6 weeks later and I was back into the real world, no one helping me every two seconds of the day. I'm in my atmosphere my element, hands deep in someone chest pumping their heart with my hand "and there you go" I smiled as the transplant began pumping on its own accepting its new home.
"Jane well done today next surgery I have you will be taking lead" I smiled as I watched her eyes widen in shock "stitch him up and tell his family" she nodded as I left the surgery ward.
"I will be over at 4pm with many option of clothing we're the same size and height so what I got should help. No you don't get to reject me we're going to show Mr. hot VP Jax teller what doctor Lillian Williamson about" Brittney smiled "oh and you're going to tell me how to win over Grams on Sunday for Julian birthday"
"easy Peasy I got you" I winked "and um thank you"
Brittney squeezed my shoulder softly before leaving. Going back to the ER I began doing my rounds clearing out the ER. Trying to block these nerves I was feeling.
"Hey babe...where are you? Lillian?" I clenched my teeth as I tried to wash my hair in the sink covered head to toe in shampoo my eyes stinging from the chemicals "lily what are you doing?" The sound of his amused tone didn't make me smile "put your arm down" raising an eyebrow "let me help"
"Jax I'm not-"
Jax rolled his eyes walking away, signing I stared at myself in the mirror and I looked like hell. The pain evident on my face. The bruises still dark and hideous. Sleeping without Jax was hard but he had club stuff so I was happy he was finally back, but now I pissed him off.
"sit" turning Jax was holding one of the kitchen chairs, frowning confused I sat down and Jax began moving the chair until I was in front of the sink, turning the tap he picked up my hair placing it in the sink, his hands began massaging my scalp causing me to moan softly.
"girl you're the most stubborn girl I know you know that, I should have known better when Julian told me you told Britt to go home you were up to no good" he shook his head "you're a stubborn mule"
"comparing me to a donkey isn't nice Jackson"
"pretty donkey" my lips tingled as pressure touched them, my eyes snapped open, Jax pulled back and went back to washing my hair. His Grin not leaving his charming face.
"Thank you"
"Anytime Now please stop over working yourself you're injured. And I will barricade that door if you try and go for a run again"
My mouth open "snitches" I shook my head knowing full well Britt snitched to Julian and so forth.
"They're looking out for you"
"So much for loyalty" I shook my head "You know chibs let me do things"
"Chibs let you get drunk"
"It was fun though"
"What I'm no fun?" Jax asked
"Nope so serious"
Smiling at one of my favourite memories I went to deal with a kid with serious road rash. My eye on my watch and my body filled with nerves.
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"hey girls how was school?" I asked as I picked up the twins.
"Alexis punched a guy in the face" raising my eyebrow in the rear view mirror "it's acceptable" Addison declared.
"oh as long as it's acceptable" I shrugged sarcastically "why didn't I receive a phone call?" I questioned "and what happened?"
"They called but you were in surgery, they were talking shit about us saying they could take us down under, saying stupid shit Alexis finally snapped when he grabbed her ass and broke his nose"
Silence filled the car "you mad?" yeah that some little small dick turd thought he could touch my baby sister.
"no I'm proud"
"good first thing Monday you have a meeting with the principal, she is talking suspension and his parents are furious too" Addy shrugged.
"I'll handle it"
"so your date with Jax...you nervous? Excited?"
"both" I nodded
"his cute"
"his drop dead Gorgeous" Alexis corrected "way his been taking care of you the last 6 weeks that guy deserve a medal, plus the photos he takes of the two of you are hilarious"
Rolling my eyes I pulled up to grams seeing gramps and Julian get the bike off the ramp. Parking the car "homework is to be done first and you ask grams if she needs any help before you touch those bikes" I pointed watching them run inside.
"hey gramps" kissing his cheek "Jules" punching his shoulder softly.
"how you feeling?" Gramps asked
"good still sore but I'm good" I shrugged "do you need a hand with anything?"
"I've been informed to send you home to shower for quote hot date" Jules pulled a face
"getting serious?" Gramps asked
"that horrible?" I wondered.
