"Time of death 16:08" throwing my gloves on the floor angrily, I left the room scrubbing my hands angrily, 18 hours working on this kid and he was gone. I felt the weight of the kid on my shoulder, he's pleas ringing in my ear not to let him die as he held my hand in the ER.

"Was there something we could have done differently doctor Williamson" looking up at one of the interns, she wasn't like the others, she didn't bug me.

"no he was a lost cause, you did good in there though Jane" patting her shoulder I walked away. it was the interns job this week to discuss losses with love ones.

stood in the waiting bay overseeing Jane catch the poor mother whom collapsed to her knees, tears

falling at the two words Jane gave her. Pressing my lips together I pushed off the wall heading back to the ER.

"I'm going to die, please don't let me die" Lillian hands were soaked in blood as she pressed down with both hands on the open bullet wound.

"Hey I got you okay, just stay awake" looking up at the night sky nothing seen but billowing of smoke from the attack and our truck that laid upside down .

"Williamson let me go" Lillian stared at Donny "that's an order"

"Shut up, you have a beautiful son on the way. Wife at home who adores you suck it the fuck up and keep fighting okay. I got you"

Donny was the only one still breathing. Lillian had tried to save her other team members and wounded soldiers they were transporting but they didn't stand a chance, the all died pleading with Lillian to save them.

Sitting at the nurses station I began signing paperwork and reports. Trying to push those faces out of my mind. Pressing down hard on the inside of my gums "Hey girl" Turning to Nurse Brittney "What you up to tonight?"

"Not much to be honest probably a hot shower" I scoffed

"Lose him?" She signed

"Yeah anyways what's on your mind?"

"Well I was thinking we're both new to town how about we go shred it up a little, get drunk and have some fun" she shrugged.

"I don't know"

"Come on girl" she begged

"alright I clock off at 7"

"Really? Okay yeah let's do it...I clock off at 6pm I'll swing by home shower and change and then catch a taxi here"

"Done deal see you than" I never really had civilian friends before. Licking my lip I went back to work. Brittney going back to work.

My phone ringing broke my attention "Hello?" I answered without looking.

"You ever going to reply to my text"

"What you need Jackson?" I signed

"Whole name still ouch...what you doing tonight?"

"Going out"

"Out only two places to go" his voice was filled with mischievous tone.

"Bye Jackson"

"Wait come on, let me make it up to you it's been a week come on"

"Bye Jax"

"Ah my nickname you're forgiving me, see you tonight...bye Lillian" Before I could say another word he hung up. Rolling my eyes I got back to work.

...

"oh girl you make pair jeans look amazing" Brittney clapped "Jesus girl I'm trying to get some tonight"

rolling my eyes "where we going?"

"just the pub down the road" Brittney hand clapped as we began to walk "so Lily you always guarded? Tell me your dark secrets"

"I've been through a lot" I shrugged

"Afghanistan do some damage?"

"Afghanistan, Iraq, Mexico, America, Australia...you name it it's weighed on me"

"Okay girl let's get you drunk" Brittney nodded "drinks here we come" walking inside the music was playing, going to the bar Brittney order us drinks "tequila is no one friend but tonight" Brittney nodded passing me two shots, inhaling I downed them quickly feeling the burn.

After a few drinks I could feel myself unwinding. I watched Brittney dance around to the juke box music, beer in hand as she swayed her hips. smirking I down my shot of tequila before hitting the ball "Oh dibs" raising an eyebrow I turned around to see Julian and Jax "hi hot stuff" she said to no one in particular.

Julian kissed my cheek "I'm sorry" mmm "who your friend?"

"Ah Brittney my brother Julian and his friend Jax...guys Brittney" Julian shook her hand but Jax eyes stared at me a small smirk on his face, i stiffened when he stood beside me his arms around my shoulders.

"forgive me babe" he whispered in my ear causing the hairs on my neck to stand and my body to tingle.

"you didn't tell me you had a man" Britt wiggled her eyebrows "or that your brother was this hot"

shaking my head I down another shot, turning to Jax I stared at him "excuse me" his arms moved off me a sign escaping his lips as he watched me lean over the table, I could sense him looking at me, turning he wasn't even hiding it as he stared at my ass his tongue out for only a second as he bite his lip, must of realized I wasn't moving as he eyes ran slowly from my ass to my eyes, fire burning within them.

turning away I could feel my cheeks burning, the heat not missable at all. Taking my shot I missed under Jax stared "need a hand" I could hear the flirtation in his voice, I could sense he knew my cheeks were bright red.

"How about we ditch this dive and go to the club house, free piss and not so many weird guys checking out my sister" Julian suggested, looking at Brittney who was basically eye fucking my brother.

