Isa was relieved when the next few days passed without incident or nightmare. She felt as if she was slowly making progress with Levi and was excited at how close she was to finally being with him the way she wanted.
One morning, a few days after that next step she'd taken with him, Erwin called for Levi's squad and Hange's squad to meet with him. Apparently, the gate in Karanes was in need of repairs, but a horde of titans was surrounding it, so the Garrison was requesting help from the Scouts to clear them.
Isa grumbled, annoyed that the Garrison couldn't take care of a few titans and were calling on the Scouts for help, when she'd heard plenty of Garrison members who critiqued them for leaving the walls. Despite this, the two squads made their way to Karanes, and Isa only hoped that there would be no issue.
They left their horses at the stables outside the inner gate to Karanes and began making their way to the outer gate. Isa was strolling beside Levi, the others walking up ahead of them, and she noticed that Levi was getting his usual attention from the citizens, they were either adoring and fawning over him, or they were critiquing and insulting him.
She loved how he just ignored them, not letting any of their comments, good or bad, phase him in any way. One blonde-haired woman was so bold as to come up and link arms with him, and Isa stifled a giggle at the irritated look that passed over Levi's face.
It was harder to ignore someone when they were touching you.
She watched as he desperately tried to pull his arm from the woman's grasp, but she clung tight, clearly determined to proposition him.
"Oh Captain Levi," she cooed, the woman's voice holding that breathy tone that Isa had mocked so many times in the past, "I am so grateful that someone as strong as yourself is coming to help us here in Karanes. I live so close to the outer gate, and I can hear the titans outside it each morning."
Amusement filled Isa at the annoyance in Levi's eyes as he ignored the woman and kept moving, his steps quickening and he clearly hoped she would get the hint and leave him alone. It was rare for someone to come up to him this way, usually resorting to fawning over him from afar, but this woman clearly had no nerves, or any common sense.
She obviously hadn't gotten the hint as she kept talking, voice dropping to a low, seductive whisper as she leaned in close to his ear. "Maybe when you're done, Captain, you can come find me and I can show you just how grateful I am."
His eyes narrowed, jaw clenched, hating whenever a woman did this. "No."
Isa had to stifle another laugh at the icy chill in his voice. It always took her by surprise how cold his voice normally was, so used to the warmth he used around her. She loved how he acted around her, completely relaxed, his guard completely lowered.
The change in how he'd been when they'd first met and now still astonished her, and it always thrilled her at how she'd earned his trust, his affection, loving every minute they were together, even if it was just walking through Karanes while Levi tried to ward off the plethora of women who wanted to bed him.
Completely unperturbed the woman continued, her voice now sultry as she continued on her quest to seduce the cold Captain. "Oh, come now, Captain, surely you need someone to meet your needs. I doubt any of the women in the Scouts are able to meet the needs of a man such as yourself."
Oh, if only you knew lady.
Clearly having grown beyond frustrated with the woman, Levi stopped in his tracks so he could yank his arm from her grasp, voice as chilly as ever. "Lady, I'm not interested, so back the hell off."
That seemed to get through to her as she faltered, an embarrassed flush creeping up her neck and face.
Isa stopped to wait for Levi, though she couldn't stop the giggle this time at the sound of irritation, frustration, and contempt in his voice, and the woman latched onto her, clearly in need of moving the attention to someone else, needing to embarrass someone to ease her own humiliation.
"I don't know why you're laughing," she snapped, blue eyes going icy and feral, "it's not like someone as plain as yourself could ever get his attention."
She was half tempted to kiss Levi and show the woman just how much of his attention she could get from him. Not bothered at all by the woman's words, knowing just how much Levi enjoyed someone 'as plain as herself,' she merely raised an intrigued eyebrow, voice full of amusement.
"Yet, I'm not the one who just received a public rejection from him," she taunted. "I suggest you move along before you embarrass yourself any further."
Her words clearly struck a nerve with the woman, who made as if to strike at Isa, but Levi was too fast, grabbing her arm before she could even come close to her.
"Keep your filthy hands off of her." He warned, glaring at the woman.
Recognizing defeat, the woman ripped her arm out of Levi's grasp, marching off, mumbling insults as she went.
The two continued their trek to the outer gate, and he was first to break the silence, his voice now full of the warmth he always used with her.
"You could have helped."
She sent him an amused look. "I wanted to see how you'd handle it, besides, it's fun watching you squirm at the fawning attention of your adoring fans."
His breath huffed out, full of humor. "Don't most women get jealous when this sort of thing happens."
She nudged him with her shoulder, giggling at the thought. "I'm not most women, besides, I'd say that's probably what you like most about me."
She'd felt jealousy before, but that was before she was with him. Besides, she knew how much he hated the attention from the women who threw themselves at him, so she'd had no reason to feel any envy.
He shook his head in amusement. "I guess that's a fair point."
"If it helps, I thought about kissing you just to shut her up, but I know how you feel about that sort of thing around others, so I decided against it."
He shot her a look that she thought might have been desperate for him, clearly wishing she'd done just that if it meant getting the woman to leave him alone. "If something like that ever happens again, feel free to do whatever you'd like if it means getting those women away from me."
She hummed, always looking for ways to tease him. "But, Captain Levi, I don't think you want to give me permission to do just anything, why, I might get carried away."
He rolled his eyes at the teasing, a small chuckle escaping him. "Honestly, I don't care, and if you were thinking that sort of thing bothers me, it doesn't. Not…not with you."
She flushed, as she looked down at the ground, and she couldn't stop the content smile from forming on her face. "That's good to know."
