Isabelle's point of view, after dinner still at her place
I really like having Clary around, she somehow fit in with the group like she has always been around. Even my younger brother likes to have her around, he has talked to her all throughout dinner. Speaking about the dinner Clary made was really good, I can see that everyone is enjoying the food. Which have been a while since anyone around here would cook anything since my parents are always out on some business trip. Sure, some days when Jon is around, he has cooked for us, and like Clary he is also really good.
"don't worry about Alec he is harmless, the once you should worry about is Jace and Will. trust me you don't want to be around them for to long." Tessa said to Clary after dinner. We girls are sitting in the Livingroom, the boys walked outside. "I know that I just wished they would actually be interested in getting to know me, and not just like Jon's sister." Clary said. I guess they are discussing what happened after the food was eaten. "and you have at least two new friends here who you can talk to." I said. "thank you, why are you being so nice." Clary said. "it like this, we have always wanted to talk to you as I have always liked the fact that no one can pull you down. But I was afraid that you would never hang out with us, as we always hang out with the boys." Tessa said. and it's true I have always looked at Clary as a very brave girl who never let anyone put her down. "I was afraid that you would think I was to weird, like your friend say I am the freaky art girl. The one that is always hanging out in the art studio." Clary said. "I actually think it's cool that you are always yourself. And it's just Kaelie who says that. I have never thought that. and know I hope you want to be our friend and hang out with us more. Which we will do anyways as we still have a lot of questions left." I said. I wonder where Aline walked off to, she was here a couple of minutes ago. I guess she didn't like the fact that I wanted to get to know Clary a bit more. "I wish I could stay longer but like I told you earlier my mom has just come back from her vacation, and I really want to see her a bit more before she gets busy with work again." Clary said. "what do your mom do for a living." Tessa asked. "she is the owner of the art gallery in town." Clary said as she gathered her stuff. "we will see you at school tomorrow then." Tessa said. "and if you are not with us for lunch tomorrow, we will find you." I said. Clary smiled and hugged us both before she left.
"where did my sister go." Jon said as he and the rest of the boys walked back inside with Aline close behind them. Me and Tessa are still sitting on the couch. "she said she needed to go back home." Tessa said. "to bad, wish I could still hear her complain about her life" Aline said. "don't be mean, and you walked away instead of listening." I said. "but come on she is never going to be part of this group. She is a loser a nobody." Aline said. I wonder why she hates Clary so much. "hey, don't talk about my sister like that. what have she ever done to you?" Jon said. "nothing, its just that she has the perfect life, and she has the audacity to complain." Aline said. wow I would never think Aline would be jealous of Clary. "you got to be kidding right, do you know how many nights I had to talk to her because no one except for Simon wanted to be her friend. Not only that but after our parents split up, she got worse. She would not eat or leave her room for months except for when she needed to leave for school. So don't say that stuff about her." Jon said before he stormed out of the room. The rest of us looked shocked at to what we heard. If I would have known about this sooner, I would have talked to her sooner. "none of you are allowed to be mean to Clary ever again." I said to the entire group before I walked up to my room.
Clary point of view. At her house.
I didn't actually need to leave but I think I needed to get out of there. not that I didn't have fun being around Tessa and Isabelle, I hope I can have them as friends. I don't know what I should think about Aline, she doesn't seem like she wants to be around me.
"how come you are home so earlier then." Luke said as I walked into the living room where he and my mom sat. I am happy that my mom found someone as nice as Luke after my parents got a divorce. It has been three years since they ended things, I mean my parents, and Luke and mom have been dating for two years. At first, I thought it was to earlier but after a while I accepted it. "I figured that I could hang out with you before you have to go back to work." I said as I sat down on the sofa. "how was it then, did you have fun." Mom asked. "actually, it wasn't as bad as I thought it would be. the girls are actually nicer then I first imagine." I said. "that's good, I hope you will have some new friends." Luke said. I smiled as we continued to look at the show they had on.
Twenty minutes later and we hear the front door open. That's weird Jon is usually out later then this. I wonder if anything happened. I decide to see why he was home so early.
I found him sitting in the kitchen looking a little lost, which is strange as he is usually the strong one. "Jon what happen." I said as I walked closer to him, it took a little while before he actually looked at my face. He looked like he could cry right away. "can we talk?" Jon said in a very quiet voice, he sounded scared. I nodded and we walked upstairs to his room.
"Jon you are scaring me." I said as I sat down on his chair he had by his desk. "don't be mad at me." he began, I wonder what he would have done to make me angry at him. "okay." I said. he took a deep breath before he said "it started with Aline who was complaining about you. She said you had the perfect life and that she was jealous of you." That was weird my life is far from perfect. "I told her that I had to comfort you all the time, and I told her about our parents' divorce. And how bad you felt then." Jon said. "who else was around you." I asked. "everyone." Jon said. well, this wasn't the way I figured they would find out. I hugged him before I left his room without saying anything. I wasn't mad but I felt the need to be alone.
