Bucky moved in within the week; he didn't have much stuff,so he settled down rapidly and with small amount of complications.
we helped him, Steve and I clean the room which was unused for like three years, so we had our share of spider webs, and heavy sneezing on my part.
opening the shades and pouring some water down on it to get rid of dirt which accumulated with the rainy days,while Bucky started to get some clothing out of the boxes and hanging them in the closet.
lifting the heavy boxes, and maneuvering the furniture, God,! he looks mouth watering right now, in his sport shorts and a black top tank, his hair disheveled from the movement,
some soft strands succeded freeing themselves from his messy bun,kept getting on his sweaty face,and that see! make my hands itch, just wants to put him down on the floor and have him between my legs, so that I can try to get a hold on those rebellious locks, just so that he would stop passing those fingers into that mane of auburn hair, which makes his biceps flex and dance in front of my eyes,
it is massively enough having him maneuvering heavy objects, and the flex from that only causes me heavy breathing...but having him stopping mid work and stretching his whole body getting that arm moving and glistening with sweat in the light of our dear lord...It's too much! and don't get me started on his metal arm!that would send my heart into overdrive
steve saw me daydreaming about his best friend, and kept smacking me with his duster. and an- I know what you're thinking girl-, -get it together- look on his face.
I looked at him with a- I won't tell if you don't -look on mine.
Yeah! It was pretty much always like that between me and stevie, so no hard pressure.
by the end of the day, after we decided to make a cleaning day of it, and continued with the kitchen, and the bathroom as well.
Agreeing that We had our fill, we settled for" A Doing Nothing Night!", Ordering some pizza, and having a movie night...which was officially declared 'the First Movie Night' of so many to come. As a guest, well, full on roommate now !we let Bucky choose the movie we were going to watch, and the fucker settled for a horror movie. could you be more perfect right now?.
" So Sinister guys!I heard it's a good thriller, " he said looking at steve then at me. " you're welcome to squeeze in if you're afraid Moon!" he smirked devilishly.
"ha! you're soo wrong about her buddy," giggled steve sitting on the couch with two slices of pizza. "she loves Horror movies. and I think she already watched it."
"yeah! and you haven't, stevie, maybe you will have a blonde squeezing in on you instead of a brunette, Barnes"I added putting the ice tea box next on the small table and serving myself a slice.
"come on! and I was looking forward to looking cool tonight saving you from that disturbing soundtrack!" he pouted, he did it again oh! my heart!it would have been a great idea playing it weak! shit, I hate this part of myself, such a good opportunity lost. those arms and chest look soo comfy tonight, under that freshly bathed sent coming from his Tshirt.
Bucky seated himself at the other end of the couch, and patted the space between him a steve, looking very happy about himself. Ok, Barnes lets do this!
I took it and folded my legs under me, Indian style, and the plate of pizza ready on them.
When the writer in the movie started to get the hang of the situation,I started to drift off.
I usually can put on an all-nighter easy, I was now feeling the weight of the full day that we had, so my eyes started to close on their own,
I kept fighting it, and around me, those muscular shoulders felt so comfortable and warm and the fuckers kept calling to me. I should just lean in and feel it on my cheeks. Oh! Steve or Bucky… I wanted baucky so damn hard, but come one the guys just moved in let's not make a stalker out of ourselves...yet!
Giving in, I leaned on steve on my right, seeing me trying to make myself comfortable, he lifted his left arm and put it behind my head allowing me to rest on it.
oh! I practically moaned with the feel of it...I could rest for a bit, the movie is not ending for like thirty minutes from now, I have time.
I started going deep into a comfortable sleep when I heard something soft and soothing.
"but am right here!" like a whisper
"give her time Buddy, soon enough don't worry!" Steve's whole body vibrated with the words.
'give her time'? what did he mean by that!...choosing what?
the next thing I remembered was being lifted, it felt like floating, but held safely into strong and protective arms, what a nice feeling, so I tried to have as much of it as I could
I reached and locked my arms around his neck, squeezing, and burying my face into that softness..hum! He smelled so sweet, and musky...where can I buy this scent?..
I tried to articulate some words, trying to say thank you for taking me to my bed!