She took in a breath and grabbed his arm to stop him. She leaned in, brushing her lips across his cheek, bringing them to his ear to whisper in a voice mocking that of the woman's.
"I'll be sure to show you just how grateful I am for you tonight, Captain."
She pulled back, and giggled at the heated, amused look he sent her as they started to move again. It didn't bother her if he wasn't going to be affectionate if there were other people around. She knew she got to see the real him when it was just the two of them, and for her, she preferred it that way, knowing that no one else knew him the way she knew him. It made what they had feel even more special, knowing that it was only with her he could completely let his guard down.
Besides, if he was okay with it, she could be affectionate for the both of them, or at least try to be. Some acts of affection still made her nervous, but the things she'd done before they were together, she still did with confidence.
When they arrived at the outer gate, they took the lift to the top of the wall, looking down at the titans that had surrounded the gate on the other side. There were about ten or so huddled around the gate, with more out in the distance, though it wouldn't take much to draw their attention.
Isa could see why the Garrison had requested their assistance, even if she did find the idea annoying, considering this was their job. She'd seen some of the Garrison members and how they sat around, drinking all day. If they put in half the time and effort the Scouts did, then they wouldn't need to ask for help.
But in that moment, it didn't matter, because they needed to figure out how to approach the situation.
She, Hange, Levi, and Eld observed the titans below as they tried to determine the best way to deal with the titans. The rest of their squads were waiting with the Garrison members who were on duty monitoring the wall.
There's too many here to handle all at once, not without trees to help us.
If we tried to take them on at once, we'd risk getting in each other's way.
That would not be good if two people's wires somehow got tangled, or worse, if someone was slicing through a titan and somehow hit someone else.
Too dangerous this close together.
"Any thoughts?" Levi asked.
Her brow furrowed as she tried to find a solution, eyes focused on the titans. "We need to find a way to spread them apart. All lumped together like this, we'll never be able to clear them out."
Hange hummed in agreement, nodding as she took in the scene below. "I think you've got a point. Outside the walls, in a forest, it's easier to maneuver. Here, all we have is the wall. If we can separate them, we can take them down."
A plan was forming in Isa's mind, one she thought would work. "I think what we can do is have some of us dangle down across the wall, luring them away from the gate. Then you three can take care of killing them off one by one."
Hange's hand came up to rest under her chin as she thought through Isa's suggestion. "I agree, what do you think, Levi?"
He turned his head to Isa, and when she met his eyes, she could tell he didn't like the idea of her acting as bait, but also knew they needed enough people to lure the titans, otherwise, the plan wouldn't work. "I think it's the best plan we've got."
Isa nodded. "We should go tell the others."
They returned to where the rest of the two squads were waiting with the Garrison. Since it was her plan, she spoke, informing the other squad members and the Garrison members of what needed to be done. "This is what we've decided to do. Some of us are going to hang down the side of the wall, hopefully luring the titans so that they're spread out. Once they're spaced out enough, we should be able to take them out."
Irritation flashed in Mark's eyes as he stared down at Isa. "So you're going to send people to hang over the wall as bait, but you yourself won't do so. Why the hell, should I listen to you? What makes you fit to even make these decisions?"
Her own eyes narrowed into dangerous slits, having grown beyond fed up with Mark and Anna's hostility towards her. "First, I don't know what the hell your problem is, but we've been through this. If you have a problem with me, deal with it when we're on missions and when we're training. Otherwise, you're free to request to be switched to another squad, or hell, even switch to the Garrison. They're always looking for people like you to sit around and do nothing but complain. Because I'm. Not. Going. Anywhere."
She took a step closer, asserting herself, poking her finger hard into his chest as her eyes threw daggers up at him. "Second, I never said I wasn't going to be acting as bait. I am. It's my idea, so I'm more than happy to put my trust in everyone else to make sure I don't die. Get over yourself and stop making assumptions when you know absolutely nothing about me."
Mark took in Isa's glare, and noted the glares of Hange and Levi. Knowing he was beat, he nodded. "Fine. But if someone dies, know that it'll be your fault."
She laughed, though it held no mirth, only the detest she held for the man. "Then that's my damn problem, not yours."
Taking a breath, she ignored Mark's glare as she turned to address the rest. "Hange, Levi, and Eld will take care of the titans, the rest of us will act as bait. So find a spot on the wall and spread out. If this works, it shouldn't take long to draw them away."
Without another word, she made her way to a section further down the wall, not realizing that Levi was following her. She turned and was about to rappel down, when she felt his hand on her arm. Glancing up, she saw him standing in front of her, and could see the concern in his eyes. She gave his arm a light squeeze.
"Hey, it's going to be okay."
"Just…just be careful," he murmured, voice underlined with worry.
She gave him a reassuring smile. "Don't worry, besides, it should be me telling you that, considering the fact that you're the one having to deal with killing them."
A soft smile crossed his lips, as he brought his hand up to stroke down her face, thumb brushing gently at her cheek, and she couldn't help the shy smile, her eyes warm as she looked at him, knowing being affectionate in front of other people wasn't easy for him, though she knew that no one's attention was on them in that moment. Her heart flipped when she saw the answering warmth come to his, working to push away the concern. When he stepped back, she latched her hooks onto the top of the wall, slowly lowering herself down to where she could attract the attention of the titans, making sure to stay high enough to where she couldn't be reached.
Sure enough, as the others moved into position, dangling along the side of the wall, the titans began to lumber over to them, drawn by the tempting humans. Her heart thrummed when she saw one of the taller ones make its way towards her, never liking when she had to be near one, but she trusted Levi to keep her safe. Glancing up, she could see him watching her, sensing that he didn't like having to wait, not liking how close the tall titan was getting. But she also knew that he understood that he needed to wait until it was closer, until the others were more spread out. Despite the fact that he was a good thirty meters above her, just holding his eyes helped ease her nerves.
