KAGEYAMA
I could see it. I could see that fucking look of pity on his face. I didn't even tell him anything. I hate talking about my parents. I hate them. Mom can be tolerable but seriously I really hate them. I want nothing to do with my parents. I am so glad I get to live here for the next few months. Granted if I wasn't here I would be in the dorm taking summer classes. Following this I don't know what I am going to do. I don't want to go back to college. Maybe I can look for a job training in volleyball. I want to do what I love. Is that so much to ask. The important part is finding a job where traveling won't interfere with anything in the event the team needs me. I definitely want to play in the Olympics again.
"I'm actually sore," says Akaashi sitting at the table with me. He appears to be in pain winching a little.
"Already?" asks Oikawa. I hold in a chuckle.
"I'm very sensitive thank you very much," says Akaashi. "Like seriously I knew training was going to be tough but this." We are 3 days into training. I'm glad we got to rest a little before starting because Noya wasn't joking. We start the morning with breakfast at 6am, by 6:30am we are jogging 3 miles before starting our training at 8:00am. We haven't even dived into our main training as we are still practicing the basics. Serving, receiving, blocking, you name it we are doing it. It's stuff everyone should know but it is clear they want us perfect across the board.
"I'm enjoying it," says Oikawa. "At least we are done for the day. After dinner I am thinking about relaxing my muscles in the hot tub."
"Good idea," I reply. "I think I will do some extra stretching before going to the hot tub."
"That does sound good," says Akaashi. "I think I'm going to settle for a hot shower and then curl up into my bed."
"Hmmm that does sounds wonderful," says Oikawa. Hinata walks pass me to put up his tray. He walks over speaking to Noya before walking off. I shift my eyes. I don't know why I can't stop looking at him. Sure, he's nice, a good player but not enough to keep my attention like that. "Kageyama, you okay?"
"What?" I ask being pulled from my thoughts. Oikawa chuckles. "Your face looks rather flustered."
"Is it really?" I ask touching my cheeks. Akaashi gives a smile small.
"Are you blushing?" he asks. Am I?
"I don't know…" I mutter. "I have nothing to be embarrassed about."
"Ummmm maybe," says Oikawa. I glare at him. I hate when he does this. Make snide little comments expecting you to figure out the riddle. I'm not feeding into his bullshit today. I finish up my dinner heading back to the training gym. There are two gyms. One for our training with the net set up and another with workout equipment. I go to the one with the netting as it has mats in a small corner where we warm up and cool down. My heart beats harder realizing I'm not alone. Of course, he would be here. Hinata doesn't notice me as he has his legs spread apart leaning forward. He can almost lay on the floor, holy shit. I trip over my feet causing my sneakers to squeak on the floor. Hinata looks up.
"Hey," he greets before smiling. I just wave feeling dumb as I continue my walk over there. I take a deep breath walking over sitting down on the mat. Just because we play together doesn't mean we are best friends. I made sure not to be in his space. I haven't said much to him since this past weekend after his incident. I was really scared walking into the bathroom not knowing what I would see. I didn't think I would see him crying in pain. I didn't care that he was naked. The important fact was to make sure he was okay. I start on my arms with stretching. After a few arm stretches I steal a glance at Hinata. He quickly glances away standing up. He walks over to the foam roller.
"Are you seriously going to use that?" I ask. Damn, I didn't mean to say that out loud. Hinata laughs.
"Yeah," he replies. "It really helps with soreness. I know it looks stupid, but it really helps."
"A few of the guys are going to use the hot tub," I reply. "I'm not sure which is more annoying that thing or the hot tub." Hinata walks over standing in front on me. I look up at him wishing he would sit his little ass down.
"Well do you know how to use it properly?" he asks. I raise an eyebrow.
"What are you trying to say?" I ask. Hinata rolls his eyes dropping to his knees.
"Lay down," he instructs.
"Why?" I dead pan.
"So I can show you how to use this," he replies. "Come on now." I frown.
"Which way should I lay down?" I ask. I don't know why I am listening to him. Mostly because I am curious…..
"On your stomach would be best," he replies. "I have seen your lack of flexibility."
"Oh whatever," I mumble laying on my stomach. I could care less about being limber. Being fast and strong is much more important my eyes. I lay down not sure if I should be doing this.
