Blaine hears it, He is sure. It is the first time ,he hears the words of the song.
Heart beats fast
Colours and promises
How to be brave?
How can I love when I'm afraid to fall?
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt
Suddenly goes away somehow
One step closer
These are simple words yet magical. Blaine always dreamt of finding his true love, not a fake girlfriend. No fear of getting judged, misunderstood. Not the world which questions his every move and decides as if he is a coin in a board game. It's just him and his love who loves and gets loved, no matter what.
He is still afraid, feeling like a coward to accept and live the fake life. For a person like him, who cannot guarantee honestly to himself, how will he guarantee one to a person who trusts and loves him more? Does he deserve love?
His eyes are fixed on Kurt- his young gorgeous face, shining in the firefly flickers and the moonlight. All through the song, he just wants to hold Kurt in his arms forever but how will he tell Kurt that he is gay too?
The feel of Kurt holding Blaine's wrist, with his watery eyes, thinking of the happy memories with Carson and his arm surfing closely to Blaine's- this is the most surreal touch and experience.
'This is 'A thousand years ' by Christina Perri, whenever I listen to this song,I feel like somebody is holding me and saying that they are there for me and it's gonna be okay' Kurt whispers.
This place weirdly surprises Blaine. He thought of surprising Kurt, but didn't expect to surprise himself- to the realization that he has fallen in love!
Blaine has fallen in love, with his firefly sight boy- Kurt Hummel.
After spending some quality time together as 'friends', with Kurt lying on his shoulder, Blaine drives Kurt back home.
Kurt gathers the courage to ask his question, it's now or never.
'Blaine, are you OK?'
'OK in the sense?'
'You know, are you happy?'
'Y-yeah'
'Don't lie, Blaine. I can see it in your face'
A minute of silence.
' Jane's been calling too much lately and she scolded me when I picked up today morning. Yeah, girlfriend troubles!'
Blaine knows this is just a half-truth. The half is hidden deep inside. Someday it's gonna come out, and be proud just like Kurt and there will be no more lies. Jane's been angry lately and Blaine fears if this will go to his father.
' So, how did you find this beautiful place?' Kurts questions him curiously.
' I found this place just 3 weeks back. I was returning to my dorm from the park and my car tire got flat unexpectantly. I was waiting for my friend to pick me up and i just ventured through the bushes ... and viola! I found it!' Blaine tells kurt,' And K-Kurt, I am going back to school for the afternoon classes tomorrow. If you want me to stay, I-I can apply for a leave. I just wanted to know if you would be okay and comfortable if I...'
' Blaine, I will be fine. Your school is important. I am so grateful for being with me, Blaine. But I don't want you to miss your important things. ' Kurt assures.
'Okay, Kurt. I will make sure that I will visit you every day just like our park time', Blaine keeps his hand on Kurt's, promising him. Kurt smiles and nods.
Blaine wants desperately to stay with Kurt and hold his soft hands forever, but He cannot, he doesn't deserve it. Blaine tries to hide his watery hazel eyes, but Kurt notices them, without asking a question.
It is Blaine's time to leave for Dalton for his classes and for one last time, He sees Kurt and pat assuringly. Blaine couldn't take Kurt as ' just friend' anymore, Kurt is the love of his life, happiness, and his anchor, he couldn't tell that to Kurt and it is killing him.
Blaine reaches Dalton half-mindedly to mind his business. He asked David to maintain the lie of Blaine attending a family funeral, well it's a half-truth again. Dalton is so different now in Blaine's eyes, maybe because he was not there for 3 days.
Blaine still wants to not tell David about his friend and his love for him. David is growing impatient but still respects Blaine's words.
The following week rolls with Blaine regularly visiting Kurt and being a comfort person. Kurt starts to attend his school too. Kurt notices Blaine getting increasingly frustrated and anxious day by day. Kurt wants to help him as he did, but Blaine doesn't open his mouth, just like him and his problems.
The town of Lima is approaching the Halloween festival mood and to prove it, the Lima town is getting ready to host a Halloween carnival this year. Kurt loves Halloween- that is the only festival where people cannot judge him with his clothing style.
