Chapter 3

Amanda left and Olivia was mad. She wanted to snatch her ass, but she wasn't hers to do that. Amanda didn't go to Olivia's, she went home. For a week she didn't hang with Lucy and Noah. Lucy pressed her but she wouldn't say what happened.

After Noah went to bed, Lucy asked, "What did she do?" Olivia smiled, "Had a temper tantrum." After Olivia told her everything and her exact words, Lucy sat in shock. "I'm sorry. I don't think I've ever seen her that crazy. Maybe it was the day. Or maybe it was you." Olivia smiled. "She likes you, I know my best friend. You do something to her. I can't believe you let her get away with that?" Olivia smiled, "I haven't let her get away with anything. I haven't seen her. She's avoiding me and I'm giving her space."

Lucy went home knowing the truth. She fell on Amanda's bed, "Why didn't you tell me what happened?" Amanda shrugged, "I messed up Luce. She was right, she's always right and I was mad." Amanda frowned, "How pissed is she?" Lucy shook her head, "I can't tell and that's a little scary." Amanda nodded. Lucy sat up, "What are you going to do? Hide forever?" Amanda knew she was wrong, "Luce, I like her. I guess I need to be honest with her."

Lucy smiled, "She's off this weekend, how about I take Noah to movies and park. You text me when you're done." Amanda saw Noah and Lucy leaving and headed upstairs. She knocked and Olivia opened the door. She was wearing Nike black leggings and her old academy shirt cut off so she could see her tan stomach. Her hair was pulled back in a ponytail. She didn't say a word, just opened the door and moved back. Amanda stepped in and sat on the couch. Olivia sat in the chair across from her. Amanda looked up, "I'm sorry. You were right about everything."

Amanda watched her face for some emotion and saw nothing. Amanda swallowed, "You drive me crazy and that one kiss and I'm not used to anyone telling me what to do or how to act. It's just me and I do what I want." Amanda was just spitting out all the thoughts in her head and nothing made sense.Amanda explained how she grew up and her and Lucy's strong friendship. "Are you going to say anything?"

Olivia smiled, "You think my life has been wonderful and perfect." Olivia explained how she was a product of rape and wasn't loved ever. "I like you. I have no idea why or what to do with you. I don't make it a habit of kissing 20 year olds at random. That was a total moment of no control for me. Amanda, I can't deal with you and we definitely can't be together."

Amanda was curious, "Why? My age? My behavior? What's the reason? I can fix it." Olivia shook her head, "I believe in discipline and you don't have any. Amanda, if you were mine and pulled the stunt you did last week. You still wouldn't be able to sit down comfortably. You can't handle me or what I believe. I also have Noah to think about. You can't just come in and out of his life because you curse at me and throw a temper tantrum." Amanda smiled, "The spoon?" Olivia shook her head, "The spoon was nothing."

Amanda thought, "What if I wanted to try? What would it mean?" Olivia looked up, "Do you know what domestic discipline is?" Amanda shook her head, "No." Olivia laughed, "See this isn't going to work and that's ok. You can still come over, hang with Lucy and Noah." Amanda shook her head, "But what about us?" Olivia smiled, "There is no us Amanda."

Amanda was hard headed and refused to accept it. She googled domestic discipline. Olivia watched her eyes get bigger, "What are you doing?" Amanda turned her phone, "Googling domestic discipline. So, you are going to punish me." Olivia moved next to her, "If you act you up, yes. If you're good, no." Amanda laughed, "Shit I'm going to be punished a lot." Olivia laughed, "You are, because your mouth is awful. That will stop." Amanda looked around, "What about sex?"

Olivia laughed, "We are so far from sex. You have no idea. Amanda, we need to get to know each other and that will take time." Amanda sighed, "Will they know?" Olivia looked at her confused. "Lucy and Noah, will they know when I'm in trouble?" Olivia understood, "I don't make it a point to tell everyone my personal business. Noah is 4, so no. He will probably just pick up on normal behavior, like bad words, not eating, stuff like that. As far as Lucy, what you tell her is up to you." Olivia stood up, "Come on let's eat, because I know you haven't today. You probably haven't for a week."

Olivia fixed her a sandwich, "You know this isn't about punishment, it's about making you better. Rules, discipline will help. This lifestyle isn't for everyone." They ate and talked. They were on the couch hanging out. "Liv?" Olivia looked, "Huh?" Amanda shifted uneasily, "How mad were you when I said what I said." Olivia shrugged, "Oh the f word. You are lucky I have control." Amanda was curious, "If I did that now, what would you do?"

