After breakfast was finished, Bucky resumed his morning work out in the living room, which was the spacious place in the flat. before starting on papers and dossiers Natasha needed.
they came up with an arrangement, she would do the dirty work for now, and Bucky can work from where he wanted, help with the paperwork. At least until he gets better and start using his deadly skills for something more than printing profiles and finding dirt on social media,.'Red Room Investigations' was doing just fine.
I could see him from the bedroom's open door, all sweaty and shiny and metallic, with wet hair and all the grunt and exertion sounds that came from a red-blooded -full grown man -working out!
and 'OH MY SWEET GOD WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK!? Thank you to whoever is doing this to me, I will make sure to sacrifice a sheep or something at your alter!'
He always trained, always, not missing a single day. sometimes working out twice when his night was pretty rough, he ended up exerting himself without thinking twice about his steve confronted him about it, worried, he said it helped with taking his mind off things, so no one said anything.
And let's be honest here! his fucking body would get a blind person horny!
having this show every day, twice a day on occasions really keeps more than the doctor away.
sometimes even sleep!
how many nights have I struggled to fall asleep because of Bucky working out! Or walking shirtless and doing something extremely cute like; trying to get a rebel strand of hair off his face while gathering his hair up in a bun. Muscles bulging with every move, blowing at it from the corner of his lips and looking gorgeous with the bluest cross eyes I've ever seen. Or when he would look for the remote control turning and bending over the couch and table, like a puppy trying to catch its tail. Even when he would look at Me straight in the eyes when he catches me staring at him bending into a complicated yoga pose and killing me with the brightest -knowing- smile he had in his arsenal.
with a sigh, fighting the memories of these past months, and my constant war with myself and my urges to just grab the fucker and kiss the nightmare out of him.
'Ghod! I wanted him so bad', with a sad frown on her face, Moon averted her eyes and turned back to her tablet...wake up little girl!he's out of your league.
Moon put some music on to help with her work and maybe trying to overpower the porn sounds coming from the living room every once in a while. A minute later, classic rock filling the room humming along with the ageless music, she went back to her work finishing the panel before starting a new one. Singing along the song...
'Where have all the good men gone
and where are all the gods?
Ha! that's a very good question!
Where's the streetwise Hercules to fight the rising odds?
Isn't there a white knight upon a fiery steed?'
'Not a white knight, but a dark prince just an around the corner of the room would be perfect, pretty please!'
'Late at night I toss and I turn
and I dream of what I need.'
"UGH!" she groaned 'GhhOd! I knoww, let me forget about that for a bit please!'
From the living room, Bucky could hear the new addition to the silence smoothed by the rain, was now replaced by Bonnie tyler's grungy vibrato,the song actually was a welcomed addition, with it's fast and jumpy music, perfect for workout!and the subtle voice or frustration grunts of Moon accompanying her .
'I need a hero. I'm holding out for a hero 'til the end of the night.'
he smiled, she was now singing in her full voice! 'was that a battle cry?'he heard a grungy "ughrr" coming from her room.
'He's gotta be strong
and he's gotta be fast
And he's gotta be fresh from the fight.'
'I'm here baby girl!' he thought to himself, and doing a pushup number what now?
'I need a hero. I'm holding out for a hero 'til the morning light.
He's gotta be sure
and it's gotta be soon
And he's gotta be larger than life!
larger than life.'
the music did help actually, he never thought about using speakers and not earphones when he worked out with be able to fill the room with something other than loneliness and just frustration of finishing a task at hand, and just enjoying the moment even if it was just working your body till it shuts down.
he enjoyed working out, but are some days where it was just a means to an end. the end being him finally sleeping. but sometimes it's was actually fun, the days like this one, where he could play with Moon's mood and see her every reaction and every blushing moment his working out brought to life.
Somewhere after midnight
in my wildest fantasy
Somewhere just beyond my reach
there's someone reaching back for me.
"Ghod I know, shut up!" he heard the frustrated words coming from her room again, was she talking to someone?"
Racing on the thunder and rising with the heat
It's gonna take a superman to sweep me off my feet.
"why did I put this song again?" came the question for no one apparently
this made him laugh openly this time, she was talking to herself!who does that? still, he found it endearing...
no, not to was at the song, well the lyrics. Ok, so she needs a hero to sweep her off her feet is that it? duly noted! Bucky had a wicked flash in his icy eyes and a shit-eating smirk on his lips!
Moments passed, the music helps a little with the concentration and took her mind off of herself in her work accompanied only by the smooth guitar solo and Axel's voice now, with rain in the background, making it self-noticeable with every breaking thunder.
When the song ended and Nirvana's 'smells like teen spirit' started, just after the baseline Bucky urged her from the living room
"Turn it up! " he shouted.
She smiled, doing exactly that...
Then, a distanced duet was held after a second.
Load up on guns, bring your friends
It's fun to lose and to pretend
She's over-bored and self-assured
Moon started singing like she always did, and now Bucky's voice came from the living room as passionately as hers was.
