We lay there peacefully on the train tracks, gazing up at the sunset. My hella adorable girlfriend was snuggling against me, occasionally placing soft kisses on my cheeks and jaw. I tugged her closer and began to massage her back. I then noticed from the corner of my eye that Max was giving me a concerned look, so I turned my head to make eye contact with her.
"What's up babe?" I asked.
"You know, you've been acting kinda weird lately," she stated awkwardly.
"Really? How so?" I asked, giving her a raised eyebrow in question.
To be honest, I was actually playing dumbass. I had a feeling as to what Max was getting at.
"You've been somewhat distant," she answered.
'Bingo.'
"Oh," was all I could muster.
"Is something bothering you?" Max sat up to look directly at me, her eyes were filled with worry. 'Damn, she stresses about everything.'
"It's nothing, okay?" I said as I took out a cigarette from my jacket, lighting it up and inhaling the taste.
"Chlo, I know you're a pretty good liar, but you can't lie to me."
"It really isn't a big deal."
"Of course it is! You're my girlfriend, so if something's troubling you then I want you to tell me."
"It's just a bunch of bullshit," I continue to press on.
"Chloe," Max's face began to harden as she crossed her arms. Now I knew she was serious. She was giving me her, 'You better tell me what the fuck is going on or else' face. Max is so sweet and doesn't get pissed off very often. But when she did, she could be hella scary, and also kinda sexy in a way. She could also be stubborn at times, sometimes as bad as me. As cute as it was, it can be difficult. But at least I know where she gets it from. I really am a good bad influence on her.
"Fine, you win hippie," I let out a deep sigh as I sat up to face her.
"I'm all ears."
"Okay, so… we've been dating for awhile now…" Max cocked an eyebrow.
"Uh, yeah, almost seven months."
"Yeah, so… uh…" I felt my face become warm. I'm sure that my cheeks were a deep shade of red; I was embarrassed as fuck. Max and I never really talked about sex before. At least not when it's about us. But despite that, I've been thinking about it for awhile. I figured since we've been together for awhile, we could move onto the next step. We've done everything: held hands, kissed, cuddled, and even made out a few times (well, maybe more than a few times...). But there's still more… that I wanna do with her; I want this really bad. I've even thought about how it would play out if we slept together. I know it probably makes me sound like a pervert, but I can't help but think of Max in that way, she's so beautiful and adorable. I want to be intimate with her. Although, if Max doesn't want to go any further than where we are now, then that's perfectly OK. But I'm scared to tell her how I feel because I'm afraid she'll think that I'm just dating her to get into her pants and that I'm taking advantage of her. That would probably be the worst possible reaction out of her.
"Look, Max, I'm not sure how else I'm gonna say it, so I'm just gonna come straight out." She looked at me intensely, not saying a word.
"I want to have sex with you…" 'Damn, that came out a lot more straightforward than I wanted it to.' Max's face turned bright red. Her eyes widened and darted into a different direction, not wanting to look at me. Just realizing how creepy and demanding I probably sounded, I grabbed Max's hands and began to explain.
"But we don't have to if you don't want to. If you're not up to it, then that's completely fine." The words were spewing from my mouth, so I could barely understand what the hell I just said.
"Chloe, I…"
"I don't want you to think that I'm taking advantage of you. If you don't wanna do it, I won't get upset at all. All I care about are your feelings right now. I know that I can be a selfish bitch at times, but when it comes to shit like this, I'd rather not be an ass and fuck everything up." Okay, now I was rambling, but I had to say what was on my mind.
"I know you wouldn't take advantage of me, Chloe. I know you love me and I love you too, so I want us to be intimate. It's not that I don't want to have sex… it's just that I'm not sure if I'm ready yet. I've also been thinking about it a lot. And whenever I do, I get extremely anxious… And not really the good kind of anxious."
I reached out and cupped Max's cheeks, connecting our foreheads together.
"It's alright, I understand completely. I'm just happy that you were honest with me. And I'll wait for you until you're absolutely ready. I'll wait forever if I have to."
I closed my eyes and gave Max a long, passionate, tender kiss. Her eyes were half-lidded as she let out a sigh of contentment, wrapping her arms around my neck. After a few minutes, I took her hands and began to place tiny pecks along her fingers and her palm. God, this girl is my fucking angel.
AN: October 20th... geez that's a while away! DX Oh well, on the bright side, that gives me more time to post fanfiction before things get crazy. And besides, as much as I want to play EP5, I think I'd rather have it take longer than be rushed to be honest. I know it'll be worth the wait. :D