" eum! ste- ie…" was all that I could come up with.
a replay came soon enough that I couldn't comprehend, and a soft giggle, making his chest vibrate, and something was wrong with Steve's voice. It's so hard to think right now…
felt the cold of my sheets suddenly, Ugh! cold!
" I know little scorpion, give it time." little scorpion?! ah!
a warm hand on my forehead, a click of some lighting. Then, there were dreams.
When I woke up the next morning, a happy and sweet feeling flooded my chest, it's been a long time since I felt it…
After closing the bedroom door, he stopped and just leaned on the door for a minute, What was that about? What was wrong with him? He lifted his human hand to his chest in an attempt to feel his heartbeat! Why was it hammering like that? He just took her to her bed for god sack!, and nothing happened, well she hugged him,, and he could still feel her breath on his neck,it was so warm and her arms draped around him, Of course, she thought he was Steve, but it felt so comforting and it really gave him a sense of belonging, like he was made to take care of her,...like those arms were home...
God! what is wrong with him? He just knew the girl for like a week!and he is thinking of her being his home?...come on Barnes! Well sure; heard about her for years, but how could he allow himself those feelings towards her, He even felt jealous after she chose to lean on steve and not on him! It was obvious that she would have gone with Steve, it's her best friend, but he was kind of hoping she would choose him,
With a tantalizing slowness, he lifted that hand to his neck and just brushed the skin where Moon's lips were and smiled fondly...He really was smitten, wasn't he! He finishes with those fingers through his locks and started for the living room where steve was cleaning their diner.
With a look from Steve, he could tell that his pal caught on everything that was happening with him, cause the little tease started smirking knowingly.
"What?" asked buck picking up his soda cup and gulping it empty.
"Nothing.." said steve with a more obvious smile now, he took the plates and headed for the kitchen.
Bucky followed him with the rest of the cups and bottles…still lost in his thoughts.
Knowing the look on his brother's face, steve couldn't stop himself from saying.
"You like her." he simply declared, like it was the easiest and the most simple thing to say!
He couldn't even respond to that statement! He just looked at him surprised and not so repelled by the idea. which Steve took it as a confirmation, he really knew his buddy, so if Steve caught all that from just one look, then who was bucky to contradict him?...
Steve was the only person who could tell when Bucky is bluffing, he simply was the only person who could tell what he was thinking without even asking...knowing him better than himself, guess that's what years of friendship give you...
"I d-don't know! Do I?" he just replied...he lifted his gaze to meet his best friends, and just looked lost...
Was he? Really like, In love with his best friend's roommate? HIS roommate, the girl that took care of his Stevie when he couldn't!...well, love was a strong word for his feelings right now.
and if he was, when did that start? Since when was he feeling those things without him even knowing about it?
He just sat, on the counter chair and looked at his hands in front of him like they were the most interesting things ever, Steve took place right next to him, he knew that Bucky was a bit slow with his emotions, not when he wanted to get into someone's pants, but as a deeper level, always been like that, trying to grasp the news, he couldn't let him do so alone.
"What makes you say that stevie?" he asked after a while without taking his eyes from his fingers
"I just know you Buck, that's just it!" he replied
"But I can't Steve, you know I can't do this to her," he said those words with so much fear in his eyes...and Steve understood what he meant by it
"You can buck, it's Ok to love someone...and god knows you need someone in your life…"he assured him.
" I have you.!" bucky claimed. looking straight at him.
" You do buck, always, but not like that" he took his both hands in his and added
" You need someone that can do so much more than me, that can soothe you and take good care of you, I know you're afraid of your PTSD that It's ok, you need to start thinking about your future buddy, starting a new life...and who's better than Moon for that?..trust me she can take is tough. and better yet...she is worth it!" he explained.
Bucky just stood there, looking incredulously at his he even allowed to feel that?his lack of human interactions was so heavy on his shoulders, he couldn't even be in a relationship for more than three months. and that was the longest he's ever been in one.
His nightmares and terrors were the death of him, after coming back from his service. after losing his left arm was the darkest moments of his life, he literally lost himself, lost his smile and taste in life all together...so no one could stay with him, all his previous romance were a mess, and his dreams of a lasting things were shattered after a while, so he accepted it, moved on and never looked back. As from there, his life was a constant loop of one night stands, never looked for more. But sure as hell Needed more.