Blaine keeps his promise of visiting Kurt. And soon, their meets start to resume in the park.
Kurt feels strong enough to finally open Carson's things and get them sorted out. Blaine comes to his home, to know if Kurt needs some help. Kurt is sitting there with all of Carson's things, battling inside with himself. Blaine walks in, seeing the nervous Kurt.
'Kurt, what are you doing? why are you nervous?'
Blaine needs no answers by this point, he sees boxes of things named with ' CARSON' on them. He exactly knew what Kurt was trying to do. He sits aside Kurt and keeps his hand on his shoulder.
'Kurt, I know it's still hard for you. But, this isn't a hurry. You can do this later if you are not ready. I have to say this Kurt. You are so brave and courageous. I couldn't think of getting up and working again after all the things that happened. But, I cannot see you frowning. You can speak to me if you want to...'
the room is filled with silence. Blaine notices Kurt sighing at his pocket mirror for a second and puts it away.
Blaine knows that he just helped in Kurt's one of the problems, He has long way to go with his and Kurt's problems.
Kurt looks at Blaine, breaking the silence.
' Uh...no Blaine, I'm fine. It's just a little difficult for me but this cannot wait. I have to face my fear and this is the first step. Can you please help me in sorting?'
Blaine looks at Kurt-he is clearly trying to battle his fear and indeed, he is brave. Blaine nods readily and thus, the sorting work begins.
They put labels on different boxes according to their sorting method and start to sort.
Blaine is listening to Kurt as Kurt is in a full storm of his memories. Blaine can't take his eyes from Kurt, he finds Kurt intriguing and gorgeous. If he can, He could hold Kurt's cheeks and give him a strong, passionate kiss on his lips and tell him that he is there for him, but he hasn't still sorted out his own problems.
The mirror adds into Blaine's investigation list now along with the concealers and the dream.
Blaine comes back from his wild thoughts by Kurt's voice. ' Blaine, We've been friends and you helped me in my difficult times. So it's time for me to return the favour. Is anything wrong?'
Blaine startles,' W-what? '
'You've been so disturbed lately, Blaine. I can see something is troubling you. You can talk if you want to..'
'Uh..nothing'
' Nothing? This doesn't seem like nothing. I cannot read your mind but I am not dumb to not notice this'
' First, tell me this, why do you look at the mirror frequently and spontaneously close it ? This isn't a normal behaviour '
'I don't want to speak about that,' Kurt snaps.
'I don't want to be rude. I don't want to talk either. I respect your words, Kurt. But I don't want to.'
'I am sorry, Blaine. I didn't want to be rude too I just want to help you. Let's change the topic. Did you hear about the Lima Halloween carnival this year?'
Blaine opens his mouth to answer, 'Yeah. I did hear it.'
'I am so excited, you know. I get to dress as I want and nobody can ask me for one time,' Blaine blushes at Kurt as he sees Kurt getting excited.
'So who are you going to take with you? Your boyfriend?' Blaine asks. He slips the words to find if Kurt was taken.
'You wish. I should be asking Mercedes, but she will go with Sam.'
A moment of silence in the room.
'May I?' Kurt hears the familiar voice. He had to double-take to get what he heard.
'Pardon?'
' If you are okay, we can go as f-friends. We haven't been anywhere as friends. This could be a good opportunity. '
' Your girlfriend? what will she do?'
'She will be fine with her friends. So..'
Kurt thinks for a minute and returns back with,' Yes, I'd love to' and nods pleasantly. For Kurt, it's a friends' gala, but for Blaine, it's their first date!
Kurt and Blaine are heading to their first date as '(boy)friends' with an unexpected raising amount of trouble. Kurt's bullying is getting worse and worse to an extent that concealers are not helping him so much and many of his parts get damaged from the exterior, but Kurt is still strong and brave.