"okay" Brittney smiled

Julian offered his hand and she took it "Britt"

"hey he's hot and so that one, let's go have some fun" rolling my eyes I looked at Jax again , like he had planned this all along

"need to use the rest room"

"I'll ride her over you go" Julian looked at me and I nodded. Quickly going to the bathroom I came out, running smack dead into someone. taking a few steps back I went to apologise.

"hey babe you looking for a good time" I was trapped between the wall now And his arm.

"I'm with someone"

"oh really who babe, because I could show you a real good time" he pressed against me.

"with me dickhead" the guy was thrown away from me Jax punching him in the face "don't touch my girl again do you understand" the guy nodded holding his bleeding nose, jax reached for my hand and I took it stepping around the guy

"you okay?" jax asked when we were finally outside.

"peachy...thank you"

I looked at the ground kicking the dirt "can we talk?" Looking up I nodded "I'm sorry, I'm sorry I was so late I promise I went to the café, just with my work-"

"jax you don't have to explain"

"no for some reason I feel like I have to towards you, I want a chance to get to know you darling" I cringed "what?" He laughed

"I feel like you call every girl darling"

"okay...okay...okay" jax came closer his chest inches away from mine, causing me to look up at him "Babe let me get to know you?" it wasn't much better.

"why?"

"why not?" He shrugged "come on take my hand" rolling my eyes I took his hand and couldn't help but anotice his knuckles bleeding, jax jumped on his bike passing me his helmet "Come on babe"

Taking the helmet I jumped on the bike wrapping my arms around jax "you know you can just call me lily, I'd respect that more" I whispered in his ear.

Jax started the bike "hold on Lillian" jax began to move the engine reeved making me remember when I rode with dad or when I rode my dirt bike. It didn't take long before we were parked in the lot music blasting, bodies outside smoking.

"let me help" taking his hand again I let him help me off the bike, he didn't let go as he lead me towards the club house, I noticed he had intertwined our fingers, my eyes found Brittney and Julian straight away laughing. Girls walking around with next to nothing on.

Jax grabbed two beers passing me one "getting to know each other" rolling my eyes smirking, clinging bottles with him "come on puzzle" he twirled me around, laughing I shook my head as he lead me over to the pool tables "I get a ball in you answer honestly and vice versa"

"okay" I nodding sipping my beer as he raked up.

i watched him break watching two balls go in "so much for ladies first" jax winked as he continued to take shots "alright give me a turn" jax shot the ball but missed.

"5 questions, okay" he smirked rubbing his hands together as he came closer to me "how many boyfriends have you had?"

"one"

"favourite colour?"

"really? Blue"

"leaving the army hard?"

"ah it's been hard adjustment, use to clock work, working in war zones. It's hard for me to sleep sometimes" I shrugged "This is a slow pace adjustment but I'm liking it"

"Julian said you're extremely smart that true?"

"um yeah been a doctor since I was 18, surgeon since I was 20… specialise in cardiothoracic and trauma"

"jeez girl hot and smart" he winked

"last question" I pointed my bottle before taking a sip.

"do you want to get to know me?" He asked leaning on his pool stick looking at me like a puppy

"annoyingly yes"

Jax smirked coming up to me he grabbed my hand "your turn lily"

"hey Jax" blonde girl came up to him stopping us.

"Ah hey ima"

"want to go play?" She asked seductively

"no darling" automatically my hand left his, he turned to me with a questioning look, as I walked over to the table. Taking the shot I sunk a ball.

Thank

I couldn't help but laugh, jax turned to me smirking "no Ima"

"what you fucking laughing at slut?"

"go play" laughing "how old are you?"

"Listen newbie I've been sucking his cock for a long time" ima hissed "so watch yourself, Quick as you walked in will be as quick as I kick you out"

Jax POV

Watched as Lillian laughed continuing to sink pool balls "Ima fuck off" I signed sipping my beer.

"four" Lillian winked at me not really interesting in Ima.

"I'm talking to you" Ima was now in front of Lillian standing up Lillian put her hand up to me, licking my lips I sat back down I didn't want Lillian to get hurt not that I think Ima would win.

I heard the slap, Lillian didn't fault though she stood staring at her like she expected this reaction. I watched her bring her bottle to her mouth making eye contact with Ima as she finished it. The clubhouse was now quiet.

"you better watch yourself?" Ima screamed in Lillian face towering over her "midget looking piece of shit "

"whore get the fuck out of here" Piney snapped beside me "jax if that's look anything like her fathers we might um-"

"Ima right?" She asked

"yeah bitch"

"Did you just hit me?" Her voice sent chills down my spine.

"I did do you need another lesson slut"

"yeah I think I might" she stepped into Ima space watching Ima back down a little.

