Okay this is where the M rating comes in. If you do not like smut I advise you to stop reading please because I don't think I can handle and will not entertain negative comments. Thank you for the review I appreciate every single one. Enjoy ;)

She's sitting on her couch wrapped up in her blanket watching the tv screen. It's dark outside and she doesn't have a single light on inside her apartment. Her curtains are pulled across and her only source of light is coming from her tv. She's holding a still hot cup of tea she has been drinking. With every night that's passes it seems to be getting colder.

It's quite. She would've been curled up with Noah watching a movie but he's out at a sleepover. He would have just fell asleep before it was over but she'll at least have company.

She takes another mouth full of tea, letting the liquid warm up her body. She rests the cup on the coffee table then wraps her whole body into the blanket. Right when she thinks she's warm enough and comfortable there is a knock at her door. Only one person could be knocking at her door at this time of night. It could be someone from her squad but she quickly dismisses the thought not wanting to jinx it. She looks through the peep hole and it's exactly who she suspects, who she wants it to be.

"Hey" He says then she steps aside for him. He smiles as he looks her up and down. She looks comfortable. She's wearing pajamas and her hair is still a little damp. It looks more wavy this way.

"I hope I didn't wake you?" He turns looking in her direction as she moves.

"You didn't I was actually just watching a movie." She says pointing to the tv.

"A Christmas movie?" He ask her seeing what's playing.

"You'll be surprised how many they're already playing. I started watching a few with Noah but he ditched me for a sleepover tonight."

"They do that to you as they get older."

She stretches her hand out to the sofa for him to join her.

"So by the looks of you, you're done with being undercover." She says referring to his clean shaven face.

"Yes I am. I actually just did it before I came here." He smooths his hand over is face.

"I kinda liked you with the beard."

"You and no one else. It was Bells first order to get rid of it." He said with a small laugh.

The more time she spends with him the harder it seems to be away from him. She misses him so much when he's not with her. She truly appreciates times like now when he comes to see her. It feels free that they're able to express their feelings for each other.

"I really missed you." Her voice is low as her hand rests on the right side of his face.

"I missed you too."

Just like the night before he's first to lean in and pulls her into him. Their lips are pressed together once again. He swears it's better than he remembers. Their mouths move together in unison. Both of her hands comes up to hold both sides of his head. She feels his tongue brush against her lips seeking entrance and she doesn't hesitate to grant him it. They began moving feverishly against each other and he could hear her breathing quicken.

He sucks her bottom lip between his and he is almost certain he hears a soft moan from her. It's a sound he knows he has to draw out from her again. Their lips separated and they don't know how long they sat there. Their foreheads are resting together as she breathes him in. The tv is still on but she doesn't hear anything. Everything around them is being blocked out as they focus solely on each other.

She stands and pulls him up with her. She allows his arms to wrap around her waist then guides him to her bed room.

"Are you sure, Liv? We don't have too." He ask because he doesn't want her to rush into anything she isn't ready for. Knowing her, he doesn't want her regretting anything between them. She knows they still have a lot to talk about but now they have forever.

"Yes, I'm sure. I want you El."

It's all he needs to hear before he reconnects their lips again. He moves slow against her. He wants to take his time and appreciate every part of her body she gives to him. To show her what it's like to truly be with someone you love.

It isn't a secret that he hated seeing her go on dates or spend time with any guy. But he always wondered if she was being treated they way she should. If they took time worshipping her body. He pushes the thought to the back of his mind because he now has the chance to show her.

As he steps forward she steps back until the back of her knees hit the bed. His hands move to her shoulder applying light force indicating for her to sit. She does and pulls herself a little further up the bed. It caught him unexpectedly when her hands held onto his shirt and pulled him down to her. She wraps her legs around his body to bring him close to her. His lips travel from hers down her neck and there's the soft sound he expels from her again.

He places lights kisses behind her ear and up and down her neck. He smiles against her skin when he feels her relax against him. His lips trail down to her collarbone causing her breath to hitch.

He pays attention to the way she reacts to every movement he makes across her body. Seeing what draws more of a reaction. He commits it to memory because he knows this isn't going to be their last time. Her hands are holding the sides of his body as she trys to keep her breathing steady. She's failing, he almost has her trembling with all of their clothes still on. She can already feel the slickness form between her legs.

She had to let him go when he sits up and looks at her for confirmation to remove her shirt. He can obviously see she doesn't have anything on under the night top. Her aroused nipples are poking out through the thin night top. In his cocky nature he's proud of it knowing it's because of him.