"no" grams came from behind me "it's not, Julian and gramps are trying to put on their protective pants" she rolled her eyes "but I do hope you ignore them And have fun tonight"
"thanks grams"
"don't forget Sunday dinner here at 6pm and then 8pm you're the clubs problem" she laughed.
"alright I better go" kissing grams and gramps cheeks I backed up to the car.
"wait" turning around Julian ran up to me "I trust him okay but if he hurts you well-"
"thanks" I cut him off "I'm nervous never, never done this" Julian gripped my shoulders making me look him square in the eyes.
"if he fucks this up it's his loss. Yes you have a dark fucked up past but I'd like to think it made you stronger let him in if he can't handle it sucks to be him, but if he can handle it well seen the way his looked after you, the way he checks on you he cares" Jules shrugged.
"thanks Jules" I smiled
"love you sis"
"love you too"
Jumping in the car I drove away and back to the studio. Didn't take long until I was back and in the shower washing my hair and scrubbing my body, when I jumped out I wrapped the towel around myself and headed to the bedroom. My eyes caught the full length mirror. Pressing my lips together I let the towel drop staring at the body back at me.
I wasn't large, I wasn't thin. I was a good size. No fat on me just purely muscle. Pressing my lips together I knew every scar my body had, hard to see from far away the existing scars from under the tattoo. But if you look close enough you can see the dark large red scars, if you ran your hand over it you could feel it.
Removing me eyes from the mirror I placed my wet hair in a towel and put on a nice matching pair of lingerie not that I was taking my clothes off purely because never worn any.
The sound of the doorbell made me lift my head, checking my watch by the time I knew it was Brittney. Smirking I grabbed a dressing gown and headed to the door "good you showered" Brittney smiled dragging half her wardrobe into the house.
"hi to you too" I joked
"yeah, yeah, thinking we curl that beautiful hair into waves, light make up just to cover the blackness that's still there and then we choose your outfit. Now twins said to put you in a dress and Julian said to make sure you're comfortable and not to push you" she rolled her eyes. "But best friends are made for pushing boundaries"
"best friends?" I questioned
"your my person, bestie, Bffl, wifey...the list goes on we're glued as one now" she mocked making me laugh hard.
...
"Is Jax riding or driving?"
"I don't know"
"can you call him please" rolling my eyes I pulled out my phone ringing Jax.
"hey darlin, don't you dare be calling to cancel"
"no I'm being tortured right now...Brittney wants to know if you're riding or driving?"
"ah I'm not sure why?"
"why Britt?" Before I knew it she had my phone in her hand "outfits depend on what you're coming over in...yes no I can't make that work on a bike...yes I'm saying car, yeah, yeah VP bye" she smirked hanging up.
"so?"
"car here go try this on" she passes me a few outfits, rolling my eyes I got dressed not liking any of the outfits she made me try on, for some reason I was okay with Brittney seeing my scars probably because she never asked any questions she seen them but said nothing "okay his changed it to bike" she rolled her eyes "here this is the one and I'm going to pin your hair in a low bun"
"um okay" turning on my heels I tried on the black romper. I was self-conscious about how short it was and how exposed my legs felt in it but when I looked in the mirror I couldn't help but think I looked good. I felt protected with it being shorts and not a dress or a skirt. Mid length arm sleeves with a choker but a deep cleavage.
Biting my lip I walked out to hear Brittney wolf whistle clapping her hands aggressively "I've done it oh my fucking god look at you" she smiled admiring me "smile send pic to the twins" rolling my eyes I smiled and heard the click before she put it down "okay he will be here any minute"
"Britt"
"yeah"
"I've never-"
"had sex"
"No Britt-"
"don't worry about it be you and relax okay" She cut me off "Not about that use been seeing each other for 3 months now, just when you're ready okay" smirking I nodded "trust me you're worth the wait and if he doesn't want you well I'll ditch Jules and jump fence" laughing I shook my head. The sound of the doorbell made me stop laughing.
"go get your bag" Britt Nodded. Struggling to walk in these heels I went into my room hearing Britt and Jax speak taking one more look in the mirror, I let out a shaky breath before stepping out.