Olivia understood her curiosity, "Amanda, if we are going to do this, we set boundaries. I have expectations and you need to follow them. I expect that you will start to be respectful to me and other people. I expect that you have a healthy lifestyle, eating good food, not takeout every day. I expect that you are honest, which I don't see as a problem. You are honest to a fault. If you do something, I will warn you. If you continue then we will try something else." Amanda blurted out, "You're going to hit me?" Olivia laughed, "Wow, that sounds bad. I may give you some time to think, I may spank you with my hand or a paddle or even my belt." Amanda scrunched up her face, "I've never been punished, not even grounded."

Olivia got it, "That's why this may not work. Amanda just hearing how you were brought up, it all makes sense. You are a great individual. You took care of yourself when the people who should have didn't. I can relate. You would give anything to make sure Lucy was ok. I know you would do it for Noah, maybe even me." Olivia pulled her close and hugged her, "This is my way of taking care of you. Let's see where we end up." Olivia stopped, "If you ever curse at me like that again, I will use my belt. That is your warning."

Lucy and Noah came back and they even called ahead for Chinese food. Amanda had a ball eating that food. "Amanda, are egg rolls your favorite?" Amanda stopped before biting into her 2nd one. Olivia whispered, "Enjoy it. I'm not going to stop you." Amanda and Lucy left and on the way home they talked. "Luce, I think I'm going to try with Liv, is that ok with you?" Lucy smiled, "As long as you're happy." Amanda left out the discipline part, this was hard enough.

Lucy and Amanda became more like family. Lucy did things with Noah to give Olivia and Amanda time together, then they would have family time. For a month Amanda was good, too good. Olivia knew it was a honeymoon period. The fear was there, but Olivia wasn't looking to punish her. Amanda was playing on Noah's new gaming system that Amanda bought him when he turned 5 last week. "Shit!" Noah's eyes got wide. "Noah, don't repeat that!" Lucy laughed and shook her head. Olivia walked in and Amanda was very nervous.

Olivia picked up on it right away. She wasn't alone Brian Cassidy was with her. "Lucy, Noah, this is Sergeant Cassidy. You already know Amanda." Brian joined them for dinner and after he was talking to Olivia about a case. Lucy and Amanda were helping Noah get ready for bed. They heard Brian leaving, "Good the dickwad is gone!" Lucy pushed Noah, "Amanda!" Amanda shrugged, "Well he is." Noah walked out, "Mommy, what's a dickwad?" Amanda froze and Lucy looked at her, "Nice job. I'm sure your girlfriend will have plenty to say to you." Amanda swallowed hard, because Lucy had no idea.

Amanda walked out slowly to see Olivia looking at her, "Noah, where did you hear that?" Noah looked down. He didn't want to tell on Amanda. "Me." Olivia talked to Noah about that word and made Amanda stand there. "So, we don't use that word ok?" Noah nodded, "Yes mommy." Lucy took him to bed and Noah looked at her, "Sorry Amanda." Amanda kissed him, "Don't be, it's my fault." Olivia loved the interaction, but she was going to be punished for this one. Olivia looked at her, "Stay here tonight?" Amanda sighed, "Yes ma'am." Olivia took her shower, "Luce, I'm staying here ok?" Lucy laughed, "I bet for nothing fun. See you in the morning."

Amanda took a shower in the guest room and checked on Noah. She knocked on Olivia's door, "Come in." Amanda stood with her hands in front of her, "Noah's asleep." She saw her belt hanging on the chair. Olivia noticed, "I'm not going to spank with that. Now if we keep having this same discussion, it may be different. Come here." Amanda walked over, but she wasn't scared. She trusted Olivia, she loved her. She didn't even know it until that moment. "What do you think your punishment should be? I mean the purpose is that you learn and don't do it again. Is a spanking going to accomplish that?"

Amanda sighed, "I don't know why I said it. I don't like him." Olivia smiled, "You don't like him. He probably doesn't like you. You acted like a fool in his command and he didn't engage with you because of me. What do you think his officers thought?" Amanda was thinking, "That he was soft. I owe him an apology and I shouldn't say anything else about him." Olivia handed her paper and a pen, "Your punishment. Apology note to Sergeant Brian Cassidy." Amanda addressed it. "Oh and please leave dickwad out of it." Amanda wrote it and handed it to Olivia to view. "Nice job, I hope you mean everything."

Amanda got up to leave, "Night Liv." Olivia smiled, "Want to sleep in my bed?" Amanda smiled, "I thought I was in trouble." Olivia explained, "You were, but once punishment is over, all is forgiven. We don't hold grudges in this house Amanda. Come on." Amanda climbed in bed and Olivia pulled her close and held her, "Night baby." Amanda fell asleep and it was probably the most peaceful she had ever felt.