"ah make it stop" smirking I looked at Jax as he slept in my bed, we fell asleep watching a movie but I enjoyed the cuddles until I woke up and felt the wave of panic come over me "Why are you up?" Jax mumbled with one eye open "and all sweaty"
"go back to sleep" turning my alarm off I headed to the shower washing my run off. I hated that I was still so panicked. I hated him for making me this way.
Smell of liquor crept in with the light. Lillian scrunched her fist taking a deep breath trying to call her heart.
"Hey baby" his voice was dirty and clumsy. Lillian clenched her jaw shut as the bed squeaked "I've missed you all day" his fingers touched Lillian Cheek making her cringe.
"Be a good girl for daddy okay"
"Not my father" Lillian hissed not being able to contain her anger. Her green eyes flashed open showing her fury instantly.
"There's my firecracker" he laughed standing up and undoing his jeans.
Shaking my head from that memory. Washing quickly I slipped out getting dressed I quickly tip toe to the kitchen and began cooking "is that coffee" I felt his beard on my neck, his hands on my hips "you're too good to me"
Jax isn't him, Jax isn't him, I repeated over and over again in my head "maybe you should ask your mum for cooking lessons and return the favour"
"maybe...why were you up so early" Jax chin rested on my shoulder
"always up this early, went for a run" Jax made a disgust sound, raising an eyebrow I turned in his arms now trapped between his arms "you don't exercise"
"not since I laid eyes on you" he winked
Pushing him back "sit down before I don't feed you" Jax hands went up in surrender walking back to the table. Passing him a coffee cup he began sipping away.
"thank you"
"you're welcome" I smiled passing him a plate of food.
Taking a seat we began to eat together stealing glances at each other "working today?"
"ah yeah at the café, covering the girls shift so they can go to their comp" I nodded "what about you?"
"just club stuff"
"well I won't be here tonight going to go see the girls and grams, hang out"
"ditching me already" Jax pouted
"yep" I popped the p "over ya"
"you haven't had me yet" my eyes widen as my cheeks began to burn "it's cute I can make you blush"
"that's it you starve" leaning forward I went to take the plate but Jax beat me protecting his food.
"never mess with a man and his food"
Scoffing "okay cave man"
Jax chewed with his mouth open, rolling my eyes I enjoyed the banter we had, I enjoyed the bubble we were in "so have I been forgiven?"
"yeah alright"
Jax phone rang "and so the real world calls" he signed answering his phone. Finishing my food and noticing Jax empty plate, I quickly cleaned them.
"okay on my way" turning Jax was right behind me blocking me against the kitchen bench again "I have to go darling" scrunching my nose "Lillian I have to go"
"better"
Jax shook his head "can I kiss you?" Nodding Jax leant forward kissing me softly at first but it quickly got heated and I didn't stop it nor did I want to, his kisses were intoxicating. Jax gripped my waist lifting me up until I was sitting on the bench pressing himself between my legs "now I can reach you shorty" before I could mutter a world his lips were on mine again.
My hand found his neck pulling him closer as our tongues danced together. Pulling back for air my whole body felt like it was on fire and Jax eyes were filled with lust, both breathing heavily.
"fuck Lillian" he signed stepping away "I'll wait but fuck when you kiss me like that babe" he shook his head leaning forward our foreheads touching "you're doing things to me babe"
"likewise"
He smiled "I got to go" he let out a shaky breath
Grabbing his shirt I licked my lips looking up at him, burning sensation within me, something I've never felt "yeah you better" slowing my breathing my hand airing his shirt. I know I wanted him and really shouldn't be scared but I was.
"I'll call you"
"okay"
"have a good day" Jax leaned forward kissing me softly
"be safe" I called out. Jax winked before leaving me alone in the studio.
...
Walking downstairs I couldn't help but be in a good mood. Elizabeth was working with me today she's as dumb as a door knob but today I didn't care. Walking over to the juke box I switched a song on and we both danced "you and Jax huh?" She wiggles her eyebrows at me.
"we're just talking" I shrugged
"wait use haven't-"
"no" shaking my head no
"well he must really like you, not like Jackson teller not to sleep with a girl"
"have you?"