"you looking fucking amazing, fuck what are y'all trying to do to me" Jax signed biting his lips as his eyes drank me in.
"pain and suffer" Britt shrugged
"what I do to you?" Jax laughed
"nothing You just need to work for my girl" she winked "I will clean up you two get out and enjoy each other and I will see use both tomorrow at dinner...oh he brought flowers" turning my head they sat in a vase.
"thanks Britt"
"anytime hot stuff" she smacked my ass walking into the bedroom "Be nice Jackson or Redwood loses their VP" Britt called out from the bedroom. Smirking I stepped to Jax who was staring at me.
"fuck Darlin" He hummed taking my hand he spun me around. I watched him lick his lips "shall we" nodding he put me Infront of him pressing me to his body "Fuck me" he muttered in my ear, causing my neck to glistened with goosebumps.
Jax released me from his chest and helped me walk down the stairs "Thank you"
"Anytime Darlin" He winked, leading me outside to his bike I smirked when I saw two helmets
"you didn't?"
"I did" he smiled "now before you hop on I need you to know I expect nothing from you, Julian kind of gave me a talk which got him scrubbing the garage" he smirked "I didn't want you to think I'm pressuring you"
"Jax 3 months and you've been nothing but a gentleman, I trust you"
He smiled "alright hop on Darlin...Stop pulling that face"
Clipping the helmet I straddled the bike, Jax hopping on after starting it with ease. The vibration ran through me making me smile. Wrapping my hands around him I let him take us off nothing but the sound of the bike being heard and Jax rubbing my knee as we rode.
Pulling up to a place out of town I realised it was a nice restaurant. Raising an eyebrow Jax held my hand leading me inside I couldn't help but notice all the suites.
"sorry we're booked out tonight"
"reservation teller, for two" Jax nodded
Judgement glared at us, his lip turning in distaste. He let out a disapproving groan as his eyes darted to the paper "Ah yes my apologies here it is follow me" he wasn't sorry in the slightest. Taking our seats we both looked out of place.
"Like it?" Jax asked nervously
"it's nice" I nodded.
We were definitely the odd balls out, this place was fancy "sorry ma'am do you mind putting your jacket back on just some of your tattoos are graphic" raising an eyebrow I looked at my arm sleeve.
"sorry what" Jax hissed angrily
"like I said no offense-"
"but offense was given" I cut her off "I will not be covering it up, so how about you go back to the table with their nose in the air and tell them to avert their eyes to their own table" I snapped. I watched the waitress back away and time ticked by as my fingers drummed on the table aggressively "Excuse me one second I'll be back"
"You okay?"
"Peachy"
Jax scoffed "Lil-" Holding up my hand I walked outside, opening the bags on Jax bike i pulled out his Kutte, covering it with my jacket. Walking back inside.
"Thank you ma'am" The waitress smiled, smirking I walked over to Jax my eyes never leaving the waitress standing at our table "Jax you left something on the bike" pulling out his Kutte. I watched smile of amusement bless Jax face as he stood I put his Kutte over his arms and onto his shoulders, watching him crack his neck and roll his shoulders.
"That's better...You ready to order?" I asked sitting down.
The waitress signed looking at us "Sir going to have to ask you to remove the kutte it's a house policy" pressing my lips together I stared at this lady Jax and I making eye contact.
"want to ditch this dive?" I asked
"oh yeah" Jax nodded standing aggressively. His hand out reached to mine "This place is shit"
"we just don't think tattoos are appealing and you probably couldn't afford it" some lady spoke, my aggression bubbled to the surface instantly. Letting go of Jax hand I walked up to the table and crouching down next to her.
"I'm a chief surgeon of two specialties...People drive miles to just have me treat them, served my country for 7 years. You have sucked the cock of some rich man and he decided to marry you, I make more money than you'll ever dream of honey so don't disrespect me and my boyfriend because your life sucks" standing back up I walked back over to Jax who wore a giant smile as we walked out of the restaurant.
"that was hot" he smirked "now pub down the road I think it sells food"
"hot wings and burgers I'm sold" I smiled stepping back my hand grabbing his, the night air nipped at my skin.
