Chapter 4

i was running, sprinting breathing hard as my small feet pounded the ground.

'I messed up, I messed up, I MESSED UP!' I was screaming at myself in my head not wasting the breath to say anything out loud. I looked around me trying to find help, anyone. I didn't mean to set off an explosion, I didn't mean to hurt all those people.

I heard another explosion closer to me now, its as if someone planted them all around the camp and now they are setting each other off. Who would ever plant explosives around our camp like this?

"ELIDA!" I heard my mother call out from somewhere, I didn't know where, I couldn't find her. I need to find her! Then I heard my father calling out to me, mother save me did they know? Did they know it was me? Maybe I can explain, maybe it wasn't actually my fault.

"ELIDAAA!" I heard my mother call out again, whipping my head around I scanned for her through the crowd running for the explosions to see who could be saved. The warriors taking to the sky with buckets of water to douse the flames some carrying some of the women, the healers in our camp.

I turned one more time facing ahead of where I had come, my mother I finally saw her. I started sprinting, I could hear screaming and panic behind me but I didn't care. She held her arms open wide to me ready to embrace me. I was almost to her when another explosion went off right behind her sending us both flying I hit my head, and everything went silent.

Then I was being shaken violently awake I shot up drenched in sweat tears streaming down my face. I looked around and there were two people staring wide eyed and white faced as my eyes darted around my room. Azriel and a beautiful blond female id never met, im assuming this must be the Morrigan I was told also lived here. They were trying to talk to me, my throat was sore and hoarse I assume I was screaming n my sleep. I looked down at my hands, at my bed. The blankets, sheets and my night clothes were all burned. Scorched. By me. I started shaking, not again I cant do this again.

I looked up and Rhysand and Feyre were in my room now, appearing out of nowhere. They were all talking, all with concerned looks on their faces, all glancing between each other and me. I started getting frustrated.

"HELLO, I cannot hear you!" I think I shouted exasperated and sat up on my knees on the bed.

"im sorry we didn't mean to exclude you." a cool male voice said in my head, Rhysand I thought as I made eye contact with him. "is there anything you can tell us about your parents? Do you know if they came from a different court?" it was quiet for a moment before I looked down at my hands.

"my mother could manipulate fire." I think I was talking so quiet I couldn't tell if anyone could actually hear me. "my parents never told me where she came from, but they were mates and my father couldn't leave the camp and his people. I didn't even know about the fire until I started being able to do it. I was taught how to control it just enough so no one would find out, I wasn't to tell anyone about myself or my mother. They were worried we would be used as weapons or pawns." I looked up at everyone's faces landing on Azriels last, he was standing next to where I sat on the bed. And then he did something surprising, he put his hand on my shoulder and rubbed gently. I felt like electricity was running from him to me every place he touched me and I could feel that shimmery silver thread again. I game him a small smile and ever so slightly leaned into his touch, savoring the warmth from his palm.

"im really sorry about the bed." I said sheepishly gesturing to the ashes that were my bed sheets. Rhysand snapped his fingers and all of the ashen fabric was replaced with a new set of clean sheets, comforter and my night clothes.

"Don't even think about it." It was Feyre this time giving me a warm smile. "we know you are safe in this house and in this city, we will try to look more into your mothers past to figure out who she was. We have a loose member of our court that originates from the autumn court, his name is Lucian and maybe he will know something. Hopefully we can convince him to stick around here for a while and he can teach you how to better control and use your powers." I gave her a smile and she squeezed my hand before turning to leave the room.

"you are safe here." Rhysands voice again. "you do not have to hide your powers." I gave a small nod as everyone started to leave my room. I noticed Feyre grabbing the blonds- Morrigans arm and drag her out of the room. I think she was saying something about not to worry. I couldn't get a good read on her lips but the other female didn't look convinced, she did follow her out of the room though.

Then it was just Azriel and alone in my bedroom. He took his hand from my shoulder and sat in front of me on my bed. His eyes said it all. I blushed and looked at my hands.

"im okay really." I said not looking up at him. "im sorry I woke you up and got everyone else awake and here. I know Rhysand and Feyre have a baby." I slowly gently brought his hand to my chin and forced me to look at him and he started mouthing something. Gentle and slow so I could read his lips.

"you" I read and he pointed to me with his other hand. "have nothing to be sorry for." He finished slowly and brushed my hair behind my ear the touch making me shudder. I could feel the bed move as he chuckled at the movement he caused from me.

He leaned in an brushed his lips across my forehead like the whisper of a touch. Then I don't know what came over me but I grabbed him, cupping my had around the back of his neck and pulled him down to bring his lips crashing down onto mine.

He went rigid for 0.5 seconds before he leaned in and deepened the kiss, pressing his body into mine bracing his arm against the bed frame behind my head the other cupping my cheek his fingers brushing my hair. I felt it again that silver string, but this time it was pulled taught and was swirling with shadows in my mind.

Then tears. Tears started pouring down my face the salt mixing with our kiss, I could taste them on my tongue.

Azriel pulled back kneeling in front of me tears also in his eyes he grabbed both sides of my face with his hands, he was breathing heavy like I was, and he mouthed something I couldn't understand. I started searching his face trying to figure out what he was trying say to me. He finally realized what was happening and he moved off of the bed to grab the pad pf paper and the pen.

He scribbled something quickly and showed it to me. There was just one word written on the page.

'mate.'

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