Once the titans were separated, now reaching up to the dangling humans above them, Levi, Hange, and Eld sprang into action, working from the outside in, taking down the titans with ease, though, Levi chose to start with the one directly under Isa.
She loved watching Levi move through the air. He made it look so effortless, the way he spun, grappling his way across titans with no hesitation. She remembered the way it had felt to hold onto him as he flew, and the memory had a rush coursing through her veins. Flying as she held onto his back had been the most exhilarating experience she'd ever had. It was vivid in her memory the way the wind had felt against her face from his speed, the way he'd easily cut corners. The blur of the buildings as they'd passed them.
She had a sneaking suspicion that he'd kept her on her toes, keeping her unaware of when he'd take the next turn, completely on purpose, simply so he could hear her laugh. She'd noticed that there were times when she laughed that his features relaxed, as if he enjoyed that he could make her laugh, the same way she enjoyed making him laugh.
It was something she wanted to do again, piggyback with him while he flew through the air, but wasn't sure how to ask. She wanted to feel that adrenaline rush that had come from putting her trust into him, knowing he'd always do his best to keep her safe. She wasn't naïve enough to believe that nothing bad could happen to her with Levi, even if it felt that way. He was still human. But she'd meant it when she'd told him that she always felt safe with him.
She loved those moments where it felt as if they were the only two people in the entire world, and she lived for them, the same way she lived for simple days where she could lay out in the grass or in a meadow. What she didn't understand was the way the simplest things always flooded her with warmth, but she relished in those small moments. Those were the moments she wanted to hold close to her forever.
She watched as Levi took down the final titan, landing back on the wall above her. Reeling herself back in, she saw that he was already crouched down, waiting for her to get close enough that he could help her up the rest of the way. When he held out a hand, she grabbed it, enjoying the feel of him helping her as he pulled her up, knowing his own worries wouldn't calm until he knew she was safe.
Standing next to him, she gave him another reassuring smile. "See, I told you that it would be okay."
She could see the admiration and relief in his eyes, and she knew that he'd been expecting the worst, prepared to act the second something went wrong. What surprised her, was when his hand came up to cradle the back of her head, drawing her close so he could brush his lips across her forehead.
The affectionate act had her eyes widening and face flushing, knowing he would only do something like that in front of other people if he was overcome by emotion. That same shy smile came to her face as she looked up at him, lip caught between her teeth, not caring in the slightest that the others most likely witnessed the act, loving the warmth and affection in his eyes. But what she loved even more was the faint hint of pink that had crept up to his cheeks, knowing he was most likely slightly embarrassed at the affectionate act in front of everyone, especially his own subordinates.
The urge to tease him came to her, but she decided against it, not wanting to discourage him from doing something like that again. Instead, she followed him when he started walking back towards the others. As they approached, she could tell Anna and Mark had seen the exchange based on the judgment in their eyes, which she was more than happy to ignore, not caring in the slightest what they thought.
Eld had seen judging by the slightly stunned expression on his face he was clearly trying to contain, obviously never having expected his superior to be affectionate with someone and she could also see the curiosity in his eyes.
She also knew that Hange had seen, and she sent her friend a warning glare not to tease him, sensing she was about to. Thankfully, Hange seemed to get the silent message, and kept quiet, though that didn't take away the teasing light in her eyes.
After Levi and Hange had a quick chat with the Garrison members, the two squads left, starting the journey back to base.
When they returned late in the evening, Isa made her way back to Levi's office, knowing he and Hange would need to meet with Erwin. As she always did, she removed the bindings covering her breasts, relieved at the freeing feel of removing the constraining fabric.
Setting settled herself on his couch with a book, she drew her knees in tight underneath her as her eyes flew across the pages, devouring the story, loving the adventure the couple was going on as they worked to figure out what it was they felt for each other, how to tell the other how they felt, the steamier parts, all of it. As a child, her romance books were what had given her an escape from the horrible life she'd led, letting her go on adventures with people, taking her away from the misery she'd felt. Now she read simply for the enjoyment of it, loving the feel of being lost in a good book, no longer needing an escape, simply reading for the sake of reading.
So enthralled in the pages, she didn't notice when Levi entered his office, nor when he sat next to her. It didn't even register when his breath huffed out in amusement at how lost in her book she was. She jolted when she felt his hand rest on her head, turning her to face him.
Her lips curled into a sheepish smile at the humor lighting his eyes. "Hi."
A breathless chuckle escaped him, always intrigued in how the simplest things drew her attention away from everything else around her. "Hi. Good book?"
She nodded. "It's one of my favorites. I've read it so many times I could probably tell it to you word for word, but each time I read it, I find something new, make a connection between something that happened earlier, or I see something that's hinting at what's to come." Her excitement had the speed of her words increasing as her eyes brightened.
Before he could say anything, a thought occurred to her, something she wanted to try, something she'd just read about in her book. Nibbling at her lip, she took a breath. She set her book down on the table in front of the couch, bringing her gaze back to his. Doing her best to ignore the humor in his eyes as if he were waiting for her to decide what she wanted to do, clearly sensing she was going to do something. Not wanting to give herself the chance to second guess herself, she maneuvered herself so that she was now straddling him as she sat in his lap.
The red in her face deepened when she met his amused gaze, a shy smile crossing her face. "Hi."
His lips twitched at the second greeting. "Hi."
