A/N: TW

Nyah was throwing things at the wall.

"Nyah, sweetie, calm down." Olivia said

"Everything is okay." Amanda said as she slowly started walking into the room.

"No, it is not. My life is over. I can't trust anyone anymore." Nyah yelled

"Baby girl, talk to us, please." Amanda said

"No, I'm sick of trying to talk about shit. I hate my life. I hate getting close to the people who I thought were my friends, but only to find out that they never trust me." Nyah yelled

"What happened? Baby girl, you can talk to us." Olivia said as Nyah walked pacing back and forth.

"The people who I thought were me friend think I was behind a fucking account. That has been bullying me and one of my friends. I lost all of my friendship because of two bitches and now none of my friend's trust and probably will never. " Nyah said

"Sweetheart, why did you tell us this was happening?" Amanda said

"Because I did not want to, and I could have handled it on my own." Nyah said as she finally stopped pacing and sat down on her bed.

"How can we help you, sweetheart?" Olivia asked

"You can't do shit and I don't want yall help." Nyah said as she got up and walked out of the room.

"Aniyah, where are you going?" Amanda asked d

"A walk and don't follow me." Nyah said as she closed the front door.

Once the front door closed, Amanda broke down.

"Hey, what's wrong?" Olivia asked.

"I'm losing my baby. Every single day, she is changing. She is slipping away." Amanda said, as she just cried harder.

"You are not losing her. She just needs time to process everything. We all have been through a lot." Olivia said

"How about we calm down? None of this is good for the baby. Okay." Olivia said, helping Amanda to calm down.

After a few minutes of trying to calm down, Amanda Olivia finally did. Once she did, she got Amanda to take a nap for a while.

A few minutes later, Vic walked into the house.

When Olivia looked up, she noticed Vic had tears in her eyes.

"What's wrong?" Olivia asked

"Nothing important. I don't really want to talk about it." Vic said as she walked into her room and closed the door, making sure she locked the door too.

Victoria's room

When Vic got to her room, she walked into the room and the first thing she did was go over to her closet and grab a bag that had her razor in it.

She slowly began cutting away at her arms.

When the blade touched her skin, she could not stop. After a while, she finally stopped.

Then she made sure that she cleaned her arms and bandaged them two. Then after she took a nap.

After Nyah left

Once Nyah left the house, she started running. By the time she stopped running, she had run 6 miles. And she felt good after that. She took a brief break and went back home, knowing that Olivia and her mom would make me mad at her.

Amanda and Carisi household

When she walked into the house, she saw Olivia sitting on the couch.

"There you are. I was getting worried." Olivia said, as she noticed that there were tears running down Nyah's face.

"Oh, sweetheart, what is wrong? You can talk to me." Olivia said

"I hate my life." Nyah said.

"Why sweetheart?" Olivia asked as Amanda walked into the living room after just waking up from a nap.

"Because everything is crashing down on me. My friends, my grades, everything. I just want all of this to stop." Nyah said

"What do you mean?" Amanda asked, only hearing the last past of what Nyah said, which made her worried.

"I just want the pain to go away. Because when I think everything is getting better, it is not because someone or something made everything worse." Nyah said

"I just wish I was dead." Nyah whispered to herself, hoping Olivia, or her mom, did not hear her, but they did.

"Honey, how long have you been thinking about that?" Amanda asked as she walked closer to Nyah.

"I don't know, maybe a year." Nyah said, looking down at the ground.

"Sweetheart, why haven't you told me about this?" Amanda asked

"Because you had a long going on with everything that had happened in the past years." Nyah said

"Baby girl, I will also be there to talk, no matter what. You know that." Amanda said

"I know, I only started feeling this way again because of Zoey and that shit." Nyah said

"Wait, Zoey is out of Jail?" Amanda asked

"Yeah." Nyah said

"Okay, we will figure something out. Baby, next time you feel this way please come and talk to me." Amanda said

"Okay. Can I go to my room now?" Nyah said

"Yeah sure." Amanda said as Nyah walked upstairs.

"Who Zoey?" Olivia asked

"She was one of Nyah's best friends, but they got into a terrible fight, which Zoey ended up in jail for. I made sure that Nyah and Zoey had no contact after that." Amanda said

"Oh." Olivia said as she sat down next to her daughter.

"How are you doing, sweetheart?" Olivia asked

"Okay, I need to check on Vic." Amanda said as she got up.

"Okay." Olivia said as she watched Amanda walk upstair.

Victoria's room

Amanda knocked on the door and when she did not get an answer, she slowly opens the door to see her older daughter sleeping.

She was just about to walk out of the room when she noticed bandaged on Vic's arms.

"Oh, my gosh." Amanda said, as Vic woke up.

When Vic finally woke up, she saw her mom standing at the door, looking at her in shock.

After a few seconds, she realized what her mom was looking at and rolled down her sleeve.

"Baby." Amanda said as she strolled up to the bed.

"How long have you been cutting yourself, sweetheart?" She asked.

"Ever Since I was 10 years old." Vic said

Amanda felt like she wanted to throw up.

"Why? Sweetheart." She asked.

"I don't know. I just started cutting because I want the pain to go away." Vic said

"I'm sorry that you feel that way." Amanda said as she hugged her daughter.

"Are you gonna make me stop?" Vic asked.

"I can't make you stop because then you would want to do it more so I will check your arms and I want you to give me everything you're cutting with and if you feel like cutting, I want you to talk to me." Amanda said.

"Ok." Vic said