KAGEYAMA
I close the room door grinning on the inside. I can't believe I did it. I had sex for the first time last night. To make it even better Hinata seemed to really enjoy what we did. I was so worried about him knowing I lack experience. I head down the hall towards the gym to meet Oikawa. I roll my eyes because I swear his ass can be needy as fuck. I'm ready to get back to the room and chill with Hinata. I walk into the gym to see Oikawa is on time for a change. He is in the middle of stretching.
"Oi," I say walking over to the mat. "I can only train for two hours today." He looks up.
"Two hours!" he exclaims. "That's all I get." I start with my arms nodding my head as I look down at him. "I know you can train 5 hours easily."
"I got shit to do so stop busting my ass," I reply. I continue stretching my arm as Oikawa stands up.
"Oh my god…" he says slowly walking towards me. "You had sex." I blush immediately.
"I don't know what you are talking about," I reply turning away from him. It can't be that easy to tell. Can it?
"Uh uh," says Oikawa. "You look different, you move differently. Who the hell are you fucking?"
"I'm not fucking anyone," I reply. He makes it sound as if I'm having casual sex or a one night stand. That is not what is happening here. "I'm not telling you Toru so stop asking." He folds his arms.
"What are you hiding?" he asks.
"Nothing," I reply. "I'm protecting our privacy. Unlike you I'm not just going to openly talk about my sex life." Oikawa chuckles.
"I'm more in shock that you finally had sex if anything," he replies. "You wouldn't even hook up with that girl at my graduation party. She was totally into you."
"I didn't even know that girl!" I snap. Not only didn't I know her, I didn't find her attractive. I am not saying the girl is unattractive I…..I like guys. Wouldn't have worked out for me either way. I can't just give my body away to anyone.
"Got some ass and you already puffing your chest out," says Oikawa before chuckling. I finally decide to drop down on the mat. Oikawa sits back down. "I can't believe it. Tobio is finally getting laid."
"Shut up!" I exclaim shoving him. This is so embarrassing. I mean I can't be that different.
"Oh, you laying hands on me," he sneers before laughing. "This must be serious."
"Whatever," I mutter. Oikawa chuckles some more.
"I thought the day would never come," he says. "How was it?"
"What do you think?" I ask. Oikawa lost his virginity his 2nd year of high school. The fact he waited that long surprised me. I shouldn't have to explain to him how good it felt.
"Well don't get lost in it," he says with a shrug. "Everyone is affected differently. I personally had a hard time pacing myself. Pretty addicting if you ask me." I can see that. I didn't know it was possible to feel this close to a person. I know sex brings people closer together. I didn't understand until I was actually doing it.
"I won't," I reply. "I know what is at stake here. I busted my ass to get on this team. I am not leaving without a gold medal." Oikawa smirks. "Now what's all this bullshit you were saying to Hinata?" Oikawa looks taken back.
"Oh god," he replies. "I didn't say anything bad."
"Oh really," I reply. "Why are you so press to point out how close we are." Oikawa rolls his eyes.
"I didn't know it was going to bother him so much," says Oikawa. "I honestly thought he hated you."
"Why would you think that?" I ask him moving on to stretching my legs.
"You guys use to fight all the time," he replies with a shrug. "I will admit it was kind of funny seeing how mad he was getting."
"That wasn't funny," I reply. "He is the one person I can stand on this team."
"That's not true," defends Oikawa. "What about me or Akaashi?"
"You guys don't count as I know you from before," I explain. "Hinata is different."
"Everyone on the team is nice," says Oikawa. "I don't see anything special about him."
"It's not for you to see," I reply. Oikawa glares at me.
"It's him isn't it," he states. I ignore him. "Holy shit." Moments like this I hate how smart he is. There is a reason he got into Abosi Jobi. My marks weren't high enough. Otherwise, we would have gone to the same school at least for one year. "I didn't know you were into guys." Again, I say nothing. "Um hm," He stands up. "Hurry up so we get started."
