Losing My Mind

"Hey, Tsu-kun…"

The brunet stopped the swaying of his swing and turned to the orange haired teen next to him.

"What is it, Kyoko-chan?"

"Do you know how to dance?" The girl said as clear as day while the other seemed to froze with the question.

"D-D-Dance? A-As in those waltz and stuff the adults do in parties?" He stuttered hesitantly.

"Yeah!" Kyoko chirped.

The brunet twitched as he recalled the simple dance lesson that had somehow turn so hellish with the Spartan tutor. He could still remember vividly, the gun shooting at the spot inches away from his feet with every missed step. The calm music was carved in his mind along with the gunshots and the trembling of his little feet on the marbled floor. Though with his 'dame'ness, the tutor had to prepare a crate of bullets daily and would always sat on it oh-so-comfortably with his sadistic grin until the brunet was forced to perfect it. The boy couldn't help but wonder why he had to learn such things in the first place since he had only been replied by an evil smirk from the tutor saying that he might as well learn something useful since he hadn't awakened his dying will flame.

"I did learn a bit of it from my tutor, but why do you ask?" The brunet asked.

"Umm…it's about my parents actually." The orange haired teen scratched her cheeks sheepishly and the boy raised a brow questioningly.

"Your Mama and Papa?" The orange haired teen nodded before continuing.

"Okaa-san and otou-san said that they first met during a formal party in the past. Sometimes they would even tell me stories of it!"

The orange haired teen beamed, remembering how her parents would chuckle blissfully while twirling around in their cosy apartment as the curious girl stared in awe. But the smile soon faded as her orange locks covered her caramels and the brunet frowned when her voice lost its usual cheeriness.

"T-They've been acting weird lately and okaa-san was crying while saying something about a 'debt'. I-I want to cheer them up somehow…."

The brunet blinked in return before a sweet smile formed on his lips.

"How about I teach you some of the simple steps? I'm sure they'll be happy when you show it to them!"

"R-Really?"

Kyoko muttered in disbelief and the boy chuckled before getting off the swing and walking up to the orange haired teen. He stretched out a hand and grinned as the orange haired teen took it shyly. They walked to the centre of the park before adjusting themselves in the position. Her left hand placed on the boy's shoulder while his were on her hip, the other hand held together in a firm grasp.

"Ready?" The orange haired teen nodded excitedly, earning herself a soft chuckle from the boy.

"First, move your right foot back." He uttered slowly, "Then we go here…"

The orange haired teen squeaked as she tripped and fell to the side, she shut her eyes tight only to have her right hand tugged and she was soon pulled towards him. A hand wrapped around her protectively and she looked up to find his chocolate browns staring back at her.

"Don't worry! Because if you fall…."

He tightened the grip on her hand and grinned.

"I'll definitely catch you!"

Then, the dream suddenly changed as the image of the brunet and his warm touch was replaced with another memory that came rushing back to her.

Where...?

It was dark and cold. The orange haired teen could feel the chilly wind against her skin from the opened window, white curtains fluttering along silently with the night breeze. The first thing Kyoko recognized was the smell of antiseptics and the IV wire stuck to her hand. The faint moonlight poured in, faintly illuminating a small frame of a brown-haired boy standing before her. An orange flame flickering on his forehead as he gazed at her with glowing orange orbs void of any emotion.

"Forget everything about me, live as if I never existed."

The boy uttered coldly with a voice that used to call her name with so much warmth. He had the same face as the brunet, yet…he was not the that she knew. He wasn't smiling brightly like he always did and he wasn't frowning either, his lips were simply sealed together on that calm features masking traces of any emotion hiding underneath. The orange haired teen parted her lips but she didn't ask why he said it or what he meant by his words. Instead, a faint smile appeared on her lips as she locked her caramels with his ambers.

"If that's what you really want, then why…?" She whispered softly, "why…are you crying?"

Tears streamed down his cheeks, but he made no move to wipe it away. He was silent for a moment before moving up a hand and his index finger pointed inches away from her forehead, a warm orange flame lit up. Kyoko could feel the last bit of her strength leaving as she fell forward only to be caught in the arms of the brunet.

"Tsu…kun…"

The orange haired teen whispered before her caramels fluttered close as his image seemed to slowly fade away from her mind. Orange flame disappeared from his forehead as his orange orbs were replaced by chocolate browns.