"sorry the food Was meant to be amazing there" Jax signed "I wanted to take you somewhere nice, you deserved it you know"
"second we arrived we were judged Jax, both felt extremely uncomfortable" I shrugged "Jax I'm not that girl I hope you know that...I would prefer to walk with the outlaw than to hide away"
"Next time hooters" he laughed
"yeah" I nodded "less stuck up people"
Making it to the front door "After you" Jax held the door open "god you make it hard to be a gentleman when you look like that" turning around shocked my cheeks burning, mouth open "god stop okay walk your fine ass to that booth" he shook his head.
Laughing I found a booth and slide in Jax on the other side looking right up at me as he wiggled his eyebrows "More comfortable?"
"Yes" He smirked "Here you go" Jax passed me a Menu.
"see wings" I wiggled my eyebrows causing Jax to laugh it was the sweetest sound.
laughing I hid behind my menu and began reading it "Hello Sweet cakes how are you?" Raising an eyebrow I lowered my menu looking at the lady speaking , her eyes were glued on Jax.
"Sorry can we have a few more minutes" he smiled politely
"Sure be back soon" her eyes gave me quick evils
"Who your hoe?" I asked
"I don't know her" Jax laughed shrugging "Plus I'm only looking at you tonight" he winked
"Smooth"
"I'm trying to be" he laughed.
We both examined the Menu staring quick glances at each other and smiling. Pressing my lips together "I'm doing the burger" I decided loudly.
"Excuse me we're ready to order" I watched her nod swaying her hips aggressively, pulling a face I felt a small kick under the table turning to Jax he was laughing "Hi can we get two of the buttermilk chicken burgers with fries on the side and a shared wings"
"Anything for you sweetheart" she winked
Water came out of my nose "Here babe" Jax passed me a napkin
"Thank you"
"I'll be back with your order" If looks could kill I would be dead I couldn't contain it any longer and began laughing the evils looking over her shoulder directed at me.
"Your mean"
"Haters gonna hate" I shrugged "must be a full moon all the bitch waitress are out tonight" Jax smirked shaking his head.
"How you feeling? How was work today?" Jax asked changing the subject
"Work was good it felt good to be back, did a transplant, lost no one on the table today super proud" I nodded.
"Remind me to put a sticker on your chart"
"Ha-Ha" I mocked
"I'm going to get a beer did you want a drink" Shaking my head no "Lillian I'm riding you should have a drink"
"All good"
"Why not?"
"It's stupid"
"Try me" he leant forward
"I want to remember this night" I shrugged "I don't want alcohol to be the memory of this"
Jax smirked getting up kissing my forehead "You're adorable" he got up walking away to grab the drink just as the waitress came over with the food, slamming my plate down.
"Alright" I frowned
"Sorry ma'am" Frowning at the sauce on my lap, Jax came back holding two soft drinks.
"Everything okay?" Jax asked eyeing the both of us
"Peachy excuse me" Standing up I headed to the bathroom. Grabbing some paper towel and water I quickly dabbed it, hearing the door open I looked up to see the waitress "Oh sorry did i get you?"
"I know you did it on purpose" I shook my head
"His out of your league, just a quick fuck" She shrugged "Man like that is only after you for a few good minutes if that, give me a minute alone and you'll see he'd dump you"
"woah you live a sad life" Laughing I threw my paper towel out "Really sad life"
"More than happy to test the waters" she shrugged "And I could take you easily"
"Okay I'm going to go back to my dinner now" walking out, walking back to the table Jax hadn't had any "Don't wait for me"
"You okay?" He asked picking up his burger, blue eyes staring at me.
"Peachy" I nodded picking up my burger biting it.
Jax pulled a face nodding not pressing on the issue. We ate in silence, Jax finishing well before me his hand crossed on the table as he stared at me as I ate "You're being creepy"
"What happened? I know she went into the bathroom with you"
"Just said I was a quick fuck" I shrugged taking another bite. Jax signed glaring at the waitress as he leant back.
"Lillian-"
"Jax I'm a big girl" I stated.