"Damn !,I love this song." he babbled just when Moon voiced
Oh no, I know a dirty word
" Haha! Sorry" he ended up laughing
Hello, hello, hello, how low
Hello, hello, hello, how low
A metallic cling of weights being put down chimed in the living room, and the next second a breathless Bucky peeking at her door all sweaty and gorgeous, singing with the crowd dutifully.
She looked at him questioningly amused, he didn't miss a note and just like that, he turned the chair she was on facing him reaching for her hand and just pulling her up to dance with and a bit confused, she just couldn't stop blushing….fuck! he started jumping all over with the shittiest eating grin on his face.this. see! gave her courage and just when for it!not even calling it dancing, it was more of an uncoordinated body movement if not something else.
With the lights out, it's less dangerous
Here we are now, entertain us
A confused and an unexpected laugh came out of her when he smiled that mischievous smile with an equally playful eyebrow jumps. limbs twisting and head going up and his hair even more.
I feel stupid and contagious
Here we are now, entertain us
He wiggled his eyebrows at the word contagious making her laugh again.
He sure was contagious, and happy, so cute and HOT! OhGodd! he was !especially right now with his free spirit and childish smile and gleaming eyes singing like there's no tomorrow.
A mulatto, an albino, a mosquito, my libido
Oh dear god! she blushed, just don't think about the state of my libido right now.he was looking at her
laughing and fooling around, then in a split second,d something changed within him.
the second verse started and bucky slowed his movement,the unchoreographed mess slowing down to a quiet swaying and stuttered breathing from all that gesticulation, than the change in the atmosphere was palpable , he continued singing along the song but this time he looked like his age pounding like they run a marathon.
I'm worse at what I do best
And a serious yet gentle expression morphed his features.
And for this gift, I feel blessed
With a feather like a caress over her arm, starting from her forearm where he was holding her, going up to her shoulders, not missing a beat of what he meant by that.
Our little group, has always been
And always will, until the end
Moon went silent, mesmerised by this creature looking at her. A gentle squeeze of a right hand on a skinny shoulder, followed by a smoothing of hair behind her ear with the metallic one, always voicing what he felt with a surprisingly good voice.
Sometimes you can sing songs over and over, blasting to the music without really understanding or really grasping the meaning of the lyrics until you end up living those words. and suddenly, the whole picture comes to life and everything clicks, giving a whole new appreciation and love to the song. and it wasn't even a cheesy love song. or it can embarrass the shit out of you like the previous song did to her!
She closed her eyes at that, she understood what he meant, this song surprisingly said enough.
enough about their little family. 'our little groupe', always will be... as imperfect as it may be,
They had each other.
and that, until the end.
Bucky thought about her as a family, and even without doing nothing, really! help him get over his mess, but they are here for him. which was enough.
Even with a song clamoring in the background ,an unshed tear pooled in her eyes, she couldn't hold back at it to her pulsions, she lifter her arms and held him. resting her head against his chest, forehead to his him with the best way she knew.
And I forget just why I taste
Oh yeah, I guess it makes me smile
He was so tall compared to her, after a second of acknowledging what she did, Bucky just smiled and lowered his chin on her head, smiling even wilder after noticing how she fit his body perfectly. relieved she understood what he wanted to say...
I found it hard, it's hard to find
Oh well, whatever, nevermind
And just like that, either one of them minded right now...just enjoying the closeness for a while.
her fingers at the base of his neck, and his armes locked on her...no one saying anything fearing it to end.
I feel stupid and contagious
They felt stupid, stupid not doing this sooner. for the first time in a while exactly like yesterday, Bucky stopped thinking about what's right and he should and shouldn't do. take a break for at least these few seconds and just stop his mind.
Here we are now, entertain us
A mulatto, an albino, a mosquito, my libido
A denial, a denial, a denial, a denial, a denial
If anyone of them was thinking right now, they would notice that this is their first time hugging, without having Bucky's nightmares making them do anything. even though either one of them would say it outloud...
No perfect word could describe them at the moment than this one….A denial, a denial, a denial, a denial.
No one even thought about moving...denying what they may think or feel about the person in their arms right now. fearing the heartbreak or was it rejection!?
If any one of them was thinking right now, A new song filled the room and only a higher power could be the instigator. 'cause the song starting, having the music list on shuffle was like giving the steering wheel to lady luck. the first notes of the song didn't go unnoticed by Moon, but it was too late to do anything about it,
I lose control because of you babe
Oh god!
I lose control when you look at me like this
'Calm down ! it's just a song', she blushed even more when Bucky choose that moment to look her in the eyes. with so many things in them.
There's something in your eyes that is saying tonight
A quick glance to the right, more of nervousness and not knowing where to look then something else…
A silent réassurance or a silent question?! neither one of them was sure.
I'm not a child anymore, life has opened the door
To a new exciting life
Bucky could not have chosen a better song for what he was feeling right now.
and once again, the lyrics playing with their feelings, skyrocketing their heartbeat, taking them on the scariest rollercoaster of their life. excitement and adrenaline taking them both by surprise. Which helped bucky to finally take the lead. Funny how it's a scorpion song nonetheless.
he smiled at the thought..and just going with it.
"Dance with me" he whispered , asking , pleading now, even though they were, she was already between his arms.