"Goodbye, Kyoko-chan…."

The brunet muttered under his breath, drops of tears trickling down to her cheeks as he held her closer with quivering hands.

"I…love you."

Kyoko opened her caramels lazily and she was met with orange fabric. She blinked her caramels before snuggling closer, taking in the familiar scent of what her thoughts processed as a 'pillow'. Her eyelids soon close once again, a content smile gracing her lips.

So….warm….

Then, the strangest thing happened as her supposed 'pillow' suddenly started to move and groan. The teen's honey browns flew open as her smile grew crooked.

W-What—?

Kyoko tilted her head up and squeaked as her face was only inches away from the brunet's. The orange haired teen felt heat crept up her cheeks immediately and she took a few seconds to calm down before carefully loosening her hold from the young mafioso's shirt. The orange haired teen was about to back away when a hand wrapped around her hip, preventing her from escaping.

The orange haired teen froze and checked to see that the other teen still had his chocolate browns close, his breathing even and ever so peaceful. Kyoko couldn't help but stare at the sleeping face of the young Mafioso from his delicate jawline, dark eyelashes and finally, the messy mop of chestnut hair spiking in random directions. The orange haired teen reached up curiously at his unkempt hair which was blocking his features and a faint blush crept up her cheeks as she found the brown locks surprisingly soft and fluffy under her touch. The teen paused as a thought crossed her mind. The boy in her dream looked so similar to the young Mafioso, though the little brunet's form was still clouded in her memories.

"When the time comes, will you leave me too?...Just like he did?"

She whispered in a barely audible tone and her mouth tugged to a frown, orange bangs covering her eyes as she thought back to her own words. Kyoko knew people are meant to move on one day and perhaps they will never see each other anymore. When that day comes, the people she'd met in this mansion...

They will not be with her forever, just like how her parent's left her first and...that boy.

Kyoko laid her eyes on the man who'd turned her life to the way it is now. He held many secrets, she could tell, and yet he is warm and reminded her of that boy in her dreams. She shook her head, pushing the thoughts aside.

She didn't want to lose her friends and family again.

The orange haired teen had many of her precious ones leaving her behind but had never blamed them even for a moment, she didn't want to be a burden and force them to stay for her own selfish reasons. Now, she she was finally given another chance with the Vongola with the guardians who accepted her, Haru as her best friend and….she just owed their boss too much to put in words.

"It's fine to be selfish once in a while right?"

Kyoko muttered to herself before propping her head up and leaning in slowly until she could feel his breath trickling against her lips and paused there.

The orange haired teen snapped her eyes open when she felt a hand grabbed on hers and her caramels met with intense orange orbs. Kyoko winched as the young Mafioso swiftly moved and pinned her down with both hands over her head. The brunet had his other arm placed on her neck and look down at the other teen with cold ambers. The Decimo had countless spies or assassins aiming for his head before and he'd know better than letting his guard off even in his sleep.

"…Kyoko?"

The brunet uttered as his shade of orange turned back to hazy chocolate browns, his eyes losing its sharpness as he loosen up at the sight of the orange haired teen and eased the hold on her neck.

"What…were you doing?" Tsuna muttered sleepily.

"I-I-don't know…."

Kyoko shifted in her place, her mind swirled.

"W-When I thought that you and everyone else are going to leave me someday…..all I knew was that I needed to hold onto you so that you'll s-stay."

The brunet's eyes widened as the orange haired teen bit her quivering lips. She knew it sounded childish and selfish, and yet she could not contain her fear any longer.

"I d-don't want to be alone anymore."

Kyoko whispered softly and brought her hands up to cover her eyes, tears streaming down her cheeks as she sniffed.

"I'm just too greedy..."

The young mafioso froze while the other teen was desperately trying to hide her face from his gaze. Kyoko desperately tried to stop her tears, she had never voiced her thoughts since her parent's death, not even when she noticed kids her age holding hand with their parents happily when she was younger. Her caramels simply traced at the warm image before her as she gaze at them longingly from a distance, knowing that she had no choice but to continue and work hard by herself. So why now...?

Tsuna grabbed on her hands and lifted it away from her face, her honey browns were then forced to lock with his chocolate browns.

"I'm never leaving you!"

