I was pacing around Derek's room, unsure of what I was doing. I had had a miscarriage, my husband was shot, and I had no idea where my sister was. If she was alive. Oh god, was my sister even alive? My eyes were drooping and I had to fight the urge to go to sleep. The adrenaline that had been coursing through my veins an hour ago was long gone. Once I had been told that the shooter was after my sister, my husband and my father figure, the energy was replaced with anxiety. At least I knew that Derek was alive. Lexie and Richard could be dead in a hallway right now. And I wouldn't even know.

'Meredith, sit down.'

'What if she's dead? Oh my god, what if my sister's dead? I only just started opening up to her, what if our relationship is over before it really started. And I completely forgot about her! What am I gonna do Derek?'

'If she is dead, we'll cross that bridge when we come to it. But for the moment, we are going to assume she's ok.'

My phone started ringing and I ran over to my bag. It was Mark. I started freaking out, he only ever called me on my pager, something must have been really bad for him to call my phone.

'Mark? Oh my god, is Lexie ok? Please tell me she's okay.'

'Lexie's okay. Really shaken up, but ok physically. Alex's been shot, but he's okay. But you should come. Lexie needs you.'

'Come to Derek. We'll swap.'

'Already on my way down.'

After Lexie's birthday, things were going more smoothly. Zola wanted stories of Lexie around every other day. When it came to her show and tell she brought in my purple scrub cap and Derek's ferry boat one. She told everyone that even though she had lost a lot of her family, they were a family of lifesavers while they were alive. She framed the picture of her and Lexie and put it on her bedside table, and told me it made her feel closer to her Aunt.

Lexie's POV

After meeting Zola for the first time, I cried. Even though technically I was already an Aunt as Molly has a baby girl, but she lives on an army base and I barely see her. But Zola would be living in the same house as me, and I was overjoyed. I had already told Meredith all of my plans for when she grows up.

'Mer, I'm going to teach her how to make those god awful cookies, we are going to have so much fun. We can watch future Marvel movies together, we are going to be inseparable.'

'I'm sure you are Lexie. I'm pretty sure she already likes you more than Derek and I.'

'That's not true. I just love giving her cuddles!'

I say while pinching her cheeks. I looked up at Meredith, who was smiling down at us.

'What?'

'Nothing, I just can't wait until you have kids.'

'It's gonna be a while yet, Mer. Don't hold your breath. It's not like I have a line of suitors waiting for me.'

'That you know of.' She laughs, getting up to hand Zola a teacup.

'Miss Zola, would you care to pour me some tea?'

She smiles and pours the invisible tea from the kettle into my teacup. I bring the cup up to my lips and pretend to sip at my tea. Zola giggles and soon I am laughing too. This is a moment that I wish could last forever. Freeze it and put it in a box so I could come back to it whenever I want to.

Meredith's POV

I was going through all our videos in our camcorder, wanting to find some old videos I could show Zola, when I found a video I had never seen before. Zola was sitting on a swing and Lexie seemed to be the one holding the camera. Lexie was cheering her on until Zola stopped swinging and made grabby hands in Lexie's direction. She puts the camera down and she picks her up off the swing. When she picks the camera back up, she gives Zola a big kiss on the cheek and whispers something in her ear. Zola throws her head back and laughs, then the video ends.

I stared at the camera with tears in my eyes, but as I looked down at Lexie's smiling complexion, I smiled through my tears. Because as I looked at the date, I saw that it was a week before the horrific crash that cut my sisters life short. At least she was happy in her final few weeks. I descended the stairs with the camera, getting ready to show the video to my kids. Because I had to keep Lexie alive in the only way I could.

Ok. I owe you guys an explanation, but I really don't have one. I just finished exam week so I should be better at updating, but no promises. What I do promise though is that I will try. And as cliché as that sounds, writing this story and seeing your reviews makes me so happy. And I don't feel happy a lot of the time anymore.

Random, but for writing the last part of this chapter I've been listening to good 4 u by Olivia Rodrigo on repeat, and it's really good. So, yeah. Love you guys and see you on the next one.