"Don't rush me," I reply. He is upset because I'm not giving him details. He's so damn nosy. I finish stretching standing up.
"Let's make this more interesting," says Oikawa. "For every time you fuck up. You have to answer one of my questions."
"What?" I ask.
"Come on, it's fair," he replies. I roll my eyes.
"This is practice," I reply. "I don't have to be perfect. Not only that I rarely make mistakes."
"Now I know you don't want to answer my questions," he replies grabbing a volleyball. "You always strive to be perfect."
"I'm close to perfect as perfect is going to get," I reply.
"Uh huh," says Oikawa.
"I'm not the one who got put on blast by coach," I point out. Oikawa is pissed now.
"Accept the bet and put your game where your mouth is," he snaps. That was a low blow I know but he was asking for it.
"Bet," I reply. "What are we doing?"
"One on one game," he replies. "Every point I earned I get to ask a question." Hmmm that is risky. I want the same offer. I want to pick his fucking brain as well.
"No perfect game," I reply. "We are going by points?" Oikawa nods. "I get the same thing." Oikawa waivers. What's this? He is never nervous or shy about anything. What the hell is he hiding. "Agreed?" He nods looking profoundly serious. This is going to be a blood bath. Oikawa tosses the ball up hitting it right at me. I react quickly trying to hit the ball out of bounds immediately. Of course, it is not that simple. Oikawa runs stretching his arm out enough to hit the ball over the net. I move quickly countering the hit to a corner I know Oikawa won't reach in time.
"Fucking really Tobio," he hisses. I know he is mad that I did that. Oikawa is great at everything but speed. He could certainly use some help in that area. I think he has come to terms with the fact he just isn't fast. He does make up for it in the remaining areas.
"Yup," I reply. "Why are you nervous?" He is hiding something from me. I watch Oikawa walk over to pick up the ball. His cheeks are red as hell as he glares at me.
"I hooked up with a guy back in February," he mutters before hitting the serve hard as hell. I am in such a state of shock I miss the serve altogether.
"Are you fucking serious?" I inquire.
"My turn to be asking questions," he replies with the hint of arrogance returning to his voice. Oh boy, here we go. "Did you have sex with Hinata?"
"Yeah," I reply jogging over to grab the ball. I turn around quickly taking in his stance on the court. I hit the ball with everything in me because I have so many questions. Oikawa is able to reach this serve giving the ball a slight tap knowing I won't make it in time. "Damnit!"
"Are you gay?" asks Oikawa. "I mean I don't care I just think it's crazy how I never seen you interact with well…anybody." I sigh because this is the first time I am mentioning this out loud.
"Yes," I reply. "I'm gay." I don't like girls at all. I don't feel anything romantic towards them at all. I don't feel bad about it either. Might be because I have Hinata by my side. I love him. Sure, I have Oikawa who I chatted with. We hung out from time to time, but Hinata it is different. I can't even explain it. I snatch the ball up hitting it immediately. Oikawa runs getting to the ball in time. This time I am ready. I hit the ball over the net with Oikawa hitting it lightly as he did before. I hit the ball up with my foot before slamming it over the net. Oikawa misses the ball by inches. I am panting walking back and forth trying to calm down my aggression. "You said you hooked up with a guy. Where?" Oikawa is breathing hard.
"Fuck," he hisses letting me know he doesn't want to answer this question. "His place….."
"Oh really," I say not bothering to hide my surprise. If he went back to this guy place, then he had to know what was going to happen. Maybe…. Oikawa tosses the ball giving me his best serve. I stop the serve, but it hurt like hell. I focus my eyes on where I want to hit the hall next. Making contact I hit the ball towards a corner Oikawa has no way of getting too. He literally doesn't even try. He leans over putting his hands on his knees. I see him closing his eyes in annoyance. "You're the one who wanted to do this." Oikawa stands up.
"I know," he snaps surprising me. He stands up running his hands over his face. "I'm embarrassed okay."
"Embarrassed for what?" I ask walking over to him. "I just told you I was gay. I haven't even told my damn parents!" Oikawa swallows hard.