Before he is able to remove her top her hands pull at the hem of his and he assist her in pulling it over his head. He watches her as her eyes roam over his chest. Her hands starts from his adonis belt and she smirks when she hears him lets out a sharp breath. Somehow he has the time to stay in shape. Her hands move upwards sliding across his chest then she places a quick kiss on his lips. She nods reassuringly before he pulls her top and smooths his hands over the sides of her soft skin.

His kisses down her clavicle to her shoulder are soft and intentional. He remembers when she told her about the scars on her body. He isn't sure how she is going to react when he come face to face with them so he keeps in check with her.

"Let me know if you want me to stop Liv."

She almost doesn't hear him because she's so lost in what he's doing. She's letting out barely audible whimpers but he hears every last one. She has her eyes shut with her head slight back.

"Okay" she tells him.

She takes in a deep breath then lets it out as he makes his way down her body. She tenses for reasons she may have an idea why. She knows Elliot wouldn't be bothered by the scars on her body but the reminder that he'll be seeing them freezes her. It's the intimacy that comes with it, seeing her in a vulnerable state.

"Are you sure?" Now it's her asking the question. "It's not pretty El….the scars." She feels the insecurity surfacing, what she had worked so hard to overcome.

Disbelief washes over him.

Would she really think they'll change the way he looks at her or sees her. He stops to look at her and holds her hands that are covering her body.

"Of course I'm sure. You're perfect Liv nothing is going to stop me from believing that."

He's attentive as he slowly moves her hands away from her body. He puts her at ease and continued his way down her body.

When he reaches the curvature of her chest it's heaven on earth to him. His eyes move over her body as he kisses along her sternum. They both sit perfect on her chest with harden nipples. He sees the burns that are peppered above them but it doesn't change his desire for her at all. She tries to shake off the feeling but she knows he can feel it. He looks up at her again and her eyes are shut and he can tell she holding something back. He doesn't want her to spend too much time in her head. He wants to instill in her that she is perfect and he's going to ensure that she believes it through his words and actions.

"You're beautiful Liv."

Her eyes open and she can hear the tenderness in his voice.

"Thank you." With every passing moment she falls more in love with him. They've been separated for ten years yet he's still able to read her like a book he's been reading all his life.

"Beautiful" He whispers and he kisses his way back down her body.

He knows she back to enjoying herself when he stops above her left breast and she's already arching with a shaky breath leaving her.

He kisses each scars he bypasses showing her that he meant what he said, it really isn't a bother. His lip move along her breast placing kisses and moving his tongue along them but misses where she wants them most. He doesn't tease her long, within seconds his lips are wrapped around her nipple and gasp falls from her lips. The warmth of his mouth on her send a shock of pleasure through her body. She doesn't remember it ever feeling this good. He sucks the pebble in his mouth then adds his hands to play with the other and it send a hush of fluid between her legs. He switches to the other and he's alternating between sucking, flicking and using his fingers. He takes his time with both. Bolts of pleasure run through her body and it causes her right arm to grip at his shoulders.

He smiles when he hears a low whimper of his name.

She mewls when is mouth leaves her. She automatically misses him feeling the cool air blow on her skin where his mouth was.

Her body starts a new stirring his lips move further down her body.

She wants to watch him as he moves but she isn't sure she can handle it without trembling to pieces. She wouldn't mention willingly but she's thought of him going down on her about too many times. A lot more since he's come back. More apparent in her dreams but not unwelcome.

Her breathing comes in pants as his finger hook underneath her pajama bottoms.

She raises her legs in assisting him in removing them along with her underwear in one swift movement.

She giggles when his lips kiss her sides and the few scars that are there. One obviously made by a key and a curved one made by a hanger. He stares at her smiling as her giggles start to subside as he descends.

She gasp in surprise when he pulls her lower body closer to his face then places both of her legs over his shoulders. They both shared the same fantasy. His head between her thighs as he makes her come undone. He wonders how many times he can make her come from this alone but he'll save it for another day.

Tonight he wants to make love to her like she deserves.

He scatters kisses on the inside of both thighs. He's able to hear her holding back moans by the sounds she's making but he promises himself he'll have her moaning out loud.

Her eyes look down at him and at the exact moment his tongue moves up the length of her. He looks up at and she knows she's a goner. She was right, she's not going to be able to watch him. Her head falls back on the bed as she moans.

"Ohh god."

He groans against her at the sweet taste of her which causes another moan from her. His tongue glides through her folds coating his tongue in her. He cleans at her entrance and she's nearly shaking while he as so much more in store.

He adds another swipe of his tongue along her intentionally add pressure to the bundle of nerves and she almost arches completely off the bed. She definitely doesn't remember being so sensitive. She ponders on whether it's going to be too much yet still knows she's going to reach the end incredibly fast. His tongue swirls at her opening them closed around her clit which is followed by a series of moans that even catch her by surprise. He sucks a little harder because he has to hear her again, and does. The sounds she's making and the pleasure he's causing has the same arousing effect on him.