"What about that chris guy?" he noted
"He's her ex...they grew up together, but you have to ask her if you need more info on that subject," he replied dismissing the subject and getting up to the fridge. " I can tell you one thing, though…"
He took a water bottle and drank.
"She is more like you then you think!" he added with a knowing smile. Double meaning in his words.
"what, messed up?" he disclosed
"No idiot!" he snickered, smaking Bucky on his shoulder. " told you she is tough!"
"What then?"he echoed
"Looking for the one." stevie revealed with a soft smile on his lips,
Bucky could tell steve was hiding something but didn't ask.
"So she is single? How could a girl like that Be single?!" bucky questioned unbelievingly.
He remembered the first time he met her at steve's party, she took his breath away, with her rock band T Shirt and high heels, Damn she was a sight! But not just that, He finally get to put a face on a name after all these years of hearing stories about her, finally get to see her and know her, and hear her talk, laugh, he was so thrown out about it that he didn't even know what to say to her, ended up talking about shoes and teenage band.
"Trust me, I ask myself this question every day" steve cuts his thoughts and took place next to bucky
"What happens to her?" bucky asked, he is not ignorant if a girl like Moon chose to be alone, so it meant something must have happened.
"A constant disappointment, that's what happened to her" he started
"She is lonely, I know she is, even though she says otherwise" steve added.
" and she is very secretive about it, she hides when she is feeling hurt, but I know when she is down, she just got this look on her face, or when she reads her books or watches a movie, that moment which shows all her longing for just being in love."
"So she is a romantic!" bucky noticed smiling knowingly.
"A big one!" choked steve " and hides it with her boldness, She was hurt so many times buck, With what I could gather, No one from her previous relationships fought for her, they said they loved her but never did anything about it!I remember hearing some sniffing noises in her room after her break up, so when I went into her room she told me what had happened ,but she was so blasé like she had enough and just stopped caring, she was the only one hurting, so she chose to close her heart...and it's been like that for like four years now."steve stopped and Bucky just looked at his hands not knowing what to do after all that!
"And you expect me to add to her! Come on steve thought you were smarter than that!" he sputtered.
" No buck, I know you...both...Trust me Buddy."he firmly cut his hand on Bucky's metal one he continued!
"and I know that there is no one better than you for her pal, because you are the kind of man that fights for what's his...and as for her, she only wants to be needed and loved and cared for, Why do you think she puts up with me, am a handfull?" steve giggled.
"True!" bucky chuckled
"Shut up Jerk!" Steve snickered
After a comfortable silence, Bucky asked
"Do you really think I have a chance?"
"Of Course you do, Your Bucky Barnes!" steve replied happily
"No, I mean can this really go further?" he admitted
Steve just looked at his brother fondly with those big blue eyes of his, god! he really was a sweetheart!
"You have the answer to that buddy…" he said getting up "you just have to let it happen"
After dropping a good night kiss on his brother's forehead, steve heads out for his bedroom, leaving Bucky to his thoughts, steve knows that he needs to think about his feelings, so he left him to them.
Minutes passed with Bucky leaning on the window, having the flickering city lights as his companion. He just sat there, thinking about his past, the choices that he made, he lifted his metal arm and just looked at those shifting plates, the reflection of the city lights that could get through their living room window. He needed to trust himself, again, and let other people in, if he wanted to be happy if he wanted to Live and not just Survive.
"But I have you"...
When he got to his room, Steve shut the door behind him and just leaned on it.
He just felt ...not lost but overwhelmed, Bucky still held him soo deep in his heart, As he held bucky in his.
But in way, it hurt him the way his best friend couldn't move on like he had. He was happy now, he had a girlfriend, that made him happy and content.
A girlfriend, a working girlfriend, but still, he needed to accommodate with having a traveling Geologist Dr as his lady, sure! He saw very little of her, but still, those stolen moments together made up for weeks apart, that girl was a master.
With those thoughts, he smiled thinking of his lady made him miss her even worst, so he grabs his phone and starts to write a text:
"I miss you my lady!...can't wait to see " he hit send, and smiles to himself.
Thinking about the pet name, His lady, and what a lady he has.