Lillian POV
"she's on a rampage watch out" turning I looked at my interns "she screamed at me in surgery for having an itchy nose" That wasn't why I screamed at her.
"She yelled at me last week for questioning her decision" shaking my head
"she didn't yell at you two get over yourselves, you got yelled at because you moved when everyone was told to stay still, and you got yelled at because you offered a high risk surgery on someone with no knowledge of it working" Jane snapped.
Heading towards the interns "Jane you're on my service today" I smiled at her "maybe today she'll put you two on scut work" I winked at Jane as I went pass the girls, watching the colour leave their faces, I felt something hot touch my arm turning it was Brittney "thank you"
"Be gone girls" I watched them scurry away like ants in rain, shaking my head "you have been grouchy lately"
"it's stupid" I signed
"I'll be the judge of that"
"I've never dated, I don't know what I'm doing and I began letting him in and he has a wife and kid on the way...well ex-wife"
"Lillian I don't know what you went through, I don't know what you have endured but I know this, I know you're strong, smart and god dam beautiful person... the word is Ex Lillian, don't push away a good thing"
"what if it's a bad thing?"
"But what if it's a beautiful thing? I've seen you two together, just try see what happens" she shrugged "Just try"
Signing I pulled out my phone no messages, I left the ball in his court 3 days ago... still nothing. Rubbing my face I reached and grabbed the clipboard going over to the bed awaiting me.
"Hi I'm doctor Williamson what brought you here today?" I asked looking up from my clipboard "Wendy you okay?"
"Lillian shit um yeah I fell at work they made me come in" nodding I did a few examines "sorry about the other day" raising an eyebrow "I shouldn't have said Mrs Teller, I was out of line"
"it's fine everything seems to be okay, heartbeats are strong I'm going to call for OB to check you out though get an ultrasound done, will also get that elbow stitched up" smiling I signed a few pieces of paper "should I call Jax?"
"No it's fine" nodding I walked away.
I wanted to tell Jax but I knew I would get in trouble. Pulling up a chair to Wendy I began stitching away not knowing how long OB was going to be. Usually I would hand this over to my interns but I felt obligated to Wendy.
"alright you're all stitched up, OB is on its way?"
"thank you"
Smiling "you're welcome, Wendy if you need anything" tearing off the paper I wrote my number down "call me and I mean anything, not easy raising kids On your own"
"you have kids?"
Shaking my head no "I've been raising my siblings since I was 10 years old, so I understand how hard it is, so if you need anything at all don't be afraid to call"
"thank you, Jax rang yesterday, told me he wants to be in Abel life" she nodded
Smiling "good, alright I'm off, be more careful"
Walking to the nurse station I stopped when I saw the girls, eyeing them they looked in tac "why aren't use at school?"
"it's 4pm Lillian" Alexis shook her head making me check my watch.
"We wanted to inform you that Grams and Gramps want the house to themselves" Addy cringed
"so we came her to ask if we can stay at Rachael house, her parents said it's okay, no party and this is the number to call them on as well as the address" Alexis passed a piece of paper.
"guess I'll be staying at the studio" I laughed
"yeah Julian staying at the club house" Addy added
"okay fine but no sneaking out, town too small" girls laughed giving me a quick kiss on the cheek and a bunch of thanks you as they walked away.
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I was tired when my shift ended surprised I made it home without returning to the ER. Walking up the stairs I could see the lights on and the sound of clanging. Frowning I grabbed my keys opening the door.
Grabbing the bat near the front door I slowly crept inside "fuck me" Turning the corner, my shoulders dropping.
"really? Jackson I could have hurt you" signing I threw the bat in the corner "what you doing here?"
"struggling to cook you dinner" He laughed "you said ball in my court and Julian informed me you were staying here he gave me the key"
"Jax it smells burnt" I frowned throwing my handbag on the counter.
"well yeah why I started again this time it seems to be going well" walking over I looked at the pot, grabbing a spoon I twirled the sauce, tasting the food I almost chocked "that bad?"
"you need lessons, how about I order food instead?"
"yeah" signing I picked up the phone dialing the Chinese food. I ordered food excusing myself to shower and change quickly. My mind was a rush as I tried to figure out what was going on. I couldn't help but hear Brittney voice.
Stepping out of my room I seen Jax at the door, the smell of Chinese food sweeping through the studio. Walking to the table that Jax set up it was quite romantic which looking at him I didn't believe he could be.
"where your Kutte?" I asked as he sat down
"ah on the lounge I thought you would appreciate a nicer attempt" he pointed to his plain white short-sleeve shirt, I couldn't help but start to laugh "finally a laugh" he smirked "now what's so funny?"
"that wasn't an attempt in clothes change Jax"
"hey I tired"
"Mmm" I nodded
Jax plated some food sitting down, we began eating stealing glances at each other "okay all honesty on the table, I am officially divorced, paper signed yesterday and approved by a judge, I didn't want to call you until that was done I know you took a step back from me when you heard it"
"I'm sorry I shouldn't have-"
"it's fine you were protecting yourself I get it" he cut me off "I do have a son on the way and he will be in my life not asking you to be a mum, but I would like to get to know you more but my son isn't leaving so if that's a deal breaker for you"
"it's not" I looked at him my green eyes searching his blue "But if it's all honesty on the table I've never had this, never done this type of thing, you make me feel things that I've never felt and it scares me but I'm willing to try if you're"
"I am"
"that means no one else Jax I don't play games"
Jax smiled "I haven't wanted anyone else since I first laid eye on you"
Coughing on my food "smooth" I spat out
I felt food hit me "so how was your day?"