Unsure of what to do next, not having thought that far ahead, she resorted to letting her hands rest on his chest, loving the feel of the strong muscles beneath his shirt. Her position in his lap had her looking down at him, and she was intrigued at the feel of doing so, at having him look up at her. His own hands had come to rest on her hips, and she loved the heavy weight of them holding her in place, reminding her of how they felt when they stroked across her bare skin, the heat of them searing her.
Making a decision, she brought her hands to his, guiding them to the hem of her shirt, silently telling him she wanted him to take it off her, knowing he was still waiting for her to make the first move. She shivered when his fingers trailed along her skin as he slowly pulled her shirt off of her, baring her to him. When she saw the heat come to his eyes, the hunger, it sent an answering heat pulsing through her, loving the way he wanted her.
Cradling her head, he drew her down so he could meet her lips, his moving lazily across hers, a content sigh falling from him when her hands came to stroke through his hair. Her head fell back when his mouth moved from hers to trail down her neck, eyes fluttering closed as he sucked against the sensitive spot of her neck, losing herself to the sensations that were flowing through her as she brought her hands up to thread themselves into his hair. His hands grazed up her sides to cup her breasts, kneading them, and she shivered when his thumbs brushed across her nipples, a soft moan escaping her.
Rocking her hips involuntarily against him when he nipped lightly at the rigid tip, her pleased hum filling the air, and a flash of heat rippled through her when she felt something hard pressing against her center, thrilled that he reacted to her as easily as she reacted to him, loving that it wasn't just her. Her eyes fluttered open, meeting his, the searing heat in them sending a thrill arrowing through her. His eyes held steady on hers when he took her nipple in his mouth, sucking hard, tongue teasing it as he did, his thumb still grazing across the tip of her other breast.
Shuddering, a throaty moan fell from her at the answering pulls shooting straight to her core at the feel, adding to the slowly growing tension. She was loving how sensitive her breasts and nipples were. She whimpered when she felt him flick his tongue across her nipple, rippling heat flooding through her, hips involuntarily rocking against him again. Even though she absolutely loved the feel of his hands and mouth on her breasts, she wanted to try something new, eager to keep going, eager to get to the point where she wouldn't have to suggest these things.
Her breath panted out as he continued to tease her nipple, making it harder to speak. "I…I want…I want to try something."
He chuckled at her struggle, clearly enjoying the way her body reacted to him. "Tell me what you want."
She blew out a breath, cheeks puffing out, unsure of how to phrase what she wanted. "I just…I feel weird saying this one."
Glancing up at her, he pressed another delicate kiss to her breast. "You don't have to feel weird," he murmured against her skin, "it's okay. Just take a breath, and tell me."
She struggled to hold his gaze as she forced the words out of her mouth. "I…I want your fingers inside of me."
The smoldering look that came into his eyes sent a matching heat through her, and once again, the knowledge that he wanted what she wanted, helped to ease her nerves. She could see the silent question in his eyes, wanting to be absolutely sure that she wanted this next step. Nodding, she silently told him she was ready, wanting more, wanting to keep going.
His hands dropped lower on her as he stood, holding her, and her legs instinctively wrapped around his waist, enjoying the feel as he carried her to his room, setting her gently on his bed. Crawling over her, she could see the question still in his eyes. Nodding again, taking his hands, she brought them to her pants, the smallest hint of nerves jangling at the thought of fully revealing herself to him. She did her best to remind herself that he'd already seen her naked, and it helped, some. The nerves came from him seeing parts of her she'd never actually seen before.
As if sensing her nerves, he leaned down, pressing his lips softly on hers, always focusing on helping her relax first before adding on something new, always wanting to be sure she was comfortable. His hands trailed up her sides, coming up to knead at her breasts, drawing an aroused sigh from her as the tension slowly left, loving the way the roughened palms. His hands held so much strength, yet stroked her so tenderly-though she was curious to know what it would feel like for him to be rougher with her.
A choked moan escaped her when his mouth brushed down her neck, circling her breast to lightly lick her nipple while slowly unbuttoning her pants, drawing them down her hips, leaning back so he could pull them down and off her legs, leaving her bare save her panties. She shivered as hot tingles followed his hands tracing up her legs, letting her adjust to the feel of him touching her without pants, leaning in to tease her lips, pushing away the nerves once again.
When he felt her relax, he slowly drew her panties over her hips, bringing them down her legs, her body now completely bare before him. He met her eyes, and she could see he was asking her if she was sure, needing to be certain, knowing she was nervous. Despite the molten desire in his eyes, hotter than she'd yet to see, she could also see the promise in them telling her he'd never hurt her, telling her he'd stop the minute she was afraid. Needing this next step, needing to keep pushing herself, she took a breath, nodding, before parting her legs for him.
If she'd thought she'd seen hunger in his eyes at the sight of her breasts, the near ravenous look on his face had her swallowing, relieved that he wanted as much as she wanted, sending a liquid heat rushing through her body. Despite knowing he wanted her, each new step she took had her nerves coming back, worrying that he didn't want as much as she did, but each time she was reminded he did. When his eyes came back to hers, her heart leapt to her throat at the lustful look in them she'd yet to see from him, and it had an answering lust kindling deep within her, one she'd never felt, boiling hot, threatening to spill over and consume them both.
And she wanted more of it.
Her eyes widened at the sight, pulse now rabbiting in her neck, and she wondered if he could see it. The thought that he held so much desire, lust for her, had a powerful confidence crashing through her, one she'd never felt, even more than she'd felt when she'd fought Uma or Derek. The sight of something she'd never thought she'd be able to make a man feel made her feel powerful as a woman, made her feel beautiful, desired, longed for. As if he craved her, needed her, the way she craved and needed him. Each new thing she learned, saw, was always more exhilarating than what came before, and this powerful feeling was addicting, more euphoric than anything she'd ever felt.