The young Mafioso said loud and clear to the orange haired teen who only stared at him in shock.

"It's not just me but also Haru, Gokudera and everyone else too…they have already thought of you as a family!"

Tsuna's grip on her unconsciously tightened as he continued to speak.

"And if anyone's greedy, it'll be me because I—!"

The brunet stopped on his tracks and gritted his teeth. Kyoko blinked the tears away from her eyes as she stared at the mafia boss, wondering what he meant as his chestnut bangs covered his chocolate browns.

"I can't take it anymore…." He finally muttered under his breath.

"Wha—?"

Her caramels widened as the young Mafioso leaned in and capture her full on the lips. Tsuna could feel the soft lips on his stiffen and he moved a hand to cup her cheek, gently caressing it as if she'd break any second. He lingered there for a moment, allowing her to get used to the feeling of his lips against hers before moving in to deepen the kiss. The orange haired teen flinched under him and shut her honey browns as she whimpered from the sudden contact. Kyoko held up a trembling hand to grab on the fabric of his shirt, her mind going hazy from the foreign feeling that overwhelmed her. The young Mafioso swiped his tongue over her rosy lips, earning himself a gasp from his 'lover'.

"W-Wait a—"

Kyoko took the chance to breathe but was cut short as his lips slammed against her own once again. The brunet slid his tongue in, tasting every inch of the hot cavern as she started to melt into the kiss. Tsuna knew that he shouldn't be doing this, at least not yet. But he waited for years just to hear her voice again, to see that smile and how he longed to touch her ever since she came back to his life.

He'd already fallen too much….

"A-Ah…."

Kyoko snapped her eyes open as she heard herself moaned and tried to push him away but the decimo didn't even budge. Instead, the young Mafioso flicked his tongue at hers, sending shivers down her spine as a tear slipped her caramels. It was all too much for her.

The orange haired teen finally gathered her strength and bit his lower lips hard. The brunet flinched and hissed as he pulled back, the salty taste of blood faint in his mouth. He froze as a soft sniff came from the other teen and his chocolate browns fell to the orange haired teen, her caramels brimming with tears. She bit her quivering lips as orange locks covered her honey browns, a deep, red tint staining her cheeks.

"…Crap"

The brunet cursed as the edge of his mouth twitched in realization at what he'd just done. And so, the orange haired teen did the only logical thing a person could possibly do in this kind of situation.

She screamed.

Gokudera startled awake and fell face flat on the marbled floor, forgetting that he had slept the couch instead of his usual spacey bed. Yamamoto sat up from his futon and stared sleepily at the windows across him, a happy go lucky smile forming on his lips as he admire the calm sceneries. The skylark twitched in irritation on the Japanese cushion as the cup of steaming tea threatened to crack from his hold, all the while reminding himself to bite his herbivore of a boss later on. Haru scurried for her alarm clock and wiped her tired eyes, only to found out that today was a freaking Saturday. Chrome stopped flipping the pancakes and sighed as she wondered what her bossu had done this time. Lambo woke up with a loud 'Gupyaa!' as his sweet filled dream was disturbed by a piercing yell. The marshmallow addict hummed to himself as he happily popped a marshmallow into his mouth.

Tsuna snapped from his daze and placed a palm over her mouth hurriedly, silencing the other teen before pinning her hands over her head. Kyoko struggled out of his grasp but failed miserably as the other was obviously stronger than her.

"Mnn!" The orange haired teen let out a muffled cry.

"W-Wait, calm down." Tsuna said reassuringly and the orange haired teen looked at him with teary eyes before he let go of the hand over her mouth.

"H-How am I supposed to calm down? You just k-k-kis—" She choked out with a deep blush.

"I'm sorry! Alright?" The brunet interrupted while her honey browns only widened in surprise.

"I'm sorry it had to be me…."

The brunet whispered with his head hung low, chocolate browns refusing to meet with her caramels. Kyoko blinked as she saw the young Mafioso with his hurt filled voice and

"I-It's not that I hate it….you just surprised me that's all..." She muttered, barely audible.

He gaze at her before asking with a tone of pure disbelief. "You…do you even know what you're saying?"

Kyoko was about to open her mouth when the door slammed open, causing both teens to snapped their head to side.

"Jyuudaime! Is it an enemy attac—" The storm guardian's jaw dropped almost immediately as he stood frozen by the doors. Soon, the other occupants of the Vongola mansion came one by one to check on their boss.