"it was alright, didn't lose anyone which is good...I may have yelled at a few interns"
"I may have yelled at half sac and Julian"
I frowned "why you yell at Julian for?"
"ah protective sister, technically I was mad at you so I took it out on him"
"mad at me?"
"for pushing me away what's your excuse"
pressing my lips together "I was mad at you hadn't called me so I made interns do scut work" I shrugged "they call me the Nazi at work" I rolled my eyes.
"did you always want to be a doctor?" Jax asked
"no I wanted to be a Motor cross rider, I was going good but it came to a halt when my dad died, I sold my bike began working taking care of girls and Julian riding just wasn't fun anymore" I shrugged.
"have you ridden since?"
"I started riding again When I was 16 as an outlet, but never entered comps. I can tear up a dirt track pretty well but I try not to do it with the twins around"
"Julian said they ride, few comps they're pretty good?"
"those Rev heads are amazing coached them myself" I winked
"tooting your own horn"
I shrugged "someone has too"
"okay so I have a question, that has been bugging me like crazy...boyfriend you said you had one?" choking on my food
"yeah"
"what was he like? Do I need to bash him?"
shaking my head no "it was you Jax, My grandpa told me a story of when we were little I walked in holding your hand and told my dad we were together and getting married" I nodded laughing. jax nodded laughing along "but other than when we were 3 years old no I haven't dated, I don't know how to do things, I'm blunt and rude, blocked off-"
Jax hand came over the table grabbing mine "you haven't been to me" making me stop my rant.
conversation flowed, Jax cleaned up making me sit on the kitchen bench swinging my legs as he washed my burnt pots. I couldn't help but realise how close he had to be, the constant touching was sending chills up my spine and tingles throughout my body, never had this before.
my eyes scanned his bare arms, I recognised the name on the tomb tattoo and my heart fell it was his father. I couldn't help but think of my tattoo for my father, shaking that thought quickly "did you want to watch a movie?" I asked looking up from the ground.
"yeah" his smile was so devilish "I would love that"
Jax held his hand out smiling I took it letting him drag me to the lounge room, Jax sat pulling me into his side, putting on a movie I didn't care about, his fingers running up and down my arm making my eyes heavy "hey come on no sleeping"
looking up at him "sorry just feels so good"
" does it" he wiggled his eyebrows "lay down on the other end" I was about to protest "you won't regret it" frowning I signed moving against the lounge he grabbed my leg throwing my slippers off and began massaging my feet "hows that?"
"mmmm" I moaned
"how that?" Looking up at him.
closing my eyes as his thumb ran up the middle of my sole "oh my god your hands are amazing" I signed
"happy to show you more" opening my eyes he was smirking at me, shaking my head "watch the movie" turning my head to this action movie I wasn't really paying attention as his fingertips massaged my tired, sore feet. His hand ran up to my ankle feeling the scare, turning I looked at him his eyebrow raised "ah boot got stuck in a bear trap, broke my ankle and 74 stitches that I gave to myself, why they're backwards"
Jax frowned lifting my pants a little to see the scar "looks normal" he shrugged "I didn't know you had a tattoo"
"ah actually I have many, whole right leg, ribs, whole left arm, and back piece" Jax raised an eyebrow at me shocked "I'm a puzzle" I shrugged.
"indeed" Jax mumbled going back to massaging my feet, putting bit of pressure on a pressure point, tingles ran up and down my spine. I couldn't help but let another moan slip my lips.
"oh god Lillian please don't make that sound, not unless-" pulling my feet out of his grasp he frowned "Lillian I'm joking babe, whatever pace you want" pressing my lips together "Lillian please don't push me away"
laying back down I put my foot back in his lap, he began massaging my foot nothing being said for a while. Signing I sat up time finally eating at the silence "I'm sorry"
Jax signed "I know you're a puzzle Lillian, I know I'm not entitled to know everything but-"
I signed leaning back covering my face with my hand "I've never um never been with anyone-", I could feel my face burning out of embarrassment. Cutting myself off I hid behind my hands. I felt the lounge move, great he was leaving, signing I felt a hand on mine, Jax pulled my fingers away from my face now leaning over me.
he smirked leaning down he kissed my lips softly, pulling back "doesn't change a thing Lillian" his eyes were so serious, he bent down again taking my lips in his but this time I was kissing him back. Tingles glittered over my body as he slowly put some of his weight on me.
"This okay?" he asked pulling back
"yeah it's okay"
Jax smirked leaning down his lips touched mine with more intensity, at first I had no idea what I was doing, his lip slid against mine asking for silent permission, smiling his tongue touched mine. My mind was exploding as his hand tangled in my hair. I could feel how hard he was but my nerves wouldn't let me step to far.
"I need to stop kissing you" he mumbled into my neck "because if I don't I don't know if I'll be able to stop" he whined sitting up "look at you oh my god Lillian" Jax sat up readjusting himself.
"sorry" I mumbled sitting up as well.
Jax looked at me gripping my chin his lips found mine this time a lot softer than before "don't you dare ever be sorry, it's a compliment to you babe, you do things to me but don't get upset you're not ready it's okay, I'm alright with making out" he wiggled his eyebrows, that cheeky grin gracing his face.
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