"oh no just heard from reputation" she shrugged "but then again it's hear say so ignore me" she smiled twirling around.
"Hi get us a coffee" nodding I stared at the man, he wasn't a little man his arms were like the size of my head but he was on edge, his legs bouncing under the table.
Pouring him some coffee I watched his fingers dance on the table. He was nervous and angry. Walking away I served a few people "Elizabeth go to the back and lock the door, take your phone with you" I whispered. She eyed me and the guy, her eyes growing scared as her hand shook nervously "go now, whatever happens don't come out until I tell you" pushing her away she scurried to the kitchen, the sound of the door locking behind her.
"another coffee sir?" I felt it before I could see it, I could taste blood dripping into my mouth, blinking a few times trying to break away my blurriness, finally gaining vision I stood up to see a gun in my face. My eyebrow stinging as blood poured down my face, I could feel the bruising and swelling already forming in my eyes.
"you don't have to do this"
Again the whip felt my presence this time to my jaw "all your money now" the sound of the safety being turned off made my feet move, walking over to the register he kept twitching, looking out the window. Opening the register I began putting money in the bag "hurry up bitch"
I watched him fling the gun around aimlessly, I could tell he had never fired it before, his stance was all wrong, he wasn't in this world. the gun pressed to the back of my head "you know I haven't had a fuck in a long time" he whispered in my ear "think you'll do"
My jaw clenched hard together "turn around" turning slowly around his hand gripped my shirt ripping it open. Anger boiled within me. As his eyes went up and down my body "fit body, with a few scars and tattoos" he made me feel disgusted when he licked his lips.
Frowning I lifted my foot slamming it into his chest watching himself tumble backwards, sound of coughing echoing the café. Charging forward I knocked the gun out of his hand, pressing forward until he landed on his ass.
My elbow found his face over and over again until he finally grabbed my arms throwing me off his body, coughing I sat up my shoulder popped out. Jaw clenched together I fumbled to find my feet as my arm hung limp.
"bitch" he swung his leg contacting with my ribs, the sound of cracking heard. My head hitting the cement ground. Letting out a scream of agony i got to my feet black spots caught my vision. Anger boiled within me like no other.
clenching my right fist, I let loose colliding it with his nose, using my forward movement as leverage I knocked him back on his feet my arm around his neck as I squeezed hard, his nails digging into my arm. As my body tighten around his back my arm tighten around his neck.
When he finally passed out I stood up breathing heavy my body in agony struggling to stand up, his eyes snapped open and my foot connected with his face completely knocking him out.
Stepping forward my good hand on my ribs, I bent down grabbing the gun. Placing the safety on. Staring at his unconscious body "are you okay?" Elizabeth stumbled out "I called 911"
"lock the door, close sign up. Going to go to the bathroom if he wakes shoot him" passing her the gun I went to the bathroom my heart racing rapidly.
"shit" I mumbled staring at the girl in front of the mirror, my eye was swollen and already turning a nasty black purplish colour. My eyebrow was bleeding. My lip cut open and Swollen. I stared at My body flinching "FUCK" my fist collided with the mirror.
Signing I slipped to the floor leaning against the wall. Pain radiating through me, pulsing almost. Feeling extremely dizzy, I squeezed my eyes shut, trying to gain some control.
Knock on the door made my head snap "just me lily" breathing deeply I stumbled to stand as I opened the door and let Elizabeth in "Unser here" nodding I came out to see the man being looked at by the paramedic "his out cold" the paramedic signed "Breathing really irregular, his face is pretty busted up. Nose, cheek bone and eye socket definitely broken"
Folding my arms biting away my pain, I stared down at this man, I could tell he was trouble since second he walked in, my head was pounding "lily you there" snapping out of my own mind I stared at Elizabeth "I called Julian his on his way, but Chief talking to you" turning to him I raised an eyebrow.
the paramedic was now looking at me their eyes widen "ma'am you okay?" Nodding they went back to the guy, one peeling off to check me out "how about I come to the hospital?" Chief asked "Get your statement" nodding my head the door chime went off snapping my head it was Julian and Chibs.