"I'm sorry," he apologizes. "It's excruciating because I met the guy at the club." I am still confused.
"I don't understand…." I say with my voice dropping.
"I was bi curious," he admits finally. "The guy I met was…he was beautiful." I can't help but feel drawn in by his experience. "I didn't let him know I was bi curious though. I went to a bi and gay club downtown since I am over the age of 18. I approached him offering him a drink. He told me no at first saying I wasn't his type." I know how Oikawa is. He hates the thought of him not being wanted or needed. Makes me wonder what happened in his life that created this need for him. "I wasn't going to give up. I kept buying him rounds, chatting it up. I went to the bathroom with the alcohol finally getting to me. I was at the sink washing my hands when he came into the bathroom pushing me into a stall. It…it happened so fast. He was sucked my dick until I climax and then invited me back to his home to fuck him."
"Oh my god…" I say lowly. Not because of the guy but the fact he got off in a bathroom. I mean I hear things like this happening but still. Oikawa runs his hand through his sweaty hair.
"Tobio….." he mutters. "He is by far the best partner I ever had. It has been driving me nuts."
"I can't say that I relate as I have never been with anyone else," I reply. "Sorry… I mean if it is just sex it shouldn't be complicated."
"I saw him after that…" he chokes. "I couldn't stop…it was like he was…..perfect. He can cook, he can clean, his organization skills are top notch. He even likes volleyball!" I know this is a big deal because very rarely do we run into anyone who pays attention let alone care about volleyball. If it's not tennis, basketball or soccer no one cares.
"What happened to him?" I ask.
"I slowed down on talking to him," says Oikawa sadly. "Since we are here training. You know we can't let this get out right."
"Of course," I reply. "I would never tell your secret." Oikawa nods his head miserably. "Toru how come you was bragging to Hinata about us being close?" Oikawa laughs.
"I did it because he was acting like he knew you better than me," he states.
Seriously?" I question. "You're that fucking petty."
"Yup," he replies putting his hands on hips.
"Well thank you for contributing to me losing my virginity," I state. "He was fucking broken hearted over that shit you pulled."
"You had sex with him because I upset him?" questions Oikawa. He rolls his eyes. "If anything, you should be thanking me."
"Shut up," I reply. "We were going to do it anyway. We were trying to wait until after the games. I wanted to ensure that we could focus well I could focus….."
"Uh huh," says Oikawa folding his arms. "I bet you are thinking about when you can get it in next." I blush nodding my head yes.
"It feels…..exhilarating…." I say slowly. "To feel that good with someone you love…."
"Wow," says Oikawa. "You're in love."
"I am," I admit.
"Your parents are going to kill you," he states. He has no idea. My parents wanted me to focus on college. Become a doctor or a lawyer. I don't give a fuck about doing any of that. I wanted to play volleyball. I registered for college classes but dropped out soon as I knew I made the team. I haven't even told my parents yet. I decided I would tell them once I bring home the gold.
"They won't find out," I reply.
"You know they will," says Oikawa. "Your parents can be kind of scary. Anyway, I'm sorry for making Hinata feel some kind of way. Didn't you tell him about yourself?"
"Not really," I mutter.
"Why the hell not?" asks Oikawa. "If you love him he should well, you know….know you."
"I have my reasons," I reply.
"What the hell Tobio," says Oikawa. "Like Hinata didn't know your favorite color or your favorite food? There is no excuse for that." He is right. There is no excuse. I'm trying to protect myself a little longer.
"I will get there," I reply. "I promise."
"Yeah, sure," says Oikawa. "You finish this game or what?"
"You want to go back to getting your ass kicked?" I inquire.
"Fuck you," says Oikawa giving me his middle finger. I chuckle as he goes to pick up the ball. We finish our game in another hour with it ending in a tie. Looks like we both had a lot of get off our chest. We were able to focus after that. I wrap things up with Oikawa heading back to my room. It's nice to know I'm not the only one to feel like this. Oikawa may deny it, but it sounds like he is in love too.