I could feel Jax staring at me his eyes pleading with me to open up but I continue to eat in silence. Jax signed getting up storming over to the bar. Raising an eyebrow I watched him "Hey tell your little waitress here that if she comes near my Old lady again, say anything to her again I'm going to let her kick her ass and then I'm going to kick yours" he pointed to the boss who glared at the waitress.
Jax walked back towards me sway in his walk "Feel better?" I asked, Jax shrugged "Want to lose against me in pool?"
Jax stared at me tongue in cheek "Oh yeah" he laughed "Come on" Taking my hand he threw a few bills on the table taking me over to the empty tables. We began playing touching each other every second "You look amazing Lily" Jax whispered in my ear as I took my shot causing me to miss the ball.
Standing up I stared at him shaking my head, gob smacked "Cheater"
"Hate the game not the player" Rolling my eyes I handed him the cue watching him walk over to the other side. Smirking I leant down knowing full well Jax could see my cleavage.
"We should get out of here and get ice cream" I smiled watching Jax throw the stick down and stalk over to me picking me up. Laughter filled the air as he smacked my ass walking me out of the pub over his shoulder. Holding myself up for a second I stared at the waitress flipping her off.
Once outside Jax put me on my feet and grabbed my hand "Come on let me show you the second plan for the night" Nodding I followed him back to his bike. Buckling up he began to ride his hand once again rubbing my leg. Pulling up to a park with a hill. Jax grabbed a blanket he had on his bike and we went and laid down looking up at the stairs.
"Thank you" I whispered
"Thank you?"
"For being you" I whispered looking at the moon "Thank you for staying and helping me and sending Julian when you couldn't help me. Your making me feel things. I don't know what to do"
Jax leaned up looking down at me he lowered his lips pressing against mine "Thanks for rolling into this town, I now know why I choose you to be my first ever girlfriend at 4 years old" He smirked "Crazy to think we were each other first kisses"
"I like that bit the most too"
"so um before you said something back at the restaurant" I raised an eyebrow as his fingertips went up and down my arm stopping at a scar on the inside of my bicep "when you were abusing that lady you called me your boyfriend" I felt it instantly my checks began to burn my heart racing. Pressing my lips together "I'm okay with that, actually more than happy"
"We haven't even spoken about it I'm so sorry Jax I'm such an idiot"
"Lillian stop...I like you a lot and I want this to move forward and I know you're scared shitless but-" Jax phone rang cutting me off "shit sorry one second" he answered his phone "okay yeah alright thanks"
"our date ending?"
"club needs their VP" he shook his head
"totally understand" I nodded
"not mad?"
"no not at all"
Jax looked down at me before I knew it I was pressed back into the grass his lips tingling as he kissed me, my mind went blank but something within me burned with passion "fuck you look so hot" Jax moaned as our tongues danced together our bodies grinding together "okay fuck we gotta stop" Jax signed getting off me he stood up "fuck you look even better lying in the grass fuck Lillian here" taking his hand he pulled me up "fuck the club for ruining our date"
"Date wasn't ruin" leaning forward I kissed his cheek and headed off towards the bike "come on Chibs needs ya" I clapped my hand as I mounted the bike clicking my helmet, he stared at me massive smirk on his face, still standing where we were making out "come on hot stuff"
"death of me" Jax signed getting on the bike he squeezing my thigh "hold on babe" smirking I wrapped my hand around Jax waist I laughed when he began to speed off. When Jax dropped me off he walked me up the stairs to the front door, my hand jingled my keys "I had a real good night" his lips found mine as Jax pressed me up against the door his hand in my hair loosening it from it lower bun.
Finally coming up for air "I will see you tomorrow at 6pm for dinner and then you're mine"
Smirking "sounds good"
"alright I got to go"
"be safe" I grabbed his kutte airing it "oh and thanks for the flowers"
"you're welcome beautiful" he kissing me softly "death of me I gotta go"
"okay bye"
His lips found mine again giving the kiss that makes my mind blank "thank you for being so understanding and for looking hot as fuck tonight"
"you'll have to thank Britt for the look"
"I definitely will" he winked.
Apologies for any grammar issues. Written on my phone. Review for more