"what the fuck happened? You okay?" Julian asked spitting questions as fast as he could think it, but my eyes fell to the man, watching them perform CPR, watching them try everything "Lillian"
Pushing off the table I leant against. Stumbling over to the man who had tried to rob me, who had hurt me. Julian grubbed my arm but I brushed him off. Grabbing a pair of gloves I opened his mouth sticking my finger down his throat, once I felt it I pulled it right out "nose cartridge was blocking his airways" I spoke "do compression now" when gasp of air was heard I stood up distancing myself from this insane person.
The man was staring at me my eyes didn't fault from his as he was dragged away "you'll need to get it checked out, did you want a lift?" Shaking my head no They nodded leaving me "stupid cunt" I mumbled under my breath as I turned all eyes wide staring back at me "what?"
"He hit you, almost raped you and you still saved him" Elizabeth shook her head "I don't think I could do that"
"He almost what" Chibs spat angrily
"god dam angel, excuse me I'm going to-"
"get in Unser car and get a fucking lift to the hospital and get checked out, that's what you're going to do Lillian Abigail Williamson" Julian hissed angrily.
Julian blue eyes glared at me angrily, leveling me, testing me to tell him no. Signing I nodded Julian took his shirt off handing it to me. Taking a deep breath I took the rest of my long sleeve white shirt off and put his t-shirt on. His hand gripped my Good shoulder as he helped me to Unser car "Meet you there" flipping Julian the bird he rolled his eyes.
"Probably should call Jackie boy" Chibs said before the door was closed. Signing I let Unser drive me away, my head pounding hard against it refinements. Rolling my shoulder I cracked my neck "you saved him?" Turning to Unser.
"I'm a doctor" I shrugged
"Also Army vet" Unser stated "your gramps and I are really good friends" he smiled kindly at me
"mmm" I mumbled
The conversation ended which I was grateful for. Biting the inside of my gums it wasn't long before I was being helped out of the car.
...
"Can't she have anything?" Chibs asked flinching as the Needle went in and out of my eyebrow.
"she's allergic to Lidocaine, and refused pain medication" the intern instructed chibs.
"and she will fire your ass if you discuss my medical request again" I turned to her begging her to test me.
"sorry doctor Williamson"
Closing my eyes "doctor Williamson you got to stay awake" my eyes opened anger boiled within me.
"you're stabbing into an open wound over and over again, I'm not sleeping I am closing my eyes trying to make sure you stitch an even line and so I can manage my pain, if that's not okay with you get me a doctor that knows what they're doing-"
I felt a hand on my shoulder, like muscle memory my hand grabbed whoever and twisting it back, turning my eyes widen "ah Lilly" dropping his hand straight away.
"Jackie boy you okay?" Chibs asked
Jax frowned staring at me "you okay?" Removing my eyes I looked my intern straight in the eyes watching her waiver Under my glare "Lillian?"
"fine you didn't need to come" I signed
"as if I wouldn't Lillian...what happened?"
"Junkie juice head tried to Rob the shop. Got Lillian off guard" Julian said through gritted teeth.
"Badass though took the 360 pound piece of shit to the ground and made him pay" Chibs nodded "caved in his nose"
Looking at chibs he wore a smile on his face, like he was a proud father. Turning back to the intern she let out a shaky breath as she began stitching again.
JAX POV
When I got the phone call I never moved fast enough, the ride over I was in a panic. This girl had affected me like no other. Running into the ER she wasn't hard to find with Chibs and Julian surrounding her.
My hand hurt from her twisting it. Her eyes were angry as she stared dead in the intern eyes. I could tell she was uncomfortable, never seen her look so mean ever it scared me and turned me on. Jesus Jax she's in the hospital.
"alright ready to pop this back In" a new doctor came in. Lillian nodded her eyes remaining closed. She refused to make eye contact. The doctor began moving around before loud popping sound. Cringing I moved forward looking over her.
"holy fuck las" Chibs cringed next to me "fuck me what is your pain tolerance"
"he broke your ribs so going to need to bandage that up" inhaling Lillian nodded as the doctor sat her up and lifted her shirt "can you lift her shirt" moving forward i held her shirt. My eyes glancing over her tattoos and scars.