In my room I took out an empty piece of paper and started to paint. And as I did it took me back to that day three years ago.
Three years ago.
"we are getting a divorce." That was the only thing I heard in my head after the told us. I nodded but didn't say anything before I walked up to my room, I decided that it would be for the best to look my door and turn my phone of. I didn't cry or anything I just stared right into the wall in front of us. My parents are getting a divorce after a year of them fighting all the time. I know I should be happy but right now I don't feel anything. I really thought they would figure things out. I figured that they would get couple counselling before they would split up. but no, they just decided to give up a marriage of almost twenty years and two kids. I wonder if I have something to do with it. maybe dad is angry at me for not being as popular as Jon or as pretty as the other girls are.
Two months went by, and I didn't leave my room if I didn't need to go to the bathroom or go to school. I was only eating if someone was around me, and not even that I would keep for long. the weird thing is that no one at schooled seemed to notice me even if I looked even skinnier then I normally did or that my face was paler then normal which is strange as I have a very pale face already. Not even my best friend seemed to notice that I wasn't around much, at lunch I would hang out in the art room to avoid the food. I wanted to be skinny enough to be considered pretty. At least I could do anything about that. the popular bit was a bit harder. I don't fit in with the other kids and I know it.
At the end of the third month of me being like this I was downstairs alone in the living room, and I was freezing so I figured that I would stand up to find another blanket or turn on the heater.
I don't know what happened but a week later I woke up in the hospital with my mom beside me. Jon was there and so was Jace. I wonder why he would be here. "thank god." Mom said as I opened my eyes. "where am I." I asked. "in the hospital, you fainted a week ago. Apparently, you where to skinny and did not have enough nourish in your body to keep you up. Jace found you on the floor after he had heard something in the living room. He saved your life." Mom said. I nodded and smiled to her.
Precent time
I was left in the hospital for two more weeks. I know that I should own Jace my life but at the time I didn't feel like I was worthy of living. I am of course better now. I have never talked to anyone about what happened those months. Jon don't even now the entire truth. Or well only half the truth, I don't think Jace knows anything. Or well he does now everyone know. But I am not angry at Jon.
"mom can we talk." I said as I walked back into the living room. It was around ten minutes after I had gotten everything out on the paper. "sure, sit down." Mom said. I don't even care if Luke is still here. "should I leave?" Luke asked. "no, you can stick around." I said. "okay, you know you can tell us everything right." Mom said. I nodded and said "so Jon reminded me of the months after you and dad split up. and I figured I should tell you everything." I said. "why did Jon talk about that." mom asked. "one girl over at Isabelle's house was complaining of me and he told them what had happened." I said. mom and Luke nodded and encourage me to go on. "as you know after you announced that you would get a divorce, I got a little bit crazy for a few months. I figured I would tell you why. Even before this happened, I was feeling down. Me and Jon would talk every night about how we where feeling. I felt like it was my fault that you and dad was splitting up. I figured that he was upset with me for not being as popular as Jon or as pretty as everyone else. So, I stopped being happy I only left my room to go to the bathroom and everything I ate I would vomit back out again. I figured that I could at least be skinny. At school no one noticed a different in my behaviour and you where never home so this went on for a long time, almost three months of me not eating anything. If I am being honest, I don't know how I managed to not faint earlier." I said. "it was never your fault. I was both of ours, your dad was always working and when he was home, he was drinking a lot. And well I did nothing but complained to him or I was out late at the studio to avoided to come back home. You should have told me or Jon what was going on." Mom said. "mom I never told you anything because I felt like I was never good enough to be your daughter. After I woke up at the hospital, I wished that I never would have woken up. I wanted to die." I said as I could feel my tears coming. "never say that again." I heard Jon say as he and Alec walked into the room. I wonder when he got here. "you should have heard what my sister said after Jon left. She basically cursed us to be nice to you." Alec said. "see you have a lot of people who cares about you." Luke said. "and you are wrong someone noticed that you looked unwell" Alec said. "did you hear everything." I asked. "we did, alec came over to say that he was sorry to you. And well we heard everything." Jon said. "then who saw that I was unwell." I asked. "Jace told us about a week before your accident that you looked unwell and that I should talk to you. I ignored him and said that you looked normal. He was here that day because he wanted to see if you were feeling all right. He was around at the hospital all week long while you were unconscious. He was feeling so guilty for not being there to take care of you before." Jon said. "how did he notice he is the only person who is always the furthers away from me when you are around." I said. "we don't know, but I am happy that he did. but this has been more then enough for tonight. Clary I am sorry for not being nicer to you. you are actually really cool, and just so you know everyone agrees with me, except for Aline." Alec said. I nodded and smiled at him before I stood up to hug him. "thank you, Alec, and you have always been nice to me." I said. which is true he was always the nicer one.
That night I slept better then ever before. Everything on my chest was out in the world.