And she wanted to feel it again and again.
But the look was gone almost as fast as it had come, as he yanked himself back in control, and she half wondered if she'd imagined it. Then, he leaned down brushing his lips across hers, gentler than ever, silently reminding her that he'd never hurt her, in any way. Melting into him, she silently reminded him that she could never be afraid of him, that nothing he could do could ever scare her, that she wanted everything with him.
His hands came to her bare hips, letting her adjust to the feel of his hands on her body with no barrier in between, and the heat of his hands seared into her, and she half wondered if it would leave burn marks on her skin. She shivered at the tingles that followed his hands as they grazed up her waist, to the sides of her breasts. A hushed moan fell from her lips when he traced his hands over them, kneading gently, thumbs teasing the tips back into rigid peaks, sending that soft heat flowing through her veins.
He brushed his lips down her neck, across the tip of her breast, taking her nipple into his mouth, sucking, drawing a needy whimper from her as she felt the answering pull feeding the slowly growing ache within her, eager for more, always eager for new sensations, hoping she never got used to the feel of his hands and mouth on her. When he felt her relax completely, he pulled back, needing to watch her face, needing to watch for any signs of fear.
He grazed his hand across the top of her thigh, her blood heating further at the feel as he moved it closer to where she wanted. When she finally felt his hand move between her legs, she moaned at the feel of his finger sliding through her folds, easing her into the touch, bringing it up to her clit to circle lightly, slowly building her arousal, allowing her to adjust to the feel of him touching her without anything covering her, using familiar touches to help her relax.
Her head flopped back with another breathy moan when she felt his finger circle around her faster, legs falling open further, all nerves and modesty gone as she focused on the sheer bliss of his calloused fingertip on her clit, heavy, high-pitched pants escaping her as that familiar knot began to tighten. She felt his hand move lower, and a choked gasp fell from her lips when she felt his finger slide into her for the first time, the delicious pressure of it pulling a low moan from her. His fingers were longer, thicker than hers, and when she felt him slip a second one inside her, her head spun at how full she felt.
If this is how it feels with two fingers, how will it feel when he's inside me? I've never felt this full before.
He slowly began sliding them in and out of her, allowing her to adjust to the feel, gradually increasing the pace, her helpless whimpers beginning to fill the air around them as he set a steady rhythm. She could feel the knot tightening deep within her. When his fingers curled inside her, her back arched, hips bucking against his hand when he hit a spot she hadn't known existed, and it sent a hot bolt arrowing through her to fuel the ever growing tension.
When she used her fingers on herself, she was limited in where she could reach, the angle making it difficult to reach deep inside herself, never having been able to reach this far, leaving her to focus only on her clit to bring her relief. But he had no issues as he picked up the pace, rubbing against that spot each time his fingers glided in and out of her, teasing it, her whimpers turning into low, desperate moans, each thrust of his fingers sending ripples of molten heat coursing through her.
Something about having him touch her made the feeling more intense. She'd noticed it the first time he'd touched her clit, bringing her first orgasm from him. At the time, it had been the most intense one she'd ever felt, and she had a feeling this one building inside her would exceed what she'd experienced with him since then.
Maybe it was because her mind didn't know what was coming, what he was going to do next, giving her some of that spontaneity she longed for.
Maybe it was because she was doing this with someone she loved, knowing her pleasure, the sounds she made, brought him excitement, joy, the same way it thrilled her and filled her with joy to watch him in the midst of his own climb to his peak.
She honestly didn't care, she just never wanted him to stop.
Even though he was the only man she'd ever done anything with, she knew that no one would ever make her moan this way, whimper this way, cry out this way, bring her this bliss.
No one else would ever satisfy her.
She only hoped he felt the same.
Propping herself up on her elbows, her eyes met his and her stomach clenched with desire at the searing heat in them. She glanced down, and the sight of his fingers sliding in and out of her was more arousing than she could have expected, more heat shooting to the knot building inside her. Her head fell back again, a choked whimper escaping her when he moved his fingers even faster, each time brushing up against that spot. She could feel the knot tightening further and further, her hands clenching tight on the sheets. He used his thumb to rub at her clit, and the extra stimulation had a high-pitched, needy moan falling from her as fierce, heated arrows shot through her system.
"More." She panted out, begging for more speed, needing the release she could feel building, too delirious to be embarrassed about the request.
She heard him chuckle, clearly amused, clearly pleased at her reaction, though he didn't hesitate to do as she asked, picking up the pace of his fingers as his thumb continued to tease the sensitive bundle of nerves, her breaths falling from her in short pants as the knot tightened even more. No longer able to hold herself up, no longer having the strength to do so, her elbows gave out hands reaching behind her and clasping onto the bed frame, needing something to keep her grounded. It felt as if she'd fly off any second with the building tension, desperate cries falling from her, begging him for more.
He leaned down, lips brushing at her ear as he whispered. "Look at me. Let me see your face when you come on my fingers."
His words had her whimpering, shivering, searing heat slicing through her. Unable to resist his murmured command, unable to deny him, she forced herself to lift her head, her unfocused, glazed eyes meeting his molten ones, her lips parted as needy moans fell from them. Taking her nipple into his mouth, he sucked hard, and that final pull was all it took to shove her off the edge. Despite her greatest efforts to hold his gaze, her head fell back against the pillow, back arching, her drawn out, heated moan filling the air as the knot snapped, hot arrows of pleasure lancing through her as she clenched around his fingers still pulsing inside her.