Blaine, on the other hand, is dying inside every day, hiding his secret part from everybody and his love for Kurt. Facing his 'girlfriend' is getting harder every day as she gets suspicious and annoys Blaine with her quarrels. Kurt is noticeably getting miserable and skinnier day by day and his mirror watching becomes too much.
The whole town of Lima and their neighbours are so excited, pushing all their days into Halloween. The day has finally arrived and Kurt's been altering and perfecting his costume for his evening gala. Blaine agrees to let Kurt pick him this time and Kurt is very excited about that. Kurt gets dressed up to his satisfaction and gets down to bid goodbye to his dad and Carole. Finn had already gone to Mike's house to get helped with his costume. Kurt pulls his car from the driveway and lets his hands drive the car and his mind to ride about their first friends' gala.
Blaine is giving a final touch to his hair after a heated conversation with his dad over the phone. Blaine excused himself from going home on the pretext of having important school works. What's not fun to break the rules at least one time?
Blaine promised Dave to show his 'friend from the park' this time. Trent comes dashing the door, calling Blaine,
' Blaine, somebody is waiting for you.'.
Blaine signals David, Jeff and Nick to move for their guaranteed ride to the carnival. Kurt isn't picking just Blaine, they planned to carpool. Blaine rushes down to greet Kurt when he sees a pretty, tanned girl standing outside Kurt's car.
' Hello. Umm... I am waiting for a boy named Kurt. Did you know where he is?'
It is the same high pitch voice that Blaine loves.' I bet I know him'. Blaine starts to get what is going on.
Blaine decides to play Kurt with his own joke,
,' Well hello, Miss Snooki, can you show him?' Blaine smirks.
Kurt nods and points to his eyes,' Look through my eyes and you will find him.'
Blaine did find him- his beautiful glasz eyes that could keep staring at him forever, his unusual tanned skin which is still flawless. Blaine unintentionally holds Kurt's hands, staring at his lips. He goes closer to Kurt and suddenly, they break from their eye contact by Jeff's voice.
The whole car ride goes with Kurt and Blaine, sitting aside Kurt, explaining their friendship to the other 3 in the backseat. Kurt notices the occasional light cuddling between Jeff and Nick. Kurt always wanted to get loved and to love somebody like them. David is silently watching Blaine, eyeing Kurt in more than a friend way.
' Blaine should at least be a bisexual person,' David thinks. He couldn't ask him now, but he will find out that mystery soon, he will.
Soon, they reach Lima and Dave, Nick and Jeff leave the other 2 alone, promising to meet at the carnival. Now, it's just Kurt and Blaine, getting out of the car, along with their Halloween baskets.
Every minute Blaine is with Kurt, He feels like being in his own fantasy world, with his one true love. His dreaming is broken by Kurt.
' Isn't it crazy that you dressed up like the situation to match up with me?'
' Yeah, I peeked through your window, watching you dress up' Blaine says sarcastically. Kurt gives him weird look.
' Okay, I was just kidding. I didn't honestly know you were dressing up like Snooki, Kurt'. Both stop in the middle of their walking. Blaine stops to face Kurt.
' You are still the prettiest girl I've ever seen ' Blaine whispers.
' I should have born a girl, just to be a real-life Snooki to your situation,' Kurt says jokingly.
Kurt's smile just pulls Blaine towards Kurt, like in a spellbound way. Blaine wants to confess his love for Kurt desperately, but his fear keeps pulling him down into the same pit.
Author's note:
Thank you readers ,I am so grateful to get such audience for my first work . I never expected it .
And those who are wondering, I am pleased to inform you that the story will be continuing with more chapters because the story is becoming serious after this. I don't know how long it will go ,but Here is what I am planning to do:
I am continuing this story till their high school with a good end. I have an idea to write my next project- on Brittana originally, but My Klaine heart doesn't leave me. So , I am going to work on Brittana and Klaine fanfic simultaneously with another exciting genre.
Meanwhile, I will be doing some research and completing the first I.e this part of the story. The after high school story will be continuing once I complete my Brittana and Klaine project. Until then I will be feeding this story almost every day or delays may come.
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this story ain't gonna end soon,that I can assure.
