Woke up in pure agony, my head was pounding, my body arching. Untangling myself from Jax "lily...Lillian what you doing? What you need I'll grab it" he mumbled sitting up in bed rubbing his sleep away.

"I need to wee you can't help with that" patting his shoulder as I walked pass wincing in pain. Using the bathroom quickly my eyes scanning my watch.

Peeking out Jax looked to be asleep again, relaxing I slid out of my pants and shirt and tried to walk softly to my draws pulling out some sleepwear "Holy fucking shit that asshole could kick" i hissed under my breath, as I clenched my draws with both hands, breathing in deeply.

The light flicked on causing me to squint, turning on my heels Jax eyes was running up and down my body. He licked his lips standing up he walked over, my heart began pounding hard.

His hand gripped my shirt "You Lillian are a stubborn mule" he signed taking it from my hands as he let out a yawn.

"did you just call me a mule?" I frowned confused

Jax leaned forward kissing my lips softly "yes a beautiful one" he put my arms through softly putting my shirt on "step In" he bent down holding my pants open. Tingles went up my spin as his fingertips brushed my bare legs "Arm back in" rolling my eyes I put my arm back in the sling "See I'm helpful"

Smiling I leaned forward kissing him on the lips softly "Remind me to put a sticker on your chart" I joked Pulling back he was in shock rolling my eyes I kissed him again ignoring the pain I was feeling. Jax kissed me back, not with much force but enough to blur my mind.

"okay" Jax took a step back still keeping his arm on me to help me balance "as much as I would love to kiss you you're shaking in agony" his crystal blue eyes stared into mine. Dropping my eyes quickly I felt a pang of rejection. I didn't like the feeling what so ever

"you don't have to stay-"

"No stop that right now" His hand touched my chin lifting it softly "I'm not going anywhere, Trust me all I want to do is throw you on the bed and kiss you all over, but you're in pain and I hate it so get your stubborn ass back to bed" pressing my lips together I nodded letting him assist me into bed. Jax cuddled into me his hand running up and down my scar on my back "Can I ask?" He whispered into my hair.

"Stabbed in the back" I whispered "Jumped on my back and tried to sever my spinal cord" silence filled the room, looking up I could see him staring at me in shock and worry "Don't pity me I'm a survivor Jax all I ever done...all I know"

Jax signed "Why you have tattoos to cover the scars?"

"Yeah" I nodded

"This happen during deployment?" he asked searching my eyes for the answer.

"No when I was 15" I shrugged not wanting to get into it. Jax wasn't ready to hear that story. He wouldn't be able to handle it. God I struggle to handle it and it has been years. And I hate him for what he done to me.

"Tell by your face you're not ready to share"

"And that I'm starving and we should cook some food"

"okay how about you sit on the chair and instruct me?" Jax offered a silly grin on his face.

Pressing my lips together I nodded "Okay but listen you can't keep burning my pots"

"ha-ha-ha" Jax mocked offering me his hand I took it getting too my feet slowly. Biting the inside of my gums I walked out the to kitchen, Jax helping me sit down "okay what we cooking?"

"most easy thing in the world omelets"

"okay easy I got this" putting my hand up in surrender I watched Jax in my kitchen. My eyes on his muscular back, the reaper staring back at me.

"I have a reaper on me" I spoke. Jax turned around eyebrows raised as he mixed the eggs in the bowl.

"can I see it?" Nodding I stood up pulling my long sleeve shirt down exposing my reaper sitting on the back of my shoulder "see we're destined to be together" he winked.

"only got it because I've cheated death to many times and I know my time going to be up soon" shrugging "hopefully when I'm 100 asleep and happy" pulling my shirt back up he stared at me like I was puzzle he needed to figure out.

"no scar there" he stated

"yeah that one was just because" I smirked "got it on dads birthday in Mexico"

Jax nodded "can I ask you a question?" Nodding "why did you refuse pain meds?"

"I had a Serious addiction problem to pain meds when I was 12 until I was 16. i was feed them like candy, popped, numbed, injected" I shrugged "mum had access and she pumped them into me to the point I'd come obsessed to it, needed it just because, pain killer junkie, it was bad"

Jax bite his bottom lip nodding "your mum took a big hit when your dad die?"

"My mother a cunt" I spat out

Jax put his hand up in surrender "okay, okay" he turned around pouring the eggs into the pan with toppings. It was silent for a while I think I scared him off.

"grams rang when you were asleep, I told her you were okay and the girls said to text them when they can come see you" when I didn't reply Jax turned around. He came closer towards me small smile on his face. Leaning down his lips brushed mine softly and quickly "your mums a cunt" he winked.

I couldn't help but laugh "ouch" I signed feeling my whole face pulse in agony as I laughed.

"stop laughing you're going to hurt yourself" Jax signed

"it was funny and appreciated...now go save my pan before you burn it" Jax rolled his eyes going back over to the pan cooking away.

...

"Favourite place to eat?" I asked Jax as my foot sat in his lap as he massages my foot, god those fingers were magic.

"tossup between your house and mums" he nodded "I love good home cook meal"

"should try grams food that's better than mine" I admitted

"going to have to invite me over and introduce me to the twins"

"twins I don't think you could handle the Twins " I laughed

"alright my turn dogs or cats" pulling a face of disgust "what?" He scoffed a laugh.

"dogs all the way, more fun and just all around better" I nodded "definitely on my bucket list to buy myself a German Shepard puppy" I smiled large.

"put it on your Christmas list" he winked

"you better...alright Abel would you be mad if I meet him?"

"would you like to meet him" I shrugged and nodded "than yeah that's all fine and dandy with me darling...don't pull that face you're lucky you're in pain because if you weren't I would tickle you half to death"

"death by laughter sounds good" I joked

"Would you like to go on a proper date? With me?"

"here I was thinking these were dates" I smirked

"no I mean a date where I take you out and show you off" he winked

"okay when I'm healed up...fair warning never been on a date through"

"done deal" he smiled so large it meet his eyes "that doesn't bug me darling"