Before she even had the time to climb down, she felt him pull his fingers from her to lay on her clit, now fiercely circling it, a choked sound falling from her lips as she felt the knot tightening faster than she'd ever experienced. Her eyes clenched even tighter, mouth dropping open with desperate cries, her hips involuntarily rolling against his fingers, seeking more, the sensitivity somehow adding to the climbing tension. She didn't even have the chance to think before she was yanked up and over the edge again, a long, high-pitched moan falling from her as her hips twitched against his fingers, the crashing waves extended as he kept rubbing, slowing his pace to ease her back down.
The tension finally left her as she collapsed onto the mattress in a puddle. A heated, glowing sensation was pulsing through her as her satisfied hum filled the air. Eyes cracking open, she could see his amused, almost smug expression, once again, clearly enjoying the way she reacted to him. Too full of bliss to be embarrassed she sat up, a teasing, knowing smile on her face, that sultry version of herself taking over once again.
She hummed, eyes full of humor. "My Captain seems amused at how I react to him, as if it pleases him how easily he can make me moan, make me beg, make me desperate." She pushed him onto his back. "Let's see how easily he reacts to me. Let's see if I can make him as desperate as he makes me."
His brow quirked up in amusement, and she could see the challenge in his heated eyes, daring her to try. A thought occurred to her, something she'd been wanting to try, but had been too nervous to do so. She felt ready to try tonight, but wasn't sure how to do it, and it had the sultry personality wavering slightly as her nerves kicked in.
She avoided his gaze, nibbling at her lip. "There's...there's something I want to try, but I'm not entirely sure how to do it...and I don't want to mess up."
He sat up, taking her chin in his hand, coaxing her to face him. He placed a soft kiss on her lips, pulling back to rest his forehead on hers, thumb stroking lightly at her jaw.
"Relax, whatever you want to do, either tell me, or just do it. You won't mess up, you won't disappointment me. You could never, will never disappoint me, I promise you. And if you need my help, just tell me."
She realized he was trusting her completely without even knowing what it was she wanted to do. And it was as if he'd read her mind, knowing she still sometimes feared she'd disappoint him. His gentle words and the warmth in his eyes helped ease her nerves, bringing back the seductive, teasing version of herself.
She pushed him back down against the bed. "You always know just what to say Captain, to make me feel better, to ease my nerves."
She loved the way his eyes turned hot and molten whenever his title fell from her lips. "You're so good to me. You've been so good to me. Your loyal and faithful subordinate has a surprise for you that she thinks you'll like. I'm going to see how crazy I can make you."
Has he always reacted that way to me calling him Captain? Or is it just when I use this voice? Wherever the hell this voice came from.
Eager to please her Captain, she let her hand palm at the bulge in his pants, thrilled that she was able to make him react this way, elated at the heated groan that fell from him when she squeezed lightly. After feeling undesirable all her life, to be able to make this powerful man want her sent heat rushing through her. Leaning down, she yanked his shirt off of him, loving the amusement that came to his face whenever she made a bold move such as this one.
She pressed her lips to his, enjoying how he allowed her to be in control of his pleasure, the way she was working to let him be in control with hers. She grazed her mouth up his cheek, brushing, teasing against his ear, a soft hum flowing through her at the way his breath hitched. Exploring, experimenting, she let her mouth roam down his neck, grazing at the sensitive spot, relishing in the way he shivered.
"I spent so long, Captain," she murmured, "thinking this was all just me. I don't think you know how happy I was to find out how much you wanted me, that you wanted more with me, the way I wanted more, the way I want it all.
Growing even bolder, curiosity driving her, she made her way down his chest, letting her tongue flick across his nipple, the way he had with hers, encouraged when he sucked in a breath. She traced her mouth and tongue across his chest, the way he had so many times with her, enjoying the way his muscles quivered and the way his breath had quickened ever so slightly. Glancing up at him, she could see him watching her, eyes full of desire.
"I wish I could go back in time and tell my past self to take those chances in all those moments where I thought you wanted me."
She could see the understanding that came to his eyes as she spoke, could feel it in the way his hand came up to stroke through her hair. Moving back up, she teased his lips with hers, loving how he sighed when she brushed her hands through his hair.
"There were so many times where I came oh so close, but I was too afraid. Something always stopped me."
She sat up, bringing her hand back to palm him lightly through his pants again, loving the way he swallowed and how his eyes seemed to lose focus at the pressure. "But I'm not afraid anymore, and I fully intend on making up for lost time, Captain."
Her hands shook slightly when she unbuttoned his pants, knowing what she was about to do.
Pulling his pants and boxers down, she revealed him to her, drinking in the sight of him, his hardened cock practically begging for some attention. She loved how aroused she could make him. It made her feel desired, beautiful, powerful.
Taking him into her hand, she slowly began moving it up and down along his length, allowing his pleasure to build, wanting to make him feel as good as he made her feel, wanting to make him feel loved, even if she couldn't say the words. She allowed herself to ease into it, increasing the speed of her strokes, tightening her grip, using what she already knew to help her relax, preparing her for what she wanted to do next, his heated groans and grunts beginning to fill the air as they encouraged her. When she could tell he was getting close she pulled her hand off him, tracing light, feathery touches around his tip as it twitched, loving the glare he sent her, a light thrill hitting her as she teased him.
"I thought we talked about this." He groaned, voice strained as his eyes clenched tight at the teasing touches.
She hummed in amusement, teasing him helping to ease her nerves. "Doesn't mean I listened."