"Haru heard a scr….ea…m…" The pony tailed girl trailed off as she almost fainted on the spot.

"Ahaha, are you two playing a game?" Yamamoto chuckled heartily and Chrome was just standing there, looking at Tsuna with a disgusted look which he didn't know was a little prank played by the other sadistic mist guardian.

Both teens had their clothes dishevelled and hair messier than ever. The brunet was pinning his 'lover' with a swollen lip and Kyoko had her cheeks damp from the tears that streamed down her face. They were flushing a brilliant shade of red, especially the orange haired teen.

Well, at least things couldn't get any worse…

And that's when their oh-so-beloved house guest decided to came into the picture as he gasped dramatically and pointed a finger accusingly at the brunet. "Tsunayoshi-kun, you monster!"

….Thanks a lot, you fucking marshmallow freak.

The brunet sighed as he get off the bed and hold up a hand as if to surrender. "Wait a minute, before all of you get the wrong idea here….I didn't—"

"Kyoko-chan! Are you alright? Do you feel sore or anything?" Haru said as she ran towards the orange haired teen in worry.

"I-I'm fine! H-He just kind of stole my first…..kiss." She mumbled the last word to herself, causing the others to not hear it save for her best friend and the young Mafioso.

"Ah…I'm really sorry for disturbing your….'intimate' time together, tenth." Gokudera said as he scratched his cheeks sheepishly.

"Bossu….I've misjudged you…" Chrome uttered as she held her trident that glisten dangerously.

"No, um….guys? Listen to me here." Tsuna said, the edge of his mouth started twitching as his composure was threatening to break at any second.

"So….what were we talking about again?" Yamamoto laughed.

"You baseball idiot! Read the situation here!" The half-italian screamed at the rain guardian.

"Tsunayoshi-kun….I know that you're a growing boy but make sure to take responsibility for your actions okay?" The marshmallow addict gave a fake frown.

Tsuna facepalmed.

"I'm telling you….I'M INNOCENT!" The brunet declared as he started to question his own sanity for being able to live with these people for years.

"Kufufu~ then you've never done anything to her, Sawada Tsunayoshi?"

Mukuro cackled creepily as he switched with the female illusionist. That was when the young Mafioso swore that his guardians were somehow secretly conspiring to kill him off from irritation behind his back, the marshmallow addict and pineapple head being the mastermind of it all.

"NO!...yes…BUT NOT WHAT YOU GUYS ARE THINKING OF!"Tsuna screamed as he fought the urge to pull his hairs off.

"….What is Tsuna-nii talking about? Lambo-san doesn't understand." Lambo said as he rubbed his tired eyes.

The whole room seemed to freeze at the question as all eyes were then placed on the clueless infant. Byakuran walked towards the lightning guardian and kneeled down before smirking playfully.

"You see, little cow-kun, when two people are in love…they do stuff like—"

"WHO WANTS SOME GRAPE CANDIES?" Gokudera yelled as hard as he could, catching the infant's as he turned his head with a droll forming on the corner of his mouth. In a flash, Haru whipped out a bag of candies from god-knows-where and passed it to Yamamoto who threw it with incredible speed out of the window. Lambo instinctively ran towards the sweets and grabbed it in mid-air.

"Gyahaha! The candies are Lambo-san's—Gupyaa!" The

"No worries, he'll survive!" Yamamoto grinned at the orange haired teen who sweat dropped at the scene. Moments later, a sound of a crying infant and the ten-year-old bazooka could be heard. Gokudera grabbed on the collar of the Millefiore boss.

"You marshmallow pervert…what do you think you're telling him?" He growled.

"Ehh?~" Byakuran whined and shrugged his shoulders casually "He'll learn about is soon anyway so why not?"

"Do I have to repeat that he's a freaking 5 year old!" Gokudera snapped as the white head only chuckled in return.

"Enough." Tsuna said with his boss mode on, his eyes changing to a dangerous shade of orange.

"Gokudera, let him go." The storm guardian clicked his tongue before following his boss's orders.

"Byakuran, I don't want to hear any more 'jokes' from you or you'll get it from me."

The Decimo warned while the white head pouted childishly. Tsuna glimpsed at the orange haired teen and sighed as she looked eager to leave and sort out her thoughts.

