((AN: I wasn't planning to do more chapters, but I got inspired. Not sure how many more I'll do.
Sorry for any typos.))
Nothing could be the same after that. It didn't matter that only Satine and Bo-Katan knew the truth supposedly. Whenever someone looked at Bo-Katan funny, she found herself wondering if they somehow suspected there was something wrong with her. Maybe they could just sense that she wasn't a normal Mandalorian.
That there was something wrong about her.
Most of her time, she spent locked in her room, but that didn't make her feel better. She would hear Satine and Korkie outside of it. Satine's voice… It made her tense up. Her sister's voice… she found herself studying it, wondering if hers was the same. If it was similar it was because she was her daughter, which was still so wrong. If it was not, then she must have gotten her voice from the Jedi's family and that was so much worse.
After two weeks of barely leaving her room, Satine barged in, despite that the door had been locked. She shouldn't have been able to get in, but she must have had keys that Bo-Katan didn't know about.
Could this day get even worse?
"You shouldn't be here!" Bo-Katan said, jumping off her bed and putting her hands on her hips. "Can't you just leave me alone? Can't you do anything right?" She was already not a traditional Mandalorian with her weird pacifist ways.
And now Bo-Katan knew that she had been with a Jedi. Not even been with one but made a baby.
A baby that was now her.
Bo's stomach twisted and she thought that she might be sick.
"I know you're upset, and I'm sorry. I… I should have told you this earlier," Satine said, shaking her head. "Maybe then this would have been easier for you."
"You really think telling me earlier would change the fact that I'm…"
"You're what?" Satine asked, raising an eyebrow. She came closer to Bo, but paused before her bed. Maybe even she could tell that Bo-Katan didn't want anything to do with her.
Bo rolled her eyes.
"You're what, Bo-Katan?"
Bo was about to spit something out about how she was her sister and not her mother but now… ugh… it was more confusing. But she would never consider Satine her mother. She couldn't. Even if… even if biologically she was.
"What do you think you are, Bo-Katan?" Satine asked again.
"Can't you stay out of my room?!" Bo asked. "You know my real mom, the one who raised me and didn't…" Screw Jedi. "Would have respected that I wanted to be alone but you…"
"I respected your privacy for two weeks, Bo-Katan," Satine said. "But now I'm concerned."
"Concerned?"
"About how you're reacting to… the news…" Satine finally made her way over to Bo-Katan. Bo-Katan tried to give her the worst look that she possibly could. Satine would never understand how much this hurt her.
Because she wasn't like Bo-Katan.
And she wasn't the one who had a Jedi as a father and her sister as her mother. Just the thought of it made her stomach twist. She clutched it, hoping the pain would end.
"Just leave me alone," Bo-Katan spat out. She was good at that. Surely she was too busy with her stupid politics that would never make a difference. Satine didn't understand how Mandalore was truly. Her sister… well, wasn't a true Mandalorian.
"I've been thinking," Satine said, ignoring her because that was how she always was. Why would she ever actually listen to her? She never had before. She was just her stupid little sister.
Bo tried to push away the thought that came crashing into her head. Not sister. A Daughter. Daughter. Why? Why?
"I know this is hard for you, ad'ika."
"Don't call me that!" Bo-Katan said, almost yelling. She knew that a proper Mandalorian would hide her emotions and she was usually good at that, but Satine made everything so much harder than it should have been.
"Bo-Katan," Satine said, clearing her throat. "I've been thinking." She repeated all of this as if she hadn't spoken before. As if she hadn't heard a word that Bo had said. Bo was used to it, but now it bothered her even more.
"What have you been thinking about, Satine?" Bo-Katan said, dragging her name out. She wouldn't ever call her mother or mom, but she doubted Satine had even wanted that since she had no problem lying to Bo for years.
Maybe it would have been better if Bo-Katan had never found out the truth. But who was she kidding? Things like this always had a way of coming out. Maybe it was good only the two of the, knew about it.
Bo-Katan wouldn't have been able to handle if all of Mandalore knew.
"I know this is difficult for—"
"Just tell me what you're thinking about." Bo snapped. She was tired of her sister dancing around the subject like she always did. She should just spit it out.
"Maybe it would help you if you met…" Satine was silent and Bo just knew that she was considering what she was saying. By her sister's expression… right? What if this was some weird Jedi power that she didn't know she had? What if she had the Force?
What kind of Mandalorian had the Force? Maybe that was why she was a good shot. Maybe was why she was so good at combat in general. Maybe she was force sensitive. She didn't want that. What kind of Mandalorian was like that?
Maybe her abilities weren't talent and were just the Force.
