Addiction - A Big Time Rush Fanfiction….
A/N - Well, here is chapter ten! Wow, I can't believe I have gotten this far with this story; thank you all so much!
There is an important A/N at the end of the chapter, so I hope you read it when you're done with the branch; if not, it's all cool.
Anyway, thanks so much for the reviews and the support. It means a lot to me!
Also, omg, did you all hear BTR's new single "Call It Like I See" omg, it is so amazing!
Their Jingle Ball performance, too ahhhh it's so good to see them on stage, they owned it, and the crowd was wild for them! I'm so happy it's going well for them!
If you didn't see the performance, it is up on youtube now; here's the link: www. youtube/ watch?v=KslJjXeR1pI (copy and paste into your browser! and without spaces it wouldn't let me post it as full)
Anyway, warnings: This story/chapter talks about drugs, drug abuse, and drug usage. If any of this triggers you, please turn back otherwise; thanks for reading!
I own nothing from Big Time Rush; it all belongs to Scott Fellows and Nickelodeon!
Chapter 10
Carlos, Logan, and James entered Kendall's hospital room quietly. All three of them were stunned to see their friend looking slightly pale and lying in a hospital bed hooked up to all kinds of machines. Kendall was silent as they entered, avoiding all eye contact with them; he was embarrassed and ashamed. He didn't want to see the looks of disappointment on his friend's face. The three before him get closer to the bed and all gather around him.
The tension was in the air, but Logan was the first to speak. "Kendall, I'm sorry I had to tell them. Your mother dragged it out of me…and it was the right thing to do…." Logan explains, desperately hoping Kendall wasn't too mad at him; Logan was nervous but tried to remain calm until his friend replied, the guilt of this situation was already eating the poor boy alive.
Silence follows for a moment before Kendall finally looks at them and sighs, "I was mad at first when my mother told me that you told them everything you knew. But then I laid here and thought about it, and I'm glad you told them. They were bound to find out sooner or later, and I'm sorry for putting you in that position; it wasn't right nor fair. I'm sorry for this whole situation, and I feel so bad about everything…." Kendall finishes as he looks down at his hands; they are trembling.
"Why didn't you tell us? Or talk to us about what was going on? We could've helped you." James questions as he folds his arms and raises an eyebrow at his friend.
"I at first thought it was none of your business what I was doing, so I didn't say anything. But now I know that was a mistake….and, I don't know, honestly. Part of me thought the pills were helping, so it was fine, but part of me was scared to mention anything when I started using them. I didn't want anyone to take them from me or for anyone to think I was doing something wrong even if at the time I didn't know anything was wrong with it." Kendall explains as he lets a few tears roll down his cheeks. "I guess I was stupid and fell for it. I believe the old man, and I let him take advantage of me, I'm sorry - "
" - Wait, what old man?" Carlos questions interrupting Kendall.
Logan, James, and Carlos eye Kendall in confusion. They never heard of this so-called older man Kendall was talking about. Even Logan, who knew about the pills, never heard of this man. It suddenly concerned them, and all three were very worried. Someone else was involved in Kendall getting the drugs and taking them? Some of the questions they had for their friend were suddenly starting to be answered. None of this made sense, but at the same time, it did. All three looked at one another and then at Kendall for more answers.
Seeing the looks on their faces, Kendall sighs, knowing he might as well be honest since he already told them about the guy. "This old man I met in downtown LA the day I walked out of the studio to get away from the stress. He was on the bench, and I sat down next to him to take a break. He and I started chatting, and well, he offered me the pills, said they helped with anxiety and calmed me down from stress…" Kendall sighs as he lets more tears roll down his cheeks. "...So, he gave me some to try, then when I was out, I went and bought more off him…."
"Wait, wait, wait - " James states, making everyone look at him. " - You bought the pills off him?" James questions as he mentally slaps himself. "Are you insane? Why would you do that?"
Kendall frowns and is shaking slightly as more tears start coming. He was crying hard once more. "I d-don't know! Like I s-said, everything just seemed like a good idea at the time. I thought, what was the harm? I could stop if I didn't like them - "
" - But you did, you kept using them! You are such an idiot Kendall, do you even realize how much you've hurt all of us when we found out!? I mean, for god sake, your in the damn hospital because of overdose!" James says, almost practically yelling at the blonde-haired boy.
"James, calm down; yelling isn't going to help," Logan demands as he brings James' arms down.
Pulling away from Logan, James turns on him and yells. "OH, THEN WHAT IS!? CAUSE YOU AREN'T ANY HELP EITHER!" James shouts, being frustrated, and he can long bite his tongue; he pinches the bridge of his nose to try and calm him down.