"Everyone, breakfast will be in an hour as usual so you can leave to do your own stuff for now. Yamamoto, I need to discuss your next mission with you in the office."

The rain guardian nodded before leaving the room with his boss. Kyoko was about to leave when she was reminded of her best friend who was still stood rooted in place.

"Haru-chan?" The pony-tailed teen flinched as she called her name.

"A-Ah, Kyoko-chan, I'll be checking on Lambo-kun so you can go off first…."

Haru said as she avoided her caramels before rushing out of the room with her bangs covering her eyes. Kyoko was about to chase after the teen who dashed out of her sight when a hand stopped her on the shoulder. She looked up to find the storm guardian who gritted his teeth with his brows furrowed.

"...Stupid woman."

He muttered before running off to look for Haru. Kyoko could only frown as she watched the half-italian left. The orang head flinched when she heard an eerie cackle and turned to find Mukuro leaning against the wall with a sly smirk.

"Kyoko Sasagawa, would you mind opening the main doors for me?" The mist guardian said as he gazed at her with his mis-matched eyes. Kyoko raised a brow but nodded at his request. Purple mist soon enveloped him and revealed a female illusionist in his stead.

"Kyoko-san, Mukuro-sama is calling for us." She muttered before pulling the orange haired teen's hand.

"C-Chrome-chan?"

Kyoko squeaked as she was pulled down the grand staircase and to the doors of the Vongola mansion. She shifted her eyes at the purplenette questioningly before opening it. She was greeted by none other than a sadistic illusionist with a hairstyle that resembled a certain tropical fruit.

"Kufufu~ it's nice to finally meet you in my real form." Mukuro said before he looked at the purplenette and walked towards her.

"My dear Chrome….have you been a good girl while I'm away?" He said as the corner of his lips tugged to one of his rarest smiles.

"Y-Yes I have, Mukuro-sama…." Chrome looked down to her feet in embarrassment.

"Oya? Have you just turned your face away from me?" Mukuro reached out and tilted her head up to gaze at her violets, he chuckled when her cheeks reddened. "Did you not miss me at all after all this time….Nagi?"

"I-I did, Mukuro-sama! I've been looking forward for you to return ever since you left two weeks ago!"

Chrome panicked as she blurted out, not wanting to be hated by the other illusionist. The pineapple head smirked before leaning down to kiss her on the forehead and ruffled her purple locks lovingly. The purplenette blushed and held up a hand at the place where his lips touched her, a warm smile creeping up her face as she followed the male illusionist on their way.

Kyoko beamed as she watched the two mist guardians and was about to close the door when a voice came from below which made her almost jumped in surprise. Kyoko's eyes widened as he saw a fedora wearing infant with curly sideburns and a chameleon on his hat. She knelt down to inspect the new guest closer. The infant raised his hand in greeting as he looked at the orange haired teen.

"Ciaossu! I'm here to—"

"So…" Kyoko said as the new guest twitched at his interrupted sentence.

"SO CUTE!"

The orange haired teen squealed as she hugged the fedora wearing baby in her arms. Little did she know that the infant had his hat covering his eyes, deadly killing aura radiating off of his small figure as the chameleon transformed into a gun.

Tsuna was walking along with a file on his hand and flipping through the papers when he heard the voice of his 'lover'. The brunet glanced up from his work and dropped the file on hand as he stared in horror at the person she was currently hugging to death. Might he add that the world's number one hitman was holding a gun pointed at her head?

"KYOKO! PUT. THE. BABY. DOWN. NOW!"

The decimo screamed as his voice cracked with fear, all the while trying not to make any sudden movements as if the innocent looking guest would massacre every person in the household in mere seconds. Tsuna eyed the infant that he suspected to have escaped from hell, or so he believed ever since he met him years ago.

"Huh? Why? He's so adorable!" Kyoko whined as she looked at the young Mafioso pleadingly.

"Kyoko, listen to me. Put him down now before the whole mansion will be soaked in blood….my blood." He said cautiously, hoping to have his head still intact by the end of the day.

"Oh and he is the most evil, sadistic and Spartan 'thing' ever." The Decimo corrected her as he pointed at the infant.

