A thunderous moment woke her up, after a brief surprise, a smile shaped her mouth waking up knowing the weather was going to be beautiful today.
"Ummh" it's raining…perfect!
she thought, not opening her eyes just yet, just listening to the colliding droplets on the window glass and over the rooftops, the city's brouhaha muffled by the pouring water.
that -tak-tak-tak sounded so soothing and calming to her, like millions of tiny soldiers marching.
she loved rainy days, felt inspired already!
she needed to be in a productive mood right now with a new project to work on, and a rainy day accompanied by numerous cups of hot cocoa always helped. the last time she stayed home on a day like this, Captain America was born.
She smiled and took her time stretching under the cover, a hand drifting on the sheets on either side of the bed,'Wait, I'm in my bed! How did I get here? she jolted opening her eyes finally!
"Oh God! last night!" she blurred out sitting up in her spot, and finally the event of last night played and infolded in her head.
she could still smell Bucky on her, the feel of him next to her, hugging her like his lifeline,his steady soft breathing interrupted by those frightened moans his demons brought out of him sometimes,
the scratchy feeling of his beard on her skin, she never thought about having a beard burn could feel pleasant, now it's an alluring idea.
she rolled her eyes smiling at the thought.
The sweet and peaceful sound of relief which he let out when she dragged her fingers in his hair, she wondered if he liked it or was it just good timing with something else!
The force and the possessiveness of his embrace when his nightmares were too much.
"God!what am I doing?!" she sighed putting her head in her hands, embarrassed as hell, and certainly ashamed of the effect he has on her!
She wanted him so bad, and he was so close but she could not have him.
And the most shameful things was how in the hell did she allow herself that?to go that far, when was she even that girl!?
She had never thought that she could be that clingy toward someone, let alone her best friend's best friend! But apparently, when Bucky was involved,
her logic went out of the window.'see you bitch, I'll be back when Bucky's gone to another planet or shaved his hair!'
"Ugh! Shin will kill me!" with that though, the dark room did help!she gets to wallow in her despair and shame for more minutes.
Locating her phone and scrolled down the contact list, when she found her number, she opted for a text instead.it's was nine o'clock here, it must be night where she was.
Now that she calmed down thinking about what would she tell her,'Hey baby,so I kind of fell in love with steve's Best Friend, and he might never see me like that though,I mean, it was clear that he wasn't a relationship guy,you could tell with his flirting with EVERYBODY! and had trust issues, Ha! the story of my life!and don't forget PTSD and night terrors. so, yeah I'm all good! I mean, for years I tried to fall for someone, and ended up falling with the only person who can not reciprocate! I mean, can I be more pathetic?UGH kill me please!"
she rolled her eyes at herself, and just settled for a simple one, leave the drama for later.
"Hey Baby,...tu me manque tellement!" ( I miss you so much!)
she added a kissing emoji and she pressed send.
Now that she's facing the picture, shin was like the compass always pointing north in Moon's life, she was her best friend since high school, and pretty much the sanity lifeline of Moon. Her emotional shelter and safe house. It's been a while since she spoke with her, and it was starting to weight.
she was sure of one thing though,her girl will kick her ass if she didn't do shit about it,Moon knew that she would support her for everything and would be pissed if Moon didn't jump on any opportunity coming her way, fuck the concoinces, just have fun and go for it,with on condition, don't get attached! if the relationship will never work, get all over it for nothing, have fun but don't let go...this is what she would say to her!
Resolving to finally go out of bed, she froze once again.
"He must be up!" she …thought, what if he felt weird about it, and didn't mean it or thought it was inappropriate and it will ruin everything we have so far!? what would I do? how should I react, should I just accept it and just go with it? Shit, it's heading to 'IT'S COMPLICATED!' so fast at this rate!
They were best friends now, living with someone practically forced it, and true it wasn't a bother, but still! she loved him and cared for those boys so much, but still, it didn't give her the rights to be all handsy and overwhelming.
she wanted to be his friend, but she also wanted to tangle her limbs with his and never let go!
Bucky Barnes is quite a gentleman, a flirty gentleman. But also a giant flirty teddy bear, who hates wearing shirts and sometimes walks about in his -barely hanging there- sweatpants,
just under his happy trail, and It always makes her wonder if he does it on purpose! Still, she is not complaining AT ALL!
See, it's not all my fault, I mean how can I not have those sinful thoughts all day and ...and..he is NOT HELPING MY CASE!'
"Ugh! stop over thinking everything girl! and just go with it!" she said to herself
After mastering the guts to get out of the room, she did what she did best, not giving a monkey's ass about what he may think...for now! and just go through her day naturally
.But it didn't keep her from checking her outfit three times!
Finally out, she was greeted by the legendary duo chatting about something, just caught the tale end of a joke Steve is making.
"Who's gonna be wet?" going with the joke.
"Me, if I didn't have a loving Bucky to remind me about the very nice weather outside!" joked Steve
"I see, what a lucky bastard!." she added "wish we all had one! do you lend him perhaps...i'll be very generous and pay fairly!" she continued with the joke!
Bucky just rolled his eyes, which were mirroring the color of today's weather! a stormy grey, with a set of lightings of their own when he had something in mind!shit shit shitt!
"Just gerra a'ere!"
Moon and Steve were both laughing earnestly, Steve finally headed out after winking at his girl! "see you two later!"
"Say Hi to pepper for me," she added.just before the door closes.
"Good morning Love!" she finally turned to face a suddenly nervous Bucky Barnes! Oh my! this could be fun!
Bucky replied with a sweet sweet smirky curving of his lips, parting to let out a "Morning Doll !" a soft yet raspy morning voice filled with comfortable sleep and hot promises followed by a soft kiss on her cheek, and that! see?! DAT WASN'T FAIR!