His voice dropped to a frustrated, tense growl as he spoke. "Stubborn pain in the a—"
His words were cutoff by a needy groan when she wrapped him in her hand again, working his length at a fast pace that threatened to throw him over the edge, his hands clenching tight into the sheets as his hips bucked against her hand. Just as he was about to leap, she stopped, moving her fingers to trace along the dips and ridges of muscle along his stomach, letting her eyes move to his face, an innocent smile filling hers, eyes shining with humor at the frustrated look he sent her.
"I'm sorry, you were saying." Her sultry tone was light, airy, continuing to enjoy toying with him.
His glare was weakened by the desire heating them, only fueling her need to tease. Leaning over him, she brushed her lips across his, trailing them across his jaw and up to his ear.
"Is my Captain getting annoyed with my teasing?" She purred. "Am I driving him crazy?"
She relished in the way he shivered as she whispered in his ear, though she could feel him still glaring at her. Her hand snuck down to his length again, tracing lightly through the fluid that was leaking from the tip, hand growing bolder as she trailed her fingers further down, cupping him gently, massaging him, the strained grunt that escaped him sending a searing heat through her.
She loved teasing him, loved that he was willing to let her tease him. Despite the glares he shot at her, she could see the underlying amusement hidden in the frustration and desire swirling in his eyes. It thrilled her that he let her be in charge of his pleasure, and she couldn't wait for the day where he was fully in charge of hers, even if it meant she was sobbing, begging for release.
She wanted that. She wasn't sure why, but she wanted to be teased and denied by him, the same way she did with him. The idea of it was thrilling, intriguing, something new she couldn't wait to experience.
Wrapping him in her hand once again, she set a steady pace, his needy groan sending a hot rush through her, letting her thumb swirl against his tip. His hips bucked against her hand involuntarily, hands clenching into the sheets. Once again, she pulled her hand from his cock when he was close, tracing a finger across his tip and down his length.
A frustrated groan fell from him, eyes narrowing at her. "You're playing with fire." His voice was tense as he spoke through clenched teeth.
Continuing the same pattern along his length, she brushed her lips across his cheeks, and down his neck. "Maybe I want to get burned."
A strained chuckle escaped him. "Just remember what I told you."
'Whatever you dish out now, it's going to come back to you at some point.'
She smiled against his neck, moving back up to nip lightly at his jaw. "Don't worry, I haven't forgotten. And I'm looking forward to it, Captain."
She took in a deep breath, leaning back, wrapping her hand around him again, setting a slow pace, not wanting to push him too far, wanting to have the chance to try.
When his eyes clenched tight, a needy, almost desperate groan falling from him at her slow pace, she made her move. Shoving aside the nerves she leaned down, wrapping his tip in her mouth. A strangled curse fell from him as his eyes snapped open, hips bucking up involuntarily, instinctively seeking more of the wet warmth, drawing a choked sound from her when he slid further than she'd expected.
"Shit! Are you okay?!" His voice was strained as he spoke, though his concern for Isa was present as always.
He reached up to pull her off of him, needing to make sure she wasn't hurt, but she slapped his hands away, sending him a glare, telling him with her eyes that she was fine, that she knew she'd taken him by surprise, and that he hadn't hurt her. That she wanted to do this. Swallowing thickly, he nodded, though she could see the worry in his eyes, clearly afraid he'd hurt her.
Determination filled her, wanting to erase the worry and replace it with desire and pleasure, wanting to bring him bliss. Her need to please her Captain now overriding the urge to tease. She worked to take more of him into her mouth, though there was only so much she could take, not used to the feeling.
She thought back to how she'd used her hands on him, and began bobbing her head, keeping a steady pace, intrigued by the taste of him, the feel of him in her mouth more thrilling than she could have ever expected. His hand came up to rest in her hair, fingers threading into the silky strands, and she hummed at the feel. Another jolt hit her when he sucked in a breath at the vibrations, and she knew she'd found something else that he liked. His grunts and groans sent new heat flashing through her, loving this new way she could bring him pleasure, loving the way she could feel his cock twitching occasionally inside her mouth as she worked him closer to the edge.
She felt him take her hand, bringing it up to wrap around the rest of him that she couldn't fit in her mouth. Understanding what he needed, what he was silently telling her, she worked to time the strokes of her hand with the movement of her head, a pleased shiver hitting her when she heard an almost desperate groan fall from him at the added stimulation.
As she moved, her tongue accidentally flicked against a spot on the back of his head, and a strained sound fell from him, his free hand clenching tight in the sheets, each new way she learned she could make him feel good sent excitement pulsing through her veins.
Encouraged she experimented with her tongue more, using it to swirl around him as she worked her hand and mouth on him, relishing in the way his breath was now panting out. When she glanced up at him, she could see his eyes were clenched tight, the tension on his face sending a pleased heat rippling through her at the thought that she was doing this to him, loving that she could do this to him, despite her inexperience. She knew her technique wasn't the best, but the sounds that were falling from him and the way his fingers had tightened lightly in her hair told her he didn't care and were sending thrills through her system.
Even though it had only been a few weeks, she was starting to feel more confident as she learned what he liked, and knew that with time, she'd learn how to use her mouth with him, the same way she'd learned, was still learning, to use her hands on him. He'd been so patient with her, and his patience always eased her nerves, reminding her that she didn't have to worry, allowing her to relax and just try, and to trust in herself. And it just made her love him even more.
His strained voice filled the air, his free hand gripping even tighter at the sheets. "Shit…fuck I'm…close."
She realized he was trying to give her the option to pull off of him before he came in her mouth, a thrill arrowing through her at how tense he sounded from what she'd done. The thought of having him come in her mouth was arousing, exhilarating, something she wanted to try, but she wasn't sure how to swallow. Not wanting to mess up this first time, she pulled back, now working her hand up and down his length, setting a fast pace, grip tight, no longer interested in teasing him.