That… maybe everything she had done wasn't because she had worked hard for many years, but because of the Force. Maybe it was all for nothing. Just because of… the man who made her. Maybe some would be happy about that, but Bo wasn't. She wanted her abilities to be because she worked hard. Not because of talent or some magical power.
Bo looked at Satine. Maybe she would be wrong and she wouldn't say something insane. But Bo-Katan had never been that lucky. So maybe she wasn't force sensitive because didn't they have good luck. She didn't know.
"Would it help you if you met… your… my…" Satine paused as if she was considering what to call him. "Your biological father."
"What?" Bo asked. This is what she thought that she would say, but she had been hoping that she was wrong. Seeing Satine was bad enough. What would the Jedi be like? Stars!
"I… I've been pondering this, and maybe I've been selfish in a way. Mother… our mother said it would be better if you didn't know the truth and you didn't meet… him, but maybe it's not true."
Bo-Katan kept glaring at her sister.
"Maybe it would be… healthy and healing for you to meet him." Satine shook her head and then touched her hair. "And maybe it wasn't… right for me to not tell him."
Bo-Katan opened her mouth to respond to that but she didn't get a chance to.
"He would have wanted to know. He'd want to know that he was a father."
"How do you know that, Satine?" Bo-Katan said, still glaring at her, "How do you know he'd want to be a father?'
"He's a good man and—"
"Jedi don't care about attachments. Maybe he was just using you." Bo-Katan had heard all about men like that. Satine's Jedi could easily have been that way, even if she wanted to believe that it was true love.
Satine stared at her as if she was speaking another language. "Obi-Wan isn't that kind of man."
"Obi-Wan? What kind of name is that?" Bo-Katan asked.
"It's a good name. Yours is similar. It has a hyphen too."
Bo-Katan seriously might be sick. Her name wasn't anything like that, but maybe her sister had choose it thinking that it was.
"How do you know what kind of man he was? You're not as smart as you think. He could have been using you for all you know."
Satine studied her and sighed. "Trust me on this, Bo-Katan."
"I bet if you contacted him he wouldn't want anything to do with you or me." Bo-Katan instantly regretted what she had said. Stars! This was going to make Satine want to contact Obi-Wan. She didn't want that. The last thing she needed was some Jedi trying to bond with her. She didn't even like Jedi.
Because she was a proper Mandalorian.
Or she thought she was before she realized who her dad was.
Biologically speaking! He wasn't her real dad.
"I don't think that's true," Satine said. She sighed. "But he would be upset with me."
"Really?" Bo-Katan asked.
"He would think that I should have told him about you? He wouldn't be happy…"
"Aren't Jedi not supposed to get angry?" Bo-Katan asked. Jedi weren't supposed to do a lot of things that they probably did.
"They're not supposed to let anger control them. Anger is a path to the dark side," Satine said as if she had heard it a million times before. Bo-Katan had never heard her sister say anything like this. She shook her head. "But yes, he will probably be upset." She tried to reach for Bo-Katan's hands, but Bo-Katan wasn't about to let her touch her. Not right now. "But I don't care. I'll tell him if that's what you want… Maybe… maybe it will be freeing if he knows the truth about you."
Freeing… freeing for her maybe.
But Bo-Katan doubted it would even be that way. The Jedi would be upset that Satine had lied to him. She could hardly blame him if that was the case. Or maybe he wouldn't be upset and he would make it clear that he wanted nothing to do with Bo-Katan. That she had just been a fling and that was all.
It would hurt Satine, and maybe this made Bo-Katan horrible, but she wanted her to feel some of the pain that Bo-Katan was feeling. Satine would never understand what it was like to be told your parents were someone and then have it ripped away from you only to be told that your biological father was the enemy.
This… This wouldn't make up for it but still.
"I… I don't know." She didn't know because what if Satine was right. No… there was no way that she was right. The Jedi wouldn't want to come here. Surely he would be too busy with Jedi things. "Maybe it will be good."
Satine nodded. "I… I thought so too."
"So you're really going to contact him?" Bo-Katan asked, half expecting her sister to change her mind and say something about how she wouldn't. After all, she hadn't told him all these years. Bo-Katan wouldn't be surprised if Korkie was their love child too.
Gross.
"Yes… I'll do it." Satine looked down for a moment but then looked up into Bo-Katan's eyes. "If this is what you want, I'll do it."
"Yes, that's what I want."
But there was no way that she would actually meet the man. She just wanted to see what would happen and maybe this way Satine would feel some pain. Pain like Bo-Katan had been feeling since she found out the horrible truth.
((AN: I couldn't resist writing this. I'm planning more chapters, but like I said above, I'm not sure how many. Let me know what you think of this chapter and this story so far if you want to. I love all comments. Thank you all for reading and have a great day!
OldGlory: I hope it's interesting. Thank you for reading and commenting!))