Changing that smug and 'yeah; I can make fun of you like Steve does' into a blushing cuteness on Moon's face, Bucky felt pride and complete joy when he confirmed it to himself that, he still got it!.
She ended up blushing all the way to the kitchen and busying herself with coffee
reaching for the kitchen cabinet door and taking the black coffee mug with angry white ninja eyes, and filling it with her morning fuel.
Bucky went back to his seat at the table resuming his breakfast, still giddy about what he just did. joined by Moon after a second, painting her toasts with Nutella, taking her time like painting a canvas.
Looking at her, not bothering to hide his amusement, and watching her browning that bread like an artist! very carefully under the watchful eyes of her angry mug.he noticed she used that specific mug when she stayed home. which meant...
After Steve took off it left them alone in the apparently, Alone, and it was raining, and freezing and so very ALONE!
it wasn't their first time just the two of them, but with last night's events, everything was heightened. and Bucky didn't have anything today, he was planning on staying in,
thinking he had the apartment for himself, he thought about finishing his work from home.
working with a friend had its perks, and since he started working with Natasha, he could do that paperwork wherever he wanted, just as long as he respected the deadlines.
today was a rainy day, and he didn't feel the need nor had the strength to go outside.
and apparently, Moon thought the same!
The realization hit them at the same time, that hateful awkward silence settling in on them like a morning mist over the city.it's was palpable!
trying to avoid that, both of them said the first thing coming to their minds just to break the silence
"It's raining…"
they ended up stating the obvious at the same time.
After a few seconds of acknowledging the situation here, they ended bursting into laughter about how stupid that was.
Trying to ease up her nerves a bit, she reached out to her cup of coffee and drank from it without thinking twice about the scalding temperature of the mug.
"umm.. ugh hot..hot ..ho" she sputtered trying to touch her burning lips!
" shit! are you OK? is it bad? let me see!" he exclaimed! reaching for her face
taking charge already bringing the water glass to her
"drink!" he ordered.
she did, and they locked eyes for a split second stretching out to eternity…which was the first time that morning after the kiss….finally!it was just a kiss! and a cheeky one for that matter! who was avoiding who?
she forgot the burning for a second there, lost in his stormy concerned eyes, and that burning feeling was transported to the nether reagent of her body in un instant.
Ok, now she remembered why she was trying to avoid his gaze!damn you ovaries!!
Avoiding the humiliation of someone reading what your eyes are screaming can only be described as a protection mechanism just like putting on a mask, yet being afraid of making a fool of yourself over little things can give you a huge amount of satisfaction when you forfeit and just plunge in that situation and just accept and work with whichever consequences that may or may not come your way.
in her case, it was like discovering those orbs for the first time, all over again.
those clear and gentle, yet so possessive and caring grey orbs were mirroring outsides weather, with a bit of blue flashing his concern, softening to that baby blue when reassured of no danger after a while.
"..Beautiful!..." she gasped over the cold glass of the water fogging it with her breath at the attempt of subsiding the burnings of her lips!
OH dear god please, I did. not. just .say that out loud!! fucking kill me already!
" what?..."
she blushed even more! not losing the way his eyes kept traveling between her lips, flat against the transparent surface between her fingers, and her eyes.
He remembered the time when Steve used to do that, flattening his mouth on window glass waiting for him to come out and play, all childish and idiotic,making faces to him leaving his often cut lips prints on the window which wins him a scolding from Bucky's mom and a lecture form bucky about microbes and germs and health issues while disinfecting the cut all over again!
without knowing it, he found his thumb venturing to her lips caressing the pain away…
"Hi" he whispered, hand still on her face, thumb venturing to the side
"..h.Hi"she replied with the same adoration in her voice.
it was stupid to be nervous, not with him… It's bucky, why was she all stressed out about it!
"are you Ok Moon?" he insisted!
"am fine!" she cleared her throat "thanks, Buck! it's nothing...you know I'm clumsy!t" she added averting her eyes hiding her blush with a poor attempt of gathering her hair up in a messy bun. just to do something.
Accepting her answer and going back to their breakfast, Moon switch the glass by her mug once again, this time taking her time and letting it cool between her fingers, then bringing it to her lips once more.
"so , slept well last night?" she asked genuinely curious, took a sip of her coffee and waited
"Yeah, actually…"he cleared his throat and continued "surprisingly well" smiling and looking back at her smoothing an obedient hair already in place from his temple, a sign of nervousness….she noticed
"am sorry ..I didn't mean to sleep on you like that" he started and was he blushing?OMG
'he really didn't know how to approach this subject tooo then!' she took another sip of her coffee, enjoying the warmth of it.
"it's just, I wasn't sleeping well lately, ...as you know it already…." he trailed off looked at her with a tired smile on his face.
true, he wasn't having any shut-eye lately...she knew that better the anyone, having her room so close to Bucky's, she didn't miss every time he woke up screaming and Steve end up in his room.
they didn't talk about it, everyone knew what to do, and no one needed the reminder.
Bucky had his night terrors, Steve took care of Buck, and Moon wished every night she could do something for him...anything.
so like a silent agreement, No one spoke of it.
"am…" he started and she cut him off
"if you're gonna apologize for finally sleeping, I Will kill you!" she dared a determined look on her features and an accusing index finger to go with it!
with a smart reaction from his part, he just settled back on his chair and huffed a silent smile. human hand grabbing that accusing finger attached to that amazing girl and just …
" I will not then…" with a light squeeze of his hand.she smiled, approvingly.
He remembered the soldier .from steve's words, his mirror image in this girl's mind.
no pity or disgust, not even weakness.just pure power and admiration and unadulterated care