"Relax Kageyama," Hinata says softly. I close my eyes to keep from shaking. What was with that tone of voice. I steady my breathing feelings Hinata begin to roll the form shake on my back hamstrings. He is managing to apply the right pressure. This….this isn't so bad. "The key is making sure you use it correctly. You will feel even better tomorrow."
"Um hm….." I mutter trying not to melt. Hinata does my claves before switching to the next leg.
"Any other areas?" he asks.
"Uggh…..I don't know…" I groan.
"It can be weird at first," says Hinata. "Let's try here."
"Gah….." I cry out as he is pressing the roller into my lower back. It feels good, too good. I gasp lowly as I realized I'm becoming aroused. I'm trying to keep it down. I'm not usually this sensitive, I swear! I bite my bottom lip as he continues to roll the foam along my back. I start jerking slightly trying to get it to stop. I'm going to get hard if he keeps going.
"Stop being a baby!" he exclaims. "Lay flat so I can do your upper back."
"No!" I exclaim. "Stop!" I sit up backing away from him. Hinata face….what is that. He looks terrified….ashamed.
"I-I'm sorry," he apologizes. "I didn't mean to make you uncomfortable." He drops his head like a child that has been scolded. I have never seen that look on his face. Not even when our coaches yell at him.
"I-It's okay…" I say dropping my voice. "I overacted." I really did. I just didn't want to get an erection. That back rub felt a little too pleasurable.
"I don't ever want to make you feel uncomfortable Kageyama," he replies. "Just let me know if I do anything to upset you." I feel bad because he was only trying to help. I take a few deep breaths.
"It's fine really," I reply. "I'm going to go loosen up the rest of my muscles in the hot tub. Um thanks for showing me how to use the foam thingy." I stand up bolting from the gym. That was so close. I mean I get an erection but never from some rubbing. I blush as I head towards our room. I take a quick shower trying to calm my body down. Do I get horny. Of course. But it usually dies down. I finally manage to calm down as I head out the door. Hinata walks pass me and for the first time he doesn't make eye contact with me. He shifts his eyes away from me. Deep down this bothers me…
"Hey!" exclaims Oikawa speaking to me as soon as I enter the hot tub area. "I didn't think you were coming." Sugawara, Daichi, and Akaashi are all in the tub. There are two hot tubs but they are all in just the one.
"Join us," says Sugawara. "The waters fine."
"Yeah…." drones Akaashi. I hold in a chuckle because his face is saying how I feel right now. I sit down in between Akaashi and Sugawara.
"I thought you was going to be napping," I state looking at Akaashi as I get comfortable in the water. Akaashi leans back glaring at me.
"I was too fucking sore to sleep," he states causing Sugawara laugh.
"So how are you doing Kageyama?" asked Daichi. "These guys were just telling us what they think of training so far." I shrug.
"It's okay," I replied. "I always practiced everyday just not this much. You know school." Sugawara nods.
"I do know," Sugawara replies. "I didn't play volleyball my senior year of high school but still practiced wanting to make it to Olympics."
"I was able to continue playing my senior year," explains Daichi. "My parents gave me shit for it, but they aren't complaining now seeing I made something out of it."
"How does that work?" asked Akaashi. "You don't have to answer this, but we aren't getting paid for this. I am here solely for my love of the game. It has got to be hard." Sugawara looks thoughtful.
"It was the first year we played," he replies. "It helped that Daichi and I became roommates. We also managed to find jobs where they would work with our schedule."
"You guys are roommates?" asks Oikawa. Daichi nods.
"We don't like telling people this usually, but you guys keep to yourselves," Daichi replies. He glares at Oikawa because we all know he is the weak link. What are they saying though? Living together as friends or lovers…
"Of course," grins Oikawa. Sugawara smiles taking Daichi hand confirming my thoughts.
"Does anyone else know?" asks Akaashi lowly. I watch as his cheeks turn pink.
"Our teammates do," says Sugawara. "The coaches no. I prefer that they don't know."
"Understandable," says Oikawa. "I couldn't tell if that makes you guys feel any better."
"It does!" exclaims Daichi. "I always worry about that."
"Well we couldn't tell," says Oikawa. "I'm surprised you guys aren't playing the field though. I am sure you guys are approached by fans."