His erection is barricaded between his pants and her bed. He's straining almost painfully but he withstands it because he makes tonight about her. He has to because he plans on making her come definitely more than once tonight.

Her hand is gripping the sheets next to his head so he brings his hand to hers interlocking their fingers together. The love and intimacy he's showing her has tears flowing from her eyes.

He continues to move his mouth relentlessly against her. Very shortly after her breathing is coming faster. He knows she's close. He brings a single finger up to her entrances and he penetrates her slowly. Waves of heat spread across her skin as the sensation begins to build quickly. Groans came from him as he felt her clamp down and release on his finger while her orgasm takes over.

The moan that escaped her was impossible to hold back. His hand soothes over her left thigh that is shaking over his shoulder. He squeezes the hand that's interlocked with his while her moans are erratic until she calms down.

He kisses his way up her body until they're face to face. She can't help the smile her lips form. His thumbs wipes away the tears that started to dry on her cheeks.

"Okay?"

"Mhmm"

Their lips crash again in the same loving passionate way.

Her hand moves down pushing at the sweat pants around his waist. It only take a few seconds for him to remove them discarding them to the ground.

Their bodies are pressed firmly together and he settles between her legs.

"Remember Liv, tell me if you want me to stop. I don't want to hurt you." He doesn't let the tears fall but everything he says is sincere. He can't hurt her again or anymore than he already has.

"I know, El."

She hasn't had intimate conversations with anyone. Sex was just sex with everyone else. She loved some but surely never bared her soul to anyone. Cassidy understood and she made it clear to Tucker that it wasn't going to last. She hasn't told this to anyone at all, because it's not what she would call it. It takes a lot in her to verbalize it but when she says "Make love to me." It's directed and only to him.

Hearing those words come from her he doesn't take it lightly. There is an emotional connection behind them.

All the emotions being portrayed generates between their bodies.

She feels him nudge at her entrance and she gets why he retains his cocky attitude.

He takes his time moving inch by inch until he's surrounded completely by her. He gives her a minute when he sees her bite her lip and tighter her grip onto him. He gives her a minute and takes it for him as well. Any sudden movement and he thinks he might just embarrass himself.

He pulls her legs to hook around him as he starts a slow pace within her.

He totally consumed by her. She's clinging to him, heavy breathing. He's captivated by her. He holds her close dragging his lips down her neck. The moans that come from him heightens her arousal even more causing her the flutter around him, eliciting a groan from him.

He pulls away and they find a rhythm against each other. Always so in sync.

The eye contact they hold isn't physical, but it's the most intense feeling passing through them.

He's staring into her eyes and she's staring into his and everything around them is blurred out.

He increase his pace but is still gentle and affectionate. Her hands grip at his back and she feels his muscles ripple as he moves inside of her. It's all impassioned and she struggles to keep her eyes open.

Her moans begin to come faster and directly after the next. He can feel how close she is again.

"Come on Liv, that's it." He encourages her with a husky force.

She whimpers and shudders under him and he watches as the pleasure plays on her face.

He looks at her mesmerized as he slows his movements but doesn't stop.

When her breathing is steady he switches position, pulling her into his lap outstretching his legs and keeps hers around him.

His arms are wrapped around her back as he begins the thrust up into her. Her breath gets caught in her throat and she buries he face into his neck. She's barely able to keep herself together. Her body is humming from the pleasure he's causing.

He's overwhelmed with pleasure and engrossed by her. Her heavy breathing on his neck giving herself completely to him. He never wants to let her go.

His hands moves to her face, their foreheads pressed together as their eye locked in a shared understanding.

She's holding on to the back of his neck as her vision becomes blurry from tears.

"So perfect." He whispers to her pulling away hair that sticks to her face.

"El….." She barely gets out as she feels her third orgasm approaching.

"I- I love you." She manages to choke out as the pleasure burns through her.

This time he doesn't stop the few tears that glides down his skin.

"I love you too, Olivia."

His heart beats cheerfully finally hearing those words from her. He knows he's never letting her go.

He pulls her lips to his as he slips his hand between their bodies and sets a rhythm against her center of pleasure.

She moans in his mouth as she feels herself about to fall once again.

"Let go, Liv." He says against her skin.

"Elliottt"

He follows right behind her with her name on his lips both of them finding their release.

Their moans and groans evaporate in the atmosphere of the bedroom.

With every clench there's a moan from her then from him.

He brings her down with him. Laying on her pillows with her pulled on top of him then covers their bodies. He wraps both arms around her as they calm from their high.

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