Chapter 10: Need

Nessie's POV

His scent was driving me crazy. There was a short few seconds where I wasn't sure if I would be able to make it to somewhere a little more private to bite him. I wanted, no, I needed his blood inside of me. I could almost taste his mouthwatering scent on my tongue.

Just a few more minutes and then his blood would be mine. Just a few more moments and I would finally be able to taste his blood. I was so close to giving into my instincts and taking him right there in the hallway. I wasn't sure how much longer I could hold on for. A few minutes later I'd led us to a lonely part of the building.

I stopped and so did he. When I turned around and faced him he was smiling. Blissfully unaware of what I was about to do to him. His heart was beating fast. It was beckoning me. How should I do this? A straight forward attack? Or straight for the jugular? I would probably get the most blood if I just went straight for the jugular.

"Nessie why did you want to see me somewhere more private?" Mike asked me. His scent blew in my face. It was taunting me once again.

"I just wanted to...try...something," it became harder to talk.

I leaned in closer. "Wha-oh," I made him think I was going in for the kiss. My teeth grazed along the side of his neck. I was looking for a vein to feed directly from.

Then an ice cold hand pulled me away from Mike just as I was about to bite him. I tried to fight but my captor was stronger than I was. He kept my arms locked to my sides. "You don't want to do this Nessie," he whispered into my ear.

I stopped resisting as my father's voice penetrated my blood consumed thoughts. What was I doing?

"Let her go Cullen," Mike sneered.

"You better be quiet or I will let her to do to you what she's thinking about doing. Understand?"

Mike looked confused but also scared at the same time. He could hear the threat in my dad's voice.

"Let's go Nessie. Now," my dad said with much urgency in his voice.

It was easier to think more clearly when I was away from the boy. I was horrified when I realized what I was about to do just for human blood. What happened to me?

"The same thing that happened to me when I smelled your mother's fresh blood,"

"I'm so sorry dad,"

"What are you apologizing for?" he asked sounding confused for some reason.

"For losing control of myself like that. For almost killing him," my nerves were all shaken up now that I was back in my right mind again.

"Renesmee you don't have anything to apologize for. This is an unfortunate part of who we are. I had hoped that this wasn't something you had to deal with since you're half human but I guess you're more like me,"

"Thank you dad. For stopping me I mean,"

"Well if I'd been paying better attention to your thoughts the timing wouldn't have had to been so exact and for that I am sorry. I was so busy fighting my own instincts to realize that you were having the exact same problem,"

"Dad you don't have to apologize. It's not your fault that I almost lost control like that. It's my fault. I shouldn't have-"

"Nessie please don't blame yourself,"

"at least you stopped me,"

"Of course I did. You have never killed anyone for a moment of pleasure and I didn't want you to suffer through the consequences of it. I know what it's like to take an innocent life and I don't want that for you. I wasn't going to let you go through that especially over Mike Newton of all people,"

"You really don't like him do you?"

"He's always been annoying but now he has massive crush on my future wife and my future daughter. It's taken all my strength not to snap his neck myself listening to his thoughts all day about the two of you," my dad growled.

I resisted the urge to laugh. "Yeah I kind of got that vibe from him," as if the asking me out wasn't clue enough. "Dad what I'm going to do now?" I had never truly understood the trouble my father had went through when he first met my mother. That was until today. The idea of being near Mike like that again scared me. What if I lost control and killed him? I nearly did today!

My dad took his arms around me and hugged me tightly. His cold embrace was enough to calm me. "Everything is going to be okay Nessie," he whispered.

"How do you know?"

"Because we're going to come up with a plan,"

"When you say we-"

"I mean as a family," he said.

My heart skipped several beats and the blood drained from my face. "Dad I don't want the others to know. I don't want them to look at me differently because of today," I looked down in shame.

Dad tilted my chin up until I was facing directly. "Renesmee look at me. You do not have anything to be ashamed of. You've never killed anyone. You have a cleaner record than most of us. Nobody is going to judge you or think differently of you because of what happened today,"

I sighed.

"and it's imperative that everyone knows because we need to come up with a plan to help you, help the both of us actually,"

I took a deep breath. Because I still felt very embarrassed to admit this to my family.

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