"We are," says Daichi. "Trust me it sounds cute now but that gets old real fast. I started to see some of them didn't care about me. They liked me for what I could do for them."
"You tried dating?" I ask now interested. I have never dated anyone. It was easier to keep everyone at a distant. It was hard enough devoting my time to volleyball outside of school. I never really liked anyone anyway. They were either materialistic or talking about themselves. I didn't have the time or energy to waste on people like that.
"Of course," says Sugawara. "I mean as a gay man I didn't trust dating anyone with my status on the team. I couldn't take that risk." Gay? He doesn't look gay. I shake my head immediately knowing that is a stupid thought. "What?"
"Nothing," I reply. "Thanks for being open with us."
"We are not just teammates but family," says Daichi. "You will see soon enough."
"I can see it," says Oikawa with a grin. "I always could. I mean seeing you all on TV compared to in person is incredible. You all are so friendly."
"We try," says Sugawara before chuckling. "The training this year is different with this building and us staying here though. I think it's good we are all in the same space."
"I'm ready to start working on combos," I reply. "Granted I am glad we are practicing the basics." Daichi chuckles.
"Don't be so eager," he replies. "I know you are excited to jump out there and learn more but trust me. Once we learn combos, we will then move on to 2 on 2 games before processing to 3 to 4 and so on and so forth. They leave no room for error. Then we are practicing 4 weeks before the game." He releases a deep breath. "Some heads will roll if we don't bring home the gold."
"We will," I reply. "You got us." Sugawara smiles. The rest of our chat is light. Talking about movies, TV shows. I can't really speak on movies, but I do watch a lot of TV shows. I also do a lot of reading as well. I finish up feeling like my muscles are warm enough. I grab my towel drying myself off.
"Kageyama, you okay?" asks Akaashi. I glance over at him because I didn't even hear him beside me.
"Yeah, I'm fine," I reply. "Why?" I continue to dry my body so I can put on my shirt and flip flops. Akaashi shifts his eyes.
"You seem nervous when Sugawara and Daichi were discussing their relationship," he points out. I scoff tossing my damp towel around my neck.
"I wasn't expecting them to be an item," I explain. "I don't care that they are. Long as it doesn't interfere with our game."
"It won't," says Akaashi. "They have been together 8 years." My face drops.
"Are you serious?" I question. He nods his head as he towels off his own body.
"They are devoted to each," he replies. "I mean they have been together longer than most celebrity couples."
"Facts," I reply.
"I'm kind of envious of that," admits Akaashi.
"Why?" I ask. He stares at me.
"It's hard to find someone you want to spend the rest of your life with," he explains. "Someone who accepts you no matter what." Akaashi wipes his eyes making me wonder has he experienced a bad break up or something. That is not a normal reaction someone would have.
"Yeah…..I can see that," I reply. Akaashi follows me out of the locker room.
"Looks like you and Hinata are getting along better," he states.
"What do you mean?" I ask.
"Well, you're not snapping at him anymore for one," he points out. "For two you stopped frowning at him."
"It's not that serious," I reply. "I mean he isn't such a bad guy…" Akaashi grabs on to the end of his towels.
"He's not," he replies. "I saw you guys stretching together on my way to the hot tub." I immediately feel my cheeks getting warm remembering clearly what happened. "I think it's great you guys are roommates and help each other out. We need that you know."
"I don't need any help!" I hiss.
"Having help isn't a bad thing," says Akaashi looking at me as if I am crazy.
"Speak for yourself," I reply. "I'll see you in the morning." I quickly make my way room. I am surprised to not see Hinata in his bed on his laptop. I noticed the laptop is there on his bed, but he isn't. Man….I hope he hurries in that bathroom. I need to shower. I walk over to the bathroom seeing the light on rolling my eyes.
"Haaaa…." My ears perk up. What the hell…. Hinata moans once more with his voice sounding…..enticing. My eyes widen as I stare at the door. Is he doing what I think he is doing? Hinata voice drops to soft whimper before it picks back up for a moment. I know he is masturbating in there, but he sounds as if he is actually having sex. His voice is so intense, the panting, the little whines I hear. I want to walk away but I can't. I stare at the door listening to his cries of pleasure.
"Shit….." I mutter looking down at my erection coming back harder than before. The bathroom door opens shocking me. Hinata looks slightly dazed until he sees me standing right in front of him.