"Not to mention, definitely something you would never want to call as 'adorab—"

Tsuna was muttering under his breath when a bullet grazed his cheeks without warning, leaving a trail of blood running down his cheeks from the freshly cut wound. Kyoko blinked as the infant vanished from her hold only to appear the next moment as he kicked the young mafioso's head, causing him to fall backwards and onto the hard floor.

"Ugh….Can't you give a normal greeting for once, Reborn!" Tsuna groaned as he care for his bruised head.

"….Pathetic as ever, huh?"

The tutor said as an evil smirk graced his babyish features.

"It's been a while, dame-Tsuna….my punching bag slash idiotic student."

END

A/N: HA! Fooled you didn't I? :D I did say that Tsuna can't touch her but I've never said that he wouldn't.…I'm still a 2795 fangirl too you know? XDD

Extra Corner

Kyoko turned her head around, looking for a mop of brown hair in the place where they usually meet when her eyes finally caught sight of a boy in a blue hood sipping on a carton of orange juice by the swing.

"Tsu-kun!"

She waved at him happily and approached her friend.

"Kyoko-chan!" The little brunet flashed a hopeful smile, he waited for her to take a seat by the swing beside him before asking the question he'd been wondering about. "So…how did it go?"

The orange haired girl beamed at the question.

"They loved it! They even cried and hugged me. They said something like 'they won't give up'"

Kyoko was really happy that she could lift up her parent's spirits through the tough times they're going through with the debts. The little mafioso nodded in return, feeling joy for her achievements.

"Oh right, when I told my mommy that you were the one who taught it to me, she said that she wants to meet you!"

Caramel irises gleamed with happiness at the thought of her friend coming over to her place. It would be wonderful to have him meet her family, she was sure that they would get along well.

"M-Me? Ehh…but why?"

Tsuna asked as he continued to sip on his favourite orange juice.

"She said that she wanted to meet my 'boyfriend'!" Kyoko chirped, oblivious to what her mother meant.

The brunet choked on his drink and coughed.

"B-B-B-Boyfriend?!"

His voice went up a pitch as he squeezed the words out of his lungs. The little mafioso couldn't believe what he'd just heard...and it was from her mother, no less. She tilted her head, wondering what was wrong with what she said.

"Huh? But aren't you my friend? And you're a boy."

The boy almost face-palmed as the she smiled innocently, taking her mother's words into a fully different meaning.

"K-Kyoko-chan…you have a very interesting mother, d-don't you?"

Tsuna tried to laugh it off, but it had came out as a panicked answer instead. Taking his words as a literal compliment, she nodded her head happily. The child mafioso was now very worried for his friend's future. He knew she was smart since she'd help Tsuna with his home-study homework given by Reborn but now, he knew she could be quite...clueless about the people and relationships around her. Perhaps he could be the teacher this time.

"B-But you know...I don't think that's what your mommy meant when she said that…." he muttered.

"Huh?" Kyoko blinked, unsure of what he meant. "What does she mean then?"

"I heard it from an adult..."

Well actually, an infant, but Reborn seems to know everything and he did say that he's actually an adult.

"It's something you'd call the person you like when you're…..'dating'…and stuff like that."

Kyoko thought about his words.

""But I really like Tsu-kun a lot!" The little girl tried to piece the puzzle together and came to a conclusion as she faced her friend.

"Tsu-kun, does that mean we're 'dating'?" she asked earnestly. Tsuna was once again made speechless by her words.

"W-What?"

Her smile fell.

"Or….is it because you don't…like me?"

"N-No, of course not!" He sputtered out but soon realized that he'd make a grave mistake as she stared at him with innocent eyes.

"So Tsu-kun like me?" The little girl lighten up almost immediately while the boy just felt his face resembling more and more like a tomato.

"Y-Yes, I-I mean no, I-I… " He could feel heat rising up to his cheeks as he muttered out in panic, making his words incoherent. Kyoko decided to lean in closer to hear him clearer.

"Hm? What did you say, Tsu-kun?"

His mind played out different answers to her but with her face close to his, sweet honey brown eyes staring at him anticipatingly, his thoughts short-circuited and it was then that Tsuna decided.

"I-I….I'M SORRY!"

It was time to retreat.

The brunet ran away with his red, leaving her to wonder to herself. Seeing him retreat back to his home, she sighed.

"I guess I have to work hard so that Tsu-kun will accept me as his friend then!"