone else would've taken blue for an answer and left it at that. But this woman...whose name he still didn't even know...went deeper, beyond the what's and into the whys.
"Are you a painter?" Arthur queried.
Gwen shook her head.
"Just curious."
"Why is your favorite colour green?"
She sighed, and her eyes grew nostalgic.
"The grass, I suppose, and maybe the leaves. But mostly the grass. The way it feels when one runs barefoot in the summer. And the smell of it after the gardeners have gone through with their scythes and trimmed it even."
"What does the feel and smell of grass have to do with the colour?"
"Nothing, I suppose. And maybe everything. I used to live in the country, you see..."
She caught herself. She hadn't meant to tell him even that much, but there didn't seem to be any harm in him knowing such an innocent fact.
"And you were happier there?" he asked quietly.
She nodded, a faint rush of awareness shivering across her skin.
Lady Middleton must never have had a conversation with Arthur Pendragon beyond the superficial, she mused. Because the woman had never written that he was quite possibly the most perceptive man in London.
And when he looked into her eyes, Gwen had the oddest sense that he could see straight into her soul...
"You must enjoy walking in the park, then," Arthur said.
"Yes," she lied. She never had time to go to the park. The countess didn't even give her a day off like the other servants received.
"We shall have to take a stroll together," he said.
Gwen avoided a reply by reminding him,
"You never did tell me why your favorite colour is blue."
His head cocked slightly to the side, and his eyes narrowed just enough, so that Gwen knew that he had noticed her evasion.
But he simply said,
"I don't know. Perhaps, like you, I'm reminded of something I miss. There is a lake at Penn Hall...that is where I grew up, in Kent, but the water always seemed more gray than blue."
"It probably reflects the sky," Gwen commented.
"Which is, more often than not, more gray than blue," Arthur said with a laugh. "Perhaps that is what I miss...blue skies and sunshine."
"If it wasn't raining," Gwen said with a smile. "This wouldn't be England."
"I went to Italy once," Arthur said. "The sun shone constantly."
"It sounds like heaven."
"You'd think," he said. "But I found myself missing the rain."
"I can't believe it," she said with a laugh. "I feel like I spend half my life staring out the window and grumbling at the rain."
"If it was gone, you'd miss it."
Gwen grew pensive. Were there things in her life she'd miss if they were gone?
She wouldn't miss the countess, that was for certain. And she wouldn't miss Victoria. But she'd probably miss Penelope. And she'd definitely miss the way the sun shone through the window in her room in the attic in the mornings.
She'd also miss the way the servants laughed and joked and occasionally included her in their fun, even though they all knew she was the late earl's bastard.
But she wasn't going to miss these things...
She wouldn't even have the opportunity to miss them, because she wasn't going anywhere. And after this evening...this one amazing, wonderful, magical evening...it would be back to life as usual.
She supposed that if she was stronger and braver, she would've left Penwood House years ago. But would that have really made much difference?
She might not like living with the countess, but she wasn't likely to improve her lot in life by leaving.
She would've liked to have been a governess...and she was certainly well qualified for the position...but jobs were scarce for those without references.
And the countess certainly wasn't going to give her one.
"You're very quiet," Arthur said softly.
"I was just thinking."
"About?"
"About what I'd miss...and what I wouldn't miss...should my life drastically change."
His eyes grew intense.
"And do you expect it to drastically change?"
Gwen shook her head and tried to keep the sadness out of her voice when she answered,
"No."
Arthur's voice grew so quiet it was almost a whisper.
"Do you want it to change?"
"Yes," she sighed, before she could stop herself. "I do."
Arthur took Gwen's hands and brought them to his lips, gently kissing each one in turn.
"Then we shall begin right now," he vowed. "And tomorrow you shall be transformed."
'Tonight I am transformed," she whispered. "Tomorrow I shall disappear."
At that, he drew her close and dropped the softest, most fleeting of kisses onto her brow.
"Then we must pack a lifetime into this very night."
Stay safe!