It didn't take much, too much teasing, too much stimulation sent him over the edge, his cock twitching as his release shot from him. His eyes clenched even tighter as he bucked against her hand, a long, husky groan falling from him through clenched teeth, and she shivered at the sound of it.
She watched as his body relaxed against the mattress, breaths slowing. She leaned up, brushing light kisses across his flushed face, down his neck, pulling back so she could gently stroke his hair. His eyes opened, and a shy smile crossed her face at the satisfaction in them, elated that she could do this to him, wondering if this is what he saw with her. Grabbing his shirt, he used it to wipe her hand, and she took it from him so she could wipe his release off him, tucking him neatly back into his pants, the routine of it filling her with a feeling of quiet contentment.
He guided her onto her back, hovering over her, his hands coming up to cup her face, thumbs stroking across her cheeks, and she loved the affection in his eyes, even if they still held concern, clearly still worried he'd hurt her.
"Are you okay?" He asked as he searched her face and eyes for any sign of discomfort or pain.
She brought her arms to wrap loosely around his neck, hands brushing through his hair. "I'm fine, Levi. You didn't hurt me. I know I took you by surprise, and I should have told you, I just didn't know how to say it, and was afraid I'd lose my nerve if I tried to say it."
He brushed his lips across her forehead. "I don't care about whether or not you told me, I just want to be sure that you're okay." His fingers threaded into her hair, lightly massaging.
A content sigh escaped her. "I'm fine, I promise."
"That was not something you had to do," he murmured.
She let her hands come around to cup his face, fingers threading into his hair, an affectionate smile on her face. "Don't worry, Levi, I wanted to, I promise."
She took a breath, face flushing at what she was about to say, though her smile remained. "I just, I like that I can make you feel good. I…I never thought I'd be able to do any of this. So me doing things like that is as much for me as it is for you, the same way I know you like…what you do to me."
Her face softened, thumbs brushing across his cheeks, eyes full of affection. "I want to experience everything with you, Levi, not just this, but everything. So the same way you tell me I don't need to ask if I did something right, you don't need to tell me I didn't need to do something, because I'm doing what you told me and doing the things I want to do."
Admiration lit his eyes at her words. "You continue to amaze me."
Lip caught between her teeth, a flush crept up her face at the thought that she could amaze him. "Good, and I intend to keep doing just that."
He leaned his head down, brushing his lips across her shoulder, her neck, up to her ear, light tingles following where he kissed her bare skin. "You're still going to pay for that."
She giggled, all nerves gone for the moment, too overjoyed at how far she'd come, too full of love and affection to feel nervous.
"And like I told you, I look forward to it, Levi. Because if you're able to do that, then that means everything we've done has worked and I won't have to guide you for everything."
He chuckled, and the sound of it against her ear had her heart clenching, always loving whenever she could make him laugh. Rolling to his side, he pulled her close the way he always did. She wondered if she should feel awkward with her naked body pressed up against him, but if anything, she felt more at ease than ever, loving the affection in his eyes as he held her gaze.
She hummed when he leaned in to brush his lips across hers, his hand coming up to rest lightly on her face when he pulled back. Trapped in his eyes, the warmth in them sending a soft heat flowing through her, she was still amazed at how the risk she'd taken had paid off. She still hated that she'd spent all that time too afraid to make a move, hating all the time they'd lost, but she refused to regret it. That time with Levi had helped their friendship bloom into something she'd never experienced, and never wanted to lose.
One of the things she loved most about her new relationship with him, was how close they still were as friends. She hadn't been lying when she'd told him he was her best friend. It was a different friendship than what she had with Hange. She wasn't sure why, she just knew it was different.
Maybe it was his calmer nature, one that had helped her in more ways than one.
Maybe it was because she was in love with him.
Maybe it was because she'd seen him vulnerable, seen sides of him that no one else had ever seen, the way he'd seen sides of her no one else had ever seen.
She honestly didn't care, she loved every part of their relationship, their friendship, all of it, and she could tell he was enjoying himself too. She hoped he never stopped, though his promises to her helped ease her nerves. The last thing she wanted to do was leave, but she needed to go clean up, so like she had each night, she brushed her lips across his cheek, telling him she'd be back in a little bit. She could tell he didn't want to let her go with the way his arms tightened around her, but he relented, knowing the sooner he let her go, the sooner she'd be back. Sitting up, she grabbed her panties and pants, tugging them on, feeling awkward as she stood without a shirt. It was still in his office where they'd left it, and she now had to walk out to grab it.
Even though he'd seen her naked, had touched her, kissed her, it felt strange walking around without a shirt. She took in a breath, forcing herself to stand and leave, grabbing her shirt and pulling it over her head as she walked. Racing to her room, she quickly washed up and changed, eager to be back with him as she always was. When she was back in his room, she practically jumped into bed next to him, face flushing at the amused look he sent her at her eagerness.
She slid closer to him, loving how he pulled her in tight as always, hoping he never stopped wanting to do this. Feeling ridiculous that she still needed to take a breath, she took one, before tilting her head up so she could graze her lips across his, wanting the routine of kissing him one last time before she fell asleep, ignoring the teasing light in his eyes, though she appreciated that he never ridiculed her for feeling nervous over the simpler things.
She let her head drop back down, resting against his shoulder as his arms held her close as they always did. Her eyes began to droop close as the muffled beat of his heart helped her relax further. She could feel sleep pulling her in as she snuggled closer into the heat of his body, a content sigh escaping her at the featherlight touch across her forehead, completely unaware of the nightmare she was about to have.