"Jax um mind stepping out" Julian voice was filled with concern.
"Lily?"
Her jaw tighten "It's fine" her voice was rough and sore.
Julian phone rang excusing himself "Jesus las" Chibs cringed "one tough las"
Chuckling "that she is...you can go Chibs I got it from here"
Chibs nodded standing up "see you at the bar next week, we drinking doc" he elbowed Lillian softly. Finally her lip twitched "Ah a smile for me" Chibs smacked my shoulder.
My eyes looked at all the art work on her and every scar. My mind raced with questions. Once bandaged she laid back down not muttering a word as she stared at the ceiling.
leaning forward, my elbows on my knees, my hands under my chin "okay doctor Williamson all done, shoulder going to be in some pain so keep it in the sling, four ribs are broken, Jaw good just severely bruised, CT scan came back good you have a slight concussion so you'll need to stay up for-"
"discharge papers please" She was defeated, completely drained. No longer holding her frown. Julian came back into the room concern in his eyes
"I'm going back to the studio I don't want the twins to see me like this not yet"
"alright I'll come keep an eye on you" Lillian shook her head no "lily"
"you have your date tonight, Brittney been Talking about it all week. It's fine honestly I'm okay" she squeezed his hand the way she comforts Julian shook me "promise me you will be present on your date and don't ruin it I like her" she smiled softly.
"who going to watch you?"
"I can" Jax nodded "I'll do it"
"you two are getting close" Julian stated.
Lillian shrugged "that so bad"
Julian shrugged "I can see I'm not wanted" kissing her forehead "I love you and you're some type of superwomen but if you ever give me a heart attack like that again I'll whack ya"
Lillian scoffed "whack me please" shaking her head "you're a fool go away...love you too"
"I got my bike you're going to need a car" Lillian shook her head no "lily" she reached her hand out squeezing it tightly. Exhaling the papers finally came helping Lillian off the bed we walked slowly outside and onto my bike. Strapping The helmet on her head she winched in pain "you hold on with dear life and if you start to get in pain let me know will stop immediately"
"okay" she hissed in pain.
Nodding I jumped on starting my bike, putting her hand on my waist she gripped my shirt unable to use her other arm as it sat in a sling. Driving slowly afraid she would fall off.
Finally arriving I watched her struggle off the bike refusing help. Walking up the back stairs we entered the studio and silence still fell around us "do you want to talk about it?"
She turned to me her eyes connecting with mine she shook her head no "I don't want to talk about this Jax" her voice rough and sore.
"did you want me to leave I can call Julian or Brittney-"
She gripped my hand and began stumbling to bed, following her into the room. She softly laid herself on her side of the bed, taking my shirt and jeans off and slid into bed next to her grabbing the TV remote knowing full well Lillian doesn't sleep without background sounds.
"Wait you're not allowed to sleep right?" I raised an eyebrow at her
"No not for at least 3 hours"
"So do you want to talk about it?" I stared "I can go smother him with a pillow is you want"
She smirked wincing as she did "No I don't want to talk about it how about you tell me about Abel"
"You remembered his name" I smirked
"Of course I did"
"His good getting bigger, still checking out if he has the family heart issue but won't know fully until he is here" I nodded.
"Heart condition?"
"Yeah mum had surgery survived sadly my brother Thomas didn't make it"
Lillian hand reached for mine rubbing circles. Fuck Jax your meant to be comforting her not the other way around. Moving closer throwing the blanket over her poor bruised broken body "Well I can't wait to meet the little guy"
Smiling "I'd like that Darling" She pulled a face making me roll my eyes "You're the only one I call Darling" A big burst of laughter echoed through the room "Hey"
"Sorry just it flows so naturally off your tongue I don't believe it"
"Listen here Babe" I spat the Babe out to make a point "You be quiet cuddle me and watch this trashy movie"
"Okay"
After 3 movies Lillian was struggling to stay awake her eyes closing and opening, she was apologising. Signing I laid down making her