"Jax fuck grab her...LILLIAN" I could hear Julian but I couldn't move my eyes from Lillian, she looked so hot right now, my dick was twitching.

"Lillian hey lets walk away" Julian came up to Lillian.

"let them fight" Tigs yelled

"hit the bitch" Chibs yelled

"one" Lillian asked to no one in particular

"lily" Julian signed next to me, I frowned

"one"

"fuck okay one" second Julian agreed Lillian hand went back, I heard the crunch of Ima nose as Ima fell to the ground. getting up I wrapped Lillian up dragging her away, once outside I watched her roll her eyes.

"want it" offering my beer she took it drinking the bottle "show me your hand" she lifted her hand and I examined it, slightly bruised "you okay?"

"peachy" beginning to figure out peachy was sarcastic for not okay but get out of my face.

"lily-" Julian was mad when he stormed out.

"she didn't start it prospect so back off" I snapped

"alright Julian I'm in check"

"babe you broke that sluts nose" Brittney high 5 Lillian "bobby just kicked her out, so let's go drink…you coming losers it happened get over it and next time call me over front row seats"

"jax wait" Julian signed "my sister isn't a toy, she's not like other girls" raising an eyebrow I grabbed a smoke "what you seen is control but Fuck just she can be a loose cannon, when she snaps it's like blind rage...she hasn't done it in a while but it's there and it terrifies her"

Julian signed walking back inside. Smoking my cigarette my mind clicking over, finishing my cigarette I walked in to see her and Britt having fun downing shots with Piney and Chib. Taking seat on the couch "need a suck Jax?" Looking up at one of the crow eater.

"no thank you" she nodded walking away.

I didn't want to interrupt she did organise tonight to have fun with her friend, I couldn't help but admire her, that smile, that ability to take shots without cringing, signing I turned and began listen to some of the boys talk "Thought we were getting to know each other?" Turning my head I stared at her, her long brunette hair bouncing in waves, I just wanted to grip it as we fucked.

Holding out her hand I took it, she was a bit more intoxicated now, laughing I watched her stumble a little, wrapping my arms around her hip to steady her. She stopped at the wall of mug shots "so crazy this was once his stomping ground" she whispered "I miss him"

"I understand"

Lillian eyes found mine smiling softly "come outside" nodding we were outside, the cold night air having a slight bite to it tonight. Lillian Hugged her knees as she sat at the picnic table, her shitty cardigan doing nothing to keep her warm.

"four questions" she smiled "you owe me four"

"your cold" taking a seat next to her.

"you mad I hit your girlfriend" rolling my eyes began taking my kutte off, handing her my jumper "jax...you'll get cold"

"just have to snuggle up to you won't I?"

"Jax"

"put it on you stubborn girl...not mad I'm sorry, I should have intervened quicker and she's not my girlfriend we've fucked a few times but nothing serious"

"i asked you not too intervene, I respect you for listening to me"

"Julian told me you have a small anger problem?"

"ah yeah I don't like being grabbed or hit and I struggle to control it last person didn't end up pretty"

"Do you mind if I grab you?" I asked

She smirked cuddling into my side "strangely not at all" wrapping my arms around her "Who your best friend?"

"ah guy named Opie he's not here though"

"have you always wanted to patch In ?"

"Yeah school wasn't really my thing" I shrugged

"how many girlfriends?"

"two" she nodded snuggling into me, my hand rubbed up and down her arm. wasn't long before I felt her still, turning I could see her eyes closing "come on fighter you can catch some Zzz's"

"I'm not tired"

"you've just worked at 72 hour shift don't lie to me, come on" pulling her up I helped her up the stairs, opening my dorm room.

She stared at me, a small smile on her face. Leaning forward she kissed my cheek "thank you Jackson Teller"

Licking my lips "no problem Lillian" helping her in the bed I tucked her in watching her instantly go to sleep. Not feeling tired I decided to leave her to sleep the small snore coming from her.

Walking back down stairs "hey where my girl?" Brittney asked swaying.

"she's out"

"poor thing drank hard but 18 hour surgery and loosing that kid, does things to some people, she's literally the smartest surgeon I know"

"she lost a kid today?"

"yeah poor thing was in a car accident, rod straight through his chest, impaled, died on her table four times"

"fuck me"

"mmm she guarded, sweet but total badass they call her nazi at work" laughing at people being afraid of 5'4 Lillian made me laugh.

"hey room up the stairs fourth room on the left if you want it go crash with her" I offered my room up instead of doing what I wanted and that was to dive in bed with Lillian and cuddle up and hopefully wake up to fucking. Man can dream.

"you like her" Brittney smiled

"I do"

"hmm okay I'm off to go cuddle your girl" she laughed walking up the stairs "And you get points from me for being a gentleman sure to put in a few good words" she winked as she ran up the stairs.