Logan jumps at James' outburst, while Kendall cries harder and Carlos is shocked. Logan eyes James as he puts his hands on his hips and frowns."Excuse me? And what do you mean by that, James?" Logan questions as he eyes James, daring him to continue.
"You know exactly what I mean!" James states in a calmer tone. "You knew! YOU KNEW! And you didn't say a word about to any of us, nor an adult! You could've told someone! You could've prevented Kendall from the evening being in the hospital!" James exclaimed as he glared at Logan.
"James, please calm down…Now is not the time to put blame - " Carlos begins as he tries to keep the peace between his friends; he never did like it when they fought.
Interrupting him, James groans. "Oh shut it, Carlos, no one asked you! And besides, how are you not mad? Logan knew, and he didn't say anything! Kendall….Kendall almost left us, and none of you are taking it seriously!"
"We are taking it seriously!" Logan argues back before Carlos can speak, and he glares back at James as well.
Scoffing, he shakes his head, "No, you are not. If you took it seriously, you would've said something to an adult. But instead, you believed Kendall in throwing away the pills and thought nothing more, and I still would've told someone! Screw you, Logan, look where it's landed Kendall in the hospital, on suicide watch! So much for caring. You know, for being the smart of the group, you've been pretty stupid about this whole situation." James states as he crosses his arms and bites his bottom lip.
Before anyone could react or say something in Logan's defense, the brunette had turned in shock and hurt, shoving James backward. James was caught off guard and stumbled a few feet back to catch himself on anything before falling to the ground. Kendall and Carlos gasped at the scene before them. Logan wasn't usually one to be easily provoked or even fight. But something snapped inside the young brunette when one of his so-called "friends" called him stupid. Logan was not stupid by any means, they all knew it, but the words being said aloud hurt. On top of James calling him "stupid," Logan was also hurt by James's accusations. This was not by any means Logan's fault; if anything, it was everyone's. Sure, he could've told an adult, but what would the others have done in shoes? They would've trusted Kendall to stop; they asked as well because Kendall was their friend, and they would've believed him too at the time. The situation was not easy for anyone. Logan was now more than ever frustrated with James and his arrogance, which resulted in him retaliating even if it was something small. The boys all looked at one another James landed on the floor with a thud; the boy just looked up in shock and anger as he finally recollected himself and started to stand.
"Logan, what the hell was that for!?" Carlos questions as he helps James up.
"You know exactly what that was for! First, he accuses me, and then he calls me stupid. Screw you, James; if you are not happy, then leave!" Logan growls as he glares at James; Carlos keeps the two apart as Kendall cries from sitting on the bed.
"Fine! Sorry for caring!"
With that, James storms out of the room; the three are left alone, and the only sounds are James retreating feet and Kendall's crying. Logan apologizes to Kendall for his reactions and the fight; Kendall accepts, but only if Logan apologies to James in return. Carlos is quiet during the whole thing, unhappy with Logan and James. Somehow they made the situation a bit of themselves when they are supposed to be there for Kendall. Sure, Carlos understood Jame's argument and Logan's, but fighting wasn't helping their friend in the hospital. It was only stressing him out, and that's why they needed to be there for him and not at each other's throats. Logan needed to apologize to James, but that was if they could find him and get in touch; who knew where James had run off to by now?
Logan and Carlos stayed with Kendall until Kendall calmed down and fell asleep. When their friend was sleeping, the two left and met up with Katie and Mama Knight in the waiting room. The two come up to the boys and instantly start questioning them about what happened and why James had come running past them (and right of the hospital); upset, Carlos and Logan explained everything. The four stood, unsure of what to do, before formulating a plan to fix their friendship and this whole situation. They hoped that everything would soon be okay, but little did they know, this was only the start of their new troubles…
A/N - Thank you all for reading; I hope you enjoyed it. Also, this is the important note I was talking about...
This next weekend my family and I celebrate Christmas early because my sister and brother-in-law can come into town. So I will be busy this week.
I may not be able to update until around Christmas weekend to after Christmas! I just wanted to give you all a notice, so you didn't worry, thanks!
Also, in case I don't update until then, I will try to update before Christmas weekend, but it'll probably be after; Merry Christmas to you all! I hope you and all your friends and family have a wonderful Christmas and safe travels! MERRY CHRISTMAS!
An update will happen soon, just maybe not until after Christmas weekend; thank you for understanding! Happy